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I've tried but he's pretty insane unfortunately >_>
>tfw made a really good friend last night and we stayed up chatting til 7 am
>No trolling, no drama, just cuteposting and goodvibes
nth for i can deal with this
ayy lmao time for a new trip i guess
lmao. i know my chin sucks and i'm a hon. why bring that up? i didn't bring up your appearance but you had to go bringing up mine. shows what depth you have. just because i find your drooling retarded ramblings annoying, it doesn't mean my life is as wrecked as you're wanting it to be. do you think everyone out there who gets annoyed has shitty lives? you don't think people who have everything have pet peeves? you can make it look as though my life sucks all you want, but it's baseless and doesn't change the fact you are extremely petty and repugnant in your pattern behavior
if you can't do this you arent trutrans
Oh, finally my edition!
And I'm going to sleep through it. Never lucky.
yeah & he carves up this table when he gets frustrated among other things :u hed always drank but hes pmuch an alcoholic now, and he does tons of other durgs :v
dam i can barely drink for shit but a few shotsll have me faaaded, i think bein tiny works in my favor here :D
Does anyone else here feel like the first 20 years of their life were a huge fucking waste of time that they can never get back? Because that's how I feel.
can i fuck you
It wasn't exactly like that and it doesn't matter cause it's over.
i'm happy that you made a good friend kiwi ^__^ you deserve good pals.
i'm not going to be rude to you. i wasn't insulting you, i was bringing up things you say. because it's true. i am not as insecure, or unhappy as you. that isn't something that i'm proud of because i'm sorry that you feel the ways that you do despite your unpleasant demeanor. it's just that i can't talk about those things because i don't feel them. that's all i brought up. i never called you a hon. however you felt it necessary to call me a vapid brain dead, full of cum psychological wreck because you don't like a few words you've seen me type on the internet. so i would re-evaluate your superiority complex.
YOU DID NOT LOL
I'm not saying that you need to get away from him, but seriously these sound like warning signs.
Yes. I know a few other people here liked her and Jk but I avafag with them at times. I love them, they are a cute.
I've been on skittles for 2 years or so, just selfmedding tho, I should probably "man up" and do something about it...
and if you go sleep now it will probably be dark again by the time you wake up... yeah it's pretty depressing here
Is he okie to you though and like w you being a qt grill instead of a boything?
Other drugs and carving tables... Eek D:
18shots was way too much lol now its 6 and i feel throwing up b4 bed. Buh was rly huge back then too, mfw 120kg>70kg in a year.
Things you wudnt do to look better suddenly when you are on hrt.
To lift my larynx up to exercise for voice training, I have to put a weird pressure on my tongue, kind of like pushing it down. This is doing it normally right?
you better bring that ass over to this lap bby
i'm about to make it rain while you clap those cheeks
what's with the hashtags? lol
i'm sorry, i don't want to cause any issues. one of the things i resolved to do for the new year was to stop being unnecessarily rude to people when i feel insulted, or belittled. it just doesn't do anything. i don't mind discussing things though and i understand if people have issues with me.
>go to bathroom after making a chill edition
>come back and thread contains drama already
Yeah, it's hard to make things like that stick on a more regular basis, I'm still trying to find a way.
Well, wanting to get better does matter a lot for sure, although generally it happens relatively fast once the desire to get better is there in a big way. I'm sure you'll reach that point before long.
I'm a bit better rested but I still think I need another night. How are you pookie?
stop lying. you brought up my physical insecurities because you wanted to belittle me as much as you can, not simply because it's true. how would you know i'm so unhappy? because you've seen me type on the internet? ironic much bitch? i don't have a superiorty complex, but unlike you i'm not fucking braindead enough to try to rub in the fact you have a lot of money and get sexual attention. it wouldn't bother me at all except it's a widely known fact a lot of transgender people out there still have trouble being accepted into the workplace and in romantic partnership with a cisgendered person. you have this weird need to peacock around what you have in a small pond and it's assbackwards to your statements on how secure and happy you actually are
the queen of a dead brain incapable of understanding why she gets hated on, and having to ask the obvious question to the people who hate her only to defend herself by a baseless and childish "your life sucks"
*pulls out stacks*
buy yo mama a house. buy yo gramama a house. say my name, baby.
