I usually win. Natch. But I may not win at being gay. I don't want to fall in to the [male-born andro-fem-trans spectrum] attracted category. What is this sexuality band in the dating world? "Gay" chaser sociopath basically.
I don't care because I need a new identity. I am me and I like who I like. I'm old enough to know. Language however, is useful for socializing and socializing is important for not being alone. It's also kind of my thing.
Meanwhile Apps are gross. I thought women were thirsty degenerates, but gays are like clown cars. Fem gays are all basically Paris Hilton so far. I would rather have dry dick forever than that. And if I have to see another fatty bear posing like a cheesecake girl I may lose my libido forever. It's not funny anymore.
I can't into this. Idk where it went wrong. I know my heart says 'cute penis person.' I should be a gay mafia boss by now. I won't end up somebody's str8 fwb fetish or some hippie bullshit like that. I'm done for now.
I sniffed and licked my friend's underwear while drunk. I was too scared of getting caught to jerk it off though, I probably only did it for about five seconds. My face got extremely hot, my heart was pounding and I couldn't breathe properly. My hands were shaking so much that I could barely put them back where I found them. I'm pretty ashamed about it. Partly because my drunken brain thought of that in the first place, and partly because I'm too much of a pussy to even be a pervert properly.
I have a black, twinky haircut which is my pride and joy. ..and i listened to The Offspring for 2 hours straight this morning. And liked it. Did I have a head injury or just went full emofag? I'm scared.
When I was younger, a friend who lived nearby would come over and we'd play pretend games. At least one of these consisted of her playing a woman in her house and I was a man who'd got into the house and would watch her bathe. She even told me what words to use in reference to her hypothetical boobs. We never did anything we'd get in trouble for if caught but in hindsight, it was a weird fucking scenario to play out.
All I want is to have a kind husband, adopt a kid or two, stay home to care about them and the house or work half-day, serve him a beer when he gets home, get loved unconditionally and grow old with him.
I'm pretty intelligent and so far it looks like I will have a magnificent career. I never told anyone about this dream of mine, because it's just not tolerable. I'm not even a sub or a femboy or anything. It's just like that for me. > movie from the 50s > wife welcomes hubby after work > ywn be her
>>5453727 Met a guy on a dating site, he is really great. we get along really well and are talking everyday. He is a top, i am a bottom, but have only been with one (average) guy. nudes been sent, he is huge. Terrified.
>>5453727 One of my best friends is trans and I wish she wasn't because her family is full of conservative fucktards and testosterone fucked her shit up real bad so she's almost guaranteed to have a shitty time transitioning. I know cause I'm trans too and I only pass because my mom was supportive and I lucked out with my genetics.
One of my best friendships totally crumbled up for some minor shit. She's now acting up all victim like, trying so hard to make me feel like the worst person ever. Bittersweet and dramatic. Alcohol, cuddles and one time pity sex was involved.
I really do miss her company, but whatchagonnado. Life goes on. [spoiler]At least mine does[/spoiler]
Gay friend of mine hooked up with me after my girl left when I was alone and confused. It was ok. I was more turned on by the primal nature of our sex not him. Lots of punching, choking, and domination. Would slam him on the bed choking him calling him "my bitch now". Honestly i liked it because it reminded me of fighting. Some real Greek shit.
Dude got wired afterwords. Wanting to snuggle, spoon, and what not. For someone who was all masc4masc he was fem as Fuck personality wise.
Dropped the bomb on him I still just want girls. Freaks out and says i have "toxic masculinaty" or whatever. Trys to win all the arguments with "just shut up and be gaaaaaaaaaay with me" or "I've been inside you"
Dropped him like a rock.
>TL;DR have first gay time with bearman > have fight sex >bear mode starts act obnoxiously fem "guuuuuuuuuuuurl" >says I'm not a real man. >dropped that faggot
I'm secretly dating a trans girl and even though I tell her I like her just like a biological woman I actually love the fact that she has a dick, though I'm kinda disapointed that it's small and I dont get to play with it.
I jerk off mostly to shemale porn but sometimes when I'm really horny I fap to some gay porn aswell.
