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>>663239605 Because I'm breaking up with my girlfriend in the next month or so.
She's perfect. Our personalities are great together. Shes a tight little half asian with DDs. Smart girl too finishing up her chemistry degree.
Problem is she is a virgin and wants to hang on to that until marriage and I'm definitely not about that life. I also have 2 years of uni left and she finishes next semester. I tried to do just long distance with my last girlfriend who was a sex monster, and long distance still didn't work out.
IDK just wish she would be dtf and I could prolly handle it. Really sucks. Onto the next one I guess. Total prude.
>>663240572 You're almost there anon. Grit your teeth and focus on the pain. It is what will get you through this madness. The homestretch is the most painful and when your lungs collapse but you cant stop moving forward or you'll always be full of regret.
>>663241082 Also one of my best friends blew his brains out over break the day before we were supposed to hang out. I feel like I could have done something.
Then my last grandparent died.
Also, I'm an alcoholic my dad got skin cancer and I hate 90% of everyone.
Can't do the sports I love anymore because my back and knees are severely fucked up. Still getting over a year old foot injury I guess I tore some tendons and finally can walk without limping.
I'm also just noticed I have been generally tired. It is weird like I'm not suicidal I just don't want to do things anymore. I want to sit in bed. Blowing my brains out seems like the lazy thing to do I honestly wouldn't mind it but lots of people would be upset.
>>663241757 Yeah maybe but I'm not waiting. I have the libido of an italian soccer team my balls the size of watermelons right now.
Could have banged prolly 2-3 nice ladies that were hitting on me at parties over the course of us dating (like 2-3 months idk) and had to leave because I refuse to cheat. Walking back knowing I'm not getting any despite making the right choice is fucked.
>>663239605 Have 3" dong, including tip been that size since forever Don't even bother trying to get gf because it will eventually lead to sex and having to reveal my dark secret Having to be a virgin for the rest of my life
>>663242100 >checked >You almost have this degree I'm in the same boat in a ways but we work in the jobs we hate to save up to go back and find our passion once we are financially secure in our shitholes of countries. I don't think I'll ever find mine but the work is steady the money is good and I rely on friends to make life less shit.
>be me >7/10 >best friend is femanon >9/0 >liked her since the day we met >it's now borderline love for her >talk almost every night >2-3 hours usual >she doesn't have a boyfriend I want to express my feelings for her but I'm scared she will get freaked out or something and it will ruin our relationship as friends. I want to know if she likes me but im to scared to ask. Help me /b/
Can't be too bad /b/ro My Ex said she didn't care about dick size, there are more like that. It's hard to think but when a girl falls in love with your personality then she won't mind if you have a pine needle for a dick. >>>663227501
Just started long distance with girl, said her friends started drinking an hour ago and forgot to reply and haven't heard since, I just need to write it down, she was getting ready for bed anyways but her friends are actual rapists.
I don't take a single day for granted But i still wonder if people will miss me if I go. Past exs have told me to just live, but do to more than what i already do just sounds exhausting, but we aren't here to be exhausted. We're here to help each other, progress the human race and maybe get on another mud ball zipping around space. Do something anon. If you think no one will miss you i will bro. I mean it.
Had to blow a really cool girl off for a date because I just started my new job and couldn't afford it, but my autistic mind decided to ignore her than just explain. I did this because she is out of my league and was desperate to make a date, so I figured she'd lose interest. This is the second straight girl I've done this to. Fucking aye.
I've just left my girlfriend of 3 years to pursue a Tinder match. We've met up and formed a relationship, and this weekend we're going on a trip away together. I feel so bad for my ex, because she had no clue this was coming, and she's a really sweet, caring girl. I feel sad for her I guess, but I want more than what she can offer me.
>>663243530 I think people that are abstinent by choice are mentally ill. Christians like that (which she is) end up associating guilt with a base instinct that is supposed to be natural and pleasurable. You end up with some fucked in the head person for the rest of you life that doesn't have a clue how to handle a dick and might be reluctant.
IDK I drive cars before I buy them. I straight up told her that because we have had to talk about it since I noticed how hard I was getting shut down.
Maybe I'll break it off and fuck around and see if we end up meeting up down the road. We already established we still want to hang out as friends if we break up so w/e I guess.