i try. she's not a bitch though. everyone has their own issues idk. i'm not trying to pass judgment.
i'm sorry you feel that way, and that you feel the need to lash out at me because i repeated things you say 85% of the time. what i don't understand is how you can belittle me for expressing my happiness with things, and how you act as if i'm being an attention whore or bragging when all you do is spend your time posting your pictures asking if you look good. you seem to be even more vapid and self-involved than you think i am.
aaahh sounds like you've been ok tho am glad
I always liked you too !! so many 4 letter trips that start w/ M I could never remember who was who l-lol
moap, myna, u, etc
o wow would u be willing to lead classes on it ?
be a teacher
aahh go to sleep early !!
drink warm cocoa and watch anime while dozing off desu
uhmm I'm ok !!
Rlly lonely and miss frog b-but I'm going to see her soon sooo ^^;;
do you not realize yet you have a reputation for being a shitty person
and that people hate you
>come back and thread contains drama already
it's 4chanx's fault
clarissa your entire problem is literally nothing, you come off as a total shitposter because you have a nice face yet post about needing FFS and etc, you're essentiallly a shitposter who also brags
i honestly wonder if you're rawr or some other shitposter whose existence in mtfg persists to make regular posters and new posters feel bad about themselves
get FFS or don't, but you pass already so whatever
It's fine we can't remember everyone. I've been up and down but I think things have been getting better hopefully it stays that way. Hope things have been good with you.
Alright I'm having one of those nights but I think I'm done with all of this. I'll never be able to live this life because I can't even manage to get other parts of my life in order and I'm almost 26. A year ago I said if I were in this same position by now that I would end it all and every day it looms closer. I'm scared that the next time I hit an extreme low point that I will do it. That this will be the final year of my life.
I've never known happiness. The closest I came ended up crashing down around me and I lost everything I was working for in the blink of an eye. One of those things being a literal car crash that made me lose my car. I wish I had been hurt in that accident so people could have at least pretended to care for a little longer than a day before screaming at me and accusing me of tearing my family apart. This life just isnt worth it anymore.
Good bye mtfg. I wish I could be happy like some of you. I wish I could commit to transition and live life as a girl like many of you but I'm just not strong enough. I'm just a loser. A loser who wants to be a girl.
That sucks. Who knows why it happened, other than her; were you able to contact her to ask what happened, or something?
Selfmedding heh. Are you going to one of the clinics too while at it? Bet you look atleast okay with hair and make-up then.
Self medding too for 13th month now but started going to one of the clinics in august. Its such gatekeeping and the question sheets they give for you to fill at home everytime..
>mfw they tell you it doesnt change the process if you are depressed, later find out that it does. Glad to lie from here on now.
Also yup. Going to head out to the penguin weather as a girl for giggles to shock elderly people at stores. Need something sweet *-* maybe stay late enuf to fix the cycle too
Good then c: shud try to help him a little, motivating way like going out together to movies and to do stuff. Day busy from drugs doing happy thingies is a lot.
I took pictures for you, wanna see? :D
I have heard that some people find a way. It's a nice thought, but I feel like it takes a long time to reach a spot like that. I really hope not to spend the rest of my life flip-flopping between thinking I look ok, and thinking I look like a dude.
My sleep schedule is so messy right now I can't go to bed until around 2 or so. Need to reset it for wednesday so yeah x.x
;~; what you and frog planning on doing?
Just an excuse for a shiny new trip
my insecurities and the desire to ask for people's opinion on my looks has nothing to do with your behavior. stop trying to gather outside points to attack me. you weren't expressing happiness, you were expressing your desire to show how much you have to people who statistically don't have much. then asking a retardedly asking why you get so much hate in a half-wit ponder
this will be me at the mtfg meetup telling everyone how much i love them tbqh. obviously i won't be wearing makeup. or shaving anything other than my head lmao
:( you're not a loser. most people have to walk through a sea of broken glass and shit before they get to where they want to be. you're just in the bad part. don't do anything you can't take back.
honestly I think the worst thing for me is believing that I'll never achieve happiness no matter what happens. I can't shake the thought that I will end up killing myself either way.
aahh well I hope u get it back to normal in time !!
