>mfw I'm very fucked up on xanax
>finally get some courage
>come out to my friends as bi
>they all say they knew for years
I don't know why I was so disappointed... I just felt like I was really taking a step and the only person who gave a shit was my mom.
even then she just gave me the "it's ok honey" why do I want to be hated?
Why not tell them? are they that straight? is there no chance?
>why do I want to be hated?
that would give you some kind of meaning or value.
All of our movies start with the underdog who everyone hates but really turns out to be better than everyone else. Even our foundational texts like the Bible are all about the underdogs who everyone hates actually turning out to be right.
Maybe you also hate yourself and you want and external force to hate you just for the ability to reject that internal hate.
Maybe you're just an attention seeking fag.
Yeah, no it's the last one.
Midwest so it's a bit similar. Still though if you don't have a bf then don't announce it because it doesn't matter and will only get you in trouble. There's no reason to do it unless you're actively looking for trouble.
My family doesn't believe in anything besides gay and straight. I have been told to my face by my grandmother that if I were gay then she and my family would not be able to die in peace because she and they know I would be going to hell.
I know a lot of people think that it is a phase or that we don't exist but hey here we are living proof otherwise. My gay bestfriend is totally accepting of me so not all gay guys think that way either.
I'm the OP of this thread and I want to reply to all of you, because this is truly the most constructive thing I've done since coming out (whether or not you think I had a legitimate reason to do so)
I'm sitting here alone gagging back alcohol because I can't deal with the fact that none of the people I have considered my closest friends for years have approached the subject with me. And I want to thank you for being here on this anonymous board giving me encouragement (and ridicule) for being who I really am.
I'm not trying to be an attention seeking faggot - and maybe I am - but the reassurance I've received here has been very meaningful to me. At least someone out there is acknowledging my predicament.
I love you
I'm afraid you have to go
Whenever I think about coming out, I always come to the conclusion that its retarded to stop anyone from what they are doing just to mention I like dick. Its so silly unless you're about to bring a bf/gf home or something.