This fetish singlehandey makes me want to commit suicide on a daily basis. Started with diaper humiloation, moved onto panties and sissy captions, bought some skirts and blouses/crop tops, eventually became interested in getting the dick while dressed as a woman. Now, all I can think about is fapping and my craving for huge, pulsating cock in my mouth and butt. The fetish is literally built on addiction, and well, i'm addicted. Have to fap the feelings away 5 times a day.
That's not really a fetish. A fetish would be if the skirt itself turned you on as an object.
You might have a big dick fetish since you're only extrapolating on that as the part of men you like. A dick is attached to a man, a man with legs, torso, arms and a head, a personality, a style, body smells, ailments and affections.
Either this journey of yours is you taking baby steps to admitting you like men, and you're a little fragile so your mind has to spring it slowly on you.
Or you've just watched so much porn and is so stuck with guilt from your own sexuality you basically can think of nothing else and through that dwell deeper into things that seem more taboo to you.
OP, every time you fap to you, you strengthen the conditioning, making you more addicted even despite the temporary feeling of relief.
Fapping five times a day trying to get rid of an addictive fetish? Pssh, going about it the completely wrong way. Also, enjoy your balding from excessive masturbation.
What you need to do is stop fapping entirely or re-condition yourself by fapping to "normal" porn, whatever you'd rather be into rather than sissy shit.
Trust me, you are making your problem 5x worse every day without realizing it.
For the most part I prefer topping but occasionally the idea of wearing panties/pantyhose/a skirt, getting slammed against a wall and fucked by one or several strange men while wearing those garments enters my mind. Probably not a full-blown fetish but just normal degenerate thoughts
Is this actually how it works? I can quite clearly find myself more consumed by different genres of the fetish day by day. In the beginning I wasn't really into the sucking dick stuff. I wasnt repulsed but just wasn't into it.
It's too late for me, the sissy has gained sentience and feelings. It cried when I called it stupid and a waste of my life.
I'm not sure where the line is man. I just don't know anymore.
I think it's too late for me as well. The sexuality has also ingrained feelings into myself, just as it has done to you. I now feel very "weak and girly", it has become a part of my emotions.
Yeah, I figure; as long as I reject it, it's an outsider. If I accept it, it will have to play in harmony with the rest of the ego composite, or else it's shooting itself in the foot.
Rejecting it is what increases the arousal tenfold to me. Resisting the subservient nature of the fetish is actually part of the fetish itself. Accepting the fetish is also completely arousing because the thought of being a defeated lottle cock craving firl on my knees gets me hard as a rock. I don't think there's any winning.
Although I want to some day wear a bra and panties in every day life, maybe even a skirt, I don't really see myself into sissy stuff all that much; I'm mtf, so to me it's not a fetish. I watch tranny porn, but not for the same reasons the fetishists do; it's mainly because the shemale looks like she's enjoying herself, and i don't want to ever see a bottom guy; that just grosses me out, because it's too "gay" in my opinion, and I like women only, and I identify as a trans lesbian.
That's the thing. Subconsciously, ths end goal of the fetish for me would be giving into it and becoming a "weak girl", forced to take hormones and dress like a woman for men for the rest of my days. This thought makes me so hard. Resisting makes me hard. Everything makes me hars. That's why this fetish is so god damn addicting.
I think the lion becomes the dude anyway.
But if you eat it, it becomes apart of you through digesting it, and is then assimilated.
But if it eats you, the lion's digesting and assimilating you.
Ok, here's what you do.
Three times each day, you thank yourself for these feelings. You do this out loud, not just thinking it inside your head but actually say it out loud. You do this at morning when waking up, midday and before bed. I doesn't matter if you feel this way or mean it, you just say it out loud so you hear yourself saying it.
What you say is:
"I am grateful for having these thoughts and I welcome them into my life".
3 times a day for a month.
Also every time thoughts about it comes up you force yourself to laugh about it and feel gratitude for it. So say you are taking the bus/riding your car to work/school/or whatever and thoughts comes up you laugh at it and feel grate that the thoughts came to you.
If you can't force yourself to laugh/smirk about it in the beginning you force forward a smile.
