Mtfg: Another JoJo Edition
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Previous thread >>5588279
Yeah. I don't necessarily like the ones that get super graphic, but I will admit, there is something weirdly appealing about the idea of someone lovingly beating me and cutting me. Here's to being a freak.
She was cute, we were tipsy. She would quietly say some inappropriately real responses to the otherwise light playful flirting. There was a sort of time limit on our time together and I knew I'd never be able to address things the same way if I just left so I had to make some sort of move.
I know how that is. You're probably great though don't sell yourself short
>>implying i'm playing the role properly, if at all
>i'm terrible at larp
Just meta-game it, this is clearly a Monty Hall campaign anyways.
I've never understood people fetishizing cutting or cuts
but I guess you could say that about any fetish?
i mean without context, it'd just be fucking weird. so probably not since you'd probably find it more uncomfortable than anything. i would rather just swap saliva with you if you catch my drift bb.
real talk kissing aint my strong point. i'll just cuddle and shut up.
I'd imagine that there's programming work to be had with LEGO, what with their robot products and such. I don't know if robotics and embedded systems are the kind of programming you're interested in, though.
I feel that all transition has done is made me a cute boy with a cup boobs. i'm taking 100mg of cypro a day and my dick won't die. i'm too tall to be a girl, and my hair is in the in between stage of length so its like a weird looking bob.
i'm full time and no-one looks at me in weird, disapproving, or 'check out the freak' sorta ways, i don't know if i pass or not, i don't think i do, but because i'm not a hon, i don't draw obvious attention. i carry myself well and don't freak out or look nervous. i dress nicely and not overly fem. it seems if you're attractive and feminine you can get away with doing anything. women and men check me out. it's a weird feel. it isn't necessarily a bad feel. it plays on my mind though. what do i do?
I don't like loud music, crowds or drinking, so it'd have to be a rather unusual kind of nightclub for me to be interested.
>i have a future in programming ahead of me
but why? why why why does every mtf go into programming?
I want to try my luck at this place but I need someone to go with so I don't get raped in the parking lot. Its a trans themed club and restaurant and they have a "trannies drink free" night
I used to be a regular at the local afterhours. Pic absolutely related, had way too many pills in my time.
I guess both. They have a drag night but I just want to try a week night and see if i can score some cock. I should just get plain water and act wasted if a guy talks to me so I can get some quick dick, plus the thought of a guy thinking I am drunk so he can take advantage of me is hot
Actually no, it won't, I won't even get to the part.
No one wants me around to be honest, I'm repulsive.
I really don't know, it is kind of weird isn't it. Maybe I should have stayed a geologist (although even then my work was just running computer simulations, so it really wasn't a big shift; I was never much of an outdoors person so I didn't really gravitate towards anything that required fieldwork).
that face pic is now 3 years old and at the height of my repression
here have a recent one on the house
well i want to look more like a girl. i don't trust my trans friends saying i pass. everyone genders me correctly, my voice passes on the phone, its sorta neutral and light and airy in person. shop assistants don't gender me so i'm obviously just too androgynous to risk being offended.
my mother constantly says i need to change my hair because it'll make elderly relatives i don't even see gender me correctly because my hair is too similar to before i came out to them (which was a month ago and i've been transitioning for 4 months so go fucking figure).t i want longer hair, i used to have it but shaved it off a year ago in a repressive fit. you can't style it well while growing it. honestly, she just sorta wants to play dressup/hair sylist with me as a living doll. its creepy as fuck.
i need to get better at makeup but i hate wearing lipstick. i think most people assume i'm either mtf, a femboy, a soft butch dyke or ftm because i'm so damn ambiguous, either way i'm some kind of gender role bending fag... and i just want to be a normal girl. its a mixture of frustrating and upsetting
My only interactions with people are one guy who talks to me during one of my lectures (never talk to him outside of lecture) and the occasional text conversation from my one good friend from HS. I guess I'm just really inept at socializing. None of this other stuff helps it
I do though, or at least I used to
I only stopped cutting myself more than half a year ago
it felt good sometimes but it never gave me pleasure like that
>you're kind of right
Thanks for realizing it. You are so lucky, I don't even know why you hang out here since you are basically a cis girl. Go and live your life and don't get sucked into this thread, its an addiction.
No, because if people still think of you as a man what was it all for?
>texting guy friend about shitty weather
>mention tfw no bf to watch a fire with
>he laughs and says he cuddled with his gf last night and how great it was
pls kill me why are boys so mean
We need to invest in NASA, we've tried all the best drugs on Earth, now we need to meet aliens who deal space drugs.
