I want to die either an accident or from a terminal illness so that I won't die knowing that I intentionally ruined my family's life beyond the fact that I am nothing but a burden
they will be better off with me dead, but I don't want them to blame me for their grief, and don't want to give them a reason to believe that the life I've been given was not enough, and that they are a bad family
>I want to die either an accident or from a terminal illness so that I won't die knowing that I intentionally ruined my family's life beyond the fact that I am nothing but a burden
I'm in a similar situation. I wish i had cancer or got shot in the face, so i would die by external causes.
It feels terrible to be just another nobody who gets forgotten forever as soon as his grandkids die. What's even more terrible is that it's by far the most likely scenario.
I guess there's always the Herostratus route.
I just hope I die while not being aware of it.
>Fast decompression/loss of consciousness in an airplane crash.
>High speed highway crash.
>Complete shut down of brain activity while on a coma.
All these would work for me.
35 - start going to the gym to delay that shit.
you know, you can always not give a fuck about this. I never understood why some people feel this way. Live your life and give zero fucks.