Alone on Christmas Edition.
I'm just making boilermakers and hoping to forget everything.
I'm in a cheerful mood but also alone. I'm knocking back a twelve pack of Natty Ice. Seeing my sister and brother-in-law tomorrow briefly. I bought them a bottle of The Macallan 12.
No... It's not.
Whiskey + Beer is an American thing. I've traveled all over the world and boilermaker has a different definition in each country.
I've got a bottle of vodka, some dirty skunk and codeine syrup. Gonna get drunk, have a monster orgasm then have a sleep that'll put SNORLAX to shame
I poured the remainder of my beer down the drain. I can't drink anymore my kidneys are shutting down I think. Now I'm alone sober and in incredible pain.
All that binge drinking was not worth it
/Aus/al/ck/ Reporting in.
>Bloody Mary: 2 shots of Tequila.
Shower,clean up mess from previous night.
>Beer and 4chan time.
Shit post on all threads.
>Time for a few rum's,tequila shots and moor beer.
Also put a pork roast in the oven.
>More of of all the aforementioned.
Put all the vegos in with the roast.
Which brings us too now
>10 beers,4 rum's 2 bloddy marys and all the shots.
Roast is done,not hungry,might have a few more beer's
MERRY XMAS AL/CK/
had to stop drinking. came back one night this week and flipped my car. came out very lucky, no dui either. thats when i considered it a problem. its all hard on me, and i usually drink when im stressed like this so it makes it especially hard.
I planned on getting faced but I fucking ate too much. I had 2 beers and got so bloated I couldn't think of another one. Then I got so drowsy I didn't want to hit the hard stuff. Maybe if I can grow a tail things will change.
I'll take it as a blessing though. And interestingly this isn't an isolated incident. It seems like if I am going to drink any more I have to skip a meal. It's almost like eating dinner is my own version of antabuse.
Not that it matters, but I went from drinking at least a 12 pk a day for over 10 years to nothing from 2012 to 2014. I've kept things in moderation since then. I think spending all that time sober my stomach shrunk and I just can't hold as much as I used to.
Reverse issue. Trying to maintain a grip so my 'lism doesn't fuck up Xmas day. in the house with loads of senpai coming early to do presents, cooking a big breakfast etc etc but there's a 65% chance I'll end up shattered and awake at 2AM and be a wreck tomorrow.
Can't not drink or I won't sleep at all, can't drink too much or stay up or I'll ruin xmas for la famiglia. fml
>brb first shot of Old Crow right now
That's how I am, I'll have a couple beers with the family since they're all just social drinkers, then they go to bed and I work on a bottle of vodka by myself in the basement each night
This is my first time not going home to my parents for Christmas. I'm not too sad. I'm going to get drunk, cook the nice steak I bought myself, and watch Love Actually. Gonna be sick.
Stop feeling sorry for yourselves. My first Christmas away from home, I laid in the muddy rain with my machine gun. We set up an ambush on a high traffic trail and waited for the enemy. Zero luck on killing bad guys and zero luck sleeping.
That was when I realized all these holidays and celebrations were just bullshit. They're mostly for kids and women.
I turned 18 in Central America doing a long range reconnaissance patrol through the jungle. What a birthday celebration, yes?
All of it is garbage. I've adjusted to civilian life trying to accommodate people I love who still get wrapped up in the holidays. It's all nonsense but if they get joy out of it, I'll try to contribute. But if I'm alone like now then fuck it. Today is just another day except I get fucking inconvenienced by stores and banks being closed.
>tfw not only am i emaciated, but also a complete alcohol lightweight
>if i drink like 2 shots worth in a drink, i already get buzzed
>can't drink more than 3-4 shots without getting drunk and risking vomiting and hungover
Even with how miserable I am, I can't enjoy alcohol
Not alone. Had a couple of whiskeys with dinner but had to stop before I got fucked up because I gotta go the Santa thing for the little ones. Might have a beer while I'm putting toys together tonight though.
Merry Christmas guys. It really does get better eventually. You'll make it.
