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>>586859156 Failing at school. Wanted to be a web developer but realized I will probably hate programming as a living. Seriously considering going into an industrial electrician apprenticeship. Stressed because no money and don't know what to do with myself. Also never see my friends because they're busy and I constantly feel alone. Could be worse tho.
>20 yo >living the life >attending uni >nice appartment with a good bro >lots of friends >playing rugby >gf gets pregnant >get a place together >now have to travel to go to school >no more rugby >baby comin' any time now >feelsniggerman
>21, senior at rutgers university >have sexy latina gf >finished semester with all A's (and one C b/c of stupid cunt teacher) >probably going to get spring internship at reputable entertainment company
I have every reason to be happy but I dont know, I still feel empty like there's something else I could be doing in life yet I have no idea what that is
>2 years ago, I move from California to New Zealand to be with long distance relationship girlfriend >For the 2 years, everything goes great >This upcoming march, my visa runs out and I am required to apply for residency, which is much harder to get than visa >If I don't get this temporary residency, I'll have to go back home >I don't have enough money saved up if I go back and I'll end up being homeless >If I stay here, everything will work out fine >If I go home, I won't have anyone because all my family moved away >Pretty worried, but I'm trying to keep the faith >Aside from that, everything is going well
>23 >A few friends that I push away because I'm awkward and I drink too much. >Ok job, but there's a lot wrong in the workplace and I'm not in a position to change things. >Going back to school next year. >Still awkward. >Can't get over shit that happened years ago. >Get frustrated with people easily. >I'm so lonely. Thoughts are scattered. I dunno. Someone talk to me.
>18 >doing a-levels at college >live with parents >hopefully go to uni next year >job at pub that i hate >don't have meaningful relationships with friends, i don't feel comfortable sharing feelings with them >kissless virgin >lonely >empty numb nothingness but apart from that i'm okay.
>>586859156 Turns out the chick I've been dating for 3 months is fucking married. I wasn't too emotionally invested, she was a little too clingy anyway. Other than that I am pretty fucking happy to be moving 1300 miles away from the cunt.
>21 >trying to do my degree in 2 years >dad said he is gonna stop paying for my education >cant afford it myself >he is spending 130k a year on my step brothers fucking hobby >got a very cool gf >saved some money with her >working to buy a flat >probably not gonna finish my degree >wasted 2 years, worked my ass off... >moms got cancer, cant help and dads not paying for her treatment and she got no job >They fight all the time, but im 2200km away >Trying to patch things up >MFW when I have been neglecting my own emotions since i was 8
>tall, physically /fit/, okay looks >active military about to go to first duty station >going to go to school for auto-eng >good social life back at base with tons of friends but now that i'm back home it reminds me of how lonely I was >still kissless virgin but will be working on it at first duty
>>586862603 Nothing yet. Got a BS in psych but the requirements were so shit and I was lazy that I don't qualify for any graduate programs. Going to take a few courses to boost my GPA and figure out what to apply for.
I had a great week with a friend of mine, visited him almost every day after work and we'd hang out and I didn't feel weird. But he has a life and can't hang out. Now I remember how lonely I am. Can't deal with it. Dunno how to meet people.
>22 >Just got back from a road trip to Cali (from Florida) >Trying to get into college should start filling out the paperwork soon >Finding a woman to hangout with, been getting a few bites, but at the same time I'm not really that interested >Losing that weight and getting fit >Already own a paid off house and land >Am self-employed and make 30 an hour > 6'2 and 7.2 inches long > Life couldn't be any better
Loneliness is eating away at me every day. I'm 21 years old and feel like I should be having the time of my life, but since I dropped out of college last year to pursue other things my life has been nothing but pure misery. Without school, I barely interact with anyone and don't hang out with people often. I'm back to being suicidal and I want so badly to have friends again. To answer your question OP, life doesn't seem worth it right now.