I used to laugh at trans people, thought they were subhuman scum
I cosplayed as a female character as a joke. People said I looked feminine as fuck. I liked it, tried more my best. Started wearing more and more female clothes in normal life. Grew out my hair. Started taking hormones.
>>5454544 I want a guy like this. Or else just a hardcore femboy who keeps up the androgynous style but without hormones. Keyword guy/male/fem/whatever terms, and not calling himself a woman. Idk why, I just do. I'm ftm also (lmao the irony, I know) so I have no idea if this decreases my chances or increases or neutral.
Either way, this type seems rare as hell (hrt or no hrt). Most either devolve into giving up fem mode and looking like an everyday masc dude by age 35, or else go full woman, transition, only go by female terms, etc.
>>5455063 I'm becoming kind of emo too. Only 10 years late to this party, lmao. I'm kind of embarrassed but I try to embrace it, and also incorporate some cool classic-goth looks since that seems to be less made fun of (also the bands are just cool).
>>5455187 I fell for a guy that quickly once too. Only time I've ever really been in love. It scared the shit out of me. He never knew. It took me a year to get over him properly, and even then I still think about it sometimes.
>>5455694 Bro, we're still around, these posts are evidence. Just not as big of a craze as before. You've just gotta know where to look, I figure (still new to this stuff). Look up local goth, alt scenes, etc. Hell, Marilyn Manson still tours and has active fans, lol. You can find the emogothtwink you seek.
>>5455696 if you mean that you're a dyke on testosterone then no, straight women dont want dickless effeminate short men with tit scars. your only chance are tumblr whales who want to show how open minded they are
Confession: I'm 21/F, feminine and definitely lesbian. I've been dating guys to make my roman catholic family and my current small [church] town happy, but I'm just done pretending at this point so I'm moving out in 3 weeks to a big city where hopefully I'll be more accepted.
I also believe my brother is gay. I'm 98% sure as he's been very strongly hinting to me about it for years and has lived with the same guy for 7 years. He sounded like he came out to my mom on Christmas but the way he said it was kind of wishy-washy so the religious fanatic side of her denies it.
I've never even came close to coming out to my family for fear of religious back-lash but I just can't keep up the facade anymore. I think if my mom found out that both her son and daughter are queer she would probably have a stroke.
I thought of talking to him and having us both come out on the same day, but I don't want to push him.
>I'm relatively transphobic because I base my impressions on transwomen on a MTF I know in real life who's one of the worst people I've met. Every time I want to broaden my perspective I come here only to find a MTF posting with an anime picture obsessing wanting to be cute or about her boners for other women and I'm immediately turned off from wanting to know more. I'm willing to write this off as 4chan behaviour, not trans behaviour, but I think FTMs are chill
>Between my siblings and cousins from my dad's side, 4 of 8 identify as somewhere in LGBT
>I'm left leaning politically and socially liberal. I know it's chic to be NatSoc or conservative as a LGBT person here but just because it's the narrative for us to be SJWs doesn't mean I need to completely distance myself from my beliefs to feel like an individual
I'm acting all tsundere and like "i don't care", but i really do. I want you back in my life, it feels hollow and empty without you. Not necessarily in a sexual or romantic way, i just really miss you. A lot.
>>5458187 Same senpai. I love the way cock is simultaneously firm and soft. It has that amazing velvet-like texture and warmth that feels like its going to cause my brain to melt while its plunging in and out of my throat. The way it twitches and throbs and leaks is intoxicating. Eating pussy doesn't even compare.
>>5453727 One of my best friends revealed to me recently that she's actually bi and that she "dated" a girl from uni for three weeks after making out with her at a party.
I'm closeted bean/maybe bi and many times when talking face to face with her I have felt an impending urge to kiss her. This would seem like a great chance for me except I'm almost sure that her being bi is absolute bs that she somehow brought herself to believe because it gives her a higher sense of individuality and uniqueness. She may be able to find girls pretty and attractive, but I doubt she could ever feel as deeply about girls as she certainly does about guys.
Tried to contain my smirk when she told me that; kind of regret not laughing at her face when she did.