Vodka and V8 splash over here
I may make chicken enchiladas and bring leftovers to work tomorrow for lunch.
>tfw child support cuck for 8 more years
After I finish up Christmas visiting my family I'm going to legit try and fuck myself.
This was the most disgusting recipe I could find. It'll be perfect. I'll be downing seven of these. :D
Sorry 2016, I'ma die in my own vomit.
my liver enzymes are elevated but kidneys are ok. you should go to the doctor.
also i'm a recovering alcoholic and i keep relapsing. my boyfriend found my vodka stash and dumped it down the drain. i'm pissed off and in pain.
I'm the exact same. I'll have a bottle of beer or glass of wine with the senpai then go to "bed". Which means pounding a pint of shitty vodka, playing battlefront and shitposting until 4 in the morning.
I made it bros. We're all going to make it. I love you /ck/. Merry Christmas one and all
>we're all going to make it bros
>we're all going to make it
Alone and bummed myself today. I drew the on-call support short straw, and have to stay around the house today. My GF has been on a nursing contract for 3 months and doesn't get back until after new years.
Can't even drink til my shift is over. At least I get to work from home. Making some BBQ pulled pork to drown my sorrows in.
>tfw your parents got you a bottle of Zyr for Christmas
Parents are being assholes, even moreso than usual. Thinking about starting to drink early now, just so I can put up with them. It's only going to get worse when more people show up, so I might as well guard myself now, eh?
at my alkie father in laws house 2pm. had a sip in the early morning but otherwise str8.
>mfw he puts a "shot" in front of me
>his shots=water glass of rye+ice
>her face when
imagine that scene from the cartoon where one dog looks sheepish and the other one leans in with the stank eye
Lord Bacchus give me strengh to make it to the night without fucking up
Oh, I thought you meant in one day.
Meh, not impressed. I usually kill a bottle in one night + other drinks.
I drink the equivalent of an average of a bottle of wine a night in beer, wine, rum and gin.
Don't feel bad anon, you're not down the rabbit hole yet.
Unless you're paying more than $9 per bottle, then you're just irresponsible.
-.- Fucking seriously? I've been drinking average 1.5 bottles a night for about 4 years now. Come back when you get random abdominal pains in the middle of your shift and drop 2 plates.
Anyone else actually prefer drinking alone while sitting on the computer to going out?
How does one know if their kidneys are shutting down? I get cloudy piss the day after I drink for about the past year. Probably pissing out pieces of my kidneys. No real pain though except for little discomfort sometimes if I have to piss when I get up in the morning.
While I'm not an alcoholic I ran out of water this morning and was drinking wine..
I opened /ck/ and this thread was the first, what's a good bottle to give as a christmas gift? Whiskey preferred, but I'd like something somewhat unique, but tasty.
ya, I just finished my last semester of college. The first couple years I would go out to parties and bars with friends every weekend, this semester I pretended like I was busy and just drank alone nearly every weekend.
I had that once. Overall I don't think I'm that heavy of a drinker. I drink probably 1.5 times a week but when I do it's around 10 - 14 drinks. Then it takes me like 3 days to recover. Probably enough to cause issues though.
alone, but not drinking
I'd have liked to drink, but I worked today and by the time I got off all the stores were closed, which kinda sucked but I can deal.
I normally get pretty drunk most nights, but it's nice to know I can go a few nights without getting panicky or shaky. plus it's christmas so it feels kinda okay not getting hammered. pizza and netflix, going to see the family tomorrow
sorry this is a really boring post
I've hit my bottom. I've kept my life together with heavy drinking for the past 8 years but now I'm turning it around. Honestly, this will sound stupid, but Trump has inspired me. I've been listening to him and reading his books and the guy just has so much energy for life that it inspired me. I finally realize that I can be great, because it's all about ATTITUDE. You are what you make yourself. Happiness is a decision. So I'm tired of being a loser. Time to Make Myself Great Again.
I've enjoyed the sad times spent with you al/ck/, but it's time for me to move on. Best of luck to all of you, and God bless.
