Confess your sins right here. Light or hardcore, anything goes.
I'll start. My penis is the reincarnation of Adolf Hitler. I'm not racist but I can't get it up to black/asian men. Only white people. I'm romantically capable of falling in love with said men though.
I'm very wrathful and spend most of my waking hours contemplating killing people. I've spent money frivolously that people gave me for other things. I rarely consider others without prodding, but when I think about the impact of my actions on others I tend to devolve into useless histrionics which are themselves narcissistic, instead of just fixing my behavior. I've started running away from my responsibilities and misery after realizing despair had made my brain highly plastic and now I sort of think fiction is real on some level. I don't keep my clothes, person, or room clean.
I'll go third. My vagina is the reincarnation of Eva Braun. I'm not racist but I can't get wet to black/asian women. Only white people. I'm romantically capable of falling in love with said women though.
OP here, got another one. I think human conflict, wars and deaths are neccesary. It's the human nature. Unfortunately war is our craft.
I'm out m80, gotta sleep. Rev up those guilts and keep em coming.
>I was16 Pre-hrt MtF
>Stay in my (female) cousins room, at my uncle's house when My dad's goes somewhere.
>Secretly Dress up in her close when I'm home there alone.
>Do it frequently for months
>I'm in obvious female clothes with make up and stuff on because my uncle said they would be out all day.
>Door suddenly opens
>For some reason I freeze and can't move, even if i could there's nothing I can do.
>Cousin's boyfriend walks in
>"Oh.... are you Anon's girlfriend? Sorry, I was Just getting something for (Cousin's name)."
>As he's walking out, he turns around.
>Starts walking closer
>"hold on you look familiar"
>I start shaking really bad
>He bursts out laughing
>He says to not worry he won't tell anyone if I do something for him
>Small southern town USA have no other choice.
>Starts off as a small sexual thing
>Eventually it develops into full blown rape.
>Starts asking me to send him pictures and stuff
>I comply, but record the conversations and text messages
>I then blackmail him.... he has alot more to lose than I do, plus I have proof.
>Get him to buy me clothes and other things.
>Make him beg me not to tell anyone occasionally
>Months go buy
>Cousin crying in her room
>"Hey what's wrong" I say
>Find out that her boyfriend killed himself
>Run outside and smash my phone into tiny pieces
>Can't stop shaking
>Dad starts asking me if I'm gay
>"N-no w-what makes you say that???"
>Explains to me that cousin's boyfriend said that he loved me in his suicide note.....
>>Explains to me that cousin's boyfriend said that he loved me in his suicide note.....
I feel bad, I do, but I laughed at this. Mostly because this fucker raped you and killed himself.
What a fucking reject.
Hope you're doing better.
One time a cat was kneading on my boobs and I was like "this is really gay" so I pushed her onto the floor and I still feel bad about it. Please forgive me.
I'm a gay guy who feels like he shouldn't even try dating because no guy is gonna not want anal eventually. I don't see a point for anal and I don't have an interest in giving or receiving it. I'd rather do frot, use toys, or do hand stuff
>Irrationally terrified that all women will become lesbian. No one knows about this irl.
>Never found an Asian person attractive. Not in a mean way, just really not my type.
>Lost virginity at 18, fingered a girl in a movie theater at 15 (sleazy as fuck). High school was going down on girls (not many) and not one picking up the fact they never had to pay back, and how fucking weird that is.
>No relationship lasts more than six months, when she picks up that I'm basically her boy-toy.
>Probably been gay my whole life, since I always go after masculine women. (Not as in hairy, you motherfuckers. I'm talking about home plate-shaped profound chin I like to bite, really girly and anti-social personality; and plays water polo so when we wrestle in bed it's a challenge to throw her down and make her eat carpet.)
Pic related is type. Random-ass chick so it doesn't count as creepy.
Told you it was gonna be a celebration.
>come out to my close friend
>hes fine with it
>go out to bar have a good time
>later that night driving home from the bar
>asks if he could suck my cock
>turn him down
>tell him to install grindr
>tells me hes not attracted to men and he just wants to suck my cock
>shit gets weird
>tell him i have a bf and i should go
we haven't talk text since that night :-:
I really thought I was trans for a while but decided I'm not gonna go on hormones and now I think I'm maybe one of those non binary things but I don't like that because of it's association with tumblr.
Also my bi gf being more attracted to girls is probably what majorly made me think I'm trans but there was other stuff in my background too so meh.
Don't be my friend. Ask, and shall answer.
Yeah basically, all I know is that I like masculine people; so maybe that's just tom-boys or actual guys. I'm not gonna come out until I'm 100% certain I'm gay, and even then might wait a year just to be sure. If I'm just bisexual I'm not gonna come out at all and will just be "straight"; or at least get a girl who totally doesn't hate bi-guys but is ok that I'm not what she planned for.
I understand the bi-hate here though. I'd never cheat and wouldn't even be able to if I tried; but if I had a choice, I'd honestly take starting a relationship (maybe family when older) with a girl than with a guy.
Not even a passive aggressive hyphen.
>I understand the bi-hate here though. I'd never cheat and wouldn't even be able to if I tried; but if I had a choice, I'd honestly take starting a relationship (maybe family when older) with a girl than with a guy.
You're a self loathing bisexual guy. Congrats. You know who is the #1 group of cheaters in the world. Straight people. Get the fuck over the hate for bisexual people.