Earth drugs are perfectly acceptable with a big enough sound system.
For me at least, I'm happy that at least I'm no longer getting any more masculine. It's nowhere near ideal, but I'd rather fail and end up an androgynous boy-with-boobs thing than not try and continue to be the way I had been before.
>tfw you send lewd pictures to your gf and she ignores you
>gt and nuts all sweaty and smells strange, like sugared salmon
what the literal fuck, its not even hot and I am only in panties and a cami so I am not sweating
>tfw you will never do space drugs with gem, elanna and kuppy
true but desu i felt like i've progressed so fast... i wasn't gonna go fulltime until at least a year, i wasn't gonna date for 18 months and i wouldn't afford rhinoplasty for a year, but i pulled fulltime at 2 months, a secure, long term relationship at 2 months and miscalculated the price for the rhinoplasty and got it at 4 months. can't i just be a girl already?
I bathe every day, and yeah, the line gowing down my gt has gotten wider since starting progesterone and now there are little droplets forming down the line all the way down my sack, its actually literally freaking me out and making my stomach churn
has anyone else had this? I never thought tissue on the gt would change
i think i might go out dancing this weekend as a girl for the first time actually, instead of doing the threesome thing. idk the idea is skeeving me out a little now. i'm too pure for this
finally worked up the courage to post myself. please don't hugbox. :')
Well I am getting an orchi as soon as I finish setting up my healthcare and i want srs bad so yeah, its going bye bye
I always wanted a vagina, and to wear panties the right way is a dream of mine
hey nerds, how does one stop their face from looking fat? I weigh like 120lbs at most, but for some reason my face looks like I'm 200 easy.
also I have an eating disorder so that explains why my weight is a bit low, but not why my face looks so fat
So I'm back from the hospital.
>tfw slept for 15 hours
>got asked all sorts of questions including about my sexuality
>told them I'm confused but that I've had mostly boy crushes throughout my life
>they asked what's the difference between me and a gay male
>told them about dysphoria
>6 people looking at me in a room and asking me very personal questions including what positions I enjoy during sex
>was nervous and shaking the whole time
They wanna test me for being intersex too but they said I might get surgery papers in about a year.
See you in Canada, whenever that day comes.
what about the fat rolls on my stomach dumbass
you get impressed by the most pointless shit. i wish i was capable of such easy happiness.
i'm pretty resistant to the anaesthetic. it felt like mildly uncomfortable but it was still a lot easier in the longrun. i also have a fixation for fiddling with stitches, which is awkward.
ur not fat, idiot. i can sympathize with the chin doe.
Oh oh do the Transumbilical boob job, that's the one I am getting, only a tiny cut in the belly button and they look fabulous, no ugly stitches on the boobs
Watch the vid and just fast forward, this guy is an hour drive from me.
Thanks anon but I already use this board as some sort of evil therapist I make confessions to.
>told to go kill myself
To get a pardon paper for the army which otherwise has enforced conscription.
Also to get papers that confirm I'm trans and viable for genital surgeries including orchi and SRS.
how are you doing
honestly I haven't even finished it myself yet
I have it on the ps3 though
I could watch you play?
>tfw can't do this until like 2-3 years in the future.
didn't know you were still required to enlist where u live
>including what positions I enjoy during sex
Why do they need to know this though
It's ok kuppy, someday we can be rave sluts together, don't let your dreams be dreams.
Gonna get me a qt Canadian lumberjack or a qt Canadian grill.
But both of them are sweet people
I was always awful t b h
To see if I'm submissive and to determine wether or not I still want to retain use of my penis.
If someone tells them yes and that they like to top and all that shit it contradicts with genital dysphoria. So far I think I've made a strong case but I wasn't entirely truthful.
Honestly, I can't even argue with you. I've genuinely become a worse person since I started posting here.
I want to force ad and Pookie into a tickling fight
I haven't raped anyone, I just am aware of the fact that I've become a lot nastier, jaded and cynical. This isn't a healthy place.
Nice trips. You can come too, but I'd rather go to the UK to rave desu
Don't let your dreams be dreams, slap on that raver gear and get out on the dancefloor bb.
I honestly try to, but I used to do it a lot more than I do now, a lot of my posting lately has been needlessly confrontational and nasty. I probably need to take a break, but this place has become an outlet for trans feels, so I think I'd find it hard to stay away.
What kinda music? :3
Idk, see above.
Anyone know how Ricky is doing today after last night? Havent seen her post unless I havent beeb lurking long enough today.
That video is terrifying, especially when he starts violently jerking the tube around and the skin from her belly button to her breast gets pulled up, I didn't think skin acted like that outside of hentai. Stitches don't seem so bad now...
