come get it off your chests
I'm on day 7 of nofap and I'm really starting to grow out of this place. Maybe it's just the quality of this board that has dropped sa hard over the past years or I really can't just sit around anymore and not try to do whatever I want in real life. I don't feel anxious anymore. I'm going to live the life.
i kinda like the way i waste time with it. If you want to pursue some other things in life go for it OP, just don't forget that you can go for trying to get rich, popular/famous forever and even when achieving it you probably will still feel empty. The struggle can be fun, but don't delude yourself by copying goals other people strive for which seem very virtuos of possesing at first sight.
>i dropped going to the gym after i realised some pushups/pullups/pistols 2x/week is enough to look hot, be strong enough to perform daily chores and stay healthy
>im slowly becoming normie
Despite the fact I've fucked over 25 chicks, and I've had chicks hit on me in a club( usually 5,6/10 though) I still feel like a worthless piece of shit that has to overcompensate to be liked by females and I feel completely lost. I hate myself, it feels like everyone else has it better, well except you guys.
I know, I know.
I've lost a lot of weight. This is the first time in my 26 year kissless virgin life that I'm even close to being attractive. I get so lonely sometimes.
I am half way into a year abroad and am hating it. Everyone speaks English so well that it's difficult to learn the native tongue through immersion, and my courses ended up being 75% online so I'm having a really hard time meeting people. I'm extroverted with my friends, but making new friends is difficult to me (doubly so because the culture here is very reserved and asocial). I'm pretty much cacoon-moding though and making mad gains, so I'll probably come back to Canada next year a sick cunt and lie about the great time I had abroad.
>Everyone speaks English so well
>the culture here is very reserved and asocial
I really appreciate the male figure and the potential to which it can reach (i.e. - Greek and Roman fit status) but not in a homosexual way. But sometimes I think it makes me bi-sexual.
I'm also afraid to use protein powder.
>walk up to the hottest chicks you see
>start convo in Swedish
>when they speak English, say "no, let's speak Swedish" in Swedish
>don't worry about accent or mistakes
>watch their panties drop.
>go to Greece
>cousins introduce me to their friends as their "American cousin"
>they speak to me in English
>I respond in perfect Greek
>they warm up to me instantly
>they call me "Cowboy" because i'm from Texas
I'm about to be angry if I'm right. I sure hope I'm not
>have friends haven't spoke to since high school other than when they want something
>have one person I talk to daily
>we make some beer together
>then some wine
>then apple cider
>have beer for new years
>person i talk to suddenly starts talking to old friend
>hang out at the mall
>get invited to new years party day later
"Hey this woulda been a lot more fun if you brought some beer"
>not even 2 days later 2 friends that only contact me if they have a scheme contact me.
I have squirrely feeling
I like the old friend though. We went to a sushi bar later and she looked right into my eyes. Test went through the roof.
Then again I'm a sucker and should prolly follow my gut. What do
i got depression and left gym for 6 month.
> today i went to the gym
> powerlifting class is about finding your squat PR
> i aimed for going over 100kg easy (i'm 74kg for 181cm)
> 95kg x 3 was my best today
> i feel like a useless shit
> in the shower i told to myself "i don't wanna come here again, i wanna train alone"
I wanna fuck this girl and I can tell she wants to fuck me but I feel bad if my gf finds out. I dont really feel much for her anymore, I just dont wanna hurt her. I dont know how to go about this, I actually feel a little beta for not just doing what the fuck I want and letting the chips land where they may. Fuck, these gains are a gift and a curse..
This basically yeah. Also I've been rejected countless times and it's pretty much just as bad everytime( fast rejections I don't really care about but after I've gotten to talk with a girl for a while and shit and I think she's hot, auch), especially recently when a fb I had gotten attached to stopped seeing me and is now dating a fat, bald, although taller and probably richer dude. Felt so fucking used. She had amazing tits :(.
I have 0 self-esteem right now and thinking about going an hero.
Ayy lmao, I'm studying in Sweden too atm and the struggle is fucking real. Haven't learn Swedish a shit during this time. And I feel like I never have to be present at the uni so I'm making gains and hitting the gym on daily basis.