He wanted to give me a bj and i asked him if he had a thing for me he said no
a tranny that only goes down on other trannys
what the fuck mate
Masculine, closeted, serially-monogamous top here.
I enjoy mentally pushing younger, inexperienced or first-time bottoms a little further than they're comfortable with when hooking up with them.
It's not one major thing I do, and it's *never* non-consensual. It just turns me on terribly to make someone come face-to-face with what they want.
Love, love, making a smart, serious guy act slutty and really think about/verbalize what he wants.
There's always a point of self-awareness in which they realize they're going to get fucked, they want it, and I'm in control. It's after that point that the hookup gets really...good.
Plain old casual fucking doesn't do it for me. There's gotta be that mental hump I push him over.
I'm 100% sure I'm trans, and have been on hormones for nearly 2 years, but have made 0 other steps towards becoming a grill. I'm pretty sure I could pass and have been told I'm qt, but I'm afraid of the people that know me seeing me as effeminate or a tranny. I've contemplated moving away and starting a new life someplace else many times but am 2pussy to go through with it.
Also I've read erotic homosuck fanfiction
I've spent all my life acting as masculine as possible when I'm around people. It would be extremely uncomfortable if I were to suddenly change. That's why I want to move someplace where nobody knows me, so I can be myself.
1. Cheated on every previously partner I've had.
2. Convinced a drunk friend to eat an entire pack of painkillers.
3. Poisoned someone in my college hostel because he rubbed me up the wrong way.
4. Go out of my way to hook up with people I know my friends are interested in, or with people who will cause the most social fallout.
5. Cut myself regularly, evident with loads of scars all over my body, which I use as a manipulative tool by acting all ashamed and self-conscious about them while getting others to open up to me.
6. Got a recovering alcoholic behind a bottle and then behind a wheel, resulting in a collision that put a pedestrian on a vent and him behind bars, so as to open up the career ladder in his old department.
7. Keep a few closeted boys on an emotional chain by fostering a love-hate relationship and making sure I'm the only person they have opened up to about the fact that they like dick, making them isolated and desperate to get my attention.
hes not attractive to me and hes the biggest nerd.
i just want me friend back.
pic is him
>pretty aggressive guy
how bout it, faggot
I feel like I'm such a boring person. I have no real interests or hobbies besides videogames, don't go out because of social anxiety and have a bland personality.
I don't even have anything interesting to confess because literally nothing happens in my life. So I guess that's a confession in itself.
Have you tried anal? It's ultimately up to you of course, but it may be worth a shot. If nothing else you could try to be a top if a situation like this happens. It's a lot less intensive to top a guy than to bottom for a guy.
Cheating on my gf with my ex. Theres some other girls on my mind too, if they called me right now to fuck I'd be there naked in half a second. I keep talking about how I'll break up with gf, but I don't feel like dealing with her sobbing right now. I know objectively I'm a piece of shit, but ultimately I feel no remorse or shame. I'd keep this shit up forever except I'm tired of gf's shit anyway.
Thanks. That's what I usually tell myself when I think back on it.
Thanks. I wasn't supposed to know about the note, my family planned on keeping it a secret from me. my dad however felt I should know I guess. My cousin didn't know I knew about it. For a month or so she wouldn't even look at me.... So I'm guessing she read the note. Eventually, she would ask me what I thought about her boyfriend. I told him I thought he was kind of an asshole, but it does suck that thing he's gone now. I'm guessing she was trying to get some information out of me, she probably wanted to know why, I don't blame her honestly.She felt pretty sad, because of the whole situation in general. She's moved on though.
I'm doing okay I guess, not amazing though. Struggle with depression from time to time. I'm 19 now, finishing my first semester in college. I've moved out of my dad's house, living on campus.
Unfortunately, I haven't started hrt. Part of me just doesn't know where to begin and the other part of me is really afraid. Afraid that my family will disown me. They're extreme conservative christian. Right now, they seem so proud of me for going to college, but I know it would be completely different if they knew how I felt. My tuition and stuff is paid for though. I'm also afraid of not passing. Afraid of being alone too. I'm not hideous, but I really wish I would've started 3 years ago. I was pretty cute back then.
I have a couple supportive friends. both of my parent's know. neither of them are supportive. My mom told me that she would kill herself if my brother came out as gay, because that would mean she failed as a parent, and my father thinks its a "test from god" or something like that. I didn't even want to tell him, my counselor in high school drug him in one day. He acts like it never happened now. scared to death to tell my father's extended family. They lose their shit if i don't cut my hair for a couple months.
my older stepbrother used to molest me, through jr high and highschool.
Now I can't cum unless I close my eyes and think about him forcefully doing those things to me
Am I broken?
I'm an escort. I'm always lying to my friends and family about where I'm going, where I've been, what I've been up to, where I got all this money etc etc.
I got drugged and raped once while escorting and don't even really care
I resent trans women even though I am one myself. I don't have an issue with FtMs for whatever reason, I just think being born a guy and dressing up and acting like a girl and wearing makeup and stuff is creepy and weird and I hate myself for having to be a part of this shit just so I can treat my dysphoria.
I don't really give a fuck about any of my friends anymore, I always think about abandoning everyone and starting afresh somewhere else.
Almost all I think about when I'm fantasizing is about being raped, beaten or forced into some kind of sexual situation.
My housemate has a Chihuahua that I really hate. A couple weeks ago, while I was babysitting my housemate's daughter, I accidentally stepped on the Chihuahua. Apparently they are extremely delicate and I accidentally snapped the dog's leg in half.