>what you and frog planning on doing?
idk I think she mite help me move but mostly staying inside and doing other things o///o;;
yeh I've been alright, getting better
Hope things stay up w/ u !! u deserve to be happy imo
Does this nigga cosmo pass as a tranny? I forgot this board existed and then remembered, so you fags seemed like a good place to ask.
our conversation was basically,
>"you're a retard and you don't talk about anything other than money and dicks"
>"you need a reality check"
>i understand what you're saying, but i don't have anything else to talk about
>i can't be like you and talk about my big chin or how i find myself ugly because i don't feel that way
>i am not insecure and i am in a different phase in my life right now and i no longer express those things here
i don't see how you don't understand that progression. you're overreacting because i offended you by repeating back to you the things you believe about yourself. please do not project your malicious, and unpleasant nature and thoughts about yourself onto me.
say my name, baby
wanna be friends? :D
yeah i try to, hes stubborn though :Y
I tried, but I didn't hear anything back. I guess she might be too embarrassed to keep talking to someone after something like this? Hard to tell, but I really don't mind and we seemed to get along pretty well online.
I don't think I did anything in particular, maybe I was a bit hasty in arranging a meet up? That was my assumption, I just don't want her to stop talking to me as a result of this.
[spoiler]and if you're reading this, uhh, hi[/spoiler]
Yeah I can't even blurt out to a doctor that I'm trains so no clinics for me and I've been scared to go there anyway, having a nice palette of mental disorders and all...
My hair is a mess and can't apply makeup for shit either but sometimes some creepy old men "tytöttelee" me so idk?? Effectively I'm just a boy on estrogen but o well, at least I'm not getting any manlier
i'm annoyed as fuck, am i not allowed?
you mean #LosersClubWhoSuckUptoInternetPeople
i'm not here for your pr points
are you fucking blind? i don't have a nice face and i'm really insecure about my masculine features. i appreciate you thinking that, but i honestly truly don't see it and i bet i'm not the only one here either. my name is Claire, not rawr or any other shitposters. i'm sorry if i came across as such because i honestly didn't see it like that. i will get ffs
you're assuming i feel good about my face, but i really really don't. people's comments about my buttchin and forehead hurt, because i'm insecure and i know they need to be fixed
Neither, it was a clever ruse ;~;
There's other forms of happiness apart from just how you perceive yourself, I'm clinging to that as where I'll find happiness. A lot of people seem to find solace by just finding other things to focus on and feel insecure about, given self-image is fairly hard to change. Hell, even ffs doesn't necessarily fix that kind of dysphoria.
You're balding in your teens, who cares. just get a fringe.
>24 hour high
Wait, korra, I thought you didn't do drugs.
Not a bad thought actually
I've been trying to find things to distract me but sometimes the things I like are just plain dull now.
Perhaps things will pick up in the future, but not now from what I can see.
hey they called themselves a loser. i didn't mean it like that. i genuinely want them to be and feel better
honestly you offended me for one reason. if you are happy in your life and have a lot of stuff you feel happy about it. i truly think that is awesome and unlike you i don't want your life to suck, because it makes my life better in comparison in an argument. this isn't news to you, your actions are perceived as bragging to people who statistically don't have much. why do it? why here? i don't get to assign where you can and can't post, but it doesn't make any sense to me why you then seem confused about being hated on for it. you probably enjoy doing it as anyone who can think for themselves can see it. i'm not projecting anything and if anything your actions are malicious and unpleasant, fucking dumbass i'm only pointing it out
well you've posted literally the exact same picture day after day since the holidays so you could easily be [some trip] trying to troll us
if you're not a troll then hey you'll probably make it tbqh
On what bae?
I ate two really really high quality weed brownies (they were made from girl scout cookies weed) and they put me to sleep for a looooong time. Good rest tho.
See above. Weed doesn't really count imo, but I can see how it would. I only do the Mary Jane like twice a year, if that.
