I miss moot edition ;~;
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>mfw sweet pookie is more evil then ex drug addict elanna
>tfw feeling sick and have no bf to take care of me
>will never have a bf to stich my scars while I'm whimpering and shush me and kiss them after
>will never have a bf who'll encourage me to eat and to defeat anorexia
>will never have a bf who'll cuddle with me under the matress and warm me up with his body
>ex drug addict
I literally just posted that I'm having a hard time staying sober ;___;
I'm sure you'll figure something out that won't harm you
Listen to kisou, its good. If you like it listen to vulgar and macabre. Listen to withering to death and if you like that try marrow, uroboros and dum spiro spero.
Idk why you're crazy about me tho. Is it a physical thing?
i wish i had real internet to download this stuff. a whatcd acc would help too because autism but i can dream.
its like 60-40 physical if i have to be honest. you're a qt and its really hard to not think impure things id want to do with you. cuddles is a dream come true. i just hope you even let me in the door. i dont even see how i appeal to you at all as a friend. my personality isnt exactly notable.
>tfw just want to flip a coin to decide if I should do IC or just keep seeing the school counselor, then see a real gender therapist and get hormones
I'm tired of all of the fucking debating in my head, I just want to make a decision
N-Not a gf Ricky? I look like a boy anyway so I can try to be a bf for you ;~;
> school therapist
School therapists ate actually pretty good
> Tfw bullied so hard I was pretty much forced to see school therapist once a week in high school
> Tfw fucking psychic therapist knew exactly where my self harm spots were without me telling them.
I've been trying to for a very very long time. Part of me probably doesn't even want to get better, the only reason I even stopped taking speed was because my ex was going to leave me.
You have gender dysphoria pham. I do too.
The mix of that would probably result in catastrophe.
I've been addicted to and had to quit so many kinds of crap over the years that withdrawal syndrome has become part of my "normal" state. My main concern about SRS is that I'll probably get hooked on morphine again, really... Well, that and having to dilate afterwards. Yuck.
there's so much to do though
if it wasn't for passing and work,
I'd love to go do stuff like music, athletics, hobbies
and remember, you're not a dumb kid anymore
My counselor has been really helpful tbqh, he's the LGBT specialist for the counseling center. I've started to become more comfortable expressing myself how I want thanks to him. I'm just stuck in this awkward stage where I'm all but sure I'm trans, but idk how long I should keep meeting with him before I go see someone who can write me a prescription for HRT after however many visits it takes. But then some days I wanna get it over with and just get the hormones right now so I don't waste anymore time. I can never make up my mind.
anyone else look at their facial profile and question why even go on
> I'm all but sure I'm trans
>but idk how long I should keep meeting with him before I go see someone who can write me a prescription for HRT after however many visits it takes
You're literally just making things worse for yourself by waiting when you know what you want
Ok so I'm watching steins;gate. From now on i have a prediction: there will be a trans character in every show i decide to watch, even if i don't know theres a trans character. Because that exact thing has happened to to me with anime more than it hasnt.
I have a what and can invite you.
I think you're funny. And i guess i have a thing for people who have a thing for me.
Well I mean I still think you're super cute so why not? ;~;
>tfw no repressed or dysphoric gf
anime is cancer regardless. i'd rather marathon tv shows like house but i guess id run out of tv eventtually. i would appreciate the what invite but i wouldnt even be uploading/downloading anything so it's literally a waste.
you really shouldn't say you have a 'thing' for me, even if i know what you really mean, my frail heart can't take it.
Lately I've lost interest in those things again though. I dunno if it's the seasons, a quarterlife crisis or what, but I've been depressed on and off for the past year. I may not be as dumb as I was then, but I still crave the same poison and same stupid escapism that I always have. I'm a weak person, and I'm never going to get better.
Luckily, SRS patients don't get morphine, although I'm not sure oxy is exactly any better for getting hooked. Withdrawal is the worst though.
hnngh. hold me. im melting. sorry i just have awful self-confidence.
