Hey /ck/, what do you think of my endless pancakes and deep loneliness? Let's call each other faggots and eat breakfast food in the middle of the night. Get in here!
I may not be in an IHOP, but I'm there with you in spirit, OP! Cheers, let's drink a carafe of midnight coffee together.
Hopefully it's not too late for me to join?
I too am with you in spirit
Mainly, I'm avoiding the urge to drink alcohol, since I was an alcoholic until 5 months ago. Now, I live for my coffee and hot tea. And lots of long walks. I love IHOP because of their endless supply of coffee. The last time I was there, the server (who'd waited on me before) let me take my mug.
I also have loneliness issues, but that's partly because I don't really have any friends anymore (my friends were also alcoholics, they tend to disappear when you quit drinking).
Would also like to add that for whatever reason, a plate of IHOP steak and eggs with hash browns sounds literally God tier at the moment.
>tfw when you order a steak rare and it comes back way too rare by being purple and cold in the middle every time, and every time you go back you order it rare again
Guilty pleasures I suppose
At the end, I was drinking 750 ml of vodka a day, and keeping water bottles of it stashed everywhere. That had been going on for months. Before that, I was a 4+ bottle of wine drinker for several years, and before that, I'd been drinking beer daily for well over a decade. Basically, I started drinking in my teens and it steadily increased well into my thirties.
I'm looking forward to the year mark, because supposedly a year is how long it takes for your liver to heal itself.
How'd you do it? I ask because I know I'm gonna end soon.
I've been 2/3 of a 750ml bottle of vodka/whiskey (I switch for months at a time) a day for over 10 years.
Now at hypertension 2 blood pressure with enzymes in the bloodstream at 36 years old.
I know I have to quit, but I honestly don't want to because I've had stints in the past where I would go beer only (still 3-5 a night) for a couple weeks and was insanely bored all of the time, not to mention I would actually Fuck up at work.
What did it for you and how did you stay clean?
What did it for me was ending up in the hospital overnight with pancreatitis. That is NO FUCKING FUN. Most pain I've ever been in in my life, and that includes when I broke my pelvis. It literally scared me sober.
Anyway...the way I stay clean is basically constantly reminding myself how shitty I felt and what my daily life was like when I drank. I was depressed, anxiety ridden, and slow both in mind and body.
The first week when you quit is very hard, no doubt. You have to REALLY want to stop. But it can be done. I went to the health food store and bought some detox pills, and took them twice a day, every day, for a month. To combat anxiety, I popped 4 benedryls a day. Benedryl is actually a pretty good over the counter anxiety medicine. (I learned that from a friend of mine who was prescribed what was basically a very strong form of benedryl for his anxiety so he could sleep at night. )
Clean eating and exercise also make it easier and make you feel better faster.
I'd also take pic related every day, twice a day, mid-morning and in the evening, and drank a lot of Marley's Mellow Mood.
Thx for the advice. Next time I go for a "sobriety run," (hopefully soon, but I have to feel the need) I will do my best to mirror the practices.
Here's to hoping.
Steak and eggs is literal God tier breakfast when cooked right.
As for >>7371197 he speaks the truth.
IHOP can absolutely fuck up a steak when you order rare, but their eggs and hash browns on the side are so perfectly cooked, they offset the fucked up rare steak.
As a matter of fact, they actually turn the steak up a few levels
You can clean up, guys, you really can. I don't believe in all that AA shit (unless it really does help you, then go for it), BUT, I believe in personal willpower. If I can do it, anyone can, because I had been drinking (more and more heavily and in excess) for just over two decades, and I was able to stop through sheer force of willpower and desire to not live all fucked up anymore or watching myself deteriorate. If I can do it, anyone can do it, because I was really fucked up.
There are no losers in Waffle House, only winners eating their fantastic, side-of-the-road tier café food. I love it.
Hey whoa what the fuck. I'm pretty sure I've been to that Waffle House if it's one that's kinda close to UGA campus.
Also, good luck alcholic anonymous'. I'd keep you company at IHOP to keep you from drinking.