>zozzle >bananas Im ok with kek and max par, but those other two things are killing /b/. And people need to lurk more. If everyone just went into maximum lurk mode and made /b/ a desolate/spooky/empty place again, that would be fucking amazing. Tired of seeing traps and lolis and shit all over the place now.
A coworker told me a week ago >"I don't really go out. I talk big, you know? But I don't fuck around man. I have a girl, she is the girl I want to go home to. She is that home, you know? She's mad, playing some shit, but she'll take me back one day. So now, I'm just waiting to go home."
This resonated with me.
I've been fucking other girls. I've been seeing other girls. I've been in a relationship and had my fun.
It's been two years. I am still waiting to go home.
>>663244260 I really disagree there, not for religious reasons or anything though. I'm not going to lecture you on the pros/cons of that lifestyle, I'm sure you're well aware. Just saying that the position you were in is something I've dreamt of.
Have a female coworker that I'm friends with that I have a major crush on. Very down to earth and easy to get along with on top of being cute af. Unfortunately for me, she's also married. To make matters worse, she has told me she would have dated me if this wasn't the case.
I'm well aware I'm being friendzoned hard, but I live in a small town and girls like her just don't exist in these parts. I'm just rambling now, but I'm extremely lonely and as depressed as I've ever been. About to give up on hope I'll ever find someone for me.
>>663244170 The conversations are about what happened during the day and random ideas. She's never really mentioned anything about being single or anything about relationships. It's weird though, I've seen her mannerisms change lately, like she just sent "hey ;-)" the other day which is odd because she never likes using those little faces. And instead of saying seeya later when she's going to bed she's started saying good night.
She will still be around I just got to do my own thing for a bit ya know? I'm a 24 year old college student I need to go fuck around while I'm in my prime. I feel like I only got so long marriage scares the fuck out of me.
You're perpetuating your own sadness. I know people like you IRL. They're sad fucking losers. They place so much importance on having a romantic relationship that they know nothing of themselves. They tell themselves no one will ever love them, and because they do that, it makes it true.
Have a bit of self-respect, Anon. My first girlfriend broke up with me about 2 weeks ago. With the benefit of hindsight, I realise that I idealised her and our relationship to such an extent that she took me for granted, and I was never myself.
Now I'm living for myself. I need know woman. I am above them. They bring only sadness and misery. I'm fucking awesome, and I don't need any bitch to tell me that. Fuck bitches, get money. All that shit.
>>663243946 People will miss me but it is still meaningless. Trust me I'm not suicidal, I'm just a pendulum swinging between nihilism and pantheism depending on my mood. Lately I've been feeling especially bleak. Our race isn't meant for anything but what its been doing lately is circling the drain. Mark my words our society is unraveling around us. Things are going to get worse, probably until they can't get any worse.
>>663245472 I got a GED with full honors at 16. I've been thinking about it but don't have money or social skills.. My anxiety and lack of exposure to people left me with an inability to speak to people that aren't online.
Thanks though. Definitely something I've been thinking about for the last few months after deciding that I'll at least give it till 25 for ODing.
>>663245495 Please tell me you know how to flirt or be sly. Even if you don't be afraid to, just send the signal you are seeing her in a different way. Or just steer the conversation about how you think she's pretty. If she doesn't see that as you flirting she's a dumbass and just admit you think of her as more of a friend and would want to have her consider that. If she rejects the idea if she's a good friend she won't mind. If she agrees nigga you made it
>>663244260 Maybe I just don't give a fuck about pussy. It seems like a lot of work for a very base and carnal pleasure. I've experienced things much more exquisite in my short stint on this earth. People that chase that shit are miserable and people who get that shit are whipped.
Because radiation sucks, I've lost teeth, my ability to taste, and 30 pounds in a month, I'm soggy from this shit, but life still is good even though you feel like you're dying sometimes. It has it repetition and it's slumps, but fuck, life is beautiful when you actually go out there and live.
>>663246155 Uh, no. That was a valid cry for attention from a whore. Try re-reading that ED article on /b/ which brought you here and lurk a little longer before you start using words like "newfag." Fucking newfag.
