ah, just started my own thread.
mind if I join here?
when I was a kid my parents used to say you'll meet someone and you'll get married and you'll have a family.
4chin two days agoo.
>be 12 years old
>my parents started to argue a lot more
>something about dad seeing another woman
>things got violent, mum threw a plate at dad's head and he had to get stitches
>parents get divorced
>live with mum
>she falls into a deep depression and becomes an alcoholic
>always used to beat the shit out of me for the littlest things
>when I reached 16 I was determined to leave home and cut ties with her forever
>her depression got worse
>one day when I came home from school, I heard her sobbing hysterically from the kitchen
>I heard a gunshot and the sobbing stopped
>I cried out for her, but no answer
>I drop my bag and start crying, running towards the kitchen
>open the door
>get on the floor
>everybody walk the dinosaur
Feels threads are for faggots. Saging this shit
sure, I've met the love of my life and all of the sudden everything bad in my life was meaningless. The second stroke of my mom, which turned her into vegetable, the deadly cancer of my grandfather, my own fears regarding the future. I had her and wouldn't care if the world would end the next day. For the first time in my life, everything was brighter and made sense to me. I was just happy, nothing could get under my skin. It was just a short time, 10 months but I've never experienced something like that before. I already had my share with woman and relationships and I've been always in a open dialogue with my inner self and my feelings so I noticed soon how precious she was for me. Then she left me, told me that her feelings cooled down and that she doesn't love anymore. This was the first time in my life that I was confronted with a situation I had no answer to or any mean to handle it. It's been 1 1/2 months since then and the pain is only getting stronger. I've cut her out of my life after that because I'm not the kinda guy who talks afterwards or who can pretend to be still friends. I told her that I wouldn't lie to her or to myself in that matter. I go out on every occasion, I'm constantly hanging around friends, meeting new people, even meeting new woman but when I'm alone at night, I just can't help to think of her and all the things we could have had shared together this year. This killing me, only slowly, but it's still killing me and the more I try to get my independence back, the more I find myself trapped in this funnel of sadness. These feelings won't go away, no matter what I do and this personal burden, I'll bear this scar for the rest of my life and the woman I might even marry one day, will just be my silver medal.
You're talking to a man who has found true love in life, a thing he only knew from bullshit movies and books, never believing it actually exists. I'm broken dude.
>Fall in love with a cute girl.
>Love the fucking shit out of cute girl.
>Had a relation of 3.5 years before. It ended badly with me getting hurt.
>Try not to get in the same situation.
>End up prioritizing almost everything i have going for me before cute girl.
>Sports, friends, work. Everything.
>Cute girl complains and breaks up a couple of times but always comes back.
>At one point i figure enough is enough.
>She breaks up and i tell her not to come back.
>She tries to crawl back. When i tell her to go fuck herself she tells me im the one in the wrong.
>Yeah fuck that.
>Months later i suddenly realize i treated her like dirt and it was actually my fault.
>She realized aswell and won't talk to me anymore.
>Realize im the bad guy in all those beta stories where the girl keeps going back to the douche who doesn't treat her right.
Feels bad man.
try and make up for it, say you'll change
shit, excuse my autism for having it so damn small
I've done this way too many times.
Last time we spoke she was the one who said enough is enough.
All she wants now is for me to leave her the fuck alone.
As much as i want to scream i know contacting her now will only hurt her.
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soup, a whole plate of the highest instances of cancers, poddipa
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breakfast the whole, her mother, a plate of this taxonomy!
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the bathroom, Zefirova pinned rod and threw Dushkin programming and
went to the country to breed rabbits seeing these infernal shrimp!
And the only real brutal male, not writing a python can hawala them
as if nothing had happened! One such shrimp, even half enough chtoyb
any woman began to flow, because it's prawns, shrimps for kings
Python northern warriors, rulers, damn, snakes, and here their
whole, damn, dish. Fucking cum dragon, I'm ready to suck the OP-but
right now, for the fact that he posted this picture of the risen
from the depths of the sea precursors Ragnarok, which Titina python
hawala for breakfast! At our office has all turned sour soup, and
our boss has put water in front of the monitor charge, said that her
children will be treated for constipation and enuresis, and pipes
My mindset right now is to try and get over it.
If she ever reaches out to me, fine.
This shit takes time though.
Its been 1.5 months and i still haven't had a night i don't dream of her.
>feeling depressed as fuck
>don't reply to my friend/crushes texts
>she immediately asks if I'm okay
>haven't heard from her since Christmas
I know this is probably an incredibly stupid and childish problem, but my depression is making me think she doesn't give a fuck. Given how much we usually text, she has to know that such a short text from me isn't good.Yet it's like she dropped me. It just sucks because I know she's busy helping her boyfriend and isn't concerned about helping her self-loathing friend. Shit I just want someone to be concerned about me.