My brother moved out of the house I still live in with my parents and I always go over to his house in which his friend also lives in because I have a crush on his friend. Also I drink and smoke weed or occasionally take shrooms/acid/ whatevers there
The only thing that makes me happy is making someone else feel the same way. I want to hold my lover and tell him how my heart only beats because his does. I want to make him feel safe and loved. But i'm overweight. I'll never find my true love.
I got injured and have left work like a year ago. Had a bit of a comeback but more shit happened and basically I haven't left the house very much in a few months. I could do things from home at least. Work more on getting strong.
But Instead I've started constantly posting here. I thought it was going to help me figure out my love life, but IDK. I feel too old for this shit. People my age have kids. Thankfully those kids aren't here yet.
I also confess I decided about 3 years ago to never again have random regrettable sex. I'd simply wait until finding the right girl. Twist: don't actually like girls that much. Not romantically. They're OK as cumdumps, but I'm nice now.
So I've been trying gay stuff. But still sticking to my 'nice' decision. Net result is no sex in about three years. I may have low T now. Basically I'm not winning shit. Just stubborn and arrogant and lonely.
>>5453727 For the longest time I have lied to myself about the slightest form of homosexuality that is within because being straight is less fucking gay.
I would be happier if I just admitted who I was, no matter what seems to happen though, even if my family gives me the opportunity. I always reaffirm I am 100% straight to them. They are fully accepting and everything. I just don't fucking know.
When people say gays can't be monogamous, they're right. I've had two boyfriends, one for 2 years and another for almost 3, and I started messing with guys almost 5 years ago. My count on men who I fooled around with (from frotting to anal) is at 12 or 13.
Oh wait no, I'm just a slut. Once a cheater, always a cheater unfortunately. The worst part is that I've told like 4 people, and they've all told me in some way that it's not my fault.
>>5460337 But it's not just them 4 though anon. There's a pretty bad trend of people letting infidelity slide. I know at least 3 others that have cheated (and they're straight) and I'm sure they have their own people who would vouch for them. Who knows how many people keep it private. That said we're all big piles of shit.
I wish I could get monogamy injected into me or electroshock therapied or something. If I could get this fixed I'd be the perfect husbando with the looks and brains.
>>5453864 >real trans >doesn't pass Come on sweety don't be delusional. The real trans passed since they were kids cause they had early dysphoria and learned feminine mannerisms early. I doubt you are anything like them
I've been with my girlfriend for 9 years, I've been transitioning to a grill fot ~2 years. I'm not attracted to her at all any more. In fact I went from straight guy, to straight girl. But she helped pay for my ffs...
> be me, 30ish, married > hot tub fun, always drinks and nakedness > mutual guy friend, always hitting on both me and wife > curious to figure out if gay or straight > get him liquored up > wife sucks him > he sucks me > fucking hot, he's not good at bj but whatever > retire to basement > he sucks me more > I suck him back while wife out of room > wife back > sucks him, then me > fuck wife while she sucks him > hot af > been with 4 or 5 guys since, no penetration, just bj / fondling
i like to go on omegle and make men do things for me >rub ur nipples >suck on your fingers >show me your cute ass >that's it come for me.... i'm a pre-op bi ftm so my dysphoria bags allow me to manipulate men for my own sexual pleasure :) also I love cum + knowing that my grainy webcam camera footage makes these straight dudes do gay things turns me on
Maybe English isnt your first language. The anon is trying to say they ONLY like the sexual organ itself. I suppose its a complex idea they are trying to convey but if you are a native English speaker you should have been able to figure out what they were trying to say.
Example: Guy has a dick sucking fetish and uses apps to find dick to suck every once in a while, but is only in romantic relationships with women.
>>5461238 English isn't my first language, but I speak it well enough. The intent was understood, but I'm calling anon a liar. We have a word for that already; anon is a closet case. Like a significant portion of this site which has convinced one another that they have a "fetish".
You don't have to like everything about males in order to be homosexual or bisexual. I think women have more attractive faces and chiseled lantern jaws are ugly, which is why I prefer androgynous men. At the end of the day I'm still a cock sucking faggot.
I'm not going to hugbox closet fags and tell them they just have a dick fetish when it isn't real.