>mfw it is exactly the type of rhetoric that helped Mussolini gain support form a nation suffering from humiliation and depression
>been drinking a shitton because Christmas
>basically partied all through the 24th and 25th
>finally got home very early in the morning today, was planning to begin recovery process but I felt completely fine after a four hour nap
>hanging out, getting some things done
>fuck it, I'm gonna have just one more beer
>the INSTANT the last drop passes through my lips my body switches modes from "nah dude we're cool" to "PURGE"
>ten minutes later I'm puking and having beershits at the same time
>was planning on seeing Star Wars with family tonight
the puking has stopped but I still need to get up to take a shit every 20 minutes
the ring of fire is bright tonight
>the ring of fire is bright tonight
do you have a choice? i hear the movie isnt even that good, i was let down by jurassic park.
>take off 9 days for Christmas because I'm American and we don't take time off
>smoke retarded amount of weed because it curbs my alcoholism
>back to work on Monday, like I give a shit
haha time to get fired
Just some shitty beefeater gin.
I had company on christmas, but she left today for what will probably be forever. She was just an exchange student here for a semester, and now she's in a plane going thousands of miles away. was only with her for a couple months but since we both knew she was leaving we sorta sped everything up. The gin was hers that she couldn't finish before she left.
>Even my liquor reminds me of her.
I buy a pint of vodka from the drive thru liquor everyday after work, realistically how fucked am I? I know it isn't healthy but it isn't that bad......right guys?
>going through a pint of vodka every day
beer maybe, but vodka?
depends on how quickly you drink it, really. If you're having a gulp every hour and never really getting trashed or drunk then it's relatively okay. If you're drinking it in the span of an hour you're fucked. Either way you're weird, why would you do this?
Alcoholic here. And not of the recovering variety.
I go through a little more than that (not quite a fifth but close, maybe about 20oz) errday plus some wine. If I stop abruptly, I get that spiky feeling of withdrawals within four hours, it's been this way about three years now. You may want to get regular checkups to see how bad you're beating up your liver. Mine is holding up better than average, but that probably won't last forever. So, yeah, get that checked out.
Other than that, if it's not cutting into your personal life, fuck it. We functional drunks are a fine bunch, just stay the fuck out from behind the wheel when you know you don't need to be there.
It isn't really that much. A pint is a small bottle.
It helps me sleep and get comfy. I like to work hard and get my shit done and get comfy as fuck at night.
Liver fine and I'm done driving drunk. I don't have a sip until after I take my shower, slip on the p.j.'s, and settle into a comfy blanket of vidya, news, shitposting, tv, and reading books.
>Liver fine and I'm done driving drunk. I don't have a sip until after I take my shower, slip on the p.j.'s, and settle into a comfy blanket of vidya, news, shitposting, tv, and reading books.
Ah hell. Do your thing then, man. From the sound of it, you don't even go through withdrawals if I'm correct, so I wouldn't worry about it. People who don't drink habitually will be critical of it, that won't change. But if you're not hurting anyone and you're happy, don't worry about the bullshit.
I'm not currently going through withdrawals when I quit, but I am in a relapse. I am very much happier with my controlled drinking as opposed to total abstinence (hell) and total dependence (worse than anything ever. EVER.) Drinking a little allows me to relax, think about my day, fall asleep, and not wake up hungover. So far I've been able to control it.
here's my 25.
>couldnt get up without 3 shots of herbal liquor
>go to toilet, decide to fall in bed again
>tiny rest in vodkabottle makes me get up
>because I left the window open overnight and it was cold everywhere, I made me a pot of grog and 4 eggs for breakfast
>have several hours until I have to be at other grandma's house
>drinking yellow madeira, which has been a present from someone and must be put away, directly from the bottle until I get tired
>sleep till noon
>chartreuse with a lot of water while cooking (we had burgers for christmas)
>glass of medium sherry while paddies were sizzling.
>two glasses of vermouth, sparkling water and a slice of lemon for aperitif.