Her daughter is mentally disabled so I blamed it on her daughter. And now my housemate has spent almost $800 on vet bills to fix this dog's leg.
The worst thing is that I don't feel too guilty about it. I hate that dog and my housemate is kindof a bitch.
I was having sexual text conversations. With someone else. Until the day I got married. I erased and blocked his phone number sinse then. I have guilt about it. But I do not think it was cheating. I would never cheat.
I once sat on a chair without realising that my dog was asleep on the back of it, he half jumped and half fell off the back and blew out one of his ACLs.
I felt so guilty for years and still do when i think about it, even though the dog lived a full life and died many years ago. I can't blame you for the accident, but concealing your involvement and lacking any sense of guilt over it makes me believe you're a truly awful person.
>I'm a alcoholic
>starting to become a shut in, only leave house to go to the store or work
>I consider myself gay, but I'm fucking some girl from work because I'm lonely
>don't particularly enjoy it, but whatever
Well, for light - I have a shoplifting problem.
It just gets more and more out of hand, and I hate it. I don't even need any of the stuff I take, but if I don't take something it feels almost painful. Maybe I'm legitimately klepto...
It needs to stop before I get into legal trouble... I couldn't do that to anyone who knows me.
I sort of "raped" someone before at a super smash bro party
>newly discovered im bi
>hanging out with new group of college friends, about 15 people there
>playing super smash bro at this kids apartment, hes qt, has a slight lisp, sort of obvious he isnt straight
>sort of stealing glances all night
>fall asleep at some point around 3am
>everyone else asleep too in living room
>wake up about 7am
>hear noise in kitchen, investigate
>hes in there making something, doesnt hear me
>i have a diamond morning wood boner and am horny as fuck
>go up behind him without even thinking and put hand over his mouth, just start grinding him, biting his neck lightly,
>"ummph..", doesnt really struggle
>just keep doing it for about 10 seconds
>he starts licking my hand
>stop and run out the door before he has the chance to recognize me
Went home and fapped furiously, and i'd do it again
I want to be my friend's girlfriend.
He told me he'd date a trans-girl.
He has a girlfriend.
I dream about him... but he's always with his girlfriend. Apparently these are feelings I have repressed since I first knew him. I awkwardly admired/resented him, but when he had a girlfriend I just couldn't stand to be around him.
I got one.
>date girl in high school, very in love
>we both want to continue it as long as we can
>her parents break us up
>head off to school
>years pass, unable to date other people
>finally get new gf
>gf becomes emotionally abusive, dump that shit
>realize this is what it feels like to be over a person
>realize how fucked that high school thing was
>get back in contact with HS GF
>both really hype to be talking again
>she's got a SO, I don't hate it, good for her
>she never mentions them or talks about them--she doesn't even say their name
>we're talking all the time about intellectual shit I suspect they can't hang with
>she's telling me when she's in town
>she's telling me when she's stressed out
>she only lasts a week before starting conversation again
>I try to call her to answer her question/figure out what the fuck is going on
>phone rings 6 times before going to voicemail
Legbutts, we're shitting all over her new thing and neither of us can control ourselves or set boundaries. If their thing does fold now, it'll be because I got back in touch and I'll have screwed this poor stranger who did nothing wrong but decided to date a girl with more baggage than LaGuardia.
>TFW I'm dorky/geeky enough that some guys think I'm less experienced than I really am.
>TFW I look a couple years younger than I am.
>TFW I've occasionally convinced tops that I'm inexperienced so they'd get more excited about putting me in their control and fucking me.
It's a neat trick. Realistically won't last but a few more years though. Ah well.
>Getting silenced, a boner grinded up on you, and neck biting by an unknown horny guy.
So this is what it feels like to be degenerate; my dicks a boulder now.
Although be careful with that. Shadow molestation seems like it could go south really quickly.
>Be me, young (but legal) teen who was molested by his older closeted cousin when he was like 4.
>Grow up to be a semi masc twink, discover Craigslist.
>Start having (safe) sex with dozens of guys, all of them older then me. Have a preference for guys who are closeted and have something to lose.
>Even though I am a bottom, It turns out that I get a massive dom rush from knowing that I am the one letting them do it to me, and that they would do anything to let me pleasure them. Afterwards, I make a point never to talk to them again, perhaps even lie and say it was a bad fuck.
>Realize it has always been a sick way for me to take revenge on my cousin. That I have basically become a sexual predator.
>I'm only 18
Had a bit of a wake up call. Deleted my email created just to manage hookups, and had a good long look at myself. I decided to stop letting my hate make me like my cousin, and move on. Even sent out some apologies to a few of the guys who clearly wanted more then just some skin, but also someone they could be themselves around. I dont know if they ever got it or forgave me, as I deleted my email right after sending them.
Now I just hope I can find a nice healthy relationship down the line. I still am into older men, but now I kinda want someone who can just accept me for who and what I am.
Tldr; I was able to do what most cant and turn myself around, and feel so much better for it.
I have a HUUUUGE superiority complex. It took me a while to realize it and it's not something I'm proud of
I always seek relationships with boys who are shy or insecure and dependent on me. I love knowing I could end the relationship, and he'd have nothing without me
It affects friendships as well. Every time I have a close friend, I rarely actually care about them as a person. I just like having "popular" and "pretty" people around me while others are watching. So that they feel inferior around me because I'm with the "cool crowd"
I feel like I'm a good person deep down. No idea what causes this behaviour in me
Yea you might be a nice guy after all. Your superiority complex could be stemming from a compensating mechanism. If not, well, guys like you turn me on.