I recently ordered a corset with garterbelts and some stockings on the internet. This has been a dream of mine since I was about 14 so finally being able to do it gives me satisfaction. Wearing it turns me on. I know this is not really lgbt, but I had to confess somewhere, and this seemed as good a place as any.
I confess that the epic /pol thread (which I won) is missing. >TRIGGERED I made that shit inclusive. Nazi Qt PolGBTeam had at least one tranny as a founding member. That was groundbreaking nationalist socialist civil rights shit. Fucking philistines.
>>5461486 If you were born male it counts. Good for you.
>2.5 years transitioned passing, doing perfectly fine visually >with agency now, life sounds like it should be going swell >been dating constantly back to back pretty much since high school, as boy and then through transition >always been very co-dependent >probably the longest ive been without a bf/gf at all >feel like absolute shit all the time >see ex-gf that abandoned me still doing well and her league team having promise and going pro >hate her and myself every more every day >anyone i find attractive and want to date wants to hang out less and less because i miss seeing someone I could care about so often >see my obvious flaws and yet still fucking hate myself and can't stop feeding into them
I thought life was supposed to be easy on girlmode and after your transition worked out i still fucking hate everything. Am I just slowly becoming yandere?
I am gay or biconfused. but porn compilations of slutty women getting extreme orgasms by alpha men, smoking hot teens, badboys and black men with huge cocks make me come. I am confused by this, does it mean I am also attracted to women? Or what?? also, can you share porn links for me? :3
I'm trans and I really hate myself and other transwomen. Like, I hate transwomen more than pol hates niggers. I hate trannies who pass better than I do and loathe the existence of the agp filth that look like old men in dresses. I think we're all mentally ill degenerates that belong in camps.
Were literally denying millions of years of evolution to become sterile degenerate pseudo women. Srs should be considered a crime against humanity and the doctors who perform it prosecuted in an international court. I hope trump is elected and starts a national tranny registry, eventually rounding us up and sending off to the gas chambers.
I spend most of my free time shitposting because I want to make other trannies feel as bad about themselves as I do about myself. I regularly post agp and terf content because it amuses me to see other trannies become depressed.
>>5462832 I never thought I'd find someone with as much self loathing as I do, but you surpassed me by leagues. You could power the country for years with that much self hatred. Congrats, Anon, I sincerely hope you become a happier person, even if it's only by a little.
I genuinely want to participate, but I can't find anything to confess.
There is literally nothing that I am so ashamed of that I don't already talk about it here. I can try listing the things I don't tell people in real life.
>I used to be very trans-friendly, but I've started being excessively mean to transwomen in lesbian spaces because I've had one too many trannies try to guilt trip me for being an actual lesbian and not wanting their penis. Actually kind of a terf now. >I was very confused at one point and thought I was "genderqueer." Over it now. >I'm mentally ill (diagnosed and on meds, etc) in a way that made me think I was bisexual for a while, despite having no attraction to men and genuinely hating all sex I ever had with men during this period. I consider myself a bronze star lesbian now. >I feel like I probably should be ashamed, but I actually feel proud and happy when I masturbate furiously enough to hurt myself. >I'm fat. I have always been into fat acceptance (and still believe in the principles), but I'm losing weight right now because I secretly hate myself and desperately want to know what it's like to be skinny. >I suspect that I have binge eating disorder, but have not had this confirmed by a mental health professional. >I was repeatedly, violently raped by my parents and their "friends" from as early as I can remember until my early teens. This is the source of a lot (but not all) of my mental health problems.
>>5453727 I don't remember much pre-transition but i think i was a little AGP, which went away. I remember the hate i felt when i had to masturbate to some stupid ass porn and took a few extra pills afterwards, while crying in bed. God, this seems like it was ages ago... To my surprise i don't feel trans anymore, which is a good thing i guess
>>5456585 >if my mom found out that both her son and daughter are queer she would probably have a stroke. >I thought of talking to him and having us both come out on the same day >come out on the same day Is you wanting to murdah hurr
One of the reason why I went on hormones is because I wanted to be cute like anime girls or furry fembois, but then I decided to go all the way when I started growing tits and realized that there's no going back.
