I can't tell what my sexuality is, i've never been on a date with a guy or had any sexual contact but for the last two years, i've watched gay porn and got horny around hot guys. I even wanted to invite my straight friend around for sex but pussyed out. I couldn't see myself in a full commited relationship with a guy like i've been in a relationship with girls and shit like that but I actually dont know what do.
Try it. If you're getting horny around hot guys and jerking off to gay porn that's a message.
You might no be able to see yourself in a relationship with a guy but that could change with experience.
Your best bet is to decide this question by having sexual experience with guys.
Have a look at dating sites for guys nearby and around your age. Avoid those macho guys who think they're the toughest.
Maybe visit local lgbt groups if there are any, they can also help you there.
And maybe try to face the bullying with sarcasm:
> yee I've heard you fap to gay porn
> you don't? *smirk*
There's research that would suggest sexual preference is more complex than previously though, and that there are roughly three basic areas of attraction. It may be that some people are physically bisexual but just can't manage romantic feelings for one side or the other, for example. And then there's people who are nearly straight or gay but find themselves fall in love with someone outside their preference, an exception.
Just be honest with anyone you want to experiment with, and don't waste your youth being afraid.
Posts like this always crack me up because a trip from Germany to London is like a trip from one side of a single US state to another. And you guys have efficient public transport.
Granted, he's under age, so I guess there's that problem.
Just use OKCupid or something like that. Should be plenty of people from London there.
>i already have a rumour going around my school that i jerk off to gay porn
Doesn't matter. Believe me, it's better to just be yourself. So you're a gay kid, what's the big deal, especially in a city like London?
It still takes ages to travel there, at least a whole day if you don't want to spend a fortune on tickets. So flying over to London (or from there to the european main land) just for meeting someone is a bit of an overkill.