> grandma has dementia and got moved to a senior home or whatever this dying place is called > last member of my closest family > her apartment gutted and sold > I live 2000km from her but was visiting her most often of the whole family > the last place where I could feel like a kid is no more > the last piece of my old world is gone > alone and depressed as fuck
>>586859156 >moving out of home next year >overeating >constantly tired >disturbed sleep/ insomnia >suicidal >alcohol abuse >no friends >no girlfriend >sex with strangers and i got chlamydia from last time i had sex >no motivation to do anything anymore
>>586864109 Yeah the guy I hang out with has been introducing me to people. I think he's picked up on how miserable I am which sucks. But I dunno, I just don't have anything to talk about with people. Only reason I'm good with him is because he does all the talking and he's been the one reaching out. It's fucking difficult and I feel like some autistic fuck.
>>586864258 I quit my job working as a security officer at the hospital. Couldnt handle all the death and mental health patients I had to deal with. I'm a supervisor for some other security company and am working part time as a paramedic but I feel like im running myself into the ground. Working these jobs is hard as fuck when you have major social anxiety and depression.
> 20 > Going blind > Trying to college b4 full blind so I can say I've actually accomplished something > I'll be like the 2nd college educated person in my family beyond a bachelor's >College free because blind > Living with dad and shitty step family because no job > Step mom demands almost my whole disability check as rent > Step sister 1 is a raging cunt who picks on me > Step sister 2 is a ditz who's tried to fuck me > Dad is a lazy ass 50% of the time, and a total bro 50% of the time > Rest of family saying I should move out > Too poor to afford most places alone > Too poor to afford most places with roommates and still be livable > Even psychiatrist says I need to gtfo before I lose my mind > Not allowed to even do chores around the house because I don't do it "their way" > if it gets desperate enough and I do them anyway I get shat on because it's step sister 1's responsibility not mine
>>586862734 Other than doing well in school, I feel you. I have 4 good friends but I don't share the feels with them. I know I should but it's hard and I have baggage. Also ended things with my roommate and had to move back in with parents which I hate.
>>586864855 Trust me one of the easiest tricks I've learned about socializing with people is asking questions, people love talking about themselves and if you seem interested all the better and you can (hopefully) find something that maybe you have in common. If not make shit up who cares there strangers to you at first meeting them.
Doing great. I was a heroin/opioid addict for 12 years but quit after smoking dmt and seeing Buddha. Her told me to let go of the past. I quit shooting up right there and don't even think about it anymore. I now smoke dmt about once a month and use no other drugs now.
>>586863332 Don't listen to that other faggot. That's some harsh shit anon. Make sure you don't neglect your emotions around your gf since that can fuck up the relationship. Even if you don't finish the degree I hope you find something. What's your step bro's hobby?
>>586865444 Youre fucked aside from being blind youre retarded too Get your check leave home. Go and get a roomie let your shitty family behind. Let them fend off for themselves abd stop letting the drag you down
Trying to write more, want to write a scene for a musical or finish my short story collection. Working a 9-5 job in the meantime to pay the bills, but I know I need to indulge in my writing more if I want to make a living off it someday
Also beginning to explore my bisexuality since my only gay experience in college
>21 >Relationship with my gf of 3 has been a downward spiral for the past few months >Not a day goes by without me desperately trying to find a way to save it >Been on and off drugs since I was 16 >Studying chemistry at one of the best universities in my country >Will probably get kicked out sooner or later for skipping entire days every now and then just to stay at home and shoot some smack >Becoming a recluse incapable of forming any kind of bond with anyone in my surroundings and too tired to give a shit
Should I continue? Pic related, me from not so long ago.
>>586867317 Honestly my backup plan was to work as a paramedic, I just want to do something good with my life you know? I'm basically living day by day slowly drinking more and more as the days and weeks go by.
>>586865720 Man fuck that macho shit. If that's how you wanna be than so be it, but that shit will eat you up inside and you'll be worse off for it. A real man knows when he's at his limit. And it's hard to say, just feel really lost right now. Poor as fuck and struggling. Can't even get a shitty job because all the business students around my area keep snatching them up. Had to move back in with my neurotic parents, and my rooster of friends is slowly dwindling. I worked a helpdesk for a little bit but that shit made me depressed. I did quit smoking though, so there's that. I am in school but it's not going well, I don't think I'm cut out for white collar work.