>Hey loser fuckwad piece of shit, go die. But yeah be happy
Yeah, that'll help them
The mental history can be troublesome but not that big of a deal i mean people who are trans tend to have issues, like i bet there are totally like.. You know mentals who get through for no reason, ooks kuullu siit sammakkotrans tyypist?
Just make sure you dont blurt it to a doctor w a russian or estoniam bground
Afaik the public side has those and its kinda eh... Got lucky and got this qt sweet doctor who was awkwardly reading about the subject and tried to hug me and everything.
If they call you a TYTTÖ it means you probs are one desu, mfw no gender pronouns so will never know Q_Q.
Can i ask where you live, like area :3?
Awww <: super sweet of you to try even if hes stubborn. Tell him you can smoke a bowl and then head to the cinema or such D:
Uhoh wwhy not 8) dear diary made a new friend today, she posts the cutest animupix.
Well, I hope that things improve soon, or that they improve in general. Living with dysphoria is unpleasant, and moreso when you know full well that you probably don't look like what you think.
Ohhh ok, I assumed given you were high for 24 hours that you did something a bit harder, I need to stop thinking like a degenerate
you're obviously just saying this now to hurt my feelings so whatever, i hope you have fun at least
i posted the picture a a few times, also noticed it got reposted by someone else as a lame meme of some sort. i have been on here more often since i've been on break. thanks, i think you will too
That's a shame. I hope she lets you know what happened, at least.
c-can i post old screenshots of me playin maple? t-this is my bucc
>why talk about good things in your life here?
because this is where i've always come to talk about both the good and bad things in my life. i was in the first mtf general on this board. before this i was in the first trans/trap threads on /soc/ when that board was created. before that i was on 420chan, trapchan, and many other trans chan boards. you don't see to understand that i've been posting everything about my life from the point where i had the deepest voice humanly possible, and had my ex bf abuse me, to...now. i was confused only because i feel like in a way these boards have always been here for me, but i can't be the same as i used to be because my life has improved. that's very disheartening. i've been transitioning and posting on these boards for a very, very long time. it's just different now i guess.
awww ty <3 mhm i do! i tell him all the time to take it easy, hes gonna get caught eventually >.> he already has been caught actually but he just so happens to have incredible luck with people :u
email@example.com email me
>your pics are pretty qt too!
wowie ur bucc looks qt
were u a henehoe bb ??
wht lvl were u ......
Yeah don't do drugs kids! I was testing them out for comic con on Friday and like the drugs noob I am I ate one and waited an hour and didn't feel anything so i ate another and ended up getting hit with a double whammy @_@;;
The fact that you graced me with your presence makes today better c:
God lord no. I'm such a lightweight when it comes to drugs that is can't handle anything other than weed x.x
>i feel like in a way these boards have always been here for me, but i can't be the same as i used to be because my life has improved.
so in other words you come here to brag
Thanks for the kind words. I know I'm just in a super depressed state right now. Another night spent in front of a keyboard while tears roll down my face out of a thousand. Being someone who has been thinking about suicide since the age of 10 does that to you but I suppose thats a common feeling for many here.
I just want so bad for something to go right in my life for once but I know nothing will happen unless I make it happen. I'm just tired of being alone in it all. I'm just tired of being a failure.
But you're right. I do just need some sleep so I can push these truthful thoughts to the back of my head once more.
Its better to ignore most anon posts tbdesu. Its more often than not a shitpost made by some mean spirited person trying to stir up more drama. Only like 1 in every 20 anon postd are worth reading and replying too
i didn't ask you for a fucking history lesson on edie on the internet. fuck off. i think you are allowed to talk about being happy, but would you be telling the truth to say you didn't enjoy showing off to people who probably don't have much? i know the audience here will vary, but would it be unreasonable to assume you're kind of being a bitch about it too, given a lot of people talk about being troubled?
anon pls just tell me you want to hold my hand or something...
tripping is all about mindset and setting, you get out what you put into it
if you expect to have some cuhrayzee psychedelic visual trip then you might have one
if you expect to learn more about your social network and human nature, you might learn something
acid is a function of your brain state, where/how you start the trip is the most important thing
Are the drug laws tough there?
Make sure you dont get in trouble if he does lol, imagine getting jailed for a month with bunch of guys e_e uh nuuuh. Unless you got that gender stuff changed alrdy.
