Why is it that some days I really desperately want to transition and other days being a guy doesn't seem so bad? I seriously don't understand this shit. I wish I just felt one way or the other all the time.
>>8461143
It's the suffering of an AGP.
>>8461159
What the fuck can I do about this? I was seriously considering transitioning because I really wanted to be a girl most of the week last week and then all of a sudden I wake up today and feel like being a guy isn't so unbearable.
>>8461190
Do you have anxiety/depression? Sometimes if you feel your anxiety getting you worked up you'll get more dysphoria and other days when you're calmer you won't have dysphoria.
Techniques for repressing wanting to be a girl?
I try to think about things like work and travel and other goals in order to repress it.
What are your techniques?
I drink a lot
>>8461001
>What are your techniques?
Wearing girl clothes.
Imagining having a bf who pretends I'm a girl.
>>8461001
I try to keep myself busy 24/7
go out for the first time in months to a social gathering with ALCOHOL.
guys are hitting on me and i feel really good about myself.
hit it off with qt dork boy
we "get outta here" and go get drinks elsewhere and he gives me his coat when i shiver
"what the fuck is happening"
- me every single second
i hide my phone number in his jacket when he isn't looking
he offers to drive me home because i am very drunk
i tell him i'm trans (mtf)
he says he had no idea and that it's cool i was comfortable sharing with him
"he's probably lying but that's a sweet gesture"
- me
he puts his arm across my chest when he brakes really hard for dumbass running in the street
"wait wtf is he into me"
- screaming internally
we awkwardly hug at my house. he looks kind of deflated. i tell him to check his jacket pocket, smile, and wave good bye
next day is here. hungover. he hasn't texted me all day
tfw
>>8460827
learn to greentext
>>8460827
You gotta text that same night and get the lewd pic/vid exchanges going early on to rope them in.
>>8460839
This. I can't read your post, OP.
mtf, almost exhausted all means of transitioning including srs and yet I'm still physically inadequate. Likely to suicide soon, should have done it before ever transitioning. Does anyone feel the same?
>>8460781
Yes, haven't even gotten on hrt yet but same. Would you like to talk?
Please don't do anything rash >.>
We love you so much,
I love you so much.
>>8460781
Why are you fat?
>closet trans (mtf)
>dont have many friends that would accept me
>find a girl
>tell her im trans
>she says thats cool and i should embrace it and she would help me
>moves out of town 2 weeks later without telling me
>that was 10 months ago, we haven't talked sense
>tell another girl im transgender
>she says she'll help me and be my friend
>we're friends for a good month or 2
>says she got an awesome job at a city an hour away
>she moves away, haven't talked in 6 months
>3rd times a charm am i right?
>girl just ignores me, says she doesnt have time for my mental problems
I just want a friend and somebody i can be myself with
>>8460677
Convert your agp into pseudobi and date a boy.
>>8460677
The first person I ever came out to was a friend of mine that was a girl. She literally told me "I don't want to be friends with more gay people". That was 7 years ago and I literally have been in the closet since.
>>8460699
>falling for the 'girls are tolerant' meme
How do you even find a bf that isn't a yass queen? How do you even find other gay people? pls help
Just meet other people and stop being so fucking sexually desperate.
>>8460584
I don't even want sex, I just want someone I can build a decent relationship with, but it seems like gay people don't even fucking exist, I live in a decent sized town and I go out and socialize a decent amount, are gay people just stuck in the closet?
>>8460597
does anyone you go out and socialize a decent amount with know you are gay?
do you introduce yourself as "Hello, I am anon and I am looking for a gay boyfriend I can build a decent relationship with, no flamers though"
can bpa and other shit like that really act as estrogen? I wouldn't go as far as to call myself trans, but I'm a very fem. gay guy and match almost everything on pic related, could bottled water be the reason I am the way I am today?
Estrogen effects are totally blocked by testosterone, quit being stupid
>>8460470
then could low test be a reason, or was I just born a fag?
>>8460491
Every second you've lived has changed you into what you are at this moment, whether it's the result of internal biology or external environment factors like how you were raised. There's countless things that made you into who you are and you're still changing.
