Tops choking, punching, or otherwise inflicting pain
How do you find tops into this irl?
I'm a kind of feminine twink and I just want someone to completely dominate and own me in bed physically
But all the guys i've met get like maybe a little bit rough and then just treat me like i'm a flower
ask them, maybe?
I just had one guy the other night. I ask him to fuck me hard even if I asked him to stop or tried to retrieve his dick out of me. We got into some amazing hate-sex where I struggled to keep him out of me while he fuck me hard "against" my will.
I once hooked up with his guy who was in to passing out he told me to do him till he passed out then remove the rope the second he stopped breathing, well sadly the hook up turned in to cpr really quickly and a set of blue balls for me as i was not about to finish up after that... LOL after that hook up i don't do that kind of thing even if begged and asked to crazy for me
Ah nvm found it. Fucking amazing so i share just in case
Might be sligthly softcore for this thread but bits of hairpulling and choking. Vid quality is shit tho.
I have a bi friend who mostly sleeps with guys, despite being mostly attracted to girls, simply because he is into getting sexually dominated and can't find any girls who are into topping him. So basically, he "doesn't like dick", but he does like being forced to take dick. Pretty sure he's got some daddy issues going on there too, since he mostly hooks up with older guys.
Ding ding ding. That's pretty much my deal. Basically:
>got regularly molested throughout my teenage years
>not violent rape/abuse or anything like that, but still pretty fucked up
>but I still kinda enjoyed it
>felt guilty as fuck for enjoying it
>this led to a feedback cycle of feeling like I deserved it
>plus years of positive reinforcement for acting submissive
>so now I'm at the point where I have trouble getting off at all unless I'm being dominated in some way, preferably by someone older and more masculine than me
not as bad as it sounds, desu. I'm pretty aware of my "issues", and I think I'm slowly getting over them. probably.
Sauce on this please anyone? I recognize the top but that's as far as it goes
Indeed. I got to play that field. The blacks generally have no problem as long as the gender roles are clear, although there is the occasional muslim convert or quasi baptist that complains. The Hispanics are much the same. Sadly, not as true for a lot of the whites until they are getting too old to feign morality in a human landfill. Whites are just shy, uptight and over think everything. You can still get dick, but the lack of confidence is a turn off.
The best sex I had was with whites were men who passing at best and typically getting older. The blacks and spics dont have to wait until 35 to find their balls around prison fags and fuck like machines out of the box at any age.
The mind fuck for me was discovering how I really think on a primal level. Technically, some of it was forced. And yet when it was, I enjoyed it on an animal level thats hard to describe, making me wonder if I could truly be raped if being forcibly put into sexual submission was the nirvana-tier high that I couldn't get any other way.
Its the sort of thing I can only prattle about online anonymously, and I get shit for it any time I do. I understand that there is such a thing as rape and sexual assault and personal violation and all that. And I may as well admit that even as a kid, I developed strategies for enticing older boys that legally would have been viewed as a crime by them.
But the thing about sex with males that sharpened in me over time was that primal reverence for the clarity in tacit interaction, that wordless act of one human dominating the other for usage in relief. Its something we view as the apex of male behavior.
And I think its beautiful. When a man takes what he wants and I get to be part of it and see it, cause it up close, I get to see something so awesome that we are barely allowed to talk about it...
- We're told to shame it, and yet it runs through everything operate around; order, submission, loyalty, hero worship, champions and winners.
People will say Im fucked in the head. But they will never know the joy of not caring. They'll never understand the experience of trusting fate in moments of chaos, embracing helplessness as release.
Nor will they really get close to understanding the transition to submission, that submission legitimizes authority, and therefore creates and strengthens it, that there can be so much power in saying nothing at all. That when you submit to power, you share and influence it. That order begins in every interaction between two humans, and that motion and action between them is where reality occurs, not in spoken words or notions of sanctity and ego.
It just happens. There's the moments before, during and after. And if you just live it, you will get to see our species in its natural and beautiful form, one being acting on another, and the other entranced by it.
So for all the forced sex, the rough sex, the odd episodes between and the utter uselessness of legal semantics after the fact, and for all the times I volunteered to be a cumdump for men besides, I still to this day dont know if I can be raped just because I have trouble defining what its supposed to mean to me, as its difficult to see rough forced sex as a negative, and by definition, it has to be forced to simultaneously be the most and least desired.
I haven't solved that puzzle. But I dont feel I have to. I know how and what I feel, and it feels very natural and great, to me.
Sorry for blogging on memories.
I wouldn't say you're fucked in the head. I don't have a lot of experience but my current fuck buddy is the type of guy you describe... knows what to do, knows what he wants, his goal is his satisfaction, not mine. Yet I also get that high when he's using me, so much so that when he's finished sometimes I don't even want to get myself off.
Thanks, I really do appreciate that. The way I'm wired, I never try to get off while Im with the guy and dont mind at all, and in fact much prefer it that way. I guess I figure I can do that anytime, and like to get as much out of the time with the guy as I can taking care of him. It tends to reinforce their comfort with the purpose of the hook up as well.
I do feel I get off, just not in the way most would think of it. In fact I find my way better and much longer lasting. Perhaps its some sort of mental edging or tantric thing, I cant say.
For as enjoyable and natural as it seems to me, it does puzzle me why I feel like I have the minority viewpoint on this, especially since it seems to engage with what men want as the most popular perspective.
I would think that people would intuitively grasp that the more you defer to what men want, the more appealing you are to them and more men you can entertain. For so many, they seem to get it backwards somehow.
fratx stuff is messed up
but i can't stop watching the shit
wanting to be there so much and hurt their submissive bitches with my dick and mistreat them like they're sorority hos
all those boys must have hiv by now
lots of their bottom pigs having to suppress smiles and trying to act like they're not enjoying it while they're being used