I have a friend just like you, but he's an asshole because he wont admit that he's everything you just described and more.
My cat loved to kneed my crotch. Thank god it was declawed.
You likely want to talk to a therapist about it. There are treatments that can be tried to help get you past it.
Therapy... I detect a bunch of likely issues.
Again, therapy can help.
>tfw I sound like a broken record...
I think repressed desires is common in the transitioned.
>transitioning after decades of denial.
>At dinner sitting there listening to a couple of friends of over two decades chat about current computer science theory.
>only sporadically join in the conversation.
>After dinner is done, finally tell them I'm trans, and been on hormones for months.
>One makes the comment "It's about time."
>The day after I realize I have strong crushes on both of them.
Kind of funny situation as I'm the one who introduced both of them to the intricacies of higher end computer science theories. Yet I'm doing very little computer related stuff now. I got both of them hooked on the science of computation.
>tell guys I'm vers. just so they'll like me
>fuck them for hours even though I hate it
>I can't cum from fucking
>they fall asleep in my arms
>lay awake and wish I was dead
>I always think about abandoning everyone and starting afresh somewhere else.
That's because your friends probably don't really fulfill your needs. It might be best to just do that and part ways. Seems like you're just afraid to take the plunge and cut ties because you don't know what comes after them.
Get your life in order, get an education, and stop escorting when you can. (escorting And get over your hatred of trans women because it's just you projecting your insecurities (fear of not passing, hatred of being born male, etc.) onto other people who don't deserve it.
looking into therapy will help you with your fetish for being raped.
I'm trying! It has gotten better as I've gotten older, but going to parties and stuff still freaks me the fuck out. I'm honestly fine when I'm in school or whatever, but social gatherings are just crushing to me..
I just hope it gets easier when I get older, seeing as this is my last year of high school.
I want to be straight, I think it's possible to do so, and I would go get gay conversion therapy if I had the chance.
My reasoning is that if sexual fetishes are changeable, then so are sexual orientations. I just feel alone because it's such a taboo idea.
Switch is another name for it.
Social anxiety. See a therapist. I'm currently seeing one for the same issue and others. It's pretty common in MtFs that have been harassed.
Sorry, orientation isn't changeable. Same for gender. It's possible to repress, but that's it. It's still there always causing conflict in the back of our mind.
I did go to a therapist about it, but it wasn't really what I was looking for. I think it's something I need to do on my own.
I am neither MTF nor have I been harassed, for the record.
>stepdad started molesting me when I was 13
>I liked it
>it became a regular thing, with me encouraging and initiating a lot of it
>went on for almost 7 years, before him and my mom finally got divorced
>even met up with him to hook up a few times after the divorce
>feel really weird and conflicted about the whole thing now
>have "daddy issues" and various unhealthy sexual kinks
>still guiltily fap to memories of it
>he starts licking my hand
Why do I find this so funny?
>tfw really weird and gross fetishes
>tfw many are literally impossible to happen
>tfw to young to be able to get into the stinky orgies with the chubby old men i desire
1. Molested another guy while he was sleeping/high when I was 14 (he was also 14). My absolute most hated moment of my life.
2. Let a dog lick my dick when I was 15
3. Used to be physically abusive to anyone I had power over until I was around 14 (animals, my younger cousin).
4. Used to bully other children in school until around 8th grade.
5. Envy my sister for being a mega-slut (250+ guys).
6. My dream job would be being a prostitute.
7. My go to fantasy during masterbation is being a child being raped/taken advantage of by a grown man.
8. Was "molested" by my dad as a child.
9. I've cut myself several times, and have suicidal thoughts about once a week.
10. My younger cousin used to get really touchy with me and I would have been willing to eat her out if she had pushed me further (I was 19, she was 13).
I'm just a terrible person.
Wow I'm glad I'm not as fucked up as you guys. I'm just extremely boring and never grab hold of the good things in life. For this reason I've never had a best friend or even close to a healthy social life. Also I procrastinate.
I'm gay but I'm still closeted and sorta too afraid to let people know.
Got a girlfriend some years ago, really like this gal, she's smart I think I'm in love with her even though I know that I don't feel that way sexually. She started to doubt my intentions and confronted me because in 2 months we didn't have sex I haven't even kissed her passionately yet. She confronted me, said to me she thinks she's just a cover up because I'm gay. In that moment it hits me, I can't love her completely. Still I deny and I go on, eventually break up with her with no proper talking. I'm a fucking shit, I never had the guts to tell her the truth.
Mainly that I'm overly submissive and have a thing for being degraded and "used" during sex. Which is fine for casual sex, but I have trouble turning it off during intimate/romantic encounters. Which leads to attracting creeps and scaring off decent guys.
Even though I got a lot of sexual enjoyment out of the whole thing, it was pretty fucked up from an emotional standpoint. The main problem was that I had basically no control over the situation--it was all completely about his own whims and pleasure, and he basically treated me like a sex toy. He often got pretty rough and verbally/physically degrading, all while acting like he was doing me a favor.
My family continues to try and hold up the perception that we are still in the upper-class but we've faced bankruptcy 3 times in the last 2 years, and yet we still own 2 hummers and 3 others high end autos as well as large estate house, a 2 cottages, my life is lie and soon all well see us fall rather hard.