Today marks 5 years with my wonderful gf..went out to dinner with her and got coffee afterward (she paid for all of it) as for other aspects of life: The good >junior in university, honors program >3.97 cumulative gpa >president of fraternity >more good friends than deserve, inside and outside of the fraternity >loving supportive parents/family >looking at grad school The Bad >currently struggling financially (rent, food money is hard to come by when you're not able to work a lot of hours due to school) >Among school, work, and extracurricular obligations I am on the go ~12 hours a day and very tired/stressed as a result >Constantly stuck between my brain desiring to be lazy, but then making decisions which necessitate intensive involvement and output
>>586859156 I've been diagnosed bipolar, struggling very hard not to kill myself in depressive episodes, i'm thinking about it every day as i wake up and when i go to bed. My relationships are falling apart, my bro tried to kill himself and i have to go to the mental hospital to give him the courage i don't even have myself. right now 4chan and youtube are my only friends. I should be enjoying the fact that i'm in holidays right now, but i just can't. feeling like i'll be a forever alone. I remember every day how very pointless human life is, and i ask myself all the time why i'm even here..
>>586867712 Maybe someone anon. You just gotta keep on going. If things get too bad don't hesitate to seek therapy even if it sounds like shit. It might just be that you have an emotional issue and are holding back from your friends.
>>586859156 I'm doing well! Broke my ankle earlier this year, and finally all healed up. My student loans were just forgiven after a 3 year hiatus and disabled status.
Living with my parents, but it's a permanent situation and we're all happy. I actually bought some flooring and paint to help with the reno's we just wrapped up.
Started saving money after realizing exactly how expensive healthcare can be, even on medicare. Had to have 2 surgeries this year, and it was a real wake up call.
I finally got my wheelchair, which takes me to a full standing position, with powered manual wheels, to keep my upper body strong (I've got the muscular dystrophy.) All in all, it cost $25,000, but it is a permanent device with warranty, and I was able to do some fundraising (while also exposing my music,) through a generous game/music bundle vendor.
The weed's been pretty good lately. I've quit smoking 5 cigs a day and now smoke 1 cigar a week. Quit drinking all together. Have stayed on my psych meds, and am feeling good. Lost 35 lbs.
Looking forward to a decent trip around new year with a couple whippits to throw it into overdrive.
>>586868536 I know what you mean. Try and get on some meds if you can, don't get into that downward spiral of drinking. I know that sounds retarded but you don't want to fuck yourself over. Honestly, most people don't have the stomach to be a paramedic. So you've got stones at least, especially doing it with emotional issues. You are doing good, and someone has to do it. Just don't be afraid to take a break.
>>586868886 Congrats on quitting smoking! I'm testing out the sober life, a lot cheaper and I don't say stupid shit that messes up the few friends I do have. It sounds dumb, but a friend of mine got me a jacket (random gift but probably 'cause it's obvious I'm poor), really nice, and I quit smoking 'cause I didn't wanna get cigarette smell on that gift.
>Met a wonderful girl off OKC in June >She became my girlfriend >We had a wonderful first 3-4 months together >The last 2 months were shit and got shittier. >She dumps me before Thanksgiving/my birthday >Catches me by complete surprise >I get very upset >End up in the emergency room due to stress physically affecting me >Cry for 3-4 weeks >A month later text my ex to see if she'd like to catch up over drinks >She agrees / is happy to hear fro mme >Start to feel better >Go back on OKC >Go back on Tinder >Attractive Tinder girl matches with me >Go on a date with her >It goes well >Tinder girl agrees to go on a second date with me >A girl on OKC gives me her number >OKC agrees to go on a date with me as well >Now not sure if I still want to catch up with my ex as I am getting comfortable with out her >Check my ex's twitter >She seems depressed >Wonder if her tweets are about me >Not sure what to do
After working as a cook for 5 years I just stopped showing up for work one day. They kept paying salary for 2 months after even though I was fired. Due to an error in their administration they couldnt prove it so I kept the money. Haven't worked for 3 months now.
Also got a 5000 euro tax return so I'm not gonna do shit.
Planning to start an education as a low level labtech in september. Up untill then I'm gonna do fuck all.
Working hard is not a virtue unless you have a family to support. If you're on your own, work as much as you need to. Unless you got connections you're not ever going to get a good carreer anyway, no matter how talented you are.