I used to be in the same position you are. You want whats best for her still? Just realize whats best for her is not having you around. If she reaches out to you don't respond.It sounds harsh but its the truth.
I hole-hardedly agree, but allow me to play doubles advocate here
for a moment. For all intensive purposes I think you are wrong. In
an age where false morals are a diamond dozen, true virtues are a
blessing in the skies. We often put our false morality on a petal
stool like a bunch of pre-Madonnas, but you all seem to be taking
something very valuable for granite. So I ask of you to mustard up
all the strength you can because it is a doggy dog world out there.
Although there is some merit to what you are saying it seems like
you have a huge ship on your shoulder. In your argument you seem to
throw everything in but the kids Nsync, and even though you are
having a feel day with this I am here to bring you back into
reality. I have a sick sense when it comes to these types of things.
It is almost spooky, because I cannot turn a blonde eye to these
glaring flaws in your rhetoric. I have zero taller ants when it
comes to people spouting out hate in the name of moral
righteousness. You just need to remember what comes around is all
around, and when supply and command fails you will be the first to
go. Make my words, when you get down to brass stacks it doesn't take
rocket appliances to get two birds stoned at once. It's clear who
makes the pants in this relationship, and sometimes you just have to
swallow your prize and accept the facts. You might have to come to
this conclusion through denial and error but I swear on my mother's
mating name that when you put the petal to the medal you will pass
with flying carpets like it's a peach of cake.
I dare you to survive this feel train
The thing is though, i feel like where i am right now i could provide her with what's best for her.
I just respect her too much to reach out to her.
I want what she wants.
I think in her eyes i'm potential and it's up to her whether that's wasted potential or not.
Now thats the edgiest thing I've ever seen. Like a guillotine of bismuth in the 2nd dimension.
>3 years ago on my 25th birthday
>got sick and tired from drinking every weekend
>also, tried to hook up with a freind, I thought I had a deeper connection
> of course, she denied because of beta-faggotry
> decided to make a better myself, startet to train, stop drinking, playing vydia
> "uh anon, why did you stop partying with us. you waste your youth when you only do sports and improve yourself - here, we tried mdma and going to clubs. it's pretty much fun, you should join us"
> after almost a yearof trying to improve myself, felt more like shit than ever and eventually I gave in,
>went clubbing for almost a year. it was fun but it felt artificial somehow. it also sucked my life out of me. running around like a zombie for most of the week, looking forward for every other weekend.
> met a girl in a club. still remeber the first words she said to me and what she answered.
> we started dating and a bit later she became my girlfriend
> first time for a very long time, I felt happy without auxiliary means
> improving myself gets a meaning. started to do sport again, stopped the drugs and most drinking.
>notice that she has some burden to bear. sometimes she gets more distant but then she is the loveley person again.
> try to talk to her and comfort her
> yesterday: "anon, somehow it feels different than before. maybe, I am no relationship person. I think that maybe we don't have so much in common. I now meet much more people wo are like me. and I don't really like it when you are so nice to me"
> feels are hitting
> we talked for a while, then we decided to sleep. she initiates sex that night
> "anon, don't bother yourself too much, what I said yesterday. I think we should just talk more"
> still feel like shit the whole day
That’s by far the worst advice I’ve ever read on this topic.
There is absolutely no point in trying to understand other people’s perspective when depression hits. Zero. Nada. Either communicate or not, but don’t waste time and energy to overthink stuff when your brain’s not working properly to begin with.
If anyone could find this one picture of the 404 girl handing a man on a park bench a clover with a quote that reads something like "sometimes only light can be found in a place just as dark" I would be so thankful.
damn, I have something similar right now, too, but I don't know when exactly she wants to break up. my feeling says it's inevitable. meeting her her in a few days. I'm thinking about bringing the stuff she has at my place to her and break up myself
I dont know why, but i find this extremely hard to watch. the guy in the mid, searching cover by his neighbour. i have watched much shit in here, but this is one of the more extreme things, i can even imagine him crying.
"a man on a park bench"
>tfw you just don't want to be alone anymore
That's all I want. That's it. Every girl I like, every person I wish would be my friend, every hobby I have. It's all just because I don't want to be alone anymore. I just feel so absolutely alone.
this is one of the worst feelings I know
it was worse doing group projects and having to make your own groups, 98% of the time in every grade i was the odd one out. no shittier feeling
Yes. Yes it is. I'm not an attention seeker myself but since the last few months i've been lonelier then ever.
Everyone has to grow up one day.
You don't want to be that weird old guy that's pretty much a kid on the inside.