Don't worry, that's surprisingly common for old money. Large estates in particular are money sinks because they require a lot of upkeep so even though it looks like someone who lives in a manor house must be super rich, most assets are tied up.
I remember an interview with a Baroness who couldn't afford to put the heating on in her manor over winter. Her solution was to wear several mink coats. If she sold the manor house and all her fancy heirloom clothes and antiques, she'd be quite comfortable, but that clashes with the need to "keep up appearances".
That being said, why not sell off the two cottages? Unless you get income from renting them.
Baby boomers in a nutshell. Live far beyond your means on debt while pretending that you got there through hard work and virtue, and then cry for bailouts when it all comes crashing down. I guarantee that they'll expect you to support them when they get older and don't have any retirement savings.
yeah we have a few village families living in them, The estate will be mine soon so I hope we can hold on to it till i get it, I have big plans on trying to make it into a money maker. or at least, self-sufficient
Anon, just tell her so she can move on and find someone else and you can do the same. If you break up under those circumstances then (after you get some space for a few months/couple years) she'll probably be your bro4lyfe faghag unless she's homophobic. But the longer you wait, the messier this will all get.
Mainly that I'm overly submissive and have a thing for being degraded and "used" during sex. Which is fine for casual sex, but I have trouble turning it off during intimate/romantic encounters. Which leads to attracting creeps and scaring off decent guys.
No crazy rape stories, but I kinda know this feel. I can turn off the desire for being treated like a sexslut, but it kinda sucks knowing that the harder dom/sub dynamics rarely ever coexist with a healthy relationship between two equals. The Dom guy usually expects this sort of thing outside of the bedroom as well as inside.
I've been talking with an older guy who seems decent and has mentioned wanting to explore the dom/sub thing. I figure if he gets into it at his own pace, it could be a chance at a happy medium.
Well you get to dress well, and eat nice things, but the community is close nit and because I'm first born if Father know he would his own me and give all our shit ti my little brother, so I'm super closeted, except when i go to the south i.e. London, Kent or when i go up to Scotland, but the best is going to Germany the boys are hot and the familys are far from my circle
>used to fool around with my brother a lot when I was a teenager
>started off as fairly innocent experimentation during early puberty and just gradually escalated over the years
>mostly stopped after I left home for college and he got a steady girlfriend
>our relationship is kinda awkward now
>get along okay and both basically pretend like it never happened, but the sexual tension is still there
>still hook up every once in a while (usually when he's drunk or something), and then immediately go back to not talking about it
Cheated on my boyfriend last Friday with a guy in my department at school. Don't even know why. I wasn't all that horny and the dude isn't that attractive, and I'm even in an open relationship so if I had told the bf ahead of time he probably would've been fine with it.
I'm also not feeling any guilt about it which is creeping me out. I think I'm a sociopath.
It's not totally unheard of, but it usually works the other way around. I didn't know I was biscum until I gave it a shot. If you want to be straight and think straight sex is fun then by all means be straight. Or just be biscum like me and you can straddle that fence HARD.
Don't be harsh on yourself, I'm the same way. I feel ashamed sometimes but it's no big deal. And the friend thing isn't your fault; just ask people a lot about themselves and do them random favors.
>Identify as straight for majority of life.
>Around High School begin to see guys differently.
>Begins to fantasize about sucking dick and other gay things.
>Suddenly thinks back to adolescence, around 9-10 years of age.
>Remembers weird friend who would actually bust out his cock and start masturbating in front of me.
>Now fantasizes about traveling back in time to give him a little help.
I'm not the only one that thinks this is fucked up right?
I don't think there's anything wrong with fantazising about a memory that turned you on, as long as you don't think of him as a kid in your fantasy. I'm not sure if I'm getting my message across, but as long as it's the CONCEPT of doing it that turns you on, I don't think it's that fucked up. Seems kinda normal, honestly.
That ain't that fucked up. Back when I was in my early to mid teens I fantasized a lot about this time in cub scouts where me and two friends showed each other our dicks. I was like 8 at the time. You're prone to fantasizing about things that've happened to you.
fellow top here.
This is exactly what I want to do, but in a hookup it wouldn't really do much for me.
That's my confession I guess, I have a bit of a significance fetish, if that's even a thing. It would matter who it was.
I have been wearing nipple clamps every day to work for the past 2 years.
No one suspects the innocent barista boy. ever.
I shall suddenly suspect all innocent barista boys ever
I'm not happy that I transitioned. The comfort I feel for being in the right body doesn't compare to the pain of losing everything else
I almost died when I was 8 and I spent 3 months in the hospital. I told my family that I saw my dead sister when I was unconscious but I really didn't see anything.
I've attempted suicide twice and never told anyone.
I identify as gay but have a growing suspicion that I may in fact be bi-romantic. which of course is no big deal here, but I fear that my friends will find out that my waifu is female or that I give my rifles female names and think I never really was gay or some shit like that.
I also really don't want to explain to people what "homosexual and bi-romantic" means.
I'm really into pony play, like pretending to be a horse and shit. I've started getting involved in the kink community, and I've never been happier, I'm able to express myself in a way I never thought I'd get the chance to, and everyone accepts and encourages me.
But I can't help but feel like a freak. What if my parents found out? How many guys would be scared away by my weird-ass fetish? It's a huge source of both pride and conflict for me
My boyfriend is unadventurous, overly sensitive, clingy, more than a little unattractive, and manipulative.