I have gotten that my entire life it's kinda strange even way before transition
>Tech support lady female pronouns me and asks for my name
>Gave my legal name and not trying to soften my voice at all
>Lady gets confused for a few moments and comments that I have a weird name because it's male
>Still keeps female pronouning me
I tried to make a thing in guy voice and I sound so gay, I'm the fucking gayest.
How long have I sounded like this what the fuck this is not what I imagined this sounded like at all
I'm not sure what the easy fix is then
Don't keep promises you can't keep, this sounds sick.
I havn't bought drugs in quite a while at this point, but I bought my drugs mail order on agora. I'm sure there's some other tor site up right now for computer savvy people looking to buy drugs through the mail, I'm probably going to go searching in a bit.
Honestly, I wouldn't have done that when I first came here, I was pretty non-confrontational.
>tfw gross unpassing hon if I try to pass as female
>tfw my fetish is AAP
>tfw living as a cute fem guy with boobs instead because that's more achievable
>tfw I'm a girl, trapped in a boy's body, living as a femboy because it gets me off
Wow. Anybody else know this feel?
I've done this before but devil trips so I have to oblige
>tfw almost exactly a tear on mones
>havent felt boob pain in almost half a year or more
im going on year 6 now. it comes and goes over the years. im pleasantly surprised to still be getting growth this far in
.... though mine still havent gotten all that big yet :(
I know that feeling. No pain, barely even the occasional itch. I guess it's for the best if I don't get un-hideable breasts before getting to the point where I feel comfortable with people knowing that I'm transitioning (definitely not until after laser), but...
you are spared.
it's because of how you say words like 'why', 'hey' and 'whatever'. they are pretty key words on the accent. i lost mine when i started to be more formalized and now i can't slip back into being a 'real' person. i can be emotive but it's generally monotone. i don't know how that works, but that's how it is. it's hard to unwind.
only in my wildest fantasies. in actuality i would be happy with just those two. but i guess eye contact is a normal thing too, i'll try. i've never really maintained eye contact with anyone in an informal manner for more than a few seconds, but when i'm in a meeting i kinda just stare and pretend i'm being more attentive than i really am.
>all these people with naturally cute voices
>i just sound like a marine
Really thinking about just giving up on everything, I'm doomed, may as well try and not make a fool of myself for as long as i can and then kill myself when the time comes.
I know that exact feel desu. It's okay being a cute subby boy during sex and who takes E and has a sesitive bossom and nice soft skin.
Living life as a cute shy boy is good in general but I still have that wish to go as a fulltime girl. I don't think that will ever happen though so I'm trying to make peace with what I have.
It's okay I sound like a marine irl too. I posted a vocaroo with my normal boyvoice the other day and the girls here loved it.
>several months after coming out as "cis"
>family is taking it well
>mom still calls me heather but it doesn't bother me
>trying to think of a word for what I am
>taking low dose hrt, identifying as sort of male
>presenting androgynously in terms of fashion and body language
>like non-binary but feel like it's still too snowflakey
If any of the old trips are on here still... I hope you're all doing well. ;-;
i may not be the best example for reasons... but they were like solid Cs when i got fat for a bit. i was poor for a bit and lost a ton of weight and wasnt on hrt, which left them at like As again. now im finally filling up a b cup again
I'm a graduate student in computer science, so yeah, I guess so. I'm a pretty terrible programmer, though; the code I've written for my research projects is a horrible clusterfuck, it's really embarrassing...
o hi booger
Saw u in /gaygen/ the other day
Sounds like you're doing alright
Have a bf yet ??
Also just say you're a queer it sounds edgy and cool t b h
>tfw you live with your parents and arent out to them and realize what would happen if they caught you doing anything
i would literally have nowhere to go. id be so fucked. i need to burn all my girl clothes and things and get my life in order. fuck
>be super normal guy
>fascinated by trap threads
>start trap workouts and prufi mica
>get legit hormones online
>start going to laser place for hair
>by six months in pass
>didn't believe it was even me, would walk by a mirror and freak out
>fapped to no end
>moved across state
>went full time
>got erections in public when I looked at my reflection
>year and a half in penis stopped working
>lie to shrink
>year 2 hrt
>got srs on the first of last June
>now I look and pretend to be a typical 22 year old girl
>get out of shower and dry my hair
>look in mirror
>vag starts getting puffy and moist
>ticket to Hitachi city for one please
I'M AGP AND I DON'T CARE!
>Everyone seems to love my voice except me.
You're not alone in that. I try to speak really softly and in a low tone and only when I absolutely have to.