>>663246013 I do know how to flirt and be sly, and I've tried being real smooth but I don't think she fully realized what I was doing. Hell, she's said and done some pretty flirty things but it's so hard to tell if she's just messing with me or if she is doing it because she likes me.
>>663246481 Oh, it's on the doctor's dime. I am American, but I'm the byproduct of a misdiagnosis, my surgery (227k, 17 hours) was completely voided, and life is good, I was suicidal and cried every night at one point, but now everything seems to be looking up.
My ex blocked me, and it was an absolutely destructive relationship. I put her in a pedestal, she was my muse.
But I realized when I was with her I didn't do any music, which was the thing that make her fall in love with me in the first place. I just didn't find any motivation in creating things and I was obsessed with the idea of seeing here every time, I didn't give her a chance to miss me because I always contact her first.
I wish her the best and I hope she finds happiness, but I need to take care of myself now. Gladly I have friends who love me :)
>>663245787 Reminds me of a quote i read somewhere. >Our world doesn't get worse our eyes just get wider. Yea it seems like it's nearing end of days with global warming and eco-systems falling apart but we have to accept responsibility as the human race and keep balance. If you look for the positives in life you'll find them.
>>663245930 At least go to community college. I'm not sure what the prices are where you live, but here it's $100 per credit hour. Meet some new people, get involved in a group, and most importantly try to avoid being around your parents. A community college should offer a form of counselling. A good way that helped me defeat my social anxiety is to just start talking. Talk about anything: sports, music, if they have a novelty shirt ask about it. I know that this saying goes around a lot, but it gets better. I don't know when or how, but if you commit suicide, you'll never find out. One last thing, Samuel L. Jackson got his first major role in a movie at age 38, fucking 38. He's now one of the biggest, if not the biggest, movie stars. Yeah, it may take a while, but it's worth it.
>>663246809 >ask her to hang out with you >netflix and chill >do what ever you two would do >try and hold her hand >if she likes you she won't pull her hand away >if you hold her hand for more than 5 mins at least try and kiss her
>Talk about date next day over text see how she feels about it, apologize if it goes bad, reveal feelings if it goes good.
>>663246721 Being a pervert doesnt bother me. I spend most of my time jerking it to tods and beasty. At least Im not a complete faggot and jew like all of b. Let that sink in: I am saying, as a professor in queerdom, that you are a grade-A douchefag
>>663247112 I had/have thyroid, lymphoma, and lung cancer. I actually have a shit ton of friends, people who loved me before I got really sick, and of course their were those pieces of shit who only wanted to be my friend because I was dying. It helped me sort through the real friends and the fakes.
>>663246901 That is a result of finding what you set out to find, not sitting back and seeing what is there. I cannot unsee the horrors looming on the horizon for our species. Honestly I'm not even that depressed about it per se, I just feel utterly unmotivated. I had ambitions, passions, dreams, but things are so up in the air that I'm not sure what I should do with myself anymore.
>>663244609 >Don't. Suicide is a permeant solution to temporary problem >Find a hobby, do something that makes you smile at least once. Find love. Find the reason to go. Not him but are you even trying anon? You could have copy and pasted that from another anons "oooh don't jew it breh" post You would have saved yourself some typing
>>663246234 Yeah I would be sad making the few people I actually give a flying fuck about unhappy.
I'm not suicidal I'm honestly just lazy though. life is OK it is just so much work. Sometimes I think it would be easier to not be around for the 80,000 hours I'm going to have to work and the bullshit that comes with everything day to day.
Ehh, I have a girlfriend anyway, but this girl and I had been becoming real close (She broke up with her ex a few months ago) and I was on the cusp of breaking away from my (honestly, kind of dead anyway) relationship to ask her out...
There's this girl that I've been into for a year (since I met her). She used to start convos and everything, now I'm the one starting conversations, and sometimes she on board but sometimes not. Worst of all, one of her good friends (whom I'm convinced is a closet faggot) hates me
>>663247606 >horrors looming on the horizon for out species
>Nigga i work at funeral home! I see dead people everyday. You don't think this has an effect on my psyche and motivation? On a large enough scale everyone's chance of survival is 0. Just do something. Do something that makes you happy, even if it's gassing a million jews be happy.
At first I was kind of on board with you because I know what the LDR is like but that just kind of made me disregard any respect I may have had for your plight.