>>5466190 apparantly you mistook men with apes and muslim men, and i state that as a women who has been harrassed and raped several times by the same group of ´men´ I don't hate men, i hate certain ... races. there, i said it.
So I'm a bi dude and I'm catching feelings for this really cute lesbian woman pretty hardcore. We always hang out, have a lot in common, and she always jokes about people thinking we're a couple. She always says nice things about me and I get pretty bummed when I don't get to spend time with her and I'm sure she's the same way, as she'll hit me up when I stay away when feel I'm always up her ass.
I don't want to get too attached and have her think I'm just spending time with her because I was to fuck. I'm really not that type of person. She's super sweet and everything. But at the same time, I can't deny I'm really attracted to her and would in a heartbeat get with her if I knew she felt the same.
I feel like such a rotten fuck. Why can't I be attracted to normal Hetero women?
>>5466256 I get that, i try not to hate this certain group but i just can't and i can't avoid them. Luckily i dislike foreigners for a number of reasons ;) Nah but seriously, i tried everything to be open but they do a lot to fuck up. Daily, whenever i stumble upon them. Other men (natives) are perfectly fine, i feel safe with them and i even prefer them as friends over most women. Yes, it'a complicated.
>>5466256 No, you hate the same thing. The difference is that the other anon had enough intelligence to realize only arab and black men are the problem, and that it's stupid to hate latin, white and asian men for a behavior that is quasi-exclusive to shitskins. It's called categorization and it's a basic intelligence skill that's been repressed by years of leftism mass brainwashing. It exists because it helps you survive as an individual, and repressing it just makes you a delusional sheep.
>>5466278 Blacks. >>5466284 >discrimination >basic intelligence Yeah right The only difference is that I've been traumatized by my father when I was 7 year old While you've been traumatized by foreigners when you were older, and your intellect is trying to legitimize your (childish) pain, by being more subtle in the group of people you make the displacement on (it's no more, "everyone that has a dick", but "everyone that originates from/that has typical features of.." If you were a black living in Africa in year 1700 or so you'd think white people are the worst etc.. We're both equally dumb at least I recognize it
>>5466302 >blacks yes, but mostly muslims. Almost exclusively muslim. The other kind of hate (hating me) is the same kind of discrimination but at least it's based on experience, so i guess >>5466284 makes sense. The rest of your statement is a bit shocking.
I've always considered myself straight but I spend a lot of time masturbating to girls. I love lesbian (2D) porn and read/watch it pretty much every time I masturbate. Lately, every time I am near another girl.. I jokingly hit on her and want to touch her. It feels like I'm losing control or something.
I've been married to a straight male for 5 years, I'm worried that I may be in denial now. The most awful thing is that I love my husband a lot and would never tell him this because I think being bisexual is so degenerate.. not even gay people tolerate them.
>>5466248 >Why can't I be attracted to normal Hetero women?
Straight guy here. I have the same problem. I guess I'm just attracted to androgynous people (I mean, I like girly boys, too, but not enough that I'd call myself bi). But the thing is, my mother used to have what I guess we can call gender dysphoria. She wanted to be a boy when she was young, and she's fairly masculine in thought and action.
So I want to date my mother? Hello Oedipus. And true enough, the one succesful relationship I had was with someone who would later turn out to be a FtM transgender.
I always thought I had a bad gaydar, but I can pretty much use my dick instead.
>>5453727 FtM here. I think most FtM's are horrid. To name a few:
>feel entitled to being gendered correctly >transition due to failure of being an attractive female >hyperoffended by those with views varying from their own >refer to their vagina as their front butt, or their clitoris as their dick and vehemently deny the fact that they have the body of a female
Not all FtM's are like this of course, and I myself used to be unnecessarily sensitive to being misgendered.
You can't "suck up" gender dysphoria, but you do have a fair amount of control over how interactions with others affects you. I say this from personal experience.
>>5466190 It is really sad to read this kind of post... I'm really sorry for whatever happened to you, and you should really be less hateful. I'm not that old, and I know I don't own the truth, but I sincerely wish you realize that we(men) are not the same and most of us don't want to rape the shit out of anyone. Sorry for any grammar mistake, my mother language is portuguese.