I pretend to be mute irl. Like either I let my gf talk for me or my dad.
I stalk your tumblr every now and then. I miss you too. I feel like I should be upset at you but it's been so long I can't even remember why. Hit me up on le tumblr sometime or skype if you still use it.
No... no bf, but I am doing well yeah. Saw you guys have a discord now. That's neat.
Yeah I feel that. Thanks frog.
As smug and anime as ever Jormy lel.
It's not as bad the way I hear my voice but if I hear it how everyone else does I'd do the same thing you do. I'm kinda loud and obnoxious IRL but I've been trying to tone that down.
denial of what? I'm not trans or a girl and I accept it but I do love being one. I genuinely am turned on by myself and even before transition would only fap to trans porn. Its crazy though because I see so much fighting over looks and I do feel bad for so many being ugly but I was so feminine I knew being a full time girl was a no brainer once I found out transition was a real thing
>i didnt get any (yous) from this
I truly am alone in this experience then. fuck
ahhh, i wanna get into indie game stuff. i have such a hard time getting myself to actually make anything practical or finishing anything. i always end up just jerking it over design / clever implementations
baal is pleased.
how am i gonna cuddle and not want to touch you. pls god helpppp hnngh also das one cute as fuck shirt yo.
no, i'm not cute in any sense of the word. i used to be but now i'm just toxic. i'll train my voice to be the cutest tho. eventually. its gonna be my pussy magnet ;)
oohh hope you find a bf soon
and what's your dosage btw?
>i have such a hard time getting myself to actually make anything practical or finishing anything. i always end up just jerking it over design / clever implementations
This. This is why I'm such a shit programmer. ;_;
>tfw you realize trump is the best pick for president
>tfw you will be the only transperson voting for the unstumpable trump
fug all my friends and familia a diehard bernie lovers, I feel like a traitor
50mg spiro twice a day.
6 ml of 20mg/ml estradiol valerate bi-weekly.
I don't have any social media accounts... ;-; So like there's not much out there to find. No facebook, twitter, or insta... plus I'm not trans so what would be worth finding out about me you know? Pics where I look like a guy? I have plenty of those and I'm ok with sharing lol.
That's good to hear if this is the maddie I hope it is.
Damn, really? I heard dutasteride is better than finasteride, should I stay on dutasteride? If I start using rogaine and grow some back will it fall out if I stop even though I'm on HRT?
That's what it says on my thingy... it's a rather low dose for me. Like I am growing facial hair in places I've never grown it before and it's darker than ever. And like morning boners... and other man stuff. I like it. But I still stay cute. Like a shota...
i'm so proud of myself!
I just registered for the spring semester at college, I am taking my 5th physics course, sociology, and anthropology 2
These 3 classes will give me 3 more associates degrees because I have all the other prerequisites filled, plus the physics class will count towards my transfer to the university of my choice so I can do my bachelors.
Duasteride is probably better than finasteride; it blocks more types of 5-alpha reductase and has a longer half-life. I don't know if there are clinical studies comparing the two specifically for hairloss and regrowth, though...
>Always thought I had a really masc voice
>Someone else gets me to download a pitch analyzer after I posted that stupid clip
Guess this explains a few things.
I effectively am, what with being fulltime boymode for the foreseeable future. I probably wouldn't mind being a passible femboy, in any case; the difference between being a femboy on hormones and a non-op transgirl really isn't that huge, in any case.
Whats risky about it? I just hate taking pills desu
Pitch isn't the only thing that affects whether your voice gets read as male or female, but it's definitely one of the most important factors. Did you think your voice was deep, or masculine in some other way?
I always thought it was just super deep and manly for some reason and had never really tried to record me speaking 'normally' before. Till I recorded >>5589668
I'm just surprised by how not deep or manly it is, I still don't think It passes that great when I do put in the effort but I am apparently better than I thought.
holy shit, I just realized cis women are much more nicer to us then men
I redid my dating thing and like added women because the guys were being fucking idiots and I am talking to this super laid back tattoo artist who lives near me and she wants to chill and is cool with me being trans. I feel like my soul has been turned back on.
I-I do see an endo! If I knew how to self med I would have started 6 years ago
so if I'm not likely to grow much hair back from HRT should I plan to get either hair transplants or a hairline advancement? Does anyone know the pros/cons of either surgery?
oh the joys of being a transbian
> Tfw the way my work is scheduled I'll be leaving home Friday morning and getting back Sunday evening.
Yeah I am on something similar. I am on GnrH analoga shots and they cost a fortune. In fact I won't be able to afford treatment much longer.
At this point I am just thinking about castrating myself pham.