Simply put, chances are you don't have low t, or been "tainted" by the negligible chemical influences you're exposed to daily, but even if you did/were it may not be the reason your personality is as it is.
Do you, don't worry about labels or what's "right".
>>8460393
if you are mtf it is male pattern baldness
>>8460393
Grade 1 actually looks like my hair
>>8460393
I know a cis girl who has grade 5. It's so sad.
What do you do when you are fundamentally a bad person, like if you knew yourself as another person, you wouldn't like that person very much? And you want to be a good friend to other people, but you also don't want to hurt them, so sometimes it feels like it's better just to avoid people so that you aren't subjecting them to your fucked up personality. And on top of that, you aren't even attractive, so it's not like you have a redeeming quality that makes people ignore your crazy.
Some people do tell me that I'm a really good person and a good friend IRL, sometimes there are even people who say they're """inspired""" by me. The way I'm treated offline and online is like night and day, or maybe I'm just a better person IRL. But I never believe those people because of how I feel about myself, so I never appreciate their complements, and then they start to get worn out. It's like I'm subconsciously trying to make them believe I'm a horrible person because I believe it, and then it kind of works? So I just keep believing it more.
Is there any hope for someone like me or should I just start cutting people out now? Is there any reliable way to go from bad to good?
Do I need therapy to make myself feel like I'm a good person? But what if my actions are still bad, wouldn't I be an even worse person then? Or is believing like the first step to actually doing?
>>8460241
sounds like you just have shit self esteem
get therapy sure
better than doing nothing
>>8460241
Why do you believe you're a bad person?
>>8460241
So basically you're asserting that you're crushed by a fuckload of repression that goes beyond just gender, into having no choice but to be a "good person"?
>tfw 23
>tfw I'll be 24 in a month and a half
>not transitioning yet
>everyone saying if you transition at or after 24 you become a hon
>probably can't get on hormones until I'm 24
AHHHHHHHHHHHH I fucking hate my life
>>8460239
You can be a hon even if you start at 14 or 15. You're fucked.
But really it all depends on how much effort you put in. Depending on your job and your income, you could still be okay.
>>8460239
Maybe try being cis, work out, get some muscles. Its better than suicide right?
>>8460312
>effort meme
>implying you don't have to both win tbe genetic lottery and be born at least upper middle class
Start HRT edition
• Makeup tutorials : http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
• Correct hormone levels:http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
• Checking your levels:http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
• Size charts:http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
• Transition time lines:http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• Voice Training:https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
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>>8460218
>Start HRT edition
No
>>8460218
>Start HRT
you can't make me!
3rd for tfw no HRT :(
What's the best way for a tranny to deal with crushing loneliness?
>>8460206
Get a friend/therapist/pet rock?
>>8460206
Make online friends.
Anyone elses biggest fear of transitioning ending up not passing? I even posted pictures on 4chan once and people told me I could probably pass, but for some reason I'm still afraid of trying.
just do it senpai, worst case scenario you're on titty skittles but don't present girl
>>8460161
Yep, offing myself if I can't pull it off.
>>8460174
This is unfortunately my plan as well most likely.
Am almost certain I'll probably crack and kill myself within the next year anyways
Why is it that transbians feel entitled to female spaces?
>>8460105
because women are subhumans
>>8460110
transbians are even less human despite being women
>>8460105
how about you wait for the last thread about it you made to die before reposting it?
sage
My measurements are fine, and I know I can just get implants to fix my boobs, but my hips are still slightly narrower than my shoulders. Is there any way to increase the width of my hips WITHOUT putting too many inches on my waist, so that my WHR improves while my hips also get wider than my shoulders?
>>8459846
pull really hard on them every day
does corset training work?
if you're under 21-23 or so you can still get some growth out of your hips, just eat well and take good care of yourself while on anti-androgens.
beyond that, there's no good way to affect bone growth, at least of your pelvis and shoulders.
>>8459921
yes, but not beyond short or medium term. it's also terrible for you.