If you feel up to it I advice you to start with it already right now, say the words out loud.
Just tried that.
Not OP, but basically the feeling felt appreciated and went on its merry way. Practically instantaneously. And being the feeler of the feeling, I felt appreciated too.
There's definitely a zen art to sissy.
Sorry man, this fetish is hell on earth. I haven't killed myself but my friend on fetlife ended up ODing on coke. He would always tell me how obsessive the fetish was becoming in his life and how he couldn't control himself anymore. Nobody is likely to believe you about how problematic the fetish is, not even therapists, they'll just think you were transexual all along and laugh you away when you explain your fantasies to them. I think you're getting to the point where you need to transition or die though, sounds like it.
It's a mental trick. Sorta part of psychology, but more common in alternative medicine.
The stronger the emotion or desire you're effectively repressing by 'thanking' it, though, the higher the chance it grows thorns, weaponizes, and rapes your actual mind sideways. Possibly.. literally? Like, that alone will not 'cure' you, it'll just mutate it. Gotta mutate repeatedly until you get something livable. Why it's not used always in psychology, the unreliability from person to person without skilled oversight.
It's powered by some pretty big societal ideas and the whole male 'must be dominate' thing. That's some.. powerful fuel.
Basically as long as you believe a lot of lies society tells you, it's going to have enough uranium to explode you. Confronting those lies is so hard most people never even begin to try, so you're kinda fucked coming and going.
Not OP but I've tried that kind of acceptance stuff.... It ended with me sucking on a dildo with an aneros inside of me while listening to sissy hypno and looking for hrt and plastic surgery.
Denying the urges makes me eventually come back and accepting them like you guys are suggesting puts jet fuel on them.
How do I break out of this? I have a stupidly high sex drive that means I'm jerking off to this stuff like five times a day at least.
Honestly, I'd be relieved if that were the case (as shitty as being trans is), but I just don't think I am.
All I want is to be a parody of femininity (bimbo is the frequently used term). I want to completely lose all sense agency and have my entire life consist of sexual subjugation for men. Being a normal healthy woman holds no appeal for me whatsoever. I think I got exposed to this fetish at too early an age (through obsessive amounts of internet porn )and have been permanently fucked up.
At this point my question is there any way to fix myself? Should I even consider pursuing these desires? I know some people engage in pretty extreme BDSM lifestyles. The culmination of my desires would probably end with me being "owned" by someone. Is that something that anyone has experience with?
just dont commit suicide.
Being in the position of bottom def puts you in an unusual position but fap more on the internet till you move onto real life shenanigans. Everyone on 4chan is a faggot. Planet eearth is blue and there is nothing more you can do
Um yeah, fuck sissy porn, lol. I attempted suicide about 3 or 4 months ago and my addiction to sissy porn was much of the reason why I did so, though I never told anybody. The feelings will keep growing as long as you keep masturbating to the stuff and you'll likely end up on hormones, sucking cock for money. You can't have this fetish and not feel like a whore. Good luck in life babe. Rooting for ya.
>I want to completely lose all sense agency and have my entire life consist of sexual subjugation for men
Dominant cishet guy here.
I feel you. Agency is such a crushing burden. It feels like a huge weight.
Hey so uhhm..
What the fuck am i if i like getting high/drunk/whatever, dressing in lingerie, and then watching lesdom bdsm while probing my ass
I cant believe im even asking this on fucking 4chan
You are aroused by associating yourself with acts of femaleness. Female clothing is emasculating, thus the boner. Getting fucked like a girl and taken as a slave is emasculating as well. This is basically an extreme cuck fetish and it ruins lives. You're probably not attracted to men in the sense that you'd say "that guy is hot", but none of this is to say you aren't a faggot. Faggots come in many different shapes and sizes.
Lotta people are pretty happy in relationships like that. There's also, though, a lot of pissy people who say they want that and then go apeshit if they get it/look like they're going to get it, meaning they don't actually want it, just think they do.
Welcome to human psychology.
>this whole thread
wow i didn't know sissy fetish was so popular and consuming that it made one of you suicidal
cute. is there a forum for you sissies?