Ok guys, confess the shit here even your prison therapist would look at you funny for
I'll start, I'm a tranny so it's gonna be extra degenerate
1. I used to put feet and feet of aquarium tubing up my butt each time I showered then blow into it. I guess this was dysphoria related because I wanted the stomach of a pregnant person. I only stopped when I pulled out the tubing out and it was covered in thick gooey brownish blood. I also tasted the blood, wasn't tasty at all.
2. Would eat as much dry rice as possible, then drink as close to boiling water as possible, to expand my stomach and get me that fat pregnant stomach. I don't know why I stopped, other than crazy poop constipation
3. I found a big eraser (like 3 inches) in the gutter of a road once. I took it home and kept it in my butt for as long as possible. I managed to keep it in all day at school once.
3.Pretty much everything in my room has been up my asshole before the age of 13. Really, everything in this list was before the age of 14. I honestly think dysphoria has fucked me in the head big time.
There's like a ton of other shit, I just can't remember it now. Is everyone else on this board as degenerate as me, or even more?
My confession is that I have nothing to confess. I have never done anything the last human contact I had was shaking the hand of an old high school friend who was back for christmas holidays.
Well I've shoved quite a few things in my butt as well but I think you take the cake.
I've put stuff like screwdrivers, nerf darts, lightsabers, etc. in my butt when I was younger though.
What the fuck OP. You win.
I'm a 20 year old gay guy and never done anything with another boy. I've met so many nice cute girls and have had lots of girls crush on me, yet I kinda wish I had the ability to love them back. If there were a pill to make me straight I'd gulp that shit down immediately, because getting good girls is 10000x times easier
>I used to trick my dog into fucking me when I was younger
>I one time roofied myself at a bar hoping somebody would rape me
>I used to steal my friends underwear and tried to walk around with them in my asshole
Hello fellow degenerate
>Boom one day, I'm a fucking closeted tranny out of nowhere
kek same here, only my closeted phase lasted only three days until i told my parents. damn, i was a crying mess for weeks.
Also when I was 13 my best friend used to suck my dick and Id play with his dick and say "yeah bitch you like that". He susbsequently became a division 3 football player. Also the sone of one of my dads old girlfirends used to molest me I hated it, but one time I put my boy dick in his mouth he didnt like it and he stopped.
>one day I'm a beta straight man who thinks people will like him more if he's a girl
You don't really feel like a woman anon, give it up. You aren't going to be the pretty girl everyone wants to talk to
i gave myself an enema at a public shower using a garden hose and a plastic bottle.
once when i was camping by a river i inserted a thin reed into my urethra.
i put penut butter on my penis and let a dog lick it off. its whiskers werent very nice poking my dick.
once i stuck a fleshlight completely into my ass then fucked the fleshlight with a dildo.
Why do you fucks insist on saying shit like "you never felt like a woman"?
It just shows how fucking retarted you are. Of course we never felt like a girl, that's the problem.
I'm not trans because I feel like a girl, I'm trans cause I hate being a boy. I hate my dick, and everything that stems from having one. Beard, brow, size, shape, experiences, relationships, sex, and life in general. The whole GID shit is faded and delusions, It's vague and inconsistent.
By saying retarded shit like "you don't feel like something you've never been" you're showing complete lack of education, and intelligence, and your arguement is completely irrelevant.
I'm totally cool with being gay and open about it, but ice fantasized about pretending to be 'straight' and tease other gay dudes with semi lewd pics and shit. I'm already dom and seen as 'straight acting', but I wanna play it up and tease some of those bitchy stuck up faggots who worship straight dudes.
I'd also like to subtly tease some older women too for some reason. idk why.
I'm also a virgin, which most people don't know, because I hide my powerlevel well. I wouldn't be if I could into hooking up, but the guys are either undesirable or intimidating, mostly undesirable. I'm holding out for a semi normal slightly younger submissive bottom who's also a virgem. Most bottoms are either spoiled/bitchy, slutty, or fucking nuts.
Met a 52 year old guy on grindr, he invited me into a 4 way. I dp'd.
He invited me to live with him in BC. I said yes.
I live in Ontario and am 18 years old. Will be moving into his place next month.
the first tranny i ever knew was a pregnancy fetishist. used to wear a pregnant belly prosthetic occasionally, went with it on a school trip once, we stopped at wendy's and it got 20 piece nuggets, ate them all, and started feeling up its disgusting belly in front of all of us
In local news eh... A young homosexual man was found with his head beaten in and raped to death.
We need to warn our viewers that the following story is graphic and not suitable for minors.
It appears that the young man left his loving family after being seduced by an older man.