It's not fucked. You're entitled to some kind of reward just cuz you "did the right thing?" You should feel good about doing right by your woman or you shouldn't be dating her, but I guess you know that since you're breaking up with her already.
Or were you looking for "Yeah anon, I pity you, that sucks bro, not banging all those sluts must have been really hard, why don't you tell us about it?"
Sorry about your buddy and your grandparents and your dad though. Those are legitimate reasons to be sad. You should have led with those and not your possibly fictional perfect girlfriend that you seem to care about as much as your last pair of shoes. An heroing is boring. Try becoming an alcoholic like your old man.
>>663247710 Get off 4chan faggot. Im going to continue my existance, uninterrupted, unphazed, and just as perverted. I truly believe Im not going to die without raping someone. And nobody will do jack shit about me or all this shitposting. Shove your keyboard knighthood up your fat faggot ass
I'm pretty sure I fucked my heart over with all the nootropics and alcohol, and I'm still very young. I am going to confirm whether or not this is true, but it might mean I need to be sober for an indefinite period of time. Which honestly isn't a huge deal but still a bit of a bummer.
I have been married for six months to a girl with long term psychosis, I guess I just sort of settled for what I could get. Then I moved with her to another city and met a girl I like waay more who is smart and just sort of feels right. Even if she did not want to be with me I would be happy to just flirt with her and not feel like an adulterous scumbag. My wife wants to have children and I think that will be fucked up with her mental illness. I want a divorce but I feel like she won't let me go.
>No family >Dad died >Mom's a drunk >Distant from other relatives >Friends went their separate ways in collage years >Friend I had since grade 10 >Met him on Xbox >Never left me >Friendship grew more during grade 12 onwards >We knew each other inside and out >He was my brother. My drive. >2013, August 4 >He finds out he has a tumor >He doesn't have enough money to get the surgery or be be in debt till 45 >Have money >He wont take it He had to... without him... >His due date was 2015, Fall >Wanted to meet up. See each other for the first time >I live in Canada >He lives in the States >Gives me his and his parents address incase something happens >Close to a 3 day drive >Time I didn't have >Thought I had plenty >2015 December 2 or 4th >Stopped coming on >Hasen't been on for 4 days >He's been jobless since 2014 >He's been living with his parents since 2014, has no responsibility >2016, January 7 >It's been too long >Call in sick, have a flu >Need a few days >Punch in his address he gave me since in Google Maps >Only took a day and a half >Knock on his parents door >They look at me "Is Anon home? I'm an old friend of his. Want to see how he's doing" >They tolled me >I had a fealing, but I wasn't ready >Had to stay there a few hours. >Needed to collect myself >I haven't been to work since >A job I've never cared for >A live I never cared for >Only a person >A friend >A brother >My drive
>>663247294 You know what, that's actually not a bad idea. Also she'd be more inclined to Netflix because there are a lot of shows she wants to see but she doesn't have Netflix. You know what I'm gonna do it. I'm done being so worried about it. I've had so many people say that if she's a great friend then she won't get weirded out by it even if she doesn't feel the same way. I'm gonna do it. Thanks to everyone who said something, I think I needed the encouragement to do anything.
>>663248455 I don't know what to do. I don't have any drive to keep living. I don't see a point. I'm lost, depressed and alone. I need to get this off my chest. I don't know if it will help or not. I don't want to end my post with "I want to kill myself" so I'll end it with 4 words. What do I do?
>>663248135 I'm not sure what you mean when you say that you can't handle arguing/fighting. Do you have a job? When you have these breakdowns, what are your immediate thoughts? Are they like in pic related?
I dropped out of college am I disappointment to my faimly, drink and get fucked up too much, my exs try to make me feel shit constantly but then there's her, she's perfect I feel like I'm in pure ecstasy with her but when I'm not all I can think about is when she'll tear me too fucking shreds. She's too good to me, too supportive, too understanding and she'll be the death of me when it's all over I just don't want it too end but it will all good things do
>>663248089 The problem I'm in friend is I'm not sure what will make me happy anymore, at least in a sustainable, long run fashion. I've become disillusioned with what I had long thought would be my life, and my alternatives offer me little stability and are likely a waste of my talents. They might be my talents to squander but so many people believe in me I'd prefer not to let them down.