The only real reason I'm still with him is because his family is rich and awesome and I love his cat. And because he's said that he would probably kill himself if I ever left or ever fucked anyone else.
1. Ask him to marry you in a super-romantic way, down on one knee and shit.
2. Get a pre-nup
3. Divorce that clingy, manipulative fug.
I had a friend who was 18 at the time and he would tell me about his 16 year old girlfriend, and I was 16 at the time and it used to make me so depressed because I had sort of a crush on him.
I would get so mad because that girl should have been me and it wasn't fair that I'm not a girl.
I fantasize about killing people every day. I have been a complete shut in for the last 2 years. There's not a day goes by that i don't think about killing someone. Just to see someone's face right before they die seems so satisfying. Strangling, stabbing, execution, torture. The thought of killing someone with another person turns me on. I fantasize about killing my family many time. A lot of times I find more joy in fantasizes about killing people than actually being alive. i've had a shitty life so i want people to suffer as much as I have. I've only shared this with one person in my entire life.
I thought that I was straight but naked women have always been very arousing for me, so I assumed at the age of 17 that I'm bi. Later I've met a girl, started a relationship and was fully convinced that I'm actually a 100% lesbian. So I've told people that men are totally not for me. After some time we broke up (I was just an "experiment" in someone's "lesbian phase") and now I'm in relationship with a guy. I'm bi, I'm sure of this now. But now I'm ashamed to reveal this relationship in front of some people because they will think I was lying about girls and just had a phase. I'm stupid.
Permanent solution to a temporary problem buddy or sister or whatever, my fellow human being. Seek help, there are exceptionally few reasons to kill yourself.
I too would like to kill myself, but can't.
It doesn't matter how close I get with someone, as soon as things get physical I leave feeling disgusted with myself and never talk to them again.
Look it wasn't you and im really sorry, i'm just fucked up and can't sort my head out.
I feel like I constantly start arguments with my boyfriend even though he'a an amazing guy and I wonder if it's just that I'm bored and want something heated to do.
My libido around him has plummeted but for some reason I still get off like 2/3 times a day.
I love him but for some reason actually saying it sometimes bothers me.
In person however (LDR) we're great together and everything's fine.
Is this just my anxiety about being gone from him for so long and worried about continuing?
Sometimes at night I put on makeup and tuck with an ace bandage and imagine myself as female or male. I wish I could pursue gender fluidity like I feel sometimes, but Its not really an option in my household.
>be male, 12 yrs old
>often imagine myself being a girl
>that feeling becomes stronger and stronger
>have no possibility to get female clothes that would fit me (regarding size)
>my dad's new girlfriend brings her 11 yr old daughter when they moved together, she also gets a room in the house
>i start sneaking into her room and try her clothes and her makeup on
>cant do it very often however bc she or my mother in law is in the house almost everyday,everytime
>sometimes have the paranoia that they know what i did all these years
>be almost 20 years old now, got enough money and an own car to buy some clothes and makeup
>realize that i might be mtf
Seriously, how will my stepsisters reaction be if i came out of the closet?! she will instantly know what i did all these years if i tell her.
i behaved in a very suspicious way. she will know because i have a key for the house and sometimes when they found me in the house (without crossdressing of course) i said that i am "just around just for fun".
yeah i know that it's not 100% sure that she will know instantly. all i'm saying is that i might be supposable. And if that comes out, my stepsister will hate me for wearing her clothes. that will be a little bit said for me since i like her.
I obviously don't know her, but hating you for it seems a little extreme. If someone wore my clothes I'd think it was a little weird yeah, but I wouldn't resent them for it - especially when they have a good reasoning for doing so.
I fear my entire reason for transitioning may be my overly powerful urge to please people around me. Basically I worry I might be doing this so there's "something for everyone" and I can sexually appease more people around me. As long as we're admitting terrible shit, a part of that idea is a recurring dream/fantasy I keep having where I transition then look up old friends as well as people I used to bully and fuck them as a friendly gesture in the first case and an apology in the second. Another part of me worries I'm doing it for attention despite the dysphoria I do feel. Mostly I just feel guilty because I'll kill myself if I come out ugly and my vanity disgusts me.
How bad is it /lgbt/?
>All my life I have felt dysphoria
>Wanted to be a girl, sad that I was a guy
>When I was little, I grew my hair long and pretended to be a girl around people I didnt know
>Prayed to god to make me female
>Cried every day when I started puberty
>Still a guy, look too masculine
>Body covered in cutting scars from highschool
>too poor for therapy
>not a single friend
>try to kill myself every few months, with varying degrees of seriousness
>tried to kill myself last tuesday (overdose of random drugs again), failed and vomited/shit it all out
>wish someone would just kill me, cant do it myself because coward
Call your college's or university's student counseling service and see if they have a counselor for trans related issues. Both universities I went to had free counseling services for students irregardless of wealth or insurance coverage.
>have a menagerie of fetishes (rape, incest, age-play, zoo, emotional abuse, horror, blood/bruises, watersports, bondage, being drugged etc.)
>have an attraction to gloomy, demented, and 'dark' situations. I'd love to fuck around with someone suicidal or emotionally damaged at dusk when it's dark but the sun hasn't set and there's a sense of melancholia in the air while listening to something like https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R2LLZXG1ULw and just be together in the moment, make each other feel good, then drift off to sleep...
