It's been a tough one /b/, a very tough one. Feels thread?

>>597418821
All I wanted was to be happy.

All I wanted was to live freely without conflict.

I'm sorry your dad didn't use lube this time around

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>>597418821
I'll dump a few.

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>>597419223

I will be alone the 14th.

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>>597419223
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>>597419422
I doubt you'll be the only one here with that feel.

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>>597419223
2

>>597419344
>>597419633
>>597419900
check'd

>>597419722
I'll have HD porn anyways...

Bumping for more feels

>>597419900
*pained sounds*

>>597419982
Didn't read lol.

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I've also been feeling down lately.

I just wanted her, but she seems to be living her own life.

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Top tips for getting up in the morning? Suffer from severe depression and when that alarm goes off I feel like cancelling work and doing nothing all day just to escape the real world.

I need to go to work and get back to normal but struggling on ideas.

inb4 man up faggot.

It's an illness not a moral decision.

Pic related.

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F4D

>>597420632
that gave me the feel I came for. thanks.

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>>597420508
I feel you 100% /b/rother/.
We're all in it together. Don't forget us.

I think I've got a chance from a cute, intelligent girl from my Uni and I'm afraid that I'll fuck it up.

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>>597420632
Yeah...

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>>597420794
Your welcome /b/rother

And another

>>597420905
Don't be afraid my friend, that's the worst problem that a people can have.

You will not fuck it up!.

>Never give up.

Hey 4chan tried making my own thread but it failed miserably for some reason. I'm having a bad night again. I woke up with the memory of my mother raping me with a broomstick around an hour and a half ago. I'm 26 nearly 27 and I'm still haunted by stuff that happened well over 15 years ago. As every night when something like this happens I'll drink and browse until I fall asleep again. I'm not content with just browsing though I want to tell others. I've got a bottle of whiskey to keep me company so my typing will get progressively worse.

I'm not sure if it's the whiskey giving me the courage to speak up or that I'm genuinely fed up with having these nightmares every few days. But I need some space to vent. I've lived in a single mother house hold for 21 years, I was sexually physically and mentally abused throughout.

time doesn't heal all wounds
time can exacerbate the pain

i am trying to hustle harder than i hate lately
i'll check back in when i have positive results

>>597420508
Good way to boost your spirits is become a maske vigilante. You might die from suicide anyways so just go for that shit.

>>597421208
Physically I was beaten, mentally I was raised to be as obedient as a dog, and I was punished as a dog. My mother also raped me with a broomstick on several occasions. I have these recurring memories in my dreams every few weeks but it gets worse when I have to talk about it. Yesterday I met some family for the first time in well over a decade and at some point I had to talk about my mother.

To kep spcoal services ou tof the picture she would keep me out of school when ever her beatings had bruised me, but never longer than 4 days. If a friend of hers was to coem around I was locked up in the basement, if a friend was to surpise visit her there was a rule that forced me to go to my room. I had zero contact with the outside world apart from school. At school I was bullied and beaten for my lack of social training I was basically a drone that took any beating you could give me until recess ended, or if when my mother was the person beating me she got tired.

>>597421330
At times I would ask people to help me, my teachers, or my aunt, or grandmother but they wouldn't believe me. My mother was great at telling lies, and pretending to be a wholesome loving person.
She'd go to church every sunday do volunteering workm the works. Just so the outside world wouldn't suspect anything. Whenever I asked for help from an outsider the punishments got worse.

In my teens I'd run away sometimes for several days on end, I'd sleep in the woods around the town I grew up in. She wouldn't call the police knowing that out of hunger I'd either steal, or come back home. Which happened every time. I told a police officer I was being abused by her but he treated me like some emo faggot that listens to linking park and feels sad when his mom tells him he can't go ot a grateful dead concert. I wasn't being taken seriously because she had gained a neigh saintly status in the town I lived in due to her work with the church and her volunteering.

When I was 20 we (my mother and I) were both incredibly obese. I started caring for her basic bodily needs at the age of 18 which spanned from cooking to washing, and I had no idea how to even handle the stove (up until that time I was fed like you would feed a dog you hate.) Our family doctor referred us to a hospital to get help with our obesity. I was around 160 kg's and she was well within the 200's if I had to make a guess. (she was obese before her pregnancy.) Before we would be eligible for surgery we'd have to lose wieght and go through a psychological exam as we lost weight.

>>597421203
t-thanks bro

>>597421498
The words the psychologist said were the following, “I can't help you, you have so many issues that I have to refer you to GGZ centraal.” GGZ centraal is a dutch mental health facility in my region it is also the biggest one in the country. It's essentially a village of mental cases living on site. There are also people that go there for weekly appointments and stuff but for the first 6 months I was kind of on-site which meant that whenever wanted to I could sleep there. Which I did every night.

Around the time we were opting for surgery my mother also wanted to move to friesland the north fo my country. This process overlapped with my therapy and as I was realising hwo fucked my life was I spurred her on to have us both mo to the north, all the while I was trying to get a place to live in the middle of the country. I spent less and less time at home over time, I actually faked being super insane so I would be forced into a medium security facility in the village of mental cases so I could stay wawy from home. The treatment there took 3 months so that meant I could bring some of my belingings with me. As this was esssentially court ordered my mother couldn't interfere.
During those three months she moved to friesland believing I'd move with her when I was done with my treatment ehre. However Is tayed here and eventually got a restraining order which she breaks every so often.

>>597421580
As a side story to this my aunt was also moving there at around the same time, and I still have good contact with her, the thing is she lives about 50m fro my mother's new house. My mother has a boyfriend now and she lives in his house now. I was the black sheep of the family until the previous christmas because apart from asking for help from time to time before my teens I was never taken seriously.

