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Yes
The only reason I don't kill myself (or transition, because I'd never pass and then I'd have to) is that dad already did and I don't think she could take it
I'm just trying to outlive her so I can kill myself with peace of mind

>>7853043
>she
my mom that is

>>7853043
You sound like me before I got even more depressed and transitioned anyway.

this is actually nims thread

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goodmorning /mtfg/

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>>7852938
but i don't even know what you mean

2/2

Once I had my kid and for the few weeks I was breastfeeding it really felt like there had been something wrong with me my whole life and now it was finally fixed, but for a bunch of reasons I had to stop breast feeding and once my periods came back I returned to the way I was before, this complete absence of femininity. I've been sad about this ever since.

It's been two years now and it hasn't gotten any better. I really feel like I have been silently hollow my whole life, I'm not sure if it feels like emptiness because something that should be there isn't or deep grief at finally understanding that I was never a girl inside to begin with and that's why I was always so driven to act like I did.

I really don't feel like it should be a big deal at all, but it is. I never got along with woman much before but now I feel bad everytime they get all girly at me and I can't act so back, or when someone asks me about make-up and I tell them I dont wear it and they look at me funny, because I know they have something that I dont and i'll never be apart of that, but I'll never be a guy either.

i thought it would be enough just to be honest with myself and like who i am, but it still hurts when I think about how long this has been affecting me and what to do with myself now.

Can I do anything to stop feeling like I'm broken?

>>7852614
>>7852616
It sounds like you were happy not being girly, but hormones gave you a taste of what you were missing and now you want that.

You could try enjoying guy things again so that you stop feeling jealous of being girlier. I don't know how to go about that, but just making the most of friendships with guys (and other less feminine women) and enjoying that kind of activity is the general way to do it. You mentioned that you'll never be a guy, so find friends to whom that doesn't matter, so that you can feel like part of the group the same as the guys, not as the one girl.

Instead or as well, you could get into girlier things. Do they and find people who enjoy them as much as you are comfortable with, so that you don't feel left behind or jealous by them being much girlier than you. Then you can gradually be part of the things women are without just feeling entirely different.

When you went back to how you were after your pregnancy, why did you feel sad? If your femininity during it came from the hormones, then I would have thought without them you'd lose the enjoyment of them along with the desire to be feminine. Interesting that you lost the desire but kept the enjoyment or memory of enjoyment.

>>7852638
mostly I;m sad because I never realised how deep this went. I really thought I was a girl in nature just not in nurture, i've never been so wrong about something.
I don't really want to go back to feeling like a girl like i was when i was pregnant because I like who I am, and I like my friends who i wouldn't of made if I hadnt been me, but I spent so many years at constant conflict with people like my friend's girlfriends and I know thats never going to change.

I;m just kinda confused because now I realised what's up, I don't want people to treat me as a girl when its not there, but on the otherhand i dont wanna tell people because it feels too private. I really wish I could just be one thing or the other, not something in between. Which i get is as pointless as asking a rock not to be a stone but I still feel like I want to fix myself somehow.

>>7852107
Does she get bigger boobs?

>>7852107
Also, does she get more femenine? Like, wanting to play more with dolls than with soldier toys, wear pink dresses than jeans and a shirt, etc?

I'm asking here because you and /fit/ are obviously the masters of hormones abuse, but on /fit/ we only care about that T.

She gets a sage in all fields.

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>gay men dont find this attractive
Literally how? Being srs

Really makes me think

>>7852054
why would that offend me

>>7852060
i think she's good looking obv, but my dick does not get hard and i have no desire to fuck or have sexual intercourse w.her. it's called being attracted to men and not women, you know, like the billions of straight women in the world

>>7852060
There's finding something attractive and there's wanting to fuck it. They can be very different things even is cishets don't realize it.

First for Faye likes girls

First for Faye will never love you back.

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>>7852001
she especially likes girls who look like this

>>7851806
Fuck a trap

>>7851816

I don't understand how my huge cock is supposed to fit inside such a small hole.

Please advise.

>>7851847
lube also you're pretty much my fetish too. I'd love to be a chads side piece and fight with his gf over him. no homo.

>>7851409
So just fuck girls. The world will go on, stupid biscum

>>7851409
don't fugg anyone with darker skin than yourself, literally the darker the race the more likely to have HIV

>>7851433
>biscum
Daily reminder that biphobia is homophobia.

>>7850771
>tfw no chaser to fetishize me until they stop repressing and finally start HRT

>>7850785
post your hair

Why do broken people always want to "fix" someone else?

Stop avoiding dealing with your own problems and maybe you wouldn't be such a pathetic loser that you would feel the need to prey on those you consider weaker than yourself.

they're not hurting anyone. muslims on the other hand...

>>7850873
But i walk in a gay bar and there are no gad qt dudes to fuck arround with, would you consent it??

>>7850761
Why would it be a problem. Also
>cishet
Get out of here tumblr facist

I thought we finally moved past nekos...

my eyes are like perpetually half closed
how do I fix this

no nekoposting allowed below this line

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>Anyway the point is, is it cool to get a bj without making him think I only want sex
Try not to get too invested if all he wants is sex. Shit hurts.

see how things go and roll with it. No point thinking too much before meeting. sometimes things develop in ways you dont anticipate.

try not to pursue a relationship if there's a chance he'll just fall for someone else.

>>7850529
I just realized... the reason gay guys prefer to play Yoshi is because Mario rides yoshi. MARIO RIDES YOSHI SO HARD THAT HE GAGS FROM THE FAT ITALIAN COCK INSIDE HIM
so gay

>all Asian trans pass
>>7846574
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>>7850523
>finnish people are asian
Not really. Their mix of Caucasoid/Mongoloid is similiar to ethnic Russians (that is to say, most Caucasoid)

Their language may as well be an Asian one though.

>>7850475
In August of 2016, I found a Discord group of people I could finally call my friends. No one was MtF like me, but I still had and am having good memories with these people.

This is where I met my boyfriend. He's the only person who has ever given a shit that I want to crossdress and be a girl, and I think he's the only person I have ever really loved.

Only problem is, he lives on the other side of the planet. It's going to be another 4 years before I can see him irl, even then it'll be for a few weeks ago.

And my main goal is to crossdress and eventually be a true MtF, but no one will let me.

What's the point of living anymore?

>>7850486
>no one will let me
When you're 18, find a job and move out. No one can stop you if you're financially independent.

You have personal issues, not trans issues. You are 90% likely NOT to be an actual transgender person, you're somebody looking to escape a shitty life by being someone else.

My suggestions are as follows
>get edgy and be goff or punk rawk or whatever, scare the normies until they leave you alone
>finish school
>move the fuck out of your house, get a place w/roomies
>get into regular therapy with a good trauma therapist
>continue to CD and do whatever girly shit you want, you do you
>DON'T make serious moves towards actual transition until you are stable, dealing with your personal shit and can separate your feelings from your actual medical needs with real support

>>7850377
Remind me why gaps in education, employment, salary, etc. need to be closed?

Why is caraposter not permabanned

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>>7850377
>offering schlorships on identity politics over merit

If this keeps up evantually a nigger trans couls be profitable from going to school for a living