>being roughed up and 'raped' at knife point by someone wearing a creepy mask
>occasionally b8 to the thought of my dad or other adult men molesting/raping me as a boy
I'm an otherwise mentally healthy, normal guy. I don't know where the fantasies come from. I'm still a virgin too. Am I broken?
I'm a super masc guy that treats women like complete shit because I'll never have a qt sub bf and feel like I need to keep up appearances with my friends and family.
Every time I've spoken with a guy I would be interested in, they're always brain dead as shit and can't hold conversations.
>Tell everyone I'm gay.
>Actually homoromantic bisexual.
>Interest in women is very passing. Don't want anything to do with them past friendship, and I don't do hookups so I'd never leave a guy for one.
>Still tell people I'm full gay because gay guys are flaky drama queens who think you'll succumb to "paternal urges" and run off eventually.
>tfw I hate children and will never ever want them
>still lie just to avoid the stereotype when dating
I did call them. They did have a guy that dealt with gender/sexuality issues.
I saw him for a few months, he told me he was pretty sure I had GID. Sadly, I will look like a hon if I transition.
>6. Got a recovering alcoholic behind a bottle and then behind a wheel, resulting in a collision that put a pedestrian on a vent and him behind bars, so as to open up the career ladder in his old department.
wow. I'm not impressed, just disgusted.
> Attracted to guys and girls
>Terrified of men
> Wouldn't fuck a girl
> Think I'm attracted to girls because of my fear of men
> Still want the D
>decide Trans is best option
> Fast forward a few years
> Meet transgirl through friends
> Not really attracted to her, but 10/10 personality
> With time fall for her
> End up together
> She's still pre-ok, wants the surgery
> Not thrilled, but I support her no matter what
> Underlying guilt; I feel like I'm fetishizing(sp?) her
>but I love her
> self doubt
TLDR; My sexual wants are conflicting with my heart.
Despite my burning desire to go on about how gorgeous I am, I'd just put myself at "attractive enough". I've apparently got a fairly nice jawline, vivid eyes and a slender frame. Not super-muscled or tanned, but I'm definitely not repulsive. It's fortunate because no way in fuck could I get away with some of my escapades if I was fugly.
i'm a lesbian and my biggest porn fetish is watching lesbians having sex with men and if possible, being impregnated from it. Mocking them ("how do you like the taste of dick, dyke") about it is a plus.
you'd be surprised how hard that is to find
My lazy, smelly nig apartmentmate stole my friend who just moved in who was supposed to be my cuddlebuddy from me, already has a fucking great gf who is about my only friend, makes as much if not more money than me while working half as much (and then bitches about it), and then constantly brags about it.
I sleep alone in the roach infested living room, have no money, own almost nothing, and I have no chance in hell of getting a gf despite constantly being told I'm cute and 'oh you'll find someone'
I'm literally dying of jealousy, I'm either going to suicide or have to just pack up and move out without a word because I'm BTFO by my fucking roommate and i can't fucking handle it because I'm such a worthless pathetic beta piece of shit
I like reading erotic where men switch bodies, either where one is straight and one is gay or they are both gay. I especially like jock and nerd body swaps, like a gay nerd swaps bodies with a jock, dumps his gf and starts going out with dudes.
I also have a male foot fetish, I would love to worship my bf's feet, licking them clean.
>implying you wouldn't want a piece of that Lyra plot
What are you, gay?!?
Sub+brain dead seems to be a common combination. Do you want sub everywhere, or mainly in bed? I think you have better chances of finding someone if you mainly want someone to throw around when fucking vs. in daily life.
I actually hate most women
I find them whiny, over-sensitive, irrational, selfish, spoilt, childish and stupid.
I could only go out with a women who is pursuing a career in something relevant and highly skilled, otherwise I would properly end up wanting to kill them. I think this is why I prefer men more.
Honestly, I'm pretty much the same way. Irony is, I did wind up with a very loving (but still kinda dumb at times) gf. Sometimes, you've just got to settle for what's available when you live in the dirty south.
I met a tranny on Okcupid and went on a few dates with her. We made out, nothing serious, but she got super clingy. I told her I wasn't looking for a relationship (which was partly true, I didn't want a relationship with a tranny) so we just became FWB. We were having sex twice a week and it was great, but she still wanted to meet my parents and stuff, so I had to reduce contact. Then I started dating a cis woman. When my FWB found out she got all weepy and asked why I lied to her about wanting a relationship. I said that I didn't want one then but my position changed, and she asked what was wrong with her so I told her I wanted a partner I could have children with. She threatened to tell my gf about her so I said that if I or my gf ever heard from her again I would out her to her entire work and social circle. I didn't want to do that, I just wanted her to go away. She messaged everything to my gf on facebook, called my bluff I guess, so I posted huge screencaps of our chats on Imgur and sent an email to her boss about it. She killed herself a week later.
I tortured and killed a lot of animals, starting from before kindergarten, up to age 17.
The worst was when I clipped the legs and tail off of a possum, and then I beat her with a hammer. I discovered she had babies in her pouch. I beat her pouch, then I pried her babies away from her, and splattered them too.
Much regret. Very much regret.
Curious. You seem to express remorse at something which is very much considered a psychopathic trait when done over a length of time.
It's possible you might be autistic with some obsessive compulsion to hurt things, despite the regret you feel.
I have fapped in churches and rubbed my cum into the carpet of a senior high room.