That email :"D
t-thanks! h-here's my beginner, her name is warhols. as embarrassing as this is to say i used to own Vogue, which in windia was the largest fashion guild and ~hen hoe~ guild that existed for years. we used to throw parties and smega and do events and stuff nonstop. that's what i did before transitioning fully, basically lol
t-thank you for saying that about me. there's no reason to be rude in any other way though ;_;
i come here to talk about...everything, but my life has been fairly good the past year or so. there however in the last year i've also come here posting while i was drunk for a week straight after breaking up with my bf and crying, i came here to talk about my best friend and me not talking anymore... i talk about how my face makes me dysphoric, or my dreams or things i want for myself. it's just that a lot of the time people only notice the parts where i talk about work, or boys. probably because that's been a big part of my life as well, but everyone here talks about their relationships, dating if they're single, and their job.
it'll be ok. you're not failing. you're just at a disadvantage to other people, for example, like cis people who had a straight line to follow with their lives. you can't compare yourself to others. it's not going to do anything but make you feel miserable. just be the best you that you can be.
i talk about the same things to everyone in my life. friends, family. every other trans group i'm apart of even when it's filled with women who are further in their transition than some here. i consider the people here a part of my life since i've known a lot of the people who post here for awhile. i'm not trying to be a bitch by talking about the same thing i would talk to with anyone else.
Well, being a lightweight doesn't necessarily mean much, I'm a super lightweight despite having lost track of how many drugs I've done. Doing harder stuff does however require a certain wilful ignorance to the consequences.
They will definitely improve on hormones, despite still being affected by dysphoria and the like it's better than early transition, and almost a completely different life from pre-hormones. Are you pre-mones?
>Only like 1 in every 20 anon postd are worth reading and replying too
I'd do so much more than just hold your hand Bexe. Like cuddling and sweetly whispering into your ear as we held each other. Sorry for being so graphic.
yeah ugh weeds still illegal here >.< doesnt help hes a dealer too lol
and no i havent gotten on cooties yet :SSS
>after hrt !!
i'm already on hrt. ;~;
though, i'm just bitching, and since i haven't posted a pic (well at least with trip on). i dunno i should stop desu
i don't know your situation, but smoke a cigarette, chug a beer, whatever you have to do when you wake up in the morning and take action. depression comes with a lot of resistant barriers that drags you down, but try going for a long run or a bike ride. it always gets my mind right
anon would you trip with me? would you talk about the nature of existence and the nature of the universe with me? would you spend 3-5h just holding hands and feeling out the space between our palms, the spaces between our bodies?
I wish I had the $$$ to buy perm clothes l-lol
smega spamming is my fav rofl
ppl just talk abt memes now tho it's kinda silly
I wish there was more community like there was back then !!
yeh I love anon posts desu
it wouldn't be the same w/o the rlly cute funposting anons .-.
ooo I was thinking of someone else oops sorry !!
how long HRT are you ??
idk most ppl pass after like 3 years of HRT so don't worry too much !!
staph giving us hope dummy!
Pass after one year of hrt or self loathe until sudoku
I would so much. Have you ever been high and just stared out into space? Knowing that out there there are trillions upon trillions of stars and planets and the very high possibility that at that exact same moment a being on one of them was staring out into space too? I wont even begin what would happen if our hands met during such thoughts. It would be far too lewd.
huh? i don't have any problem with people who pass better than me. lmao caveman brows my ass(chin)
you get a lot of hate for it, and you almost sarcastically ask why you do. it's hard to see any good intentions behind it. also it takes a certain level of EQ for someone to realize there's something wrong with what you're constantly doing given the nature of /mtfg/ environment. you're emotionally retarded or you're a sociopath who simply doesn't care. i hope it's neither
Awe, what's making you nervous about taking them?
