I am a woman
*sees the reflection of my masculine guy's body that looks like Hercules and Adonis' love baby*
We're all destined for death, most of us by our own hand. I feel sympathy for you, OP, because I too will always feel incomplete and disgusting on a visceral and fundamental level.
SPOILERS: Your mom wants to FUCK you.
Seriously though, I hate when cis normies say that. The body was ruined to begin with by our birth sex's puberty. We should never have ended up looking like that to begin with.
>You have a beautiful male figure you're gonna ruin with hormones
Fuck you mom I don't want a male figure
>take hormones at 12
If I could only redo my life...
Ask them if they wouldn't rather transition if they had your body. Unless they're FtM, there's no way they would not tell you they would or that they understand you. I am at least glad I have not heard this comment from my parents.
Me too, senpai. I was so fearful of telling my parents as a child for no reason. They're conservative as hell, but not violent or histrionic. I didn't realize that, so I kept this and everything else bottled up. They might have relented had I consistently said what I felt then from that young age. Now I'm stuck like this.
>Ask them if they wouldn't rather transition if they had your body
My mom and I had that discussion. She was arguing that I should be willing to trade my 20 year old body for her 50 year old one, and that she would much rather be a 20 year old male.
>tfw i almost came out when I was 12
thinking about it just fucks me up, maybe one day ill get past what could of been.
There's not much to tell, one day I went downstairs and I wanted to explain to tell my mother i wanted to be a girl. Basically i sat on the couch told my mom I had something to say to her. I couldn't talk, like I was frozen with fear or something. I think i cried a little there but said "nevermind" and went back upstairs. As a kid I wasn't really brave.
Anyway, I think back on that day a lot, really sucks. At least I came out proper when I was 19, could be worse ages to come out but damn do I curse myself for my actions that day.
Sounds like she's just mad she's a spineless victim of her sexist society that didn't have the adventurous spirit to tell everyone and their expectations to fuck off.
Disregard all advice.
>As a kid I wasn't really brave
I wouldn't say that about myself either, then or now, really. The closest I ever came to saying it outright to anyone instead of giving roundabout hints before I came out at 20 was probably 6-8.
I wanted to be a girl, and I actually thought my mom was actually MtF herself (since I didn't know about reproduction and all that) so I wanted to ask her how I could do the same. We were both on the bed, and I may have been lying in her lap or sitting next to her. But I felt on some level that that was incorrect and that she would be offended if I asked. I remember really hesitating about it. I don't know what I said, but I never asked.
I wish that I had said something earlier, but maybe not at that point.
I know these feels fucking hell. The worst part is I actually told them and their response was "Oh you mean you're gay?"
I just panicked and backed out, said it was just a phase and I was fine. This is the true feeling of regret.
Shit, senpai. At least you got the words out even if you backed out. I'm >>5607836 and >>5606267.
In my mind, I kind of alleviated the anxiety of not coming out and transitioning earlier by a bit when I realized that actually I wasn't quite as helpless then as I thought I was then, or that I did have some agency in selecting the life I would live. That I at least had the forks of choices before me, and that I wasn't doomed to this from the start. I should have been able to make up the difference between ideal circumstances and the ones I was living. I'm not religious much anymore, but if there is a God, then I wouldn't be so mad at him because I did get lots of hints and some chances. This isn't the life I would have picked if I knew then what I know now, but I had choices and chances. So in a way, I don't really feel I deserved to transition early.
But I always feel bad for those who actually said something when they were young but who got pushed back in the closet , like Kayla. In my mind, they really did deserve to transition early. It makes me really salty and pisses me off for some reason.
I always wonder whether the people who say these kind of things are only doing so because they don't understand gender dysphoria and the way it would affect them if they had the body of the opposite sex, or whether they genuinely wouldn't be bothered by being the opposite sex. It's not like it can be tested for that person in particular, or really at all.