>be me 22 >great and a lot of friends >had many girls >douchebag type >Dad moved out 4 years ago >Dad was cheating on my Mom for 3 whole years >with 3 Different Women >recently moved out >no job >some money saved (around 9k) >didn't fuck a girl since months >can't bring myself to meet any girl >inner flame is gone >no passion in anything i do >Feeling Alone >Empty Inside
>>586872082 What's fucking annoying about being bi-polar is that you feel very great for some time, and then you feel like a complete piece of shit again, people are always worrying about me and treating me like a fucking psychopath.. I try as good as i can to have a positive view on life and just enjoy it, but i don't know man, i just don't feel joy anymore
>>586871881 >try having sex with a dude >says fags are annoying
I don't like men I like trans men but I could never be with a man to be honest.
At the end of the day I want to be with a woman the idea of being with a man isn't appealing, flings maybe who knows but actually being with a guy.. Ill just be honest and say every single gay man I've ever met has been a total cunt, worse then women.
Have you ever met a gay dude that wasn't just as bad as a woman? Seriously when was the last time you've met a gay man that was just normal and his whole life didn't revolve around the antics of "WOOOOHOO I'M SOO GAY XD".
But besides that like I've said before I'm only romantically interested in women who are masculine.
>>586870961 Yeah think I might try doing some counseling and if that doesnt work look into trying some meds. Not a big fan of medication because I've seen first hand what it does to some people. Some people its good but for most it becomes just another crutch
I dropped out to pursue acting, something I've been passionate about for quite some time. Under the guidance of several mentors I know that I've got what it takes to give it a decent go. I'm a waiter at a restaurant, but my coworkers are all way older than me and are kinda unsavory people to be honest. All my life making friends has been a piece of cake, but the real world is far harsher than I anticipated.
Thanks man. I'm excited about both the Tinder and OKC girl. It's difficult because I really did love my ex and I really enjoyed getting to know her family. But she is the one that nit picked at me over everything I did and in the end, dumped me. She seems really depressed based on her twitter messages about how it doesn't matter if others don't 'validate or accept' her. I think that's directly aimed at me, as she may have thought.. fuck it. Doesn't even matter.
>>586871188 Nice! Same here actually, I am going with sober life. I used to smoke weed and shit but I'm too poor now and it just alienated some of my friends. It was just really boring for me, got treated like shit by the managers too. I know all jobs have their ups and downs but I started to get really depressed and the hours made it really hard to stay in school. Eventually it was better to quit. Will try again in the summer though. Probably going to have to go back since there isn't much else to choose from around here.
so i'm turning 18 don't know what i should do been really depressed because life is boring and lonely and no matter what I do nobody seems to care. I'm alone every day. Everybody tells me I'm stupid, I'm annoying and an asshole. I broke up with my girlfriend because she didn't talk to me for a week and then I find out that she was getting surgery because of cancer. I feel like a fucking monster. I'm horrible and maybe I should feel like shit. It's probably my fault that my life is horrible. I'm always fucking up, especially in school. I'm friends with a man who threatened to fucking kill me! I'm fucking stupid. I've been working towards fixing my life and I'm never talking to that asshole anymore but fuck dude. I'm an idiot. My life is horrible. And it's all my fault. I can't blame anybody but myself. I'm a disgrace and I should feel that way.
>>586872960 If you waste time on her, she's probably going to hurt your feelings. Plenty of fish in the sea. You might think cos she's depressed she's easy prey and would fall in love with you again. But she'll probably move on to another guy when she's feeling OK.
26. Stable career and finances. Struggling with depression seemingly related to the stress of deciding whether or not I should transition to the female gender. Chronically introspective and an over analyzer. Not helping. I am out to most of my friends at this point and send most of my time with them as female.
>>586872705 Damn, I wish I could help you more. Are you going to get on meds? I know you probably don't want to think about that, but I hear they help. I'm sorry about your bro too. I wish people wouldn't treat all disorders like psychopathy, that is just fucking retarded.