I molested three of my cousins when I was younger.
I got sexually involved with a 15 year old when I was 18, and got into legal trouble.
A straight friend convinced me to suck his dick while he was stoned.
I felt up another friend while he was drunk, and stole his socks.
Then another time, I was close to fucking a friend who was high on shrooms and weed, but lost my boner and gave up. He had a girlfriend at the time.
It took me years to learn what true consent is, and I regret all my horrendous behavior.
When I was younger, I cheated on my only two boyfriends and I attribute that to not having an actual attraction to both those men, turning legal and/or wanting to get out and see what the world was offering. This is a very huge, fuck-you-asshole-that's-rarely-forgivable trait in which I know I should be sorry and am, but not genuinely for whatever reason. I've always been emotionally stunted and I guess that's why it's not very genuine remorse.
Now I the closest slut tendency that lingers to this day is having a hook up app to keep myself validated and making sure guys still want me. And if you're wondering, I am and they still do. Oh yes they do but they'll never get to touch, except for that one guy but ..that's a different time. The only action these guys get are a 'Thank you!' or some slight flirting, or on the rare occasion I'm being a dick because they came on offensive or strong I'll string em.
Yes I'm a very bad person in that aspect and I know it but over the years I've improved.
Hm I couldn't live on knowing that I did this. I mean I would never do such a thing because... I guess I'm a decend human being. Ever confessed what you did to a couple of persons in real life? Hope u did and got beaten up.
You should marry into money, but then find a spooky skellington to [spoiler]bone[/spoiler] you
>be MtF trans, know it since I was 15
>have a really great GF
>she supports me crossdressing, don't tell her I'm trans until we're at a party when i'm dressed up
>stress about transitioning for a week solid after that
>get dressed up one day, still stressing out, rape her during an argument, worst thing I've ever done
>6 months later, we're still together, just not labeling our relationship so we can both explore polyamory
I still think about killing myself every day.
so make it the best ratty couch in the building
first get rid of the fucking roaches, that shit is inexcusable regardless of the situation. I guarantee you'll feel better without fucking bugs everywhere
>hanging out with a large group of college friends
>played super smash bros with them in my apartment
>didn't really liked it
>stared at this cute as f guy all night
>everyone sleeps in the living room
>around 8 am I'm in the kitchen making some omelet
>hear someone behind me
>don't care enough to look who it is
>puts his hand over my mouth and starts grinding his massive cock on my ass while biting gently on my neck
>don't struggle cuz I actually like it
>start licking his hand
>he stops grinding after like 15 seconds and runs away
>look behind to see who it was and recognize that it was the guy I kept staring at the whole night
>pretend like nothing happened
>fap furiously every night after that for a few weeks
I still struggle with my sexuality to this day.
> first get rid of the fucking roaches
Boric Acid should get rid of the roaches. If you can get it into the wall cavities, great. Spread it under the kitchen cabinets too. At the worst, it'll give you gas. Unfortunately for a roach, having a gas attack is deadly. Their tummy goes pop and they then starve to death.
> dating a guy for a year
> suppressing urge to have sex with girls
> find out ex partner is now mtf, is incredibly hot now
> agree to have casual sex just once
> end up sleeping with her multiple times
> realise I'm a lying, cheating cunt
I'm not gay, trans, or bi.
I'm just a straight guy that likes reading stories by gays.
>Almost all I think about when I'm fantasizing is about being raped, beaten or forced into some kind of sexual situation.
Welcome aboard the generic tranny train sis!
I'm a gay guy, but I like to finger my friends who are girls. I don't get sexually aroused from fingering them, I just like the cute noises and faces they make, and the intimacy is nice. Sometimes I have them give my handjobs in return, but I usually fantasize about guys while they do it.
Same, I'm hard straight, I just enjoy invading LGBT safe spaces.
When I was in boy mode, I liked men but I hated the idea of being with a man as a man. It absolutely disgusted me. Now as I accepted being MtF, it's a bit better but not quite.
I don't know if I hate gays just cos or beause I get anxious about being a man. But still, I get anxious when I look at men. The idea of "I had to be like that" makes me feel sick and while I see many hot guys whose dick I'd love to suck, I just can't stop my head from producing thoughts of male me doing sexual things with other men and it disgusts me.
Seeing men kissing or such doesn't make me anxious because I'm not involved, I guess?
>real life troll
>20 years old
>look like a twink
>pretend to be gay
>pretend to have a gay voice/lisp (idk what to call it but it's really annoying)
>pretend to be really shy
>make gay guy fall for me
>still pretend to be shy
>eventually make out with him
>wants ass after like a week or two
>invite him in my house
>on PC there are pictures of me having sex with women
I did this with six gay guys and a few teenage girls, for the teenage girls I usually let some pictures of me and my previous "boyfriends" on my phone because for some reason they always feel the need to check my phone behind my back.
Jesus Christ, so many sociopaths on /lgbt/. I thought that queers are supposed to be healthier because they don't repress anything, but what the hell, man.
>tfw you enjoyed being a closeted bisexual more than an outed one.
>because gay is the new black, the forbidden love and secrecy aspect that made being sexually interested in men fun is now gone unless I move to a 3rd world shithole.
>Missed my chance to have a secret gay teen romance when I was younger. I didn't realize I was bi until after HS, and during HS I was fat and super awkward.
>Too gross to fuck cute gays, the only men interested in me are the gross old ones.