Need a feel or /b/aww thread right now. Post what you have guys.
You faggots can't contribute for shit can you?...
What confused me was the lack of detail, mainly around >tfw you know you deserve better
and when it is combined with >hasn't done anything wrong to you
Because if she hasn't done anything wrong to you, why do you know you deserve better? or even, why does it matter that you deserve better?
shit bro, same feel. She slept with me then after 2 weeks of being distant said she felt too bad for her friend (my ex) to carry on seeing me. 3 months later I'm still a mess.
Does this relate to anyone?
Not mine but an anon posted this monday. No one on the thread even seemed to notice. But i did in my own small way.
The adoption was setup before i was even born. My birth mother age 15 sent me away to a relative who would basically give updates on whether i was worth taking back but far enough away so i would never know of her or if she decided i wasn't worth worth it she would cut all ties without me knowing she existed. I was given to a family with 2 kids already successful and out of the house my "parents" were around 50 and 54 when they got me. Since birth till now i've basically been treated like the lowest maintenance plant. Left in a dark room all day everyday the only familial interaction is the ones i have to force and those are kept short and curt. If i ever ask for help i'm met with annoyance and anger for asking. I'm 21 and the only real thing that shows that they actually care what happens in the slightest to me is the increasingly infrequent monetary help. A child asks their parent for help and the parent shrugs them off. Anyway thats been my life of neglect and loneliness. I turn 22 in march and an early birthday present to myself is a remington 870 express and a deer slug for my brain. Gun came in today and i found a nice spot to sit and watch the sunset in peace. Anyway yada yada yada suicide yada yada yada you're one of the few things that have given me any real joy in life /b/. Maybe theres internet connection in whatever place comes after this if theres such a thing and if so i'll see you there /b/.
My phone was fucking about for a couple of days, turned it on and very first message was that. I didn't think I'd take it that bad because for the last four years I moved away to Uni. Taking it really bad.
For myself, it was how I completely lost contact with my ex at mid-july. And then how I met another girl, had a great relationship with her, but shit happened, and we stopped talking. Then a week later my dog...
I feel for him, i were in that thread I think. Just dident notice this
My dog I'd had since I was 6 years old died literally three days after I lost my virginity in a rape. Then my dad died a few months later in a motorbike accident.
2013 was a shitty fucking year for me. But you've just got to keep on trucking along. You can either keep going and hope for better times or wither away.
I know which I'd rather do.
Rape? That's leading me to think you're a femanon.
Ah, fuck, 2013 was a pretty eventful year for me. All in all it was pretty good. You got it harsh though...
And what would you rather do?
The thing is, I'm still thinking of my ex every day. Can't fucking get over her. Don't know what I haven't tried yet
Now it sure if this one was intentional, but it is such a powerfull and deep message somehow.
hooo dear.... what your wrote just reminded me I AM SINGLE... I haven't heard that since a long time...
>TFW I see her every day... and she doesn't notice me.
listen to those trips. Love is just chemical reaction and we are biologically programmed to renew it elsewhere, if we lose it.
Love is renewable energy.
And, geez, 3 years? So what, thousands and thousands of people loose their lifelong partner, their husbands, wifes.. after decades of love. DAILY.
I dont know what is worse. not feelt love. or not knowing the pain ahead
Best friend from 4th grade until college died a couple weeks ago. We hadn't spoken for 4 years. We didn't exactly end on good terms. We never even said goodbye. Should I go to his funeral tomorrow?
ITT: unbelievable self-pity.
some feels here are legit, but holy shit, stop your dramatic brooding over unrequited love and move the fuck on. it's all so clear how embarrassing sadsack drama like gamergate happens.