Unrealted to my story my uncle also suffered abuse form my mother (they're 8 years apart) and for the previous 5 years he had spoken up about that abuse. This christmass I heard from my grandmother (who lives in a differen country) that my mother thold her I was essentially the worst person on the planet. This angered me to the pint that I wrote verything down and sent it to her.

The correlations between my uncle's abuse and mine were striking to the point that now finally my story is belived by the people that are normally closest to someone.

>>597420846

thanks /b/ro

>>597421277

eh, sounds about x100 more appealing than anything I've got to look forward to right now (minus the suicide bit).

>>597418821
I kind of want to get this off my chest
>be me
>23
>meet lovely woman
>go on a few dates
>begin relationship
>shit gets serious
>decide I want to get married to her
>she's the one, no doubts
>get engaged
>dates set
>picking out cakes, decorations, etc.
>at work one day
>get a phone call
>Fiancé involved in a crash
>drunk driver crossed the median and hit her head on
>killed on impact they tell me
>drunk lives

That was 2 years ago and I still can't really get over it. I just feel overwhelmed by it sometimes. I just feel like I won't meet someone who can fill this void in me.

>>597420905
Then take the chance anon, even if you fuck it up you'll still be in the same spot you are now

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>>597418821

>>597418821
Here is /b/'s anthem...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNtBz4NDPVw

>>597421660
That's horrible. I'm glad that you made it out alive.

>>597420123
Hes the real winner here...

>>597420905
You have little to lose and a lot to gain, /b/ro. You can do this, we both know you can.

>>597421707
Do it! Get a mask and tire iron and walk around your town/city at night looking for crimes to stop. You can also take up martial arts. It would give you something to do.

>>597421712
Damn dude. That's powerful stuff

>>597420123
Every cloud...

>>597421723
Yes, of course, I'm working on it. We'll go to the movies and then there's one party coming when she'll introduce me to some of her friends.
We meet quite often and msg a lot.
So far she didn't get disinterested in me.
Also, fucking hilarious, but images from /b/ make her laugh like crazy, so I use that.
Though still under research, my hypothesis is that random shit from this board can be efficiently used in afk relations.

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>been stalking a girl for couple years
>she is very bourgeois - lives in a very affluent suburb
>blond, big tits on a tight petite frame
>I find out she’s spending friday night at a 19th birthday party in the city
>already prepared - car rigged with cell blocker, passenger doors only open from outside, handcuffs, duct tape and a taxi sign for car roof
>Friday night drive to her house park car and honk horn
>she comes out all dolled up wearing a skin tight, waist high dress
>Allah is too kind to me
>gets in car, comments on how early the taxi is and tells me where to go
>she’s a bit drunk
>drive in complete opposite direction towards slum like suburb
>after a while she notices and nervously asks where I am going
>flash her a glimpse of 10 inch hunting knife and tell her I’m going to mug her so she should keep her mouth shut if she doesn’t want to be hurt
>she goes dead silence
>keep driving - look in rear view mirror and see her trying to covertly text
>lol no reception bitch
>take her to a huge council park in quite area
>duct tape her mouth shut
>take her to goal posts
>grab her hair and pull her down to the ground
>hold knife to her throat as I handcuff her to post
>pull up skirt and use knife to cut off her thong
>muffled pleas as I fondle her
>pull off jeans
>force her legs apart and thrust cock insider her
>she sobs the entire time I fuck her
>soon she starts getting tighter
>legs start shaking as she comes
>minutes before I blow a huge load deep inside her
>I get up and remove the handcuffs and duct tape
>she curls into the foetal position and sobs
>call her pathetic as I pull up my jeans
>take her phone, wallet and thong
>walk back to car and drive home - leaving her there

Local media threw around hyperbole like “vicious sexual assault” and “heinous rape”, she only made the news because her family is rich as fuck.
Found out later a couple years later that she killed her self by taker her dad’s Diazepam.

Should probably off my self.

>>597422062
see this >>597422314
and thanks!

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>>597421660
Dude I don't know that to say. Period.

Aparently your mom is a fucking shit, but you can't do anything about it, sorry men

>>597421712

Im so sorry for you, I hope you can find the happiness somewhere.

>>597421942
Not really, Pornhub will make the Porn free that day :D

>>597421712
why was a girl driving a car?

This isn't really much of a story. But I got married a year ago which is great. Everything is going well for us and we're expecting our first kid soon. The woman I married though is black (I'm white) and because of that my family won't have anything to do with us. I know it shouldn't bother me that much, but I just wish they'd get over it. I'm really bummed that my parents aren't going to be a part of my life because of this bullshit

>>597418821
http://asianwomenforwhitemen.tumblr.com/

>Be me, 17 years old.
>I had friends
>To me, it always seemed like they only stayed around because they needed someone to make them laugh
>sadclowns...
>Seems like people went out of their ways to be assholes
>I realized my friends had lives
>One asshole was a fucking cunt around me and one my friends didn't even give a shit. They were apparently besties or some bullshit
>Depression increases slightly, I start writing a book
>Fill it with dark thoughts
>Suicidal thoughts
>Ect, ect
>One week is really bad
>The book won't suffice
>Before crossing the street, I nearly jumped in front of a car
>Told two friends whom I was suspicious of
>One almost acted like they didn't believe I was depressed
>The other seemed distant, I think they had their own problems
>I asked the distant one what they'd recommend with the book I had been writing
>I explained what was in it, basically.
>They suggested burning it
>I took the book and a copy of the bible
>Went to the cemetery, then into the woods nearby
>It's winter
>Snow is everywhere
>I burn the bible first
>Then the journal
>I felt significantly better as the memories as the memories were burnt.