>so why not? ;~;
Because I have an abundance of issues? I have severe emotional breakdowns that I don't know how to recover from. A relationshiop with me would be a bad rollercoaster ride, you'd puke during and right after it's over.
Besides you don't know me very well. If you're not willing to be friends with me in the first place what am I supposed to do? ERP? I mean don't take it the wrong way, I like you even though I don't really know you. I just don't know how to deal with this.
I seriously have no idea. Things are bad.
Life is one unfortunate event after the other.
I'm pretty certain Chett uses it and he'll be removing my cancerous growth in about three months. I'm still feeling like shit from quitting nicotine cold, and I'll have to quit benzos before going to Thailand...
> TFW FINALLY GONNA HAVE HEALTH INSURANCE AGAIN
> TFW GONNA GET BACK ON INJECTIONS AND PROGESTERONE
> TFW PROBABLY GONNA GET A HIGHER DOSAGE AND 10 DAY INJECTION PERIOD
IM FINALLY GONNA GROW TITTIES AGAIN I AM SO HYPE.
+ ten evenings every month
200mg susten (progesterone)
I'm also on efexor 75mg (anti depressant) and take a multivitamin
It's true, I can admit as much. It's more because of me though. We're not sexually compatible and I always lust over other people, specifically boys. I started this relationship preHRT and I feel so much regret because my feelings eventually changed but hers didn't. There's no way to pull out without hurthing her and pushing her away from me so I'm gonna suffer in an unhappy relationship for the rest of my life instead.
I wish she was just my best friend.
Theres nothing to know about me. You're right. Though I do want to be friends with you I don't think I'll ever push to go any further with you anytime soon for a number of reasons. Too many issues and bad memories for myself.
I'll stop (You)ing you so much ;~;
Oh wow you've been dating her since preHRT?
Sucks the situation you're in. I was in a pretty similar one with a girl who was repressed ftm. After two years and a couple failed suicides later I ended it with her. We were so incompatible and I really wanted to find a qt boy, was also jealous she was born a girl lol.
It sucks but if you want to eventually find a partner that matches you you should end it imo
If you ever change your mind you have my steam. I'd still love to be your friend and get to know you better.
It's okay if you don't want to though. I understand :c
I don't think they are just being nice.
I'd honestly rather die than hurt her so I don't see it happening pookie. I dug this hole for myself so I'm going to man up and accept the consequences of my actions.
I'm already suffering one way or another, what's one more reason gonna do?
>tfw talking to big dicked boy about fucking and plan when we will next week
>tfw he says he wants to record it and be kinky af and wants me to take selfies with his giant dick in my mouth
>tfw came buckets sexting and talking about how we've fucked in the past
life is good
see ok, mystery dick in theory could have been good, but like does it rly matter if mystery dick is big if i'm not really that attracted to him? like sex is more than just a dick, u need everything for it to be perfect. with this other dick i get to be lewd and have great sex and orgasms for sure
ty bb. i used to have a lot more images in general but i deleted essentially my entire hard-drive when i was a depressed retard, except ones i have fond memories of. that's why they all have filenames for the most part.
>oddish will never do all the weird things that pop into your head without context.
i think i just like picturing you and i together in scenarios honestly.
Depending on how bad it is there's a few different drugs and rogaine that can help. Also wigs if it's really, really bad.
It's a super shitty thing though and I know your pain, I hope you're able to do something for it.
you're probably going to laugh at me so i'll just close my eyes, that'll show you. for the fucking record don't blame me for these thoughts, i don't know why they're in my head.
>you will never get home from the beach and have oddish surprise you with a shirt while you're trying to dry off.
>she will never undress you and help you put it on
>she will never help you dry your hair after noticing how hopeless you are
>she will never notice your clumsiness and embarassment and kiss you on the cheek to further humiliate you
>she will never mischievously tease you and call you over to the couch for cuddles
>she will never just cuddle you and watch movies with you and pretend it didn't happen while you sit there with your heart pounding for no fucking reason.