I keep getting mild pains and injuries that go away after a week or two, but they still scare me even though I retardedly ignore them because I don't want to give up gains and the wonderful feeling I get when I'm at the gym.
I haven't stepped foot into my gym/ worked out in over 3 weeks
I'm currently on a dirty bulk. I'm so sorry, Zyzz.
My friend lost all his gains in the last year because he stopped going to the gym as he's stressed and lost a lot of confidence.
I lied and said he looked fine in order to boost his confidence enough to get him to go back.
been exercising every day with strict diet for the past 3 months, starting to see results, but i'm still fat and weak. I'm starting to consider suicide as a legit option, this is too hard m80s
I fart every 2 minutes or so while bulking. When I'm at the gym I usually crop dust the entire time I'm there. I just pretend like I'm getting water or doing a circuit. It's gets so bad that women start spraying perfume to get ride of the smell. I don't think anyone has figured out that it's me yet
I have bulked hardcore since summer trying to escape auswich mode.
I have gained 1.5 lbs in total.
I relapsed like four times on my no fap/no porn resolution. I just edged until I convinced myself it was best to stop. I'm so horny right now...
I would fap to my imagination, but thoughts of porn usually creep in there when I do so.
If i would tell how much weight ive added since i started one year ago people here would make a meme out of it
I take drugs and eat like shit tho but i look better than 80% on here so fak it
I haven't gone to the gym for two weeks. I think it's depression but about to go right now. I'm down three pounds from two weeks ago and I don't think it's fat...I've been very consistent aside from this.
I'm too embarrassed to do squats or deadlifts in the gym because of how weak I am compared to everyone else.
used to mtb / run a lot, switched
>be me, 6"0 skinny trying to gain muscle.
>tfw every muscle but legs is shit so over-commit to legs
>leg day, doing squats
>some people working out behind me
>look around no source found, turn around
>2 gymbros behind me, 1 bursts into laughter
>im 90% sure these people are ridiculing my form because it's awful
>other guy looks like I told him his favourite anime is shit
>"Am I shifting the weight?"
>breath fills the lungs of other gym bro
>"Your ass bounces when you squat"
>"Looks good though"
> option 1, play it off like a normal member of society
> option 2, retard
> ding, ding ding
> "t-thanks, uh, good triceps you got"
The few seconds of silence will haunt me for the rest of my life
> leave squat rack on second set
> leave gym after 2 exercises
> never wearing running gear to the gym again
I haven't been back in 2 weeks /fit/
I do cardio, lift and eat right except at night time when I fucking snack. Im always under my calorie goal and im still losing weight but just the fact that I keep on going back to my fat fucking habbits makes me want to strangle a baby.
iktf so hard bro
i ended up writing about why i shouldn't do it and to remember the shame i would feel after snacking and i stuck that above my door handle. so when i would think about going to the kitchen, i would read that and not go.
you find that you're eating almost unconsciously in that you know you're doing it, but you just don't see the consequences, etc
I've told her to leave on numerous occasions. She doesn't really see the dark side because of our work hours and I rarely destroy my liver on weekends. It's been this way for 3 years. I'm actually considering doing the whole NYR thing though, haven't drank on a weekday since the start of the year
It's the reallest thing to break up. Do you think being with her just for the poon doesn't hurt her? She probably also feels your feels about the relationship. Don't cling to what was
you think that people will make fun of you for starting off weak, but they wont. Gif related is how it was for me.
Started liftan for i dont know why
Thought i would get girls, i do
Realize that i dont care about relationships and feel that they're just wasting my time
I just want to lift and study but i feel guilty for not wanting to pursue anything social past friends
I dont care about sex at all
I haven't lifted regularly for 3 years now. lost 10kg. look and feel completely DYEL, both in and out. used to fucking compete in powerlifting back in 2012. now all I do is sit in sadness and feel like shit over some girls, my future and my own inadequacy. in my defence though, I started going to the gym this week. it's painful seeing how weak I am, but whatever. lifting won't bring happiness but being weak and sad is worse than being strong and sad. fuck everything.
>lifting won't bring happiness but being weak and sad is worse than being strong and sad. fuck everything.
This is my philosophy in life.