>>597422672
Im sorry bro. Thats fucked up. I hope you and your wife are happy!

>>597422145

Knowing my luck I'll end up getting stabbed by a hoodrat on my first night out, ha.

>>597421936
>>597422444
thanks.

The people at the menta health institute really saved my live. I had a great therapist who was also coincidentally a lecturer at a university who taught me everything about the social landscape that a parent and healthy environment would normally teach you.

I still have the dreams but I'm not alone anymore and I'm building friendships and relationships with people right now.

The only thing that won't go away is the dreams.

>>597422187
>>597422444
Thanks guys. Im trying to keep moving forward but some days it just hits me hard all over again. Just feels good to get it out. Make some sort of emotional dump if that makes sense.

Anyway just thanks for listening

>>597421660
Man dude, you need to move somewhere new and cut all previous ties to that life. Start telling yourself that you don't have a mother because apparently you never really did. Just try to look forward and if you see her in that direction you need to change it.
All I can say is cheers enjoy your whiskey and tomorrow will not be yesterday. Just remember that a hangover lasts two days not one, the first day you feel it but your body still needs that next day to recover

>>597420508
put your alarm on the other side of the room
gets me up fast as fuck
but im not really that depressed anymore so idk
theres no advice anyone can give you that will instantly make you feel better but things will start to get better anon. You just gotta keep your shit together and remember that more people around you are dealing with similar/worse shit than you'd think

>>597422832
Thanks Anon

>>597423420
>put your alarm on the other side of the room

i would an hero instantly

>>597420905
I thought the same. Fucked up. Actuallt handling it better than I thought I would. Actually what hurt me most was the uncertainty of whether she liked me or not, once I was rejected, I started feeling relatively fine. I mean sure, I still think about her and feel sad that I don't get to be with her, but I think it's temporal and that I'll manage...
... still would be nice if she changed her mind, though.

>>597421208
Starting a feels thread isn't too hard. I sometimes start them without feels of my own, there are always people on /b/ with something eating at them, hopefully these kind of threads help a little.

>>597419422
lol i'm kissless bitch plz

>>597423286
I've got a trip to thailand planned for 44 days in march. And another couple of trips over the vollowing months, and years. If the relationships I forge here in the NL won't work out I'll emigrate elsewhere.

>>597422908
Youll never know if you dont try. I bet you could take a hood rat

>>597422798
So why the bible?

>>597423679
Let me hug you bro ;_; I'll keep the fingers crossed for her change of mind.

>>597423420

Yeah man I have no doubt people are dealing with way worse shit than me. That partly inspires me to push through but the other half of me just feels disgusted with myself, how I can struggle so much with mundane tasks when people are going through real life trauma?

>>597421208
Jesus christ man. That's fucked up. I'm sorry Anon.

>>597423205
You can still solve your life's problems men!

The first step is recongnize that you have a huge problem in your life and it need to be repaired.

You should go to a Psychologist and tell the your history and propose him to help you to construct a new life.

Best wishes!

>>597423770
That's a really good idea. Concentrate on trying to understand their culture and how they see things differently and your unconscious will concurrently start seeing things differently as well

Keep your head up /b/ro

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From a few minutes ago

>>597423794
I was an edgy fuck.
>Still am
Maybe I felt it would grant me power of my life.
>Metaphorical power.

Never said bad feels-
I met an adorable guy that I've been hanging out with a lot recently, every time I go near him I get giddy and I'm happy for hours after, I'm the happiest guy on 4Chan.
>Inb4 faggot

I'm kissless, social outcast, all of my "friends" are phony and make fun of me, but I can't stand being alone

Any advice bro's?

>>597424310
fa-

Wait, fuck.

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>>597418821
Just don't feeling like a nigger, if you do then you'll know that you've hit rock bottom.

>be me
>24, moved to city to live with gf
>all of my friends hate her and I don't know why
>she slowly creates such weird tension that I can no longer see them
>she ends up being incredibly abusive
>gets in my head and makes me feel worthless and disgusting
>beats me with random objects in random spurts of rage (for example glass candle holder to the scalp repeatedly)
>if i so much as defend myself she screams woman beater
>hates sex and throws it in my face when it does happen
>she comes from a terrible, miserable family
>she's always sick and I'm always taking care of her
>she says she'll kill herself if I ever talk about leaving
>and she probably would
>I'm stuck in this terrible situation with her life in my hands

i don't know what to do

>>597424378
/b/ros

>>597423679
The Girls who reject people in that way deserves a change on her mind, for good of course.

>>597424192
Believe it or not I get the metaphor in that sense
>I'm religious but struggle every day with faith.
Symbology is powerful. I hope things are better anon

>be 22
>had one gf
>never had a valentine on the 14th
>crippling depression
>fml
>fin

>>597424146
Anon is an awesome person.

Feel free to insult me, because I've been doing some real dumb shit.
>about a year ago
>recently started going on /lgbt/ for whatever reason
>especially trans general
>at first think it's just for traps, even though I never really got into that
>start putting shit together
>a memory I have of sitting outside my sister's all-girl dance class, wanting to look like them/wear a tutu is from when I was 4
>have always hated my fingers, thought they were stubby/thick/shitty
>preferred having long hair, cut it going into HS to fit in and kept it that way because easy
>various other shit
>figure I'm mtf trans
>conflicted as hell
>end up cutting myself because of it
>come out to friend
>she's tumblr tier but mostly okay
>she's cool with it, says she'll teach me makeup, etc.
>sweet
>come out to sister
>also librul as fuck, still okay
>supports it
>come out to parents
>confused, send me to therapist
>talk to therapist for a few months
>she decides I'm not trans
>all dysphoria, shitty feelings/thoughts go away
>no longer feel trans
>well fuck
>un-come-out to sister and friend
>neither one gives a fuck
>what now?
>talk about unimportant shit with therapist
>continue cutting, more frequent
>considering suicide because there's just nothing else to do with my life
>too much of a pussy to cut proper deep
>also have only shitty knife, not sharp enough
what do

>>597424452
I'm the biggest, happiest Faggot on earth.