>half a liter deluxe lager beer, during the feast, after that a multivitamin pill with grapefruit lemonade and southern comfort
>over at grandma's house drinking shots of ramazotti with grandma and the other folks, a vodkashot with my uncle and anisse and caraways with my granddad
>back home drinking a large glass of ice cold gin tonic using blue saphhire, after that one with hendricks, after that tranquery
>brother comes, we drink several shots of fruit spirits to prepare for the evening gettogether and meal like mirabelle, raspberry, cherry and kalmus
>glass of white wine while eating
>then we always try several herbal liquors for digestion
>brother 1, I and brother 3 drinking dry martinis playing cards
>somehow suddenly I am at home (must have walked) fell in bed
moar details on the drinks man
christ, that's some fever dream shit right there
never understood how people can stand drinking that much booze, I like a good stiff drink but even at christmas I'll usually just stick to a couple of beers and maybe a glass of wine
It comes with time and dedication. Also runs with the family, as everyone of them wants to drink some of theirs with me. Most important is: You must not drink "booze". You must drink only the finest liquors and therefore sustain another part of your life which enables you to be that free in terms of alcohol.
imho an alcoholic drink is "good" not only for the taste but also for the particular mixture of alcaloids in it. It harms me less than cheap bum bottles. imho you shouldn't drink to get wasted at all. So what you are doing, having your beers and a glass of nice and tasty wine is the golden way to go, CHEERS and praise you!
>inb4 alcohol's a drug, drugs are bad
what are you looking for in an al/ck thread?
Picked up a bottle of this shit at the store.
Time to get fucked.
Drinking because my Packers are getting fucking embarrassed
dude I know that stuff and it's way to strong to enjoy. to me it is more like a medicine. despite its relatively low percentage of alcohol (usually 39% with the orange or 32% with the green label) it is a very strong herbal essence only to be used after a hearty, fatty and heavy meal. You can mix very nice cocktails with it though. Here's a recommendation, although it has a special taste:
4cl fernet branca
20cl bitter lemon
You can use it a rubbing alcohol for your grandma, too.
I don't want to make a separate thread for this, but I want to ask - does anyone else get a sore throat and swollen tonsils after drinking more than a little bit of wine? Doesn't happen to me after drinking whiskey or beer, only after having more than a couple glasses of wine.
>drinking most of the day
>run out of booze
>walk to gas station for more
>checking out with just beer and chips
>worker says "I can see this probably won't end well, but thats not my place to say"
>depressed the rest of the night
got a gift card for xmas so I'm about to try this shit out.
This thread seems kind of depressing.
I bought some grocery store eggnog on the cheap since its past Christmas and had a carton mixed with vodka.
What's something better I can do with it? I have 2 litres of regular flavour eggnog left.
In the span of year I went from "I'll never drink heavily, lol" to 7+ drinks just to feel the buzz you want. I used to be able to say "at least I don't feel the urge, lol" to feeling upset when there isn't enough alcohol in the house to get drunk.
Both my parents are alcoholics and most of the members of my family are alcoholics (the men dangerously so), I don't know why I thought this would end any other way.
Hearing voices when you try to quit seems like something you need medical intervention for.
>that there feel when just cut back on drinking heavily
I can finally feel a buzz again from a 4oz pour of 80 proof.
Not feeling like a pathetic alcoholic makes spending every holiday alone without any loved ones a little tiny bit less painful anon.
For starters, don't quit cold turkey if you're really deep into the alcoholism. You'll get really sick after a few days and then probably pick drinking back up to ease the pain
You're probably just paranoid thinking your head voice is a hallucination.
for your heart, I'd recommend checking your vitals (pulse and bp) regularly after visiting a physician to get a baseline physical examination. If you're having some actually bad shit happen (sharp pain in left arm and chest, palpitations/arrhythmia, super high/low bp, etc), then you need to go to the nearest hospital and/or rehab center or you will probably die pretty soon. It's probably just paranoia, though, if you haven't been drinking heavily for a pretty long time.