Tulips are not cacti, captcha. Why do you hate me so?
That's what I'm afraid of, I just have no interest in dating or relationships, but still pursue them because "I should want it"
I don't know if i can even do anything about it since I live in goddamn japan
You're not lifting hard enough.
High physical strain (heavy lifting, not hypertrophy pumping) will actually trigger endophine and even adrenaline releases, which is chemically happiness.
you escape your miserable life for a moment, and that's fine. even as I lift though, I can't escape my own misery. it's still there. but hey, like I said, who said you can't lift while feeling like complete dog shit?
if it's hard, filled with madness and anger, then it benefits compound lifts quite generously. but if it's liquid...
>Skipped Squats and DB bench press yesterday
>Procrastinating university coursework
>Addicted to shitposting
>Addicted to masturbating and do it several times daily despite concerted efforts to quit, can't get past 1 day of nofap
>23 y/o virgin who's never had a gf
>apply to new job
>they don't want me
>find a nice place to rent
>someone else gets it
>fall in love with a girl
>she rejects me
>sign up for classes
>cancelled a week before
>try to see my friends more often
>they're too busy and don't really want to see me because i'm boring af
That's been the last two years for me. I literally haven't been able to change anything in my life because people literally hate me. Only new thing was the gym and I recently hurt myself and haven't been able to go for weeks. It's insane that I haven't given up yet. At this point I would probably fail at killing myself too.
The most power a person ever has over things in life is being able to walking away from them.
Jobs? Fuck it, a better opening is out there waiting for you.
Girls? Fuck it, there is plenty of bitches in the sea.
Friends? Fuck it, get new friends who actually value you.
You're fucking awesome anon, don't let the plebs who don't understand make you think otherwise.
I'm a virgin and I've been struggling with porn addiction for 2 years. The only person that knows I'm a virgin is my former therapist. My greatest fear is losing my penis is some kind of accident or weird self-harm thing before I get laid.
> My greatest fear is losing my penis is some kind of accident or weird self-harm thing before I get laid.
It could happen any day now.
Even in your sleep maybe!
Better rape someone real quick.
I have no direction in my life and I'm 27. Everyday I pretty much work, climb, lift and play video games.
My gf of three years wants to move out of state with me and I do to I just have no idea what the fuck I'm gonna actually do.
I pretty much just want to rock climb and Im having a hard time staying motivated because I live in Florida and all I have is a climbing gym.
>starting to see results
>wanting to end it all
I stopped going to the gym 2 years ago when I finally decided in my mind my lack of gains was due to genetic inferiority and low testosterone.
It turns out that it was true that my T was low, I'm now taking Clomid and have a respectable amount of testosterone but I haven't bothered to start lifting again to take advantage.
I don't really care about anything anymore, I'm now in the "this is the rest of my life" phase of life.
I think I've put on something like 5kg in 4 weeks, dirtiest bulk ever. Only went gym like twice in the two weeks either side of Christmas because of a mixture of a) gym was closed for a few days, b) grandfather died, c) was ill for a few days. Been trying to compensate by going more than usual now but I look like a fat fuck atm and I know it's not predominately muscle beneath it all.
I'm too intimidated to go into the lifting room.
It's all in my head.
The few times I sheepishly wandered in there, the gym bros were very supportive, answering my questions. Or they just didn't care, which is even better.
I've read the sticky, watched form videos on YouTube. I just need to get my ass in there and fail until I make it.
But Im new to lifting. I don't want to look like a NYE fag. I keep saying I'll just wait until the resolutioners fade out, so I don't look like a poser.
In the meantime I'll just stick to the yoga classes, and hop on the elliptical, where I'm not in the way.
How can I not be such a massive pussy, anon?
99% of your thoughts are useless static that your brain produces arbitrarily. You can learn to ignore your negative thoughts if you're willing to just dismiss them as random shit. Don't give weight to your thoughts, pick up weights then put them down.
>miss my wednesday morning work out because overslept
>fuck it, I'll just go like 10:00 pm when there is no one there
>get there and there are people fucking everywhere, sitting on the benches, hoarding dumbells, hanging around the machines doing nothing
And I thought this was just a meme