>>5455168 You fell in infatuation. I too am proud e too it. Infatuation is commonly mistaken for love, as it often feels the same. The difference is that love, by definition, is not felt within a short period of knowing someone.
I'm a man who wants to be a woman. I don't think this is due to any deep-seated psychological issues or anything. It's simply because I prefer how women look, how they behave, and especially how coveted and cherished they are.
However, my queer friends do nothing but overload me with positive reinforcement and that makes it really hard for me to keep a clear mind about why I actually wear makeup and shave my body hair and present as female. It's really just out of a desire to be a woman, not because I think I'm special. In fact I think if men were honest with themselves, many of them would admit they often feel the same way.
I still want to be able to fuck women in the vagina with my penis though. So, good luck ever having a normal relationship, me.
>>5466240 >raped several times by the same group of men Anon, it might not be my place to say this, but I think you need some help to prevent you from being raped, maybe actually reporting the Times you were raped to the police.
>>5466709 Because she's such a visible public figure, an olympic athlete declaring to the whole world, loudly and unambiguously, that she is trans. She's raising the public profile and increasing awareness among simpletons and TV watchers in the red states. I couldn't handle an ounce of the scorn and ridicule she's subjected herself to as a result, but she's not keeping it a secret, she's forcing America to accept her exactly as she is, and that's pretty inspiring to me.
I understand that she's a hon and that she's rich and blah blah blah, but we can't really afford to be picky when it comes to which trans people enter the public eye.
>>5466385 Bro I guess it's because of my shit experiences with women, but I'm really, REALLY attracted to chicks who drink and party like dudes without being sluts. Its just shitty they all like vag as much as me.
>>5466790 they barely speak my language, always were in group, always were out of sight when i was able to do something against them. Most cases get shut down here and i don't trust the authoritys anymore. I got pepperspray but whenever something like this occurs i get shaky and all weak, my mind goes blank and i just ... shut down. Raped once, sexually harrassed 7+ times, mostly in the subway. I avoid public transporation now and moved away. >>5466670 handsome!
im as strraight as an 180 degree angle but i keep having agp fantasys. i have such a high esteem of a dream girl i guess my brain figured that in order to experience her i should become her. basicly want to be 10/10 princess level hot fucktoy, and then i masturbate and it goes away.
>>5469626 i'd like to ask you some stuff if you don't mind. do you only think about being a girl while horny? what's the chronological order, "first the thoughts then horny" or "horny, want to masturbate and these thoughts aid in masturbating"? is masturbating fun for you and/or is there another reason why you do it?
>>5453727 > be me. > living in the middle ages. > been walking for a while. > starting to get tired. > see wall. > decide to sit down for a bit on said wall. > fall of wall. > break every part of my body. > never the same again. > mfw I'm an egg.
I'm an MtF with a pretty intense fantasy of bullying and dominating a petite FtM and rubbing how feminine and non-masculine they are in their face. I know that's not too bad of a confession, but knowing how awful dysphoria can be yet still being turned on by this thought makes me feel really guilty.
>>I got my heart crushed by my best friend who used me for sex, and money, she now uses the fact we had sex against me now all the time >>She tells me she loves me but not romanticly anymore and got mad I asked her to stop saying it in general because I can't take it >>She acts like she hates me and has a crush on some stupid guy who she never shuts up about >>Start to be a lot more out going and get self confidence back >>Start dressing really cute >>Guys hit on me a lot now but closeted as fuck and really don't to come out because every lesbian in my area is some ugly af overweight older butch SJW feminist >>Havent told anyone this and it's killing me inside >>All I want is some taller gf a few years older then me ( I'm 21 and a 5'3 toothpick ) to cuddle with and switch between being dom and sub with.
I'm 18 and dating a girl two years younger than me.
We went on dates and she eventually told me her real age. It's got me messed up because we've only held hands, hugged, kissed, cuddled etc. But it still makes me very nervous even though I like her alot.
>>5453727 i transitioned at 16 because the leading psychiatrist who is fighting trans rights is a straight guy and hes really hot. i only started visiting him to start a transition because i was crushing on him. 8years later (now) im married to him and im studying medicine myself to become a psychiatrist and fight along side with him.
god i had to get that out i really havent told anyone irl this, everyone was flabbergasted when we started dating. but not only is he insanely attractive to me (mind u im 5'10 hes 5'7 and im generally not into smaller men) but hes also just such a good person, ugh. the way he delivers his speeches just get me every time.
im not trans at all btw, i didnt have any dysphoria and still dont feel any.