Yeah, despite the hateful anon posts, I generally feel that this place wouldn't be the same without them. It would just be a slightly edgier version of reddit ;~;
HRT continues to work for a long time, 1 year is honestly not peak effects by a long shot.
but 1 year isn't that far into HRT tbqh
I go to the trans reddit sometimes and it's kinda gross imo l-lol
ppl aren't as knowledgeable as here and more pre people
nooooo I do
my ex went to a lot of them l-lol
uhmm which 1 tho? I didn't know there was one in the south desu
Yeah I think that person went back to being a guy or something? Anyway, idk about the girl thing, its only the creepiest kinda old guys who call me that, otherwise ppl just don't give a shit I guess, would be nice to get sir'd or ma'am'd and at least know for sure.
I live in tre so clinic wouldn't even be far... hbu?
anon you're killing me... i've thought so many times about our lonely place in the universe, and how that loneliness might be part of a galactic process involving the late involvement of an alien species...about how much an alien civilization might have experienced and developed before making contact with us... about how many ways we might be similar and how many ways we might be different from any race that contacts us... how much we could learn, and how much we could teach...
hold my hand, please
'saul cool. i've been on blockers since like november 2014, started estrogen in august desu.
that's my kind of thinking!
i've really been considering this to be desu
i dunno senpaitachi.
jelly desu. i missed NYCC this year because i didn't have money the day the tickets wint on sale ;~;
lmaaaaao IK IT'S EMBARRASSING I LEGIT SPENT ENOUGH MONEY TO GET FFS ON MAPLESTORY
i haven't gone online in about a year tho, and even then i was only online for like...a day. it seems like it's changed so much. has the revamp brought everyone back, or? back thenn we used to make fan signs and everything it was ridic. that's actually where my trip came from tho. we popularized the use of the "dollface"s and every "weird" face and that's what founded the guild.
i wasn't sarcastically asking anything lol. why does me talking about my life need to have good intentions for everyone else...? would you say posting your face nonstop and asking about whether or not you pass has any kind of good intention, or positive effect on anyone but yourself? this is what confuses me. you seem to keep backhandedly saying things to me that apply to yourself more than they do to me. why is that?
she was actually one of cheska's friends and we were sort of enemies when cheska and i were dating, but she added me out of the blue last night and we surprisingly get along really well, i've been playing cs:go with her for like hours now
YES super qt and she thinks i'm qt too
thx edie! c:
stop lying and twisting my words around, you manipulative bitch. you always ask out loud why people hate you for expressing your positive experiences in life. it doesn't apply more to me, i don't talk about any positive experiences in my life. i post my pictures with a good intention of getting constructive criticism. the amount of time you've gotten backlash is absurd for you to keep doing it which is the reason why i asked if you were emotionally retarded or a sociopath
Mm-m yup they did.
Well like it might be them being a little perverted
Might be them also just being old-style guys born in the 40's when it was still normal to call every female under 35 years old a girl. "Girl hey bring me some tea, would you?" just like in the movies.
Wud be flattered if i was you <:
Do you go often out as a girlie 8) ?
>mfw people are less hostile to me when go out as a girl and they actually arent afraid of getting close to me.
boy mode drug deal mode confirmed.
Oh thats amazing btw, wish i lived there .-. its such a pain to take a train from here to Tre everytime and then back. Live nearby though , Pori <:
really? welp hope is always nice, at what point does the changes peak at then <:
I don 't think you're the same person. It's not the style that makes you similar, it's the tone and what you attack her on. And like K, your shit against dollface is pretty hypocritical.
NOW I MISS MAPLE AND MY HUSBAND POOKIE WHY DID U DO THIS TO ME
i think i'm gonna update maple on my windows OS. i can't transfer any characters to the new server tho right? or like any NX or anythingggggggggg, right?
>getting constructive criticism
you literally tell people that they're too ugly to give you advice, or that you look better than them more than half of the time anyone gives you constructive criticism. i'm starting to feel myself being annoyed by your idiocy, so i'm going to filter you and move on. good luck with your transition.
You can probably expect nothing more to happen after 5 years (except random spurts of boob growth).
>she was actually one of cheska's friends and we were sort of enemies when cheska and i were dating, but she added me out of the blue last night and we surprisingly get along really well, i've been playing cs:go with her for like hours now
This place is like a soap opera I swear.