>>597423679
When you get a little older you'll understand that rejection is part of life, don't take it personally. It's just a chick and there are plenty other fish in the sea so to speak.

That said, ply the bitch with roofies and vodka!

>>597424694
One beats a lot of people on here anon. You must have done something right at least once, try and find out what and repeat it.

>>597424378
Don't pay attention to your 'friends'.
>Real friends help, don't make it worse.

14th is just a fucking day, nothing special.

>>597424570
>Personally, that was not what I meant.
But it doesn't matter how you apply it, just as long as it works for you.

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>>597420632
fuck

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Please tell me I'm not the only one right now.

>>597424992
Real friends are honest, it might help, it might hurt, but the honesty is what's important.

Have 2 weeks to make a move on a girl I loved for 8 years, before she moves to the other side of the world...What do ?

>>597418821
be amputee since 3
d- in high school
failed out of college
Kissless loser
life sucks

>>597424924
that's what you might think but if i knew what i "did right" i would have repeated the process by now.

i certainly know what i did wrong. and i have felt shitty every day since.

I'm just gonna keep rubbing my faggoty gayness(in both senses of the word) in your sad faces. The guy I met has all the same Interests as me, likes me back, and is literally everything I want in a guy.

>>597424805
I can't insult you despite not being able to relate to you.

>>597424484
Okay, threaten to leave such that she writes a suicide note, then kill her. Easy peasy.

>>597424811
It's all good anon, be the best happy faggot you can be!

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Will post on every feels thread.

>>597425013
I was talking about me when it came to struggling with faith. I found that sometimes doing something (llike burning a journal or a bible) to symbolicly destroy what's bothering you is more cathartic than prayer or therapy or any other bullshit like that.

>sorry for my unclear previous post

>>597425487
Damn. Thank you /b/rother, I appreciate it. Good luck and peace to you, in whatever you do.

>>597425218
Youre not

>>597424484
What you need to do is get a restraining order.
>inb4 you deserve it cause you are weak
Nobody, absolutely nobody, deserves abuse
>this is /b/
Well, shit.

>>597424146
Anon is one hell of a guy

>>597425243
Yeah, that's right, but honest don't mean to be a fucking scumbag that only make fun of a person with a common problem. That's why he called his friends "friends".

>>597425655
Truthfully, I can't understand what you straight people like about vaginas, they are fucking disgusting, just flaps of meat.

>>597425811
moved 800 miles south anon. She had to stay up where we met. Now alone in a town I know nothing about. Think about her every night.

>>597424146
For what it's worth, I'll be trying this.

Don't front, that's for niggers with the yo yo yo shit tude. They take everything personally.

They're stupid, but that's why they're niggers with the fucking hoodies and shit.

>>597425243
But I know the truth already, its hard to make an effort with people putting you down

>>597425956
Ever had your dick in one?

A penis isn't all that great looking either, all veiny and shit

>>597422339
if this is real, yeah you should kill yourself

>>597424378
stop hanging out with those "friends" would be a good start, and the try to find other people like you, i know it ain's fucking easy, but it won't get better if you dont try, for example, i made 3 good friends because i went on a music class, i met a guy kind of my style, you know, depressive looking, antisocial kind of guy, and try to know them, ask them what they like and all that stuff, we became friends and then he introduced me to his other 2 friends and i became part of the group, you only have to try

P.S. i'm still depressed as fuck, but at least have people to cheer me up/to talk with

>>597425991
It's ok Anon. You will make it. The distance sucks ass but you can do it.

I had to do it for 4 deployments. 2 were back to back.

>>597426244
They disgust me so much that the one girlfriend I did have, who was forced on me by our parents, we were about to Fuck and I nearly threw up.

>>597425798
You're welcome.

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>>597425991
I'm in a similar situation Anon. I had to move to NYC for a job. She's back home in Seattle. I know your feel

>>597426109
Ignore that and do better. That way in time, you'll be in a position to put others down, but you'll remember and not do that, that'll make you better still.

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19 feels bad man. So alone, never had relationship

>>597425991
But can you still comunicate with her in Internet?>>597426407
Good Anon is good Anon.

>>597423976
other people struggle to do 'easy' shit too man
no one shows you their weaknesses in public just like you dont get up and tell people ayo im depressed as fuck

>>597426521
Ironically, such an experience might have made her gay too.

>>597425956
Not saying I wouldn't, but how is an asshole more appealing than a vagina?

>>597426870
Unlikely, she was a fucking nutjob Christian.

>>597426862
Fuck that's powerful

>>597425708
As you should. I've read a lot of stories like this but this one is different. I don't what it is about it but I'm making it a goal to share it with as many people I can.

>>597426422
Actually she's an E-5, she's been deployed twice, and she asked me if I was coming back in a year - I'm a contractor, but I think she's under the impression that it's like a deployment. I doubt it will work out between us tho (different careers and what not), which sucks. Distance only made it worse.

>>597421208
thanks for all of your kind words anons I'm going to try to sleep again. Wednesday I'll see if I can share these things with a friend I've been fostering for the past year. I hope she takes it well.

>>597427135
Same here Anon,people need to know.
>tfw I thought I had a sad story
mine ain't nothing compared to this.