>she will never let you rest your head on her lap like a pillow
>she will never call you a faggot before you go to sleep.
or will she, who knows.
that was probably the most autistic thing i have ever typed in my entire fucking life. can i go kill myself now? all i really want is movies.
sweet dreams. please wake up eventually.
Just lots of cutting, guro, and the usual Kayla posting
hhehehhhh. i think i might actually die of embarassment right now. i wish fatigue was as a valid excuse for saying questionable things. smother me.
you can't just ask me to recall memes in a pile of shit and expect me to pull out pure gold. that was the most eventful thing to happen regardless of whether it has happened before.
i wish i was this sexy and had a time traveling heretic crusader bf
Ok so i watched a shitload of steins;gate and it like really fucking depressed me. No movie or show I've ever seen has dealt with the horrors of time travel so well in my opinion
>open email from okc
>hello "girlname" you have 220 unread messages
>it's mostly hot dudes
>suddenly feel horny
>remember I have a gf
you should tb-h
especially if you're single
I'd be out getting dick rn if I was
>go to gameshop
>guy wants to play xwing
>ask if he'll teach me
>says his gf is texting
>"she's worried I'm going to get hit on"
>"I'll tell her there are no girls here"
>tell him "I'm trans"
>"does that count?" He asks
it's big and shapely for a man ass. got them ass dimples though so i'm hoping after being on hrt for long enough that'll plump out.
i think it has a lot of potential. my thighs are pretty built as well, but again i need more girlfat to smoothe over the manly muscle shape.
the only thing in that area i don't have potential in is the width of my hips. the size profile will always be more flattering than head-on, although i'm planning on waist training to give the illusion of hips.
so yeah i think i have potential.
>As long as you are not way shorter than me.
this is why i know i cant live as a man and if i dont pass im going to off myself :X
Do you say your trans in your profile? Even my ugly cis friends get a ton of messages
how bad are the scars? i have hip stretch marks from rapid weightloss but they're barely visible compared to my keloid cuts. if there's any reddening, i heard you can get them lasered to remove some of the discolouration. if they're inflamed, steroidal injections.if they're just flat, skin-tone stretch marks seriously don't worry, it's a really common thing.
fuck off you sad cunt i'll smash your head in
there is absolutely no reference to be being trans.
i get messages here and there, maybe 1 a week, but usually from ugly guys
i live a half hour from a major city
so maybe i should change my location.
okay, i'm gonna try it!
thanks for the tip riccky
too bad you're so far away, I'd date you t-b-h~~
i mention it in my profile but not as my gender so it's more of a chaser filter. probably makes more boys go "barf no thanks" when they see it in my profile but i'd rather that than have the chaser swarm tbdesu
>Am turning into a neckbeard
O-okay, I guess I woun't be a girl then.
ricky you're being such a faggot recently. whyd you start posting here so much again? why cant you just accept the fact that you look like a pretty girl and fuck off or just detrans already
if they were super hot, sure
but most aren't
there was no erp, i made plans to move, we talked alot.....it was a fantasy
the dude is beta anyway, so i probably dodged a bullet anyway
i dont think i sent any butt pics.
its been a while, I can't remember now. I sent more face and boobs
I won't be able to move ever ;~;
Yeah you're right.
>whyd you start posting here so much again?
Because this is my only social outlet?
>you look like a pretty girl
ATTENTION!! hugboxing ATTENTION!!
>or just detrans already
I'd honestly rather die
I'm legit going to kill myself if I ever am forced to stop hormones
so better start praying I end up a poor unfortunate hobo so that can happen
I'm flat ass broke bb.
Forever living with mom and dad ;c
I fucking hate this attitude of all compliments are hugboxxing because you all have fucking mental issues and even though you put your bodies through all this shit you still arent happy with the finish product. i dont know why anyone would decide to start hrt if they ever came here first because its full of reasons to not do it and very few for it
K E K
>interacting with real human beans
Oh oh! Something doesn't add up.
it's a bad feel.
I'd only ever be happy as a cis girl. Sorry to ruin your expectations pham.