Nevertheless, I definitely know what you're trying to say. I feel like I say it to myself everyday. Happiness seems like a sound investment but it can be a tricky check to cash.
Overall life is alright although I feel that I'm getting too mature whereas my friends are pretty much still acting like they are still in highschool. I am leaving community college in the fall and although the uni I'm transferring to is only about 15 minutes from home I still feel like I won't see anyone again pretty soon. I'm only 20 but man life just kind of jumps up at you and there are so many decisions to make that are going to impact everything for the rest of my life coming up rather quickly.....but I honestly am looking forward to seeing what life has in store for me.
>>663248736 No heres the best part. I actually do so much more than just sex. I have tons of different interests, all of which fill me with incredible happiness to explore. Other than my perversions Im a well adjusted person who couldnt be happier, other than if jt were warmer. I have a large group of friends who I see everyday who believe Im a perfectly normal person. Thats right, Im a disgusting pervert dwelling on 4chan and yet still have so much more in life than your dimwitted, recycled content-spewing faggot fuckhole
>>663248443 If you're in a city, any city, they are pretty notorious for being cliquey. Here are my recommendations for meaningful and/or satisfying relationships: work, hobbies, school and music festivals.
>>663248848 I always know he wanted me to be happy. He tried to ignore his tumor at all cost since he know how much it scared me. He wouldn't take my money to get put in a debt I wouldn't be able to dig myself out of for him. He wouldn't tell he about his headaches his parents tolled me he was experiencing. He didn't want me to feel sad with his remaining time (fucking tearing up). He wanted me to be happy. It's why I can't sum up the courage to end it. He wouldn't want me to do it. He would want me to keep living happy. But how do I do it? How?
>>663249062 My bad i scrolled down and saw that it was. Sorry for your loss. Im guessing heroin. Shit kills a lot of people i just got off the shit like 2 months clean right now. Sick of watching people die like that
2. No overtime at work. Not gonna make an extra $800 next check after all. First world problem, just gonna have an extra like, $500.
3. I will eventually run out of weed.
4. I miss my ex. I don't miss being with her, or living together, or all the bullshit, but I just miss her. Her smell, her voice, the feel of her body against mine, the sounds she made when we fucked, and the sounds she made when she slept.
>>663239605 >My 4 year old niece Josie died in and accident recently. >My grandpa died shortly after her funeral from heartbreak. >My mom and sister are such a mess >I just want to help but I can't >I'm dealing with so much depression myself >my girlfriend of 3 years left me because I was so depressed about my niece dying that she said it was affecting her grades in college. >want to die from sadness >want to stay alive because of my family
>>663249344 >Making shit up because you are salty lol you keep telling yourself you arent animal, faggot. It funny cus no matter how much you lie it wont be true and you stuck in this one life as shitty mental retard.
>>663249461 find something that's makes you happy and that might've made him happy just to be a little closer to him. did he like or participate in anything like doctor who or mlp or sports like magic or football?
No. For the most part I browse 4chan and play games - currently in a 4 days a week class that pays for some testing I'm doing and gives me something to do. I want to get a job but I'm physically incapable of most things - standing for more then an hour or two'll leave me in horrible pain for the next two days. I got painkillers from family but that's not enough for anything more then a day to day.
Breakdown? Can't think; usually immediately attempt to back myself into a corner and usually start bawling regardless of attempts to stop, doubly so when dealing with people of authority. Pretty much can't even talk - but.. the picture, it's pretty similar for me in general and post-breakdown.
>>663248401 Kind of funny when you put it that way. I'm balls deep in student loans, have a few health problems, etc. But the only reason why I am sad is because I'm by myself. I did get a pet cat though, so that has helped
>>663243531 I was in the same position a few years back, only difference is that i was more of a 5/10 beta faggot. Waited waaaay to long to tell her how I felt, although she was giving me all the signals. When I finally told her it was too late. It ended up with me being miserable for 4 years with no way to move on (since we hung out like every day). The 'friendship' isnt worth it man and deep down you know it, for you it's all or nothing and if you're telling yourself otherwise you're just tricking yourself. Go for it, man. You really got nothing to lose.
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