26
3.25am
Live miles away from where I lived for 24 years
With a gf I never thought I'd get
Working a job I never thought I'd work
Sat here high and fuck
Tearing up on a feels thread

Strange how shit turns out.

>>597426981
It's just a hole, you can do a lot of easy stuff to clean an ass, but it takes surgery to make a vagina look appealing after its been pounded repeatedly.

>>597426862
>killing yourself with ruger 10/22
Poor choice of firearm. First of all, a rifle is pretty awkward. Second of all, basically anybody will tell you that .22 is an underpowered round. You'd be better off with a .45 pistol right in your mouth, or better yet, pulling the Kurt Cobain

>>597426862
HOLY FUCK

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That's how it goes sometimes you know?. You lose everything, and everything falls apart, and eventually you die, and no one remembers you,

>>597427394
Most people get scared when they put it up to their mouth. They can't do it for some reason

Two years since my ex destroyed everything I'd worked on in the previous three years of our relationship. (2 years LDR, moved to university afterwards). Cheated on, manipulated and badmouthed to my entire social group. Whenever it comes to February I always find myself in this slump, abusing whatever substances I can find, self medicating. Cannot stop feeling pain/thinking about this. Anyone /b/ro who has been in an LDR for a significant amount of time will know how many tears and how much effort goes into one. She's the only person I've ever showed my vulnerable side to, not sure if I'll ever be able to again. I've had short term relationships since, but nothing where I can be completely myself. Man.

>>597426862
Better use a Magnum or burn in flames with gas. That rifle is for kids...

>>597426678
Why not bring her to NYC with you?
It's not that hard to find a job here.
Just remember to not take shit from assholes, and there are plenty of them in NYC. Tell them to fuck off and have something useful to bring to the table, that's the way that New Yorkers will respect you.

>>597427394
It worked for him.

>>597427577
>and no one remembers you

That hit hard for some reason. Fuck.

I wanted to let this out of my chest since it happened because no ones knows it

>Be me
>Be13
>Mom died when i was 4, and the father never showed up, cuz reasons
>Uncle takes care of me
>He raise me as his own child
>Uncle got cancer
>8 months of suffer
>Finally goes to hospital, just to die
>Being alone on the house for almost 2 months
>Loneliness.jpg
>Didn't even washed his clothes, because as a child to lazy
>Being to tired of going every single day o visit him, so stay at home one sunday to jerk my dick
>Monday i didn't go either cuz a fucking school project
>It's Thursday
>BadFeeling.exe
>Got call from hospital while i'm at school
>Told me he was diying
>Thefeel.jpg
>Went as fast as i could to hospital
>Told me he died when they call me
>Told me that he cried because i left him alone
>TFW you realize that for teenage reason you were the dickest man ever to the only person that actually cared about
>Thelifetimepain.gif
>6 years later after living on house where my Godmother even hit me
>Carry the burden of knowing that you failed to only person i shouldn't have ever failed

>>597427963
You are more than your mistakes.

None of your sadness permeates my soul, my gayness is too great.

>can't greentext

>>597427736
>Whenever it comes to February I always find myself in this slump.

Dude, February is only a fucking month, it doesn't mean anything important, don't be slump for that.

>self medicating

I always do that, lol.

>Anyone /b/ro who has been in an LDR for a significant amount of time will know how many tears and how much effort goes into one.

No, but sorry men, Im so sorry.

>not sure if I'll ever be able to again.

Eventually you'll be able to do again, good luck with that.

hope you can reborn as a Fenix /bro/!

>>597426764
i dont really think of my self as a good anon, but fuck, i felt the need to help, or at least try to cheer up someone, i been through some really shitty moments and in those i was alone, now that things are a little bit better (if i think about it shit is still pretty fucked up but for different reasons) i don't want people fell/end up like i did

Everyone remember, #suicideisalwaysanoption

>>597418821

yeah well me too you fuckin pussy. you think we don't all die a little each day? you think i go out in the world and bach myself against it and do not feel that? you think I havent been betrayed, sold out, fuck over, told i'm shit by the ones i trust?

of course i have. me and evan williams got a plan. i show up every day, and he shows up every night. good luck with all that shit bro. you're a fuckin pussy.

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>>597428350

OMG GUYS! I DID IT

>>597427828
Shes helping take care of her mother. Her mom has gotten cancer so she stayed behind to help her out.

>>597427828
Also don't act like a faggot, nobody in NYC respects faggots unless you're the kind of faggot that stands in line for starbucks... but then you're from Seattle so who knows?

>>597427963
Think of it this way anon. Ghandi did practically the same thing when he was young, and it changed his life.

i was just playing an fps online and one of the other players said mean things about me

>>597428494
That's a good reason.

>>597428515
Na not a faggot. Got assigned to Seattle for my job. Now got a transfer to JFK.
>Air traffic controller

>>597428822

Feels.

Always slip back into that cycle.

>>597428437
I know how it feels, my father died 5 years ago, I feel lonely sometimes. Usually I help other people to not to feel that feel, because its just sad...

Helping other people make me happy. #nohomo

>>597428601
Ghandi was a hypocrite piece of stinking shit from the ganges who layed down and let others walk all over him and was killed by a paki or some shit.

That's not the American or western way.

That faggot really was a peado hypocrite.
Worshipping that nigger makes you seem retarded.

How many people are migrating to India v those smelly shits trying to get H1Bs to get here?

>>597422339
damn, is this true?

I'm feeling down /b/. I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schiziophrenia after having Major Depression for a while. I can feel myself slipping away. It hurts that ill just be one of those weird guys. It hurts to KNOW that you will die, but not be dead. I'm just glad I have no friends of family that cares enough to help. I love you faggots.