Anon was found after neighbors reported a smell coming from a shed on the property.
Reportedly the young man was lobotomized as well.
You're so fucking stupid anon. You're really fucking stupid. Stay home with your mom. Meet a fucking guy your age, shit meet a guy 20 years older. This is a terrible fucking idea.
Go back to school faggot.
because coming out as a lesbian was difficult to me and i know some people had a hard time understanding me, I try to be open and accepting of everyone's differences
however, I've met a lot of trans/GQ people in school and I haven't met a single one who isn't completely batshit insane. it makes me sad that im developing this bias.
I had non penetrative sex my best friend when we both were 10.
It started out innocent, as in before we had any concept of what we were doing.
We stopped a few months later as we started to realise what we were doing. We didn't play much after that.
I turned out to be mtf, he turned out to be a chav.
I had never fancied men (except for a friend who used to kissed my neck while we played MMORPG when I was a teen) until my first girlfriend and I pissed off. I blew a friend, felt disgusted of my self but I was in so much self hatred I did it again, one day we weresmoking a bowl and making out in my back yard when he'd assault me and fuck me up the ass; I yelled of pain when the dick first got in, he noticed how far he'd gone, stopped and offered me his butt which I fucked right away but fell asleep during the coitus due to being extremely high. We had pity Sex a few more times. I fucked him and other 4 or 5 guys in the year after that only to punish me.
I didn't even like them nor dicks nor men.
Three years later I often Fuck a guy cause he's the best bj I've ever gotten and now I'm sure I like men.
I know I'm bi. It's just I feel guilty cause I think I only sleep with guys cause no girl wants to just fuck and I'm so harmed I don't want relationships at all.
Hope getting humiliated suits you.
That seems to be the general consensus. He didn't seem like the murderer type, he was far too gentle the times we met.
Though, on the off chance I do die.. well, I'm not that upset about it. I was planning on ending it before I met him, but I thought I might as well try this instead.
Nothing to lose aha.
I used to wear girl's clothes and go out at night hoping someone would rape me, when I was like 14
I always ended up running whenever something seemed actually scary though
I have an amazing girlfriend and all i can think about is having lots of crazy sex with boys. I figured out im bi and just feel like im missing out on the experience. ive been thinking about sneaking out and hooking up with one
I think I'm not trans.
Don't get me wrong I love what HRT is doing to me and I hate all my male characteristic.
But I'm not girl inside, I don't use female pronouns when I think about myself.
I don't know what is wrong with me but I know that I'm better person now on HRT. Maybe it was due school abuse and that nobody liked me because I was extreme faggy acting.
>be crossdressing closet sissy
>put on panties, stockings, bra, pink girly top
>put jeans and a long jacket on over these
>go out and walk to remote field where people walk dogs sometimes
>take off jeans and jacket, replace them with dress i have in my bag
>walk around a bit, thrill of possibly being seen etc
>go to middle of field
>get in position to cum on my face
>the idea being that i'd have to walk back to my house with post-cum shame and still have to be dressed as a woman doing it
>immediate what the fuck am i doing with my life
>wipe off cum with dress, leave the clothes there in middle of a field
>walk back in just jeans and jacket
i wish i could say this was by far the dumbest thing my fetish has led me to
This is me 100%. I give zero fucks about pronouns and wouldn't mind being a he my whole life. I just want the body so fucking bad, and all this trans drama bullshit comes along for the ride. People want me to be an activist or have certain viewpoints, and it makes no sense because I just want to be a femboy with tits, aka a girl.
When I was 14, I used olive/vegetable oil to fuck myself with any object I could find in the bathroom, one time I fit like 6 toothbrushes into me, it hurt, but it was nice.
A year later I put my electric toothbrush (like 7") up my ass that felt pretty good.
I'm a gay guy btw, I'm also a top.
>1. I used to put feet and feet of aquarium tubing up my butt each time I showered then blow into it. I guess this was dysphoria related because I wanted the stomach of a pregnant person. I only stopped when I pulled out the tubing out and it was covered in thick gooey brownish blood. I also tasted the blood, wasn't tasty at all.
this actually has a really high probability of causing abscess and killing you, I'm surprised you're alive
What in the absolute fuck, guys...
Anyways, gay male here...buuut:
>Lost virginity to female (direct) relative.
>Say I'm a top, which I am, but I was always the one sucking when I was a teen.
> Played with a drunk, unconcious male friend (yeah, still feel bad for that one...)
>Fucked a good friends fiencee. He still doesnt know years later, though me and her dont fuck anymore.
>Suffer from extreme depression and alcoholism because I know Im a terrible person and Ill never be in a LTR with a cute femboy who loves me.....