Man...I got wasted and messaged my s/o a lot of embarrassing shit last night. She doesn't seem to be acting any differently, but holy shit reading it when I woke up was straight up humiliating. I don't even think she realized I was drunk either, which makes it even worse. It's like I'm a completely different person when I'm drunk.
I need to start putting locks and shit on my computer and phone so I can't use them when I'm drinking. Every single time I get drunk to the point of blacking out because I can't control myself.
i feel you man, waking up and remembering the embarrassing shit you did/said while drunk is the fucking worst. And it all seemed so sensible at the time. Then the shame makes you wanna drink again just not to feel so bad.
Some shit that helped me drink a lot less:
>kill your stash. No liquor in the house
>change your commuting routes so you don't pass any shops with liquor
>join some club with regular activities or whatever keeps you from sitting alone at home
>calculate what you actually spend on Booze/month
>If you have the urge to drink. Just drink some water
When I drink I usually watch one of the same 4 movies over and over again. One night it was Jurassic World and when I woke up the next morning I vaguely recalled romping around the house roaring and emulating Abominous Rex noises.
Not the kinda shit 26 year olds should be doing.
Bought a tiny 100ml bottle of Jack to drink for Lemmy.
First time I've ever had Jack. Nothing special, but it's smooth. I can see why he liked it.
Almost New Years bump. What's the best way to conceal your drinking? Or at least discreet drinking tips?
look, the heart pain is probably just heartburn. but if it scares you mentally and bothers you enough physically, cut back. it's not rocket science.
every day doesn't need to be a party. and that goes out all posters in this thread. you're missing some major elements of life if every day has to be celebrated with alcyhawl.
I'm attempting college, I wake up at 530 to go power wash a local business lot and get off at 9am i essentially make enough to eat enough and drink all day until i pass out.Jimmy Buffett knew what he was talking about
So I was fairly certain my drinking was starting to fuck with my organs. So I stopped drinking basically forever. Gave it one last go for new year's, kinda hoping shit doesn't jettison out of my body or I don't wake up dead.
The gf argued at me all night last night, the only time we spent together all night was in anger. It wasn't because of drinking, but I drank to make myself feel better and at least get away from the bullshit mentally.
Hours of sitting there in silence while she made up scenarios and strawmen about shit that never happened. I don't know what's worse at this point, my addiction to her or the booze. It seems like she's damaging my mental state more than the booze.
Ended with a physical and her sleeping in another room. I should start drinking and driving again just so I can get away. Happy new year.
I disagree, if he's getting sex out of the deal and it's not costing him any money, he just needs to stop being such a little bitch. Going too long without sex is bad for men, and acquiring the sex from a stranger involves risk and some cost.
I don't know what "ended with a physical" means but I assume it means he took her temperature anally with his pee-pee. Seems fine. Just don't let her call you at work and it's all good.
Yeah we're into year 6 of being together so it's not the first time. Not even the first time she's pulled this shit on a New Years. Worst part is, without getting into too much detail, she just started up bitching and didn't stop. Nothing even happened. I'm sure you know what that's like.
Things truly do not change. And yes, it is very miserable. Miserable, boring, stressful, and... boring. Having a delicious Hemp Blonde Ale right now though while we sit together in silence on our computers. Outside perspective is good, so thanks. All relationshits are the same.
I don't even want to give her the satisfaction of an orgasm, not even to mention that sex with her is over-done and boring at this point. I know exactly what to expect. The sex isn't worth the mental destruction, at all. Have you not been through something like this?
"Ending with a physical" means she finally stopped being passive aggressive and got full aggressive and started hitting me in bed, so I held her arms, head, and chest down on the bed while she thrashed and screamed. Then she went off into the other room. Physical violence is the only thing she actually responds to.
So finish quickly and leave her unsatisfied, how is that hard? Unless you have some kind of disorder you should be able to get off much quicker than her.
You get a psychological boost from sex even if it's bad sex, that you can't get from masturbation. Use the boost to line up another woman on the side, then if this one is really unbearable, break things off with her once you've got the new one ready. It's what they do to us, so there is no reason to feel guilty about this.