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>>597427736
LDRs are the fucking worst. Never worth it /b/ros

>>597428794
That's serious stuff. JFK and NYC is pretty crowded, you'll be busy.

Keep our skies safe m8.

KJFK with a delay to fuck with terrorists.
https://flightaware.com/live/airport/KJFK

What's the vector victor? :-)

>>597429166
purple minus blue

>>597420508
Should you not have faith in a God, follow my belief that things get better in time.

I can't help too much without knowing what is causing your depression, but sometimes it helps to sit down with a good friend and just talk and even cry your eyes out.

Whatever it may be, anon, just march through it and have faith in a better tomorrow.

>>597426479
Fuck.

>>597429331
Just out of curiosity what is a psychotic episode like for you?

>>597429166
wow

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Thanks I needed to cry

>Tfw autistic
19, my parents still think I'm just depressed and don't care about anyone
tfw your mom tells you she wished you wasn't her child

>>597420508
exercise every fucking day. just walk for half an hour to an hour and soak up sunshine. also watch your diet. losing weight can fuck with your mood, for good or for bad. stay strong /b/ro. we r here 4 u

>>597422574
Pornhub is already free though? Lol
. there's no video limit anymore.

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Used to have something like this. She 'fell out of love' with me after my mental health started to deteriorate. I think the term she used was 'when we have sex, I don't feel anything anymore' (inb4 top kek). Talk about kicking a man when he's down.

>>597429997 HD only

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>>597425708
my favorite feels story

>>597429632
ice blue sky dawn

>>597429636

The only person (minus family) I've ever cried infront of during my teenage life left a couple of years ago. Even when I talk to my therapist, as amazing as he is, I always try to stop crying so much so that my lip won't stop moving. It feels like I'm hardwired to keep it all in and just deal with it myself.

>>597421660
Every day is a new day. Every day you get to decide how much of your past you want to carry with you. Enjoy life!

>>597429144
i dont feel like it makes me happy, at least not in the real meaning of happy, but it gives me some kind of comfort, you'll know what i mean, my story is about my grand father's death, 2 years of bullying and some other shit i keep to myself, now i kinda got over my grandfather, but all that hate left a really big scar, we had to put down my only real friend of all time (my dog [yes, sometimes i feel worse when i know that a dog died than that someone jumped from a roof and killed a kid {never actually got to know a story like that but you know what i mean}]) and now my grandmother is fucking dying...
Just to end this reply, seriously FUCK CANCER

>>597429636
That's a good movie, "A better tomorrow."
Check it out.

>>597429522
Lol vectoring aircraft is pretty bananas here. Seattle Tracon wasn't too bad but out here its a whole new league. I'm on Tower as of now, but down in the approach control they have 4 times as many aircraft coming through. It's going to take some getting used to. But no worries. We will keep the skies safe

>>597425708
I was there.

>>597429325
>>597426398

It's true, I haven't told anyone before (well.. not that I COULD).

The only major suspect was a near by registered sex offender (the guy looked kinda like Caine from Tek Syndicate and liked to fuck teenagers) but he was dropped pretty quick due to lack of evidence.

Still, I wish she hadn't done what she did.

>>597431062
What was everyone's reaction?

>>597430934
I have no doubt that you'll do well, folk wouldn't bring you in from Seattle to JFK if you sucked.
Cheers and welcome to New York!

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Shes with my best m8 now /b/rothers. after 1 year with me she thinks thats just okay to do. Fuck him and fuck her. fuck i love her.

be 67
>no retirement
>little savings...shit happens
>chest pain
>dog sick... $1200
>truck break.. new truck $5000
>face reality
imma die old an alone out on the job and they're gonna euthanize my dogs and dump all my shit at a garage sale for $20 and nobody will fuckin care

>>597431185
Dude, you should kill yourself, you know?

>>597431421
that's fucked up man, imo no bro should ever do that to you and no ex should ever do that to you.

>>597431185
either kill yourself or fuck off and become a monk or something

>>597431632
Yeah dude. I just dont understand. It hurts so much, and its fucked. Id take that cunt back in a heartbeat

>>597429738
A psychotic episode for me is where I get really jittery and mumble to myself about how nothing matters. Sometimes I hear voices calling my name desperately.

>>597431427
You're not alone here, old man.

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>>597422339
>Should probably off my self.

wtf man? end of your career right there? get the fuck over it. that shit was amateur hour. you have it in you to be great at this. YOu could be fucking stellar, a man who takes action. Tune the fuck up and rethink this shit.

>>597424805
1. stop cutting 2. see a different therapist

>>597424146
This shit makes me believe in /b/

>>597431427
we'll remember you m8

>>597432045

I don't want a "career". She was the love of my life and now she is gone.

>>597424484
Wait until she goes out. Pack a bag. Never look back. She won't kill herself, once she realizes she can't ruin your life any more she'll find someone else in the blink of an eye. You'll see.

>>597431842

thank you. it feels pretty fuckin alone brother. but hey, fuck it. imma show up tomorrow and the next fuckin day and i will keep on doin that long as i can. good thing is my work really is intersting and cool to me... i like it. that may make a difference right? lol. probably not, but i'm still gonna man the fuck up anyway bro.

This will probably seem inconsequential compared to a lot of yours but I broke up with my girlfriend two weeks ago today and my roommate (and best friend) moved out about a week ago, and I am not dealing with it well.

>>597433220
Nothing is inconsequential here. Losing the person you've given everything to is one of the hardest things you'll ever have to deal with. Time is the best healer, /b/ro

>>597432640
>>597432640

nobody does a thing like that without some baggage bro. look into it. unpack that shit. you want a career. you just haven't realized it yet.