>>5480269 i just feel normal, there isnt anything different really. i did have some "regret" thoughts shortly after my ffs & breast augmentation but i knew what i was doing and i look fairly good.
only thing weighing on my mind is, is that minus the 3years transitioning id be much further into med school. then again i wouldnt be married to the man i used to look pictured at every night pre-transition (i lowkey feel like i sound crazy and also excuse my english im from europe)
>>5480273 yes but thats easy. i just go with the general "i always felt like this", " i didnt wanna come out cause i was scares", "i tried living as a gay male"
it might affect me more than i think since i somehow feel better typing all of this out.
>>5453727 I was molested by an older girl (19 at the time) when I was ~13. I'm now MTF, postop, since I was around 17. I'm 24 now. I've transitioned so I can be her. So far, though, I've convinced my family, friends, coworkers, and doctors, that I'm legit.
>>5453727 i hate trannies and third gender people because i'm closeted trans and i would rather kill myself than be lumped in with you retards
i think MtFs are generally straight cis men with self esteem so low that they think the only way theyll find love is if theyre kawaii anime girls but they still wanna be with girls
i think FtMs are attention whores who get off on being different. they love still being feminine and looking like yaoi men
genderqueers are just fucked up. they get mad about cultural appropriation and then fucking take something shitty that people kill themselves over and trivialize it so they can make up their own shitty oppression and so they can get mad when people don't automatically know theyre not just ugly lesbians or men wearing shitty makeup
After almost a year of virtually daily questioning I still can't fucking tell if I"m trans or an imposter. And I can never get myself motivated enough to make changes in my life, seeing a therapist being one of them. How the fuck do people get motivated to do things?
I'm openly biscum and I can't talk to girls. I've never even held one's hand. I'm 23 and don't know anything about talking, let alone flirting, and it's getting to the point where I can't even look at a nice girl or see girls kissing on tv without feeling like the entire world is laughing at a joke that I'm too incompetent to get. I feel pathetic.
>>5495262 I have that too. Just today I talked to a gay dude that I like. I mean it wasn't super smooth, but I wasn't stressed about it or overthinking it. Whenever I try to talk to a girl I like I completely fall apart. When to comes to any person that I don't find attractive (gender or sexuality doesn't matter) I'm just fine.
It's even worse if somebody's crushing on me and they approach me. When it's a girl I completely fall apart, again. A guy has never approached me, but yeah I live in /pol/and, so doubt it'll ever happen.
How come as a gay guy I'm not disgusted by licking out or banging a female, it doesnt turn me on, it sort of means nothing, but if you asked a straight guy to suck a dick, they get extremely uncomfortable and physically disturbed?
>>5495262 >>5497025 Bi MtF here, I get that too for some reason. Like I've made out/had sex with a couple of girls (mostly due to alcohol) and have a few female friends that I've grown to feel comfortable around, but if I even have to just speak to a girl I don't really know I have to fight to not turn into a pile of spaghetti. It's even worse if I'm attracted to them or if they're into me, my anxiety skyrockets and I have to gtfo asap. Plus there's the added "she's a cis girl so she'll be able to tell I'm trans if I so much as say the wrong thing" that fucks me up too.
Yet with guys I can flirt like a professional (literally it's my job) and it doesn't take any effort to talk to them whatsoever unless they're super cute.
When I was 19, I let a guy's German shephard fuck me. I've since had 2 boyfriends, and while I wouldn't trade a human bf for a pet, the sex just doesn't compare... I've been craving dog cock for years and I've lost all interest for sex with human, but I still need love frm humans.
>>5471794 I really relate to this, but ftm. It's basically why I mainly call myself ftm or transman without the space, too...I'm not the same as women or as cismen/born males. I'm the same as other transguys as a category and that's about it, it seems. :/ Sometimes it makes me dysphoria to have that difference from typical guys, but in general I've tried to make peace with it.