Well that's really hostile. You do realise I don't get gendered correctly irl right? I have a bunch of masc features, don't take everything I post on 4chan for real.
ive been a neet for 5 years
fucking kill me please someone
ive tried killing myself twice but i always get found and end up hurting my family
I wouldnt mind all the people who pass extremely well who complain here if it wasnt obvious that they would just throw any person they became "friends" with here away with ease or a second thought
So when is Science going to give us proper futas? I'm not dating any of you wacky cunts until all the crazy is worth it for getting to jack off a girl while pumping her full of babies.
I have decided to cut my hair short so I don't look like an icky faggot anymore.
I want to be a girl but I dont want this life. I have a lot of thinking to do after reading a lot of this tonight. Whats the point of even trying if the only ones who are happy are the ones who were born with the luck of genetics or money. Would be much easier to just live as a guy even if its a fem one.
Timezones aint free. The sands of time gotta be litterd with the greenwich mean time. Ugly hon aka “lalalily” is not my head bitch in charge. he is transbian traitor and probbaly HIV as well :DD. .praise suporn
>ugly squeaky fag voice
>massive caveman forehead
>big ugly nose
>wide shoulders (measured them, they are 5 inches wider than hips)
>flat mannish butt
>clownfeet and big manhands
I was doomed from the get go
you have to look fem already before starting hrt because this is literally everything you are going to get out of hormones, just some skin smoothening and thats all
No that's grotesque. We are way beyond the usual definitions in that case and are entering bat country.
>tfw people laughing at you because you probably look like a man trying to pass but failing
i really need a haircut bad
But there can't be said anything good about it, I am sorry for failing you. ;~; It's a big oval butt with those masculine butt dimples and it will never resemble a woman's butt
gaygen would probably give it a 10/10 (it actually did ;~;)
Every mtf has her shortcomings
Lalalilly has her bug-eyes
Dollface has her burrito shaped body
Elanna has her needle marks
Jocelyn has her 35 body mass index
Madison has her... well, there's nothing wrong with that pure maiden
Just google man ass it looks like one of these, pham
(mine is like a combination of 1st, 5th and 6th tbhon)
heres to another night of wishing i dont wake up
at least today was slightly better than the last
i have done in the past but i'm currently being a lazy fuck. need to get back on those squats and hypers tbhon. i do a hell of a lot of walking though, and the rest is just lucky genetics.
yes, since when did I become a senpai?
Oh calm down. It's affectionate level teasing. I don't actually care.
Pls be a good senpai and teach me how to be a qt Tomoko girl
the truth is the truth, me saying their hips are unfortunate isn't me backpedaling on all of the times i've said my own hips are unfortunate.
remember i live on the other side of the pond lol, i haven't heard of any oncoming flurry heading our way. but i'll go grocery shopping anyway :)
I wouldn't know because the only thing I have in common with her is social anxiety and being really really catty. everything else I'm like the exact opposite.
i guess there's only one thing for it then. eat lots of eggs and do squats, deadlifts, hypers, glute ham raises, go hiking, power walk, anything to build it up.
and it's not like hrt stops having any effect after the first year. it's a gradual process.
I know I will not but you still baited me into posting my manbutt so why are you surprised? Why are you telling me something I already know? I am living as a man and always will be.
Of course there's more to it. Once you nail the appearance, it's just the matter of getting into the right mindset.
I have a sword.
I have a quickening.
House of congress.
Epic Immortal battle during the blizzard.
>Not having earned your immortality during rome.
>Having to reincarnate 5 times to get to this point.
>Not having lived during the dark ages.
Why even try?
so basically if you don't pass you should move to the UK right? the women there mostly look like late transitioners even if they're cis
pic related is a cis woman and a disability law expert from the UK, if she can get gendered correctly with that jaw and midface then even I can and I'm pretty much the world's biggest hon, maybe I can actually live as a girl there
transitioned at 15, has a cis passable body and face but she always posts like "lol jk haha i am a hon ^ __ ^"
I can't stand that abut her either
i've confronted her on it too and it doesnt even register in her mind
Sounds like somebody is jealous that they didn't sell their soul for immortality.