I get what you're saying, and don't disagree with you at all. Like I should just use her for my own mental well-being and ego boost type uses. With anyone else that would work, but fucking her is not a trophy. It's not something to feel good about doing. In fact, I always feel pretty shitty after fucking her, like I just made a promise to her with my dick. The whole "sexual currency" idea, I don't feel good about it for whatever reason. I used to be in a bunch of bands so I can always get back into that and use it to meet girls as well, I got the sex thing down p good.
kek yeah you're right. very pragmatic.
Christ, just drop that cunt already
I can say without hesitation that feeling lonely is way better than being in a relationship with crazy, especially bad crazy
sex may give you a boost, but if that boost is cancelled out by the misery of just living normally then what's the point
you have to find strength from something else
take up a worthwhile hobby, buy a cheap beginner's model kit or something and build it, or if you really like beer start homebrewing and see if you develop a passion for it (buddy of mine was in the exact same situation, he started making his own beer and it completely changed his life because he had something he could really get into)
eventually you'll find somebody that you'll naturally click with, but you CANNOT let your life revolve around somebody other than yourself unless you genuinely love them
Very good advice man, thank you very much. I hope I'll have the courage to let this be the last time I get bullied in my own home by a fucking girl. She does need to go, she's lost all respect and resorts to violence. Her own personal mental problems are something I, apparently, cannot influence or change. Depression and stupidity, mixed with just being a fucking female in general is a storm of crazy. She was sober the whole time too, doesn't even drink. Where's the fun in that?
something people don't seem to realize is that humans have an innate need to be passionate about something
a lot of people are mistaking that for loneliness or depression and get stuck in a shitty relationship or start drinking or other crap like that as a result
the people that do figure it out are often called geeks or nerds for some reason (culture is all kinds of fucked up right now), but let me tell you those geeks are the happiest people out there and commonly the most successful
so go out, find something you like and fucking master it
you'll get such a huge boost to self esteem that you'll start carrying yourself differently, people will start respecting you more and you'll start attracting familymakers instead of cheap whores which is what you want in the end when you're ready to settle down
the absolute hardest part is getting started, once you're over that cliff you're home free
we're all gonna make it bruh
drinking away the loneliness with some delicious honey jd
>that feel when desire to cook always when drunk
>have literally nothing in my fridge
>have some instant pasta sauce that is boiled with water
>considering to boil it with tomato juice instead for shits and gigles, how bad can it be
>no minced meat or onions
nevermind, send gf
>Yer a dick.
No, giving false advice just because it feels good to say is the dick move. Someone following that advice and discovering that he's been led astray is going to fall into a deeper depression than ever.
I've got about a quarter of this left, should I chug it?
Has any one here had hair loss associated with their drinking? I used to drink a fifth of vodka every day for about half a year, but cut back hard core in 2015. To the point where most nights I don't drink at all, or if I do, is not more than one drink.
I had my liver functions texted back in March, and they were fine. Had an ultrasound done in June and was told there were no signs of any liver problems. Since that point I've continued to cut back, but within the past couple months I've developed some alopecia (spotty hair loss), and I'm worried it might be related to my old bad habits :(
Help. I need some peace of mind. I'm so proud of the progress I've made so far. I feel pretty healthy besides some digestive issues that the doctor thinks is related to my gall bladder, and I've never heard of hair loss associated with alcoholism, but I can't help but be scared.
you aren't alone. I'm an alcoholic and bulimic and I've noticed my hair thinning. It made me incredibly paranoid.. I've since straightened out my bulimia, and toned down my alcohol use drastically. People tell my hair is fine and my paranoia is probably due to excessive alcohol consumption.
You're both not alone there either. I've been a heavy drinker for quite sometime now. I used to have INCREDIBLY thick hair and the have just noticed it starting to thin (people have told me they noticed it a while ago, but I was in denial). The thing is hair loss from alcohol is indirectly related because of your body losing a lot of nutrients that keeps your hair healthy. You're starving your body, basically malnutritioned.