>once i stuck a fleshlight completely into my ass then fucked the fleshlight with a dildo.
I'm waiting for this to become mainstream. A specially designed insert that makes douching or worrying about shit dick a thing of the past. maybe something on the insert to stimulate the prostate.
What does radical feminism have to do with trans pregnancy fetishists? Also not sure if you're using "radical" as an adjective to mean extreme, or if you're actually referring to the 2nd wave movement.
>few years ago
>great aunt and uncle living in our house for the past few months, she's slowly dying of cancer
>start to grow resentful of them and just start to ignore them as best I can, they've taken over half the house
>one day I find a pair of my aunts panties in our clean laundry pile, they're striped like shimapan and it turns me on immensely
>sneak them into my room, wear them for a while and jack off into them, all the while my aunt is literally dying in a bed a couple rooms down
>as soon as I cum I immediately regret what I've done and destroy the evidence as thoroughly as possible
She's dead now btw, and now whenever I think about her that memory always pops up and torments me. I was just a horny, confused teenager and I wanted to wear some panties for fuck's sake, but the cancer thing makes it feel a million times dirtier.
deflowered my ass with an eggplant, when i was 12y old.
i am still in awe when i think about it. i mean, have you seen an eggplant? THEY ARE FCKN HUGE, man. Like 10cm (4 inch) in diameter.
And my hip must've been tiny back then.
It was bleeding for like 12 hours afterwards.
Dipshit crazy past-me :D
well, it wasnt that big :D
<- more like this
it started with a small tip and the grew bigger and bigger
Stealth fapping is the ultimate degeneracy in my opinion. OP is a normal person compared to stealth fapping degenerated.
pretty straight forward diagnosis. Fap a couple of times, feeling gone? Just a fetish :)
My only condition right now is pins are sticking out my skin and it fucking hurts. I've mostly calmed down in recent years, all that confession stuff was puberty fueled high octane dysphoria, I think
I once was caught staring at a man's dick in a public shower.
I did some stuff with my brother when we were very young, before i had a real concept of sex and before i even had my first orgasm.
I frequent mlp.
Non of that sound exactly related. The pregnancy thing may ave been a glitch between a female brain in a male body thing with an anal sex kink.
…This ass thing of yours seem more like a preoccupation with you ass and stomach inflation that any sex or gender could have.
Gonna top everyone here
When I was younger around 15~ I would stick pins into my testicles in attempt to castrate myself, yeah it hurt like hell but I didn't care, it's the weirdest feeling scraping around the inside of your testicle
15 years ago I met a neighbor. We had a lot of similar interests. He was 10 years older than me, married with one kid and his wife was pregnant.
One night when he was alone while his wife was in the hospital and his kid was at his mother's house we got drunk and I ended up giving him a blow job.
A few nights later I was in his garage working on his car with him and he ended up bending me over the hood and fucking me.
Since that night we have been sex partners. I've never had sex with anyone since them except for him and he only fucks me and his wife (which isn't very often).
His family doesn't know, neither do mine or any of my friends.
We have sex at least twice a week.
I once had sex with a guy at a house party who was insulting me the whole night and I also let him insult me while he fucked me. Got chased out of the house by the parents of the host because they were bigoted. Worst night of my life desu.
Also I went out clubbing once, got really drunk and started making out with this small Asian guy. We went into the toilets so I could suck him off and he pulled down his pants and he had the tiniest penis I'd ever seen. I burst out laughing once I saw it and he slapped me in the face.
>he slapped me in the face
he couldn't even muster a punch?
Could be non binary or something along those lines idk. I kinda think its dumb that we still force trans people to 'pick a side' and stuff when its clearly not for everyone. Keep doing what feels right for you and your body. You being as comfortable with yourself is all that matters and if that means you don't fit into categories, then fuck that. Humans are weird and complex
okay you win. Wtf. I can't begin to imagine how this felt like. A while ago one of my testicles was swollen for whatever reason and I could barely walk and move (the day after it was normal again)
The first time I had any sexual contact at all was with my roommates in the mental adolescent ward. I can't remember all of it because the hospital drugged me out so much, but I remember that I instigated it and that I gave many blowjobs.
Also had some sort of recurring hallucination there of me being a girl or some shit, thinking about it reminds me how fucked up I was and sorta am still to an extent desu.
Have seriously debated in my head going back there and punching my doctor for giving me meds that made it so I can't remember everything that happened there, because I'm not entirely sure that everything that happened there was consensual.
Links to the papers or it never happened and you are just fear mongering.
Notwe: I do recognize going to somebody purporting to be a friend/whatever can be dangerous. Sadly there are very few shelters that allow transgender youth.