People keep telling me that I'm cute but I look in the mirror and I just look fucking hideous to myself
I'm not sure what's more delusional, me believing them or believing what I see
maybe I should detransition, I'll never be cute
no you have to hold my hand in the context of us staring into and contemplating infinite space
aww cute husband desu
nooo you can't transfer I wish
not sure abt nx tho !! if you still have some in your account u can prob buy stuff on the new server tho
ur eyebrows are so thin omg !!
I kinda want mine that thin l-lol
or make frog get smaller ones since I rlly like tiny eyebrows ><;;
omg are you two dating >>;;
>tfw ex killed herself and while I've got someone new I'm not able to have nearly any of the feeling I used to have anymore
it's honestly super fun, or was back in the day. it's a total grindfest but the community and the friends i made there have made me immensely! idk if it's still any good.
i'm gonna update it rn!!!!!!! my other friends from my guild told me they were playing around the new year as well so maybe i will hit them up. what's ur IGN pookie? should i just ask you on skype lol
Just have to let go and move on. The more you do that the more you'll feel.
Saying I won't look as bad as some people isn't consolation, though. Every time I look in the mirror it's just awful. Even if I don't have it as bad as some people, I still look in the mirror and see someone that just looks... not female in the slightest.
It actually does make it less true. If I were a psycho I would have posted all the things you said to me over the course of a day of knowing me for a day on skype but I'm not that kind of person. Instead I continued to talk to you normally and friendly here even if it was as anon. Always nice to see how someone truly feels however.
Oh ok. Let me just interlace my fingers with yours like this and then wonder if theres some interplanetary galactic meeting of planets happening in the universe at this very moment. There probably is! Think about it!
sounds like a dom desu
this sounds terrible
I was so scared of this happening when I broke up with my ex
wish I could give you a hug anon : <
uhmm my IGN is Bebbyboo
am not on rn but prolly will be around midnight since there's 2x xp and drop rate tonight I think
I thought u were going to be nice and not attack me lmao
>sucking up much there?
to who though
if being friendly is sucking up to ppl then I guess I do it every post oops xddd
Oh, and the worst part:
On top of me feeling disgusted with myself, other seem to be as well when I tell them
And I have absolutely no way to objectively step back and see if transitioning is a mistake or not. I feel like I'm chucking my life out the window because I'll never look good as a girl.
None of the major features are different, both are identifiable as the same person. However, the features in the second picture have softened, and that's what HRT would be expected to do.
They're freakishly big ;~;
Elf ears? o.o
Thanks, but my brows are actually super thick and they're way way thinner than they normally would be. You should try thin brows if you want them ^^
I dunno, a lot of those worries tend to go out the window once you're actually on them. Being on them gives a sort of peace that tends to make all the other worries melt away, in particular due to the fact that you don't end up being a hon (most people don't).
I ran out of pills for about a week around Christmas (estradiol and a few other non-HRT related things); I thought it would be okay but after a few days I was incredibly demotivated and weepy and I hated myself and my job and my body and all the dumb mistakes I've made. Yeah. I'm not doing that again if I can help it; I feel noticeably better now that I've gotten things refilled and am getting my twice-daily estrogen rushes.
I know but now I'm questioning if I should get back on them or if it'd just wreck my chance at a normal life
If I didn't transition, I'd follow the path of my identical twin (and myself, before all of this) and use my pretty face and decent body to hook up with 8-10/10's regularly and live a normal life with all the benefits that looking good brings
>go on window's partition on mac
>first thing i see is all my final fantasy 14 screenshots
d'aw i miss this game. aND NOW I MISS HEATHER TOO WHY DOESN'T SHE COME HERE ANYMOrE it's not the samee just group textinggg
No. If I could successfully live life as a normal, average-looking, qt (not like hot, just decently cute) girl I absolutely would. But I'm not sure if that's even on the table as an option.
>tfw thinking about him
idk if she's happy I think it was good for her to leave !!
>they were the only race worth making
wht abt the kitty race ....
then explain me
>"Sorry boys, but true love can only be between a girl and a >girl"
aaaa hers are v full but thin ?? idk like the hairs thick?
kinda looks like she always has brow gel on I'm jealous desu
For the time being?