It seems like a bad idea having one of those high pressure dishwasher hoses just under the counter like that, and the guy looking towards the camera is just waiting for the inevitable collision of dish mist and butter face.
I forget who it was (I wanna say Paton Oswalt) but some comedian had a joke that went "if you want to know what it's like to eat in an IHOP, make yourself some breakfast and then go into your bathroom and close the door."
The only IHOP I can think of is in the ghetto, so I'm not driving out at 2 am for pancakes.
I miss living in the suburbs with only white people around. I used to go to IHOP in the middle of the night for coffee and pancakes.
Howd you guys get sober? Im on my second pint of vodka today, been on a bender for two weeks.. did 150 days sober a couple months back, drinking since then. Heavy drinker for past 3 years
Feeling depressed as fuck. Seriously considering aa
Try AA, it might work. I go every now and again. What's worked for me is one cocktail a night. I never drink more.
What got me to quit at my height of a fifth a day habit was the incredibly debilitating anxiety and hangover I'd feel. I would be bedridden until about 5 pm until I felt well enough to drink and I'd do it all over again.
I drink a cocktail a night or none at all now, have been that way for 3-4 years now.
I've lived my entire teenage through adult life with End Stage Renal Disease, have never had a girlfriend, and the past couple weeks its really hit a boiling point of tiredness and loneliness. I'm not to the planning suicide stage yet, but I've been fantasizing about death a lot recently and that's not good. I've decided to actively pursue a kidney transplant at the end of the summer, but I've already had one that failed and the odds of a second one keeping (due to my auto-immune disorder and just general transplant stuffs) is pretty slim. Still, the roll of the dice is worth it. Maybe I'll get to be normal.
So yeah, been a rough few weeks. Since I made that decision to at least shoot for normal though I've been feeling a bit better.
>not having late night mexican restaurants to go to instead of ihop or dennys
must suck not living in southern california
>bedridden until about 5 pm until I felt well enough to drink
I drink a bit more than that, and every morning it's a struggle between the pains in the stomach/abdomen (I consider it a good thing that it moves around) and the withdrawals.
No matter how much I feel like I my insides are screaming at me that they're about to explode, the withdrawal symptoms always win out these days, and I haven't made it anywhere close to 5 pm (used to be my standard) this entire year.
When you start drinking in the morning despite being in pain from drinking the night before it starts to seem like you're actively killing yourself.
It's an auto-immune disorder. Focal Segmental Glomerulosclerosis. They don't really know what causes it, truly, but essentially I've had it since birth. Early signs were just protein in a urine test at a routine doctor's appointment. Eventually as you go through renal failure you get swelling particularly in the legs and feet, less urine output, you feel tired a lot, nausea, that kind of stuff. Then finally you either end up on dialysis (like I am now), getting a transplant, or dead.
Renal failure is for most people pretty slow coming on unless caused by something like the beetus or a traumatic injury. They caught mine when I was 9 and managed to keep my natural kidneys going until I was about 17 with meds and such.
>a hard night of drinking
I sip on liquor throughout the night (and the day, these days), rather than do a bunch of shots in a period of just a few hours. I go through around half a handle a day.
I often feel a little nauseated taking my first couple of sips of vodka first thing in the morning, but it quickly passes, and I haven't actually thrown up, for any reason, in over a decade; it's probably been 15 years since alcohol made me puke, and I think that might have been the only time it's happened.
I think I just don't like to vomit, so I keep it down out of sheer willpower, which most likely isn't very healthy.
Damn anon :(
I have Chronic Kidney Disease (had it since birth, thanks shitty genetics - but it's recessive, so my kid doesn't have it thank goodness)
Going to the specialist sucks. Just started getting bad kidney stones this year.
You lost your natural kidneys pretty early. Did you have long bouts of anemia beforehand?
I'm currently at the anemic state. Constant fatigue, itchy legs (from bad filtration), nausea and constant right flank pain. Afraid my kidneys will get worse and dialysis is next.
Hope your shit gets better and your next transplant takes successfully.