>lost my virginity at 6 with my sisters friend
>fucked 2 cousins
>kinky sex talk with my uncles wife
>my other uncles wife rubbed her feet on my dick one
>dated a 22 year old when i was 12
> fucked a 9/10hooker for $40 (that cunt was amazing)
>dry humped younger cousin (she asked me to)
>Fucked a lesbian (now shes straight lol)
>fucked 2 guys (gay phase in middle school)
>had a threesome when i was 11 with twins in my parents closet
>ruined my bestfriends relationship just by hanging out with her then eventually we ended up like friends with benefits
>sex chat with ex gfs younger sister while we dated
>kissed a 13 year old when i was 5.
>all in all ive kissed about 30 somethin girls, 1 dude, had sex with 9 different chicks, sex wth 2 dudes, only one was my actual gf, ive had 5 gfs and now im straight and single. Fuck me.
This is the most ive done.
>friend finds a stash of porn... pictures and books (pre-internet days)
>I'm fascinated by one book about women being kidnapped, tortured and raped
>borrow stash and read the book about three times
>one scenario gets me the hottest. woman tied up and hung from her neck and fucked in the ass while she chokes
>started fantasizing about it
>one day get rope and sisters clothes that I had been stealing
>go to basement when no one is home
>get dressed in her clothes. bra, panties, skirt, blouse
>tie my legs together and hands in front of me
>throw rope over a pipe, wrap around my neck and pull it tight
>take weight off my legs
>start masturbating while hanging
>start getting dizzy but want to cum
>field of vision starts to narrow and things are going black
>catch myself just before I pass out
>legs wobbly but stable enough to take noose off
>sit in chair and finish jerking off
never tried hanging myself again. was afraid of what would happen if my parents came home and found me hanging in the basement dressed in girls clothes.
One time I was hanging myself from my doorknob and I kind of spaced out and was there for probably about 20 seconds wondering why my neck was hurting so much. Eventually I realised I was hanging there and got myself down. I had some marks and cuts on my neck it was kind of scary.
This wasn't a sex thing or a suicide thing btw I was just doing it to see how it felt I guess.
i still don't know why i haven't killed myself yet and why i even posted this, i just want hormones to work faster or have a good looking face or for something to happen so i could skip time for like a year or two while still on HRT somehow, lose weight and save up for FFS then somehow covertly manage to do it without raising suspicion from my parents.
I just wanna go full time girl but each time i look in the mirror it's fucked up and i scare myself because when i have dreams or fantasies i look somewhat presentable in them, no matter how grounded in reality i try to make them be and it hurts oh god it hurts, like nothing ever hurt, and the fact i'm alone in this and i can't talk to anyone is making it worse. I really should've blown my brains out before i even started, fucking hell.
I give off false bravado constantly, hate on/laugh at trannies, play up this idea im a total dom top on 4chan when really i've been on hrt for nearly a year and i dont like being dominant or topping and i'm really confused. I kind of regret it but nobody can suspect anything
I don't even know about what I get depressed about anymore, at random times of the day I just start feeling sad, sometimes start crying for less than 3 minutes, and keep on with my day. I was perfectly fine before, why did I have to realize I'm a FtM? I was in a moment in my life where I felt I had everything in place, and then suddenly I started worrying about this stuff
A couple of days ago I had a sex dream where my boyfriend had a cunt for some reason, and seemed kinda girly, which at first freaked me out (imagine going down expecting dick and suddenly seeing a vagina), but tried to give it a go just to make him happy, turned out to taste like Hell and so I said we should stop, so we cuddled and shit. It was uncomfortable.
I once tried to use one of those sharpie highlighters as a sex toy at age 13, but I didn't feel anything so I just dumped it
I used to touch myself with gloves on when I was like 12, in fear someone might realize I had been touching myself before we spoke
I think that's it, sorry if there are any grammar or english errors or whatever, I'm not a native speaker
>i've been sucking my older brother's cock everyday since i was 13. he's a marine now
Well of course he'd become a marine.. where else do flaming homosexuals find a job where they can truly be themselves?
I know what you mean about realizing being trans. Fuck, I was a normalish guy who had barely any signs and the minute I started questioning, it went down hill. I cant go back now that I know the dysphoria is real.
I have a small dick (~4 in) and fantasize about being fucked by someone with an even smaller one.
When I was six or seven my older brother, who was thirteen or fourteen, used to make me jack him off. And now I'm a fag with an incest fetish. Thanks bro
This happened to me, too. I came to /lgbt/ one day and started reading and I've been in a downward spiral of confusion and perceived dysphoria ever since. Maybe I'm just crazy because this shit doesn't make sense at all.