>almost a decade now
>at 15 I was drinking
>at 19 I was using drugs pretty heavily
>off most drugs (booze and weed are the only ones left to kick)
>in art college
>seeing some girl casually
>still feel just as sad
>still feel hopeless
>still feel worthless
>don't want to go to get anti-depressants because I'm a shitbag and would just abuse them or use them as an excuse
>want it to end
>don't want to die
What do I do /b/, I'm not exactly the type to talk about my feelings to my friends or family. I'm sick of being sad or on the brief occasion I'm happy afraid that i'll do something stupid and end up sad again
Sorry but are you trying to say you were depressed when you were 11? You sound self inflicted as fuck. You just gotta talk to someone man, and you probably won't be able to get the words out without crying. Makes you feel weak and judged by whoever you're talking to. But picture it in their shoes they just want to help you. If you don't do it soon it just gets worse.
I don't know guys. His family was really close to my family, and they both know how badly it ended. They know me. I'm afraid they'll resent me. Should I still go?
Mhmm, but don't say the f-word too loud, you know what /b/ is like.
Yeah, I've had shitty times before but 2013 really was the worst year of my life. A couple of other things were going on at the time too- clinical depression, homelessness, even a cancer scare. It was seriously like life was trying to convince me to top myself, how much shit can actually happen in a year?
But I got through it. In 2014 managed to secure some steady employment and even found myself in a surprisingly great relationship.
I'd rather keep going. For definite. If 2013 didn't take me out, nothing will, amirite?
Go. Death throws all the stupid shit we argue about into perspective. Go be there for your buddy.
You should go anyways. It may have ended badly but if you go they might get the impression that you still care for him to some extent. There are more regrets for not doing things than there are for doing them.
>tfw saw my ex 4 times in a month just randomly and she never even said hi or smiled
My bad man, I'm not >>599108755 , I'm >>599109002
But replied because it related a bit to me
Story? If you don't wanna it's fine
Hey /b/ tards,
It's been a few years for me. I heard of 4chan through some facebook account being fucked with. Something about a post of a guy wondering what it would be like to fuck a baby, getting raged on. I ddin't lurk for a few years after though. Been through a bit with you fags.
I'm wondering if you can help: my current girlfriend (been with for about a year and 4 months) is alright. 7-8/10 qt. She's a year and 10 months younger than me. Her dad got in a car crash when she was young and now suffers from short term memory loss. She had a step dad for years that was abusive. She used to smoke weed and cut herself 4 times and then quit. I helped her move away from her step dad and her mom now has a new boyfriend (though most of this is unrelated).
Our relationship just isn't fun anymore. I'm past that everythings new shit. I mean I love her but I really don't have as much interest in seeing her anymore. She has ADHD which usually doesn't bother me but she acts like a fucking retard sometimes I swear. I don't even mean to get irritated I just do. Normally, it wouldn't bother me. I'd rather sit at home and watch anime or play vidya than to hang with her. I've played games with her before on her PS3, but not that interesting. She's really into school which, good for her. But she's always doing homework or her mom is yelling to do some stupid shit. Of course though, her mom is the only one who works for house at the moment. My girlfriend has a job but isn't on the schedule for awhile.
I'm just so bored with her /b/... she's predictable when we're together and I could take her out, but I really don't want to. Nothing to do. Occasionally I stop by and we fuck but that's about it anymore.
Sorry for the long as fuck text, in return; R34.
I think I would go. You'll never get another chance to say goodbye, and a death can sometimes put old arguments into perspective.
Whatever you decide, I hope it's right for you.
>My ex came back into my life after a lot of shit between the two of us a couple days ago.
>Struggled whether to try or let her go, tell her I'd make my decision by the end of the month
>Went to my psychologist and we both agreed it isn't good for my health to be in contact with her.
>Cry while writing her an email telling her how it can never work, how I'm not mad anymore, how I want her to be happy
>Pic related is her response
I don't know what the fuck to do.
What brought you together in the first place? Find that spark and see if you can bring it back. If not, you just need to let both of you see other people who might make you both happy.
11 was the first time I remember wanting to die, I was sitting in my room one night staring at my roof and wishing I wasn't alive. It's probably self inflicted, my life hasn't been good, but it hasn't been terrible. Maybe I'm just a pussy.
Was thinking about going to see the counseler at my college but I've pussied out twice now. Had the form filled out and all, but my anxiety spiked. Had to lock myself in the bathroom where I tore the form into a hundred little pieces and flushed it.