It's time to make the step and start taking some real life decisions.
god damn anon i almost felt sympathy for you. its not about want or dont want. it pains me to say it but you have to. I felt lonely like that, after i fixed my life and looked back, god damn was i disgusting person
>Be me, 16 five years ago
>Comfortable group of friends, were pretty close buds
>One of them, long term, convinces the rest to just stop all contact
>Spend the rest of high school mostly alone, I forgive some of them but it's hard to look at them the same way today.
It makes me sick to my stomach to admit a group of people ruined me for 5 years counting now, but it's true.
>love gf for 2 years
>unsure on what to do with my life
>relationship deterorates as a result
>she breaks up
>says "I don't think you ever loved me as a person" and says she regrets we worked out an earlier problem instead of just breaking up
>go full-on self-loathing, don't give a fuck about it
>start at college
>hey, it's kinda fun
>enjoy picking up foreign students at the local café
>life is pretty good
>gf and I meet randomly 3 months after we break up
>start getting kinda friendly
>realize I still care a lot of for her
>I ask her if she really meant what she said
>says she didn't and she has had second thoughts about breaking up with me ever since
>won't get back together because I fucked ever foreign student I could get my hands on for 3 months
>realize I only want a loving, caring relationship and don't give a fuck about a varied sexlife with no substance
FUCK. I dun goofed
Wanna be friends lol? I live in los angeles and cant even make friends..seems like no one is really open to it...sitting in my bed right now because im waiting and hoping that my 1 friend will call me or mh neighbor will wake up and maybe we can chat for a little..miss my gf a lot. I hate living in the first house we moved into together. She left me after 4 years for no real reason in September..cant get rid of this feeling, sometimes i cant even get erections or horny cus sex always reminds me of her. Wonder what shes doin..
I sort of have the same sort of thing, all my friends from last school year don't even give a shit about me anymore
That's harsh, she ruined you and then blames you for it? I'm so sorry anon
>tfw when on a goa festival for NYE
>tfw on MDMA
>tfw fell in love with a woman on first sight who's like 6 years older than me
>tfw she was really nice to me
>tfw German and she's French
>tfw she's the most beautiful (visually as personally) person i ever met
>tfw she invited me to visit her in France after just an hour of talking
>tfw I gave her my name to add me on facebook
>tfw she didn't add me yet
>tfw i sent her a request and she didn't accept it yet
>tfw i'll probably never see her again
>tfw no beautiful hopped up hippie gf
Anons, I have the huge problem of not being very good socially with anyone who knows me at all. The only people I can be sort of good with are good friends who are male, and people I meet on holiday/concerts etc. Problem is, I'll never meet then again probably. I met a girl when I was 14 on holiday, she was 11, and even know, she still talks to me, and says that she loves me and stuff and I know no matter what even if we do meet I'll be a dissapointment.
>have no real friends
>lost my only good friend to some douchebags
>No experience with girls
>Tried to talk to a girl over the phone, didnt work out, lost my spaghetti
>Want a girlfriend, but too scared to talk to girls becuase of stupid shit that happened in the past..
>little social experience
>quite as fuck when im in a conversation on skype
>i fucking hate my life
>That's harsh, she ruined you and then blames you for it? I'm so sorry anon
Yup. Don't know if she really blames me, but in her eyes there is not a single chance we are getting back together purely based on the fact that I fucked someone else after she told me she regret most of our relationship. Of course, she know doesn't acknowledge having ever said that.
This. Lost quite few people. Went and talked with my cousin up North a few months ago when I was visiting family. Broke down at the end. She was the first person I remember dying. I was 6 years old. She was suppose to babysit me and my brother that night. Ended up helping a friend move instead. They were on there way back home when the car crashed. The other towns hospital was closer. No one got to say goodbye.
I never knew I could feel sorry for someone that famous and rich until I realised he is just like us except rich and famous. It wouldn't surprise me if he was here in this very thread (except the odds of it happening are tiny but you get the point)
thanks for the feels anon. Even though I didn't share my story, you guys made me feel a little less alone. Now i'm off to bed and try and catch some sleep. Thanks again /b/ro's.
I'm sorry to say this, and I can see how much she means to you, but I honestly can't believe what shes saying, not one bit. If I found out the girl I fancy had fucked 80 guys in a week of us breaking up I'd forgive her (and be impressed)>>590563442
about 1.5 years ago i lost one of my best friends, well more like my only friend. he had a gf who was acting like a cunt and he'd act different around her, especially towards me. he kinda got me into gaming and since i was poor i could only play games when we hung out at his place, which neither of us minded. however our friendship ended because his gf has a shit sense of humour and convinced him to just stop being friends with me. it hurt for a few weeks but i had you guys so it was decent, i even saved up and was able to get some games and such. about a month after though i saw the doomstar requiem [that metalocalypse show] was coming on and was about to text him about it when i realised he probably didn't want to be reminded of me right before it started since we both also liked metalocalypse/dethklok and a lot of other things. a few days ago i decided to buy a game for one of my new friends whom i've never met irl and went for the 4-pack of it so i can have one for myself, gave one away on v, and gave one to the old friend since he's into the kind of lore the game had. me and old friend are kinda chatting it up now about other games we've played and such and are starting to become friends again.
i hope he isn't still dating the same chick
i only have 2 friends, i haven't seen 1 for over a year and the other one is starting to change so much that i don't recognize him anymore. i have to visit 4 chan daily so i won't feel lonely for a while.