>>597427963
important is not what you did but what you do next

>>597433505
Fuck, that one hit right in the soft spot...

gottearyeyes/10 will save it to feel like shit again

>>597428690
You are not ok. But you knew that. And the fact that you knew that means you are ok

As you get older you'll people around you will die, that's natural. My mother and older sister died from breast cancer, it wasn't something I'd wish on anyone, even a sandnigger. That said, we're alive and that's natural too, it's best that those older die first, it's better for me to see to see parents and older people die than let them see me die. It's the natural order of things.

Just don't fuck up and do the kind of stupid shit that might land you in prison or something. There's plenty room for people that are honest. Remember that, it's important.

>>597432915
What's your work?

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>>597433220

suddenly so alone. naw brother. you got us. show up. be here. we are here every night. every day. there are always some of us who can understand that pain. my advice.... do some things you couldn't do before... take your pants off and masturbate to your favorite nasty secret porn in the front room. fix a meal that you couldn't before... like spicy if they din like spicy or whatever... watch a movie you wanted to see but they weren't interested in... take care of you. be nice to you. come back and share with us. i care about you.

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>>597434076
Yea it got me when I first saw it early jan when she first left me

>>597434617
gtfo!
You need some electroshock therapy!

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>>597420468
It's painful, but if you loved her you'd let her live her own happy life. The only time when you should intrude is when she's miserable or tortured. If you learn to accept she's happy elsewhere, so shall you.

>>597422339
Don't even think of typing that shit again. Not funny. Kill yourself.

>>597422798
Maybe you should write a book again about what you're going through. Publish it and get some $$$$. Then you'll be happy[citation needed].

>>597424805
Don't let the therapist make you think that you're not trans. If you feel more comfortable as a woman then embrace it. A therapist CAN help but ultimately it's just the opinion of someone else that doesn't know you as much as your sister. Also, therapists often think that half their cases are just confused edgy teens that want to be cool on Tumblr and 9Gag, so it's understandable why she thinks you aren't trans.

>>597434362

directv installer.

>>597434882
>>597434882

haha. electroshock is pretty good for some forms of depression. what form do yo diagnose me with? brother?

Got no job, have aquaintances but no one I really care about, and I feel like I'll just end up a NEET. I just started college but I feel like it's not gonna get me anywhere. Every time I have work to do in teams, I end up letting my teammates down. I can't do shit with other people because I'm too lazy to follow my own schedule, let alone someone else's pace. I thought about killing myself a lot lately. There's no reason for me to live. No one will miss me except for my family, and if I live, I'm never gonna do anything important.

Spin it up...

Depeche Mode - Fly On The Windscreen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4dBtfeoXM8I

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>>597433505

Holy shit, that's the fire station from DayZ.

I got the feels someone's about to get shot.

>>597430104
Common m8. "I don't want to have kids with you because I don't want them to be fucked up like you". Two years later she was married and had a kid

>>597434772
yep, god fucking damn it,keeps getting right there, but i have to get over her, i know it's not good for me to keep looking for happiness in someone who already got it, i NEED to get over her, for my fucking life, i already have depression to get me down, i could use one less reason to get in bed and dont get out in a whole fucking day

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>>597435026

>this brother.

so much fuckin love man. you are a grand soul brother. i was just lurkin and had to tell you... my heart. you touched it.

>>597425218
You're not, anon. It gets better.

>>597436048

>reads
>sobs

>>597430237
fuck

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these threads help me at least
instead of keeping everything inside

>>597422798
Burning stuff calms me down better than anything else, especially on summer nights when it's warm and calm outside.

>>597435736
Tiem heals those angry wounds.
Listen to someone that might be older than you are, I never did, but then shit happens.

THIN LIZZY - The Boys Are Back In Town (1976 UK T.O.T.P. TV Appearance) ~ HIGH QUALITY HQ ~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=quyB8PMTD3o

>>597436564
> tfw can't even burst out crying alone in my room because other people are at home

>>597435736
>i could use one less reason to get in bed and dont get out

I have come to give you that reason. bear with me for a sec... remember back when you met that woman? you were just going down the road livin your life and bam! ther it was right? however it happened you had a pretty cool moment when you realized this chick was yours... right? go down that same road again.

its harder now sure... welcome to time and age... but you can do this bro. you are a fuckin man. and all men can walk down a road no matter who they are. walk down that road. be smarter. be wiser. be stronger. but walk down that road. walk. get out and walk.

>>597436969
Don't sweat it, when I saw that my sister was going to die I balled like I dunno. Sometimes death happens and there's not a fuck thing you can do about it, crying is natural, being afraid to cry makes no sense at all. Let it out m8, nobody will judge you on that.

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>>597436823
>>597436823

goddamn. i love that. so full of fuckin swagger and hope. thank you.

Being able to cry means that you're not some fucking robot from asia, it means that you have heart and soul.

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6 months ago, I went to meet my ex girlfriend for the first time whom had dumped me a few months prior. She wanted nothing to do with me. Lost my job, pissed off family and friends and spent the last bit of my cash to try to fix things with her. I ended up fucking her mom, pic related; a text her father sent me after he found out.

it's been 6 months since I've last talked to her and I still miss her like crazy. She wasn't the first and certainly hasn't been the last but she was the only girl I've ever really loved. For some reason it's been especially bad the past week or two, thinking about her constantly, dreaming about her a lot. I can't get over her and I've accepted that I never will. It's a sobering thought; knowing that you'll never be as happy as you once were, ever again.

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>>597436969
you can cry. you have the permission of all of /b to cry.

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>>597437404
I'm from New York, I was born into it, not by my choice.