Definitely guy over being unpassable
I feel like that's just because I'm reasonable femme now. I feel like if I had to go through second puberty, or grow any more, or get any bigger ribcage, or shoulders, or that awful older man face etc, I'd end up killing myself
>when you have to settle for option A because options B is death
Do you think you'll become much more masculine? (I don't know anything about how old you are or whatever.) If so, you might consider taking at least some HRT again even if you're going to be a guy, in order to stay a feminine one.
Everyone masculines with age.
I'm 18 right now. For reference, this is what I'm working with
My hair is worse now
i called one person a derogatory term, not an entire race. it depends on the individual, just like how you can ridicule a white person in the worst way possible if they deserve to be ridiculed
>I'm reasonable femme
delusional much? you look just like any other 13 year old boy with long hair
At least I'm not doing anything lewd in this one
You're my human shield. That could be lewd if we make it.
And it's less that I'm worried about not passing at all, I'm just worried that I'll look bad, and live a worse life overall. I'm not sure if my fear is founded or not, I have a really bad tenancy to overthink things.
thats what i thought. get over your self-righteousness because you're a nasty bitch who happens to want to inflict pain on other people. go try out for a jackson 5 cover band instead of flipping burgers you retard
That's the thing, I've been on them for a few months now (after being on a low dose for like a year)
I recently had to take a break because my script ran out and my doctor moved locations so it's being a pain in the ass to get it refilled
I'm just wrestling with this dysphoria and wondering if it's something I can ignore or if it's something I have to pull the trigger on full transition for. It's hard. Especially when I'm so unsure of the results.
I hope these gift box capchas never go away because they are perfect and I love them
at least the current event info isn't HOLY-SHIT WHY-IS-MY-SCREEN-COVERED-IN-A-MILLION THINGS-AT-THE-START-OF-THE-GAME tier
>When someones fake online "nice" persona fades away and you see the true person beneath it all
>tfw cute guy irl is super nice to me treats me like a real girl
>tfw we almost dated twice but he broke it off a day after asking me out
what do i do /mtfg/
I nice most of the time unless I get annoyed lol then I can get bitchy I make no illusions about it.
I don't like her. So I see no reason to be nice.
Not true at all. Shes always acted like she was above it all but tonight shes already shit on buns and now is playing a race war among other insults with clarissa. Shes just like the rest of us now and its glorious.
I don't know if you'll live a better or worse life, but honest-to-god-no-hugboxing I don't think you look bad. How tall are you? Your hips and shoulders aren't particularly bad (and you can hide them somewhat with clothes), and while your face has some boyish features it's not too unlike a lot of girls' faces.
If you've gone out in girl-mode, has anyone actually said that you look bad, or reacted negatively or anything like that?
Please stop referring to me by my slave name.
tell them that you like them rly much and you get why they broke it off last time since you know how weird it is and that you cant go through it again
they want to just hug and hold you until you fall asleep
Is this what happens to everyone that posts here long enough?
Yes elanna. I wish you would leave this place like caddy and ufufu did before you become mean. edie is the only one who has persisted mostly but its because she has a satisfying life.
Uhhh wat. Sometimes I'm nice and sometimes I'm not. We aren't anime characters with only one personality. If I get annoyed I'm not gunna hide it, if I'm happy you'll probs know. My mood doesn't stay the same everyday lol
It doesnt take long to go through the archives to see you acting nothing but like an "anime character" and being super nice to everyone constantly and acting like being mean here was beneath you. You even defended kayla up until like a week ago when your friends dad threw you out or something in reality started to make you act like you are tonight. c u next tuesday.
>plant leads me on and she 100% absolutely knows that I am super attracted to her
>she is surprised when I spill my spaghetti
>says "lel, sorry bitch, we can't be friends because you liked me that one time for like 2 days"
>tfw flying back home today
Me no wanna go ;_;
at least my brother bought me some cigs,beer,hot wings and soda
so that's something to look forward to :/
I find the best thing to do when someone is being a cunt is to just smile and nod.
Even if it affects you badly just don't show it.
I guess it's flattering but it still weirds me out too and I freeze and idk if I should just answer sth in guy voice or what.
I don't really go out as a girl, I already have social anxiety and it's just scaring me to death and skldfjsldkfsjdkflf