I've actually looked up shit about it to hell and back, have spoken to my doctor and other ex alcoholics who have told me their hair has thickened up since quitting and getting a healthy diet/taking the right vitamins (like B supplements, folic acid, zinc, magnesium etc).
I've been trying my best to quit, but it's hard as we all are aware. I've cut down considerably though and am working on cutting it out completely. It's just not worth it, not to me anymore.
I am lying to myself that they think that I buy all my food and hygienic produts at some big supermarket chain and that this is just the closest location for random stuff.
[spoiler]they know ;_;
and they are all girls
Thanks, guys. I'm >>7224105
I've cut my drinking down A LOT over the past yea and it's one of the things I'm most proud of. But the paranoia unfortunately creeps into my life more than I'd like to admit. I've been using these threads as a bit of therapy for awhile now, and it's posts like your own that let me know there are other people out there suffering too. I appreciate it.
had a bad f/ck/ing day anons. About done a fifth and found out my ex in engaged.
Hold me, fellow degenerates.
Seeing that on facebook made me deactivate my profile couple of weeks ago. I just couldn't hold it in.
>that feel when its been 3 years now
>that feel when you used to cook with her
>that feel when she is posting pics with her current shithead faggot boyfriend like she used to be with me
>that feel when you are deep down glad for her but at the same time she is happy and you are drinking whisky at 1am alone
I feel you anon. Believe you me, I feel you. We are all gonna make it. We have to.
Well, we had a short reconnection that lasted two months last year. She wanted to move in, I didn't because it would require her to miss out on a massive, super important job oportunity. 6 days later she has a new boyfriend.
Best bang for your whisky buck. It's personally the go-to when I'm low on funds but want a liquid lobotomy.
It's not that you don't want to get over it. You try hitting on girls, you trying putting yourself out there, but somehow nothing seems to work. And then at some point 3 years later when you are lonely and drunk and depressed, she just happens to be that one last most recent person in your memory. The fact that you still have major feelings for her is merely unfortunate.
It has been about three years since I broke up with my ex as well. It took me a while to get over her, the dreams etc stopped over a year ago and I don't think about her any more.
I cut all contact and to be honest even if I did meet her I would hardly know her, so I guess you could say I am over her.
However the late night loneliness and seeing all my friends in happy relationships when I have had nothing more than a one night stand in that time have been starting to get to me.
It is like I can't get past casual shit and onto a date or something with women any more. Shit sucks.
Its conflicting as fuck, starts fucking with your mind after a bit. Are you repulsive, or are just all the chicks fucking batshit insane and retarded, or both. Someone loved you once anon, there must be another person out there for you.
is it really though. instead of learning to adjust, he's just falling apart because he can't deal with being alone. he could be enjoying life, but he's obsessed with stuff he doesn't have. work on your problems.
Adjusting is fine and all, but if you are claiming that you can be truly happy alone you are either a sociopath or a "sour grapes" kind of person who never really experienced true love. Maybe you fucked some chicks and have a flingy cunty gfs, but never true love.
are you really posting in an alcoholism thread trying to define happiness.
it's not sour grapes to say that there are two completely valid ways to live.
you don't have to commit to one or the other either. enjoy your time all of the time, whether you are alone or in the company of others.
Dude, are you retarded?
It is a human nature to feel like you belong with someone. You will literally go insane from being alone for a long time. We're not talking a year or two. We're talking about 10 years.
Funposting aside, I think you are full of shit. But if you are right, more power to you. And trust me when I say that I genuinely envy you.
>that feel when you get drunk and listen to usually cringy love songs
>that feel when wasting your youth being alone
What music are you listening right now bros?
>tfw the only time im not suicidal is when im drunk
is this how alcoholism starts?
I did this for 7 years. Didn't make it past a week until year 4. Didn't make it past a week again until year 5. 10 days once in year 6. 1 week twice this year, then just over 2 months. Day 37 right now.