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>>597433505

>>597436823
thanks for the song man, it makes me feel beter than just end up in bed crying my self to sleep with Bring Me The Horizon or Bullet For My Valentine, really, thanks, i will actually download it and listen to it from time to time
>>597436994
oh, you almost got it right, but she was never mine, she was the first one to actually talk to me after the 2 worst years of my life, after all that hate i had to go through, there she was, all like, "hi, i like that band on your t-shirt" and we start to talk, and become friends, and i start to think she might be the one, never had the balls to tell her, she tells me she has a boyfriend, you can imagine how that got me, still really good friends, but she is loyal as fuck, like REALLY FUCKING LOYAL, so i've got no chance
shitiest thing is that i actually had one, when i met her, like one or two months later she met him, but i was to busy in my fucking mess known as my mind

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>tfw this is me always.

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>>597436823
really, thanks

>>597438026

lol. these guys got some other cool music too i see. phil is dead. thats fucked... but they still do shows. yeah i hear that east cost sound in it from back in the day.

To all those anons seeking something more in life: buy a cheap instrument anywhere you can find and practice to your heart's desire. Not sure how well it works for others, but it did wonders for me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-yKzQC3pUoY

>>597439270
yep, it helps to just let it go, to express what you cant do with words, and it can also get you in contact with people you never would have met otherwise

>>597438439
Here's another for ya m8...
Big Country - Porrohman Live
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KnE2QrA92-E

Another... from Dame Annie Lennox herself...

Eurythmics - Love is a stranger
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J5xk1-KEgds

>>597425708
My favorite story is Spaceman, but I agree that everybody should read this story.

>>597426521
Yeah, no repression or mental illness here.

>>597439752
The one from David Bowie?

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>>597419422
i wasn't a yeat ago... i still miss her.

>>597438439
>but i was to busy in my fucking mess known as my mind

best thing is to move on. you never know if a thing that heavy will come back around... sounds like it might someday. and you know what? relationships that come back around over time are the coolest fuckin thing you can imagine. it's all so much better... trust me im old.

>>597434772
Fuck.

>>597439270

>this brother.

helped me so much to do that. started playing guitar... actually got fairly god at it ...and bands. started playing in bands.... of course i fucked it up again cuz i was so infatuated with the unlimited pussy that i missed my girl again.... fuck... you guys don't so that though. wish i had not fucked up like that... lol. ultimately we got together but she was pissed. fuck it she had it coming.

>>597425708
I was there, 12/10 story
definitely recommended

>>597422798
I understand your feels. I am sorry that happened to you.

>>597439676
>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KnE2QrA92-E

nice. reminds me of u2 before they got pretty. lool

>>597438425
Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alice_Hathaway_Lee_Roosevelt

Alice Hathaway Lee Roosevelt (July 29, 1861 – February 14, 1884) was the first wife of President Theodore Roosevelt.
She was tall for the era at 5'6", and seen as charming and strikingly beautiful. With "blue-gray eyes and long, wavy golden hair", she was called "Sunshine" by her family and friends, because of her cheerful disposition. Of their first encounter, Roosevelt would write, "As long as I live, I shall never forget how sweetly she looked, and how prettily she greeted me."
On February 13, 1880, Roosevelt recorded in his diary his great joy that the woman of his dreams had finally accepted his proposal of marriage. His love was reciprocated and that he could now "hold her in my arms and kiss her and caress her and love her as much as I choose". They announced their engagement on Valentine's Day, February 14, 1880.
Alice gave birth to a healthy baby girl named Alice Lee Roosevelt at 8:30pm on the night of February 12, 1884. Theodore was in Albany attending business on the Assembly floor because he was positive that the baby would be born on Valentine's Day, the fourth anniversary of their engagement. He received a telegram the next morning notifying him of the birth, and made arrangements to take leave from his duties that afternoon. When he later received another telegram informing him that Alice had taken ill, the commute was such that he did not arrive to his home until midnight, by which time Alice was in a semi-comatose state. He held her for two hours until alerted to his mother's deteriorating condition. Theodore's mother Mittie had been ill for several days with what would later be determined to be typhoid fever and died February 14, 1884.
Theodore rushed upstairs to his wife and held her for several hours until she died that afternoon from kidney failure. Her pregnancy masked the illness.
He never spoke of her again outside of a single diary entry.

>>597440073
yes, i got to the conclusion that i have to let go of her, not to abandon her, she is still my best friend, but the other day i went to a park with some friends, it was the birthday of one of them, and we were going to end up in my house, like almost everytime, but with the exception that this new girl in the group we knew at an event also comes with us, the others go to do i dont really know what at other place, and i end up with her walking to my home, chatting about stuff, fast fowarding to when one of them gets to my house and her dad tells her he was coming here to pick her up, when his dad gets i get her to the door, open it and she hugs me to say good bye, no one had gave me a hug in A FUCKING YEAR, fucking really, i realized that if i want to be happy and have someone, i have to stop trying to find happiness in someone who already has it

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>>597422592

>>597430104
holy shit, same

>>597426725
i had my first one with 19. nothing to worry about /b/ro

>>597438474
fuck, that hit hard

>>597439915
No its a greentext

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>>597431749
same happened to me... i know this feel way too good

>>597429144
>>597433505
>>597434772
>>597436823
>>597436994
>>597439676
thanks to everybody i talked to tonight, it helped to just write it all down
also captcha anomm

>>597440034
same anon, same

>>597444572
"Was it ever possible for us? Was there ever a time, ever a moment?"

"No."

I've had almost this exact conversation with a girl I dated for a while once. I still loved my ex, still do to this day. No one will ever be good enough, as good as her.