So... i'm an 18 yo male, and i'm quite curious about the idea of a same sex relationship or something like that. Except for like, i'm closeted as fuck. I mean my friends probably dont think i'm entirely straight as it is, but even when i'm hanging with just my gay friends, i still dont feel comfortable talking about it to anyone. I've went on Grindr before to explore, met and hooked up with a guy, and it was incredibly lack luster, i believe due to inexperience on both ends. So its not something i'm not willing to try, its just like, is there any better way than Grindr? I dont even put a picture up and theres all these guys who just send dick pics first off or who wont even talk to you if you dont send them a picture of yourself, which normally goes one of two ways for me: the person in question becomes more agressive sexually, or i get blocked because even though i'm almost 19 i look like a child. Please help. Any advice is appreciated.
A common enough dilemma.
You're too young for bars, although you could probably get into some clubs.
Grindr is dirty. Try another dating app like okcupid. It typically has a little more class.
This kind of confusion and awkwardness is common for someone your age. Don't read into it. With time you will figure yourself out. Most do.
Consider opening up to one of your gay friends.
Thanks for the advice so far and sorry i havent been back until today, i've been rather busy.
I feel like all dating apps are just dissapointment in disguise.
I had been talking with a guy on grindr for two days and finally got to where i was comfortable to send a pic today, and inmediately got blocked.
I have a few url friends that i talk to about this stuff, but one is like go get experience with Grindr and the other one just wants to tell me that i'm being cute. ;-;
I just really dont want to risk any way of my family finding out. It isnt that they wont accept me, to be honest they probably think i have tendancies as is, but just thinking about it makes me anxious as fuck in general.
then grow up, move out, and live your life kiddo
at 18 you've basically been sentient for about 3 months. you have about 40 or 50 years left to do whatever the fuck you want. get a job and get that shit going.
I have a job. My roomate is kicking me out. My car is broke. I'm broke.
And i have anxiety and depression that i used to self medicate with weed and any other drugs i could get my hands on, but i've went sober for a few weeks now. I'm probably not even emotionally stable enough to handle a relationship but at the same time i crave companionship. I'm sorry to just bitch on this thread, but the anonimity of it is making me feel less ashamed because of it.