>pic all too related
I would if I got invited to any parties
I only really have 2 good friends I see regularly, one who has a load of other friends and is popular, and one who is exactly like me, so no oppurtunity
Man i hate to say this in a feels thread but get over it.
You met a girl once. You had a click. You exchanged names. She didn't contact you.
This happens to people on a daily basis.
I feel for you man but this shit will heal real fucking fast.
I'm not really sad, not even lonely. I'm just curious. There is my story:
>father is workaholic, all the time he is not in home
>when he is, parents arguing until I can remember
>be 10, father star to cheat
>everybody pretend to not notice
>be 13, father got serious sick, work too hard, clinical death
>mother took care of him, his lover left him, because of his illness
>father was delirious in hospital, he confessed about everything
>he got better, 'second chance'
>nothing really changes, still arguing, he still run away by working, I have started to have a say
>father said that nobody will ever love me, and hope that somebody will give me a lesson
>everybody around get bf/gf, some crush
>be 21, have some friends, be so useful
>studying hard, it's only what can I do to not feel anything, start being one of the best
>never learn what love is, never love anybody, never attracted by anyone, can't feel that
>thinks that i'm worse
she made me forget about every girl i've ever been in love with and i don't even care anymore about the girls i'm in contact with at the moment...
i guess i will get over it, but how long will it take? i don't wanna find out
MIDDLE WINTER AND HERE COMES A SUMMER lurk moar fgt
>feels pics? not thread
I...I don't know anon, I'm sorry. Remember, we are all here for you. Even though we will never meet and may never even interact on /b/ again, just know that we are all together as /b/brothers, and we all love you
Man you should have said so in the first place.
You made it look like she was just that one night girl.
Look her up on FB and send her a message.
You dont have to be friends to do so.
If she doesn't reply she can go fuck herself right?
Does anyone have the story of the guy who's dad married a bitch and that bitch made the anon leave his critically ill girlfriend which he promised never to do? She had cancer iirc and then the dad got cancer or something too
I read through half of what is now this whole thread, not refreshing for fear of losing what gold I'd left unread. I have to leave now or I'd finish reading and contriboot. I just want to say that these threads make me feel more human than almost anything else in my daily life. They give me insight into my problems I've faced and ones I'll likely face. I thank all of you that have contribooted and allowed me to feel tonight, /b/rothers. The stories and images you post here have a magnitude in the lives of others you'll probably never understand
thx i appreciate
that's what i was thinking, but damn she was perfect and i talked to a lot of girls and women on that festival, but none i really cared for
I'll wait till the night here is over and send her a message. thanks bud
>Be me 19
>Reptile expo, wanted a gecko, invited GF of 3 years to come
>Found one, head home, decide to go to mall with GF to hang out more
>Having fun as always, love her to death
>Sudden crippling pain in chest
>Ask to slow down, no big deal
>Doubled over in pain, arm goes numb
>Start freaking out, drive to hospital
>Come to find out my lung collapsed, spontaneous pneumothorax
>GF breaks up with me a couple weeks later
>Try to fix things for a couple months
>Lung collapses again, need surgery
>She gets colder and colder
>Another month later, things start getting better between us
>Lung basically explodes and need major surgery
>Find out she left me for some other guy she met right after my first collapse
>She acts like I never existed, in love with him
>Literally obliterated on the inside
It's only been a month or so since I found out about the other guy. I feel so dead inside /b/. I'm addicted to pain meds from the hospital because they make me not feel miserable. I miss her.
>tfw you missed out on all this stuff
>tfw your little bro is still in high school and doing all the stuff you always wanted to but didn't have the balls to
It's fucking miserable
Yeah well, we'll see if we can work it out. At least I've been pretty up-front about it, and told her that one of the reasons I went for foreign students were that they wouldn't remind me of her and that I knew there would be no chance of anything long-term, which I wasn't ready for.
It's kinda fucked right now. I wrote her 24 hours ago. She hasn't responded. I guess I'll see what happens. At least it's good to have it all out in the open, and if the dealbreaker is some beautiful American redhead who liked my crazy antics or something like that, then so be it - I'm not going to regret that.
There is so many things I want. But I know I have to work my life away just to afford food and apartment.
I'll become one of those elder people who are in denial because they never lived life