Not really worth it when I abuse every drug that I have near me, I'm a piece of shit like that.
well, for one, i don't think you love her. not if you're rating her for the benefit of us rejects and saying you fuck her a few times. do her a favour and don't be in her life anymore. find someone you actually respect.
You clearly don't want her, so I don't see where your problem is. Leave her and let her go find someone who'll appreciate her, while you go find someone you actually want.
Someone who actively doesn't let you dump them is a major red flag. Even if it's because they "care too much". She doesn't respect your needs or your mental health, it's all about what she wants. Don't get back with her.
And say what "hey anon, I daydreamed abolut walking infront of the train today while I was standing on the platform, isn't that neat" or "Hey, just called to read you the latest draft of my suicide note"
You have the power to change it if you ask for help. Take the chance to help yourself; nobody else can do it for you. You're not a piece of shit, you're just feeling like it right now.
I Gave her everything when I was so young, I worked in that fucking garage until my hands hurt and I froze cleaning the trucks out in the cold. She wanted to be a Dr but didn't think she could, I convinced her she could do it, stopped her form cutting herself, Walked to work, promised to keep us going while she was in uni.
She got to uni and left me, totally alone. The worst part was I used to stare our from the corner where we kept our toolboxes dreaming that she would come through the door and kiss me, and then everything would be al-right. I waited for 2 years and she never came. I lost my soul in that garage, and every last piece of my youth.
It was worth it to see her succeed.
Back when I rode the bus (18 yr old fag now) I remember this girl I liked. I never made a move for years (it's ok because she's a cunt to her current boyfriend anyway). Anyway, it took me a summer to get over her for good.
Gradually I started to show interest in this girl and it just escalated. We used to cuddle in bed for hours. Watch a bit of /a/ together. Tickle fights. Talking, which I miss but she's a hard one to talk with about anything, as smart as she is.
This is my first relationship actually, so maybe that's my problem.
To be entirely honest, i'm terryfied of something like your picture happening me. I am afraid of bound that would place upon me. Responsibility for her happiness. And i dont want no responsibility, especialy for something so important.
She's left me twice before, the first time after about 2 years, the second was after a week after she came back again.
I want to get back with her, but things like this and other shit show me it isn't going to work.
Beta as fuck, you pussy.
>We're done. That's it.
And then do not reply to anything. Delete her contact info and if you see her in real life, just absolutely ghost her (don't make eye-contact, don't speak, etc.)
I have been trying, but I can't keep telling myself that it'll all be good, that if I do well at college I'll be happy, that if I get some tail I'll cheer right up. Sometimes it gives me a temporary boost which only makes it worse when my mood decides to change shitty. I've lost about 15 kilos in the last 6 months because I can't eat or sleep. I'm pretty much a walking corpse, at least my outsides match my insides
It's always a learning experience with the first real relationship out of high school. Take more time to learn about her passions and what really makes her want to get up in the morning. You can't keep it going if communication breaks down. She sounds worth it to explore keeping this relationship, but be prepared if you can't connect on a deeper level. You both deserve to be happy and understood.
I find it hard to trust new people and I don't want to tell someone I know because it'll change the way the looks at me.
Maybe, they legally can't tell anyone anything I say right, that is unless I'm going to harm myself or others
Honestly sometimes I think I should just go single for awhile. But I find it odd. I'm like this with everything. I get bored and want something better/newer/whatever.
For example- (not to be a pretentious and dense prick): In December I saved some money (because only bills are half internet and insurance) to buy some Audeze LCD-2 headphones. Cost of them is 995$-1095$ Brand new. I already feel like I need something better even though I'm satisfied with them.
I'm dense, I know.
NEVER. Leave your comfort zone when its for something important. You'll stutter and seem off and come across as weird or creepy. I know it sounds harsh but if you can't do it with full confidence you won't fuck up don't do it. For anything.
I feel what you're going through. I wound up in a mental hospital for awhile for similar reasons and I fucking hated it. I'll tell you if you can't tell yourself: It CAN get better. Just take the first step and you'll find someone to help you the rest of the way. Just hang in there and trust yourself.