>>5489524 Relatable. I'm ftm and this eurofaggy metro guy molested me around a similar age. A lot of the guys I want to look like or just am attracted to end up having a similar look. It's confusing and kind of depressing. but either way I'm still trans and it's valid outside of these feelings so I try not to think about it too much. Related, I had a thing with a similar looking guy and then dyed my hair his color for a good while. Both types of feelings (look like/attracted to) used to be more intense than that are now. Idk why.
>>5497680 That reminds me of something. It's not as bad now but I had a strong desire to have a dog fuck me for a while. I made an account on some dog fucking website and almost arranged a meet but backed out. I also asked some guy I was fucking to let his dog fuck me then suddenly realised how weird that was for me to say.
>>5497859 He looked at me like I'd just shot a baby and said "no..." Never saw him again.
>>5497869 >I couldnt really enjoy regular sex after doing it I'd like to think that wouldn't happen to me, I really like having a guys hands all over me and roughly handling me etc which a dog couldn't really do but of course I'm not that experienced in how it would feel to be knotted so I don't know.
I fear an economic and political collapse in Europe, which will again lead to the rise of extremist far-left and far-right ideologies, namely marxism-leninism and fascism, which in turn will lead to either anarchism or totalitarianism.
>tfw I fear a return to 20th century faggotry and the day of the rope
i'm so in love with my girlfriend i don't fantasize about anyone else. i don't want to fuck other women, i don't even find them attractive any more. i can say that a girl is hot, but it does nothing for me. i wanna be with that chick for the rest of my life.
because thats not how dysphoria works. its a lie some trannies perpetuate so they can shut down the question "how come CBT doesnt work". spoilers: for some people it does. but a lot of trannies think that if people know that then itll be harder to get access to hormones (probably would) and some people are just entitled creepers who dont want to be told they are wrong or need help
I dont ever want a romantic relationship. This isnt really a confession, i just wanted to vent. I like one night stands but they dont really happen past college (i cant do the hookup app thing, i need more than a pic to know if im attracted and most people on those sites are sexually disgusting to me). i used to always find someone to go home with tho then, at parties, it was so much fun. and i had a few "friends with benefits" (god i hate that phrase) but every one of them eventually wanted a relationship so bad that it ruined everything. why cant i meet a guy like this, optimally one that doesnt turn into a boring puddle once we get to know each other. guys seem to only want a hook up or a committed monogamous romantic relationship, no in between
Me (gay guy) and my co-worker/friend (bi-girl) are secretly having multiple competitions on who can fuck which co-worker first. So far she has only slept with one of our co-workers, I'm still at zero.
Also, we are working on organizing an orgy for the entire store we work at to dissipate the ridiculous amount of sexual frustration going on. Its about 15 people ages 18-27.
Despite the fact that I consider myself gay, I've only slept with two guys but lost count of the woman I've slept with. That being said the two guys I slept with I loved them, whereas the women literally mean't nothing to me.
I want to start slutting it up with guys but apps and the bars scare me. I plan on going to the furcon next month and fucking literally everyone.
>>5497452 >wait for retirement and travel if you can, switch careers and pursue a hobby youve always wanted to try. youve seen a lot of shit so you know that patience is rewarding. you got this Going back to college start Jan 21st going for broadcasting specializing in radio. Thanks Anon Most of you younger guys have me in my grave already
I'm a healthy, fit, handsome, straight guy with a good dick.
I can't meet women though...
I experimented with guys to the point of letting an artsy fuckboy suck my cock, and letting another guy jerk me at a poly party, but i'm still repulsed by kissing a dude with facial hair, or grabbing his dick, or fucking his ass...
I can't pull pussy but I can't go full gay.
I wish I were gay. I wish I had a girlfriend with nice hips. Very frustrating.
>>5500269 Relatable. I wish I could just go one way or the other and not be bi, lately. Just so I could have a more reliable foundation rather than "haha, let's roll the fuckin dice on this jerk" game played by the fates, lol
I've said it before and I'll say it again, body aspects should work like Mr. Potato Head dolls. Take it off and switch it around. Every local lgbt ctr would have an ftm/mtf donation/swap system. Perfection.jpg
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