>>586872957 >the real world is far harsher than I anticipated It really is. Things aren't even that bad for me, but it gets harsh. Glad to hear you're pursuing what you want to do anon. I'm sure it will be a long road but just don't give up on your passion. Let those people you work with be a constant reminder about what you don't want to end up as. At least you are good with people, that will be a virtue.
I just went on a date with an ex. Drove around, went to record stores, looked at Christmas lights, and got coffee. It feels kind of weird because I thought my feelings for her were gone but I was wrong.
>>586872874 Yeah, some people can't handle it. You know yourself better than anyone though, so I think you'll make the right choice. You picked a tough job but if it's what you want to do than you should see it through. It's not something most people can do. Good that you're considering counseling though, it's a start.
I've been surprisingly alright. What I'm fairly certain is depression and what are definitely urges of suicide have been hitting me pretty hard recently. Luckily, I've been feeling good for the past week or two, and things seem to be looking up. However I can't shake the feeling that it's all going to come crashing down soon.
>was sexually molested as a kid by sister >said sister has attempted suicide multiple times in the house and is a mental patient >father is dying of a heart disease and an alcoholic >mother is dying of a genetic disease so I'm likely to get it as well >2 other sisters have miscarriages all the time and are dying of the genetic disease as well >high chance of cancer >short, ugly >gf just broke up with me never wants to see me again, she was my first
So yeah don't really know why I should continue /b/ros
It's crazy, I know. At one moment you'll be like "Everything's good, I'm actually doing OK right now" and then suddenly out of left field comes "Yeah, I should probably just hang myself". I can't make sense of it either.
>>586876845 you're finding a way, that's all that matters. Just like how our parents found no shame in flipping burgers for a job back in their days. It wasn't called shameful, it was called opportunity. No one putting in a day's work should be disrespected.
The American social stigma of moving back in with parents is fucking retarded and is thankfully dying with time. Absolutely no shame in it. What's important is to have goals to get out of that situation. Living with parents is an economically viable solution to these shitty economic times and by no means should be an affront to your own sense of independence.
>>586877520 I never accused you of being a closet case, I was just airing my (rather unpopular) opinion regarding long-term relationships.
As for the the virgin thing... Just the wording I guess.
I know I'm being a little rude, but I'll leave you with this, /b/ro: We want what we want, sometimes we know what it is, sometimes we don't. The only person you can ever rely on is yourself, and even that's gonna fail sometimes. The more time you spend alone, the more contented you will become with your own presence.
Also, if you've never gone hunting, give it a shot. Sounds like you could use the experience.
>be 19 >sit at home all day >living from unemployment benefits >just smoking weed all day long >rarely go outside, only when visiting friends, which happens rarely >trying to get my life together >have social worker, who helps me with all my shit >trying to look for a therapist >started two training >one for economic assistant for foreign languages >one for physiotherapist >stopped going after 6 months in both cases >was always hit by a wave of depression >both times around my birthday >again this year >now I'm at least stable, financially speaking >but I've become a nihilistic wreck >feel empty, bitter, like a fucking Lich >the town I live in is a fucking ruin too >so are the ties with my family >will most likely spent 'tis merry season smoking and drinking, alone
>will probably say "fuck it" in a few years and become a drifter
>>586880484 call me crazy but I kind of want to live as a drifter. Save up enough money to retire from the Air Force and collect a retirement check once a month (clearing 50k a year with full benefits if retired as an officer) and wander the nation. Just go from city to city and live at hotels each night.
I used to agree with you completely. But more and more I feel like trying to understand myself is a losing battle. At this point I spend too much time analyzing my own desires, and it never leads anywhere concrete.
>>586880484 I was in the same boat anon. Not doing much better now but you can improve. Try and pick up any training you can get even if you get depressed. I know it's easier said than done. See if you can get any counseling too.
>>586881205 So do I. Just living anywhere I want, until I get tired of it. >>586881870 Thanks, anon. Actually, that's the plan, I wanna get a education before I get into the drifting, so I can get a job when I'm done.
I'm a little down anon. I just got back from staying with my brother for a month and a half. While I was there he introduced me to this Korean chick he'd been fooling around with and she stopped fucking him and we banged several times. She's one of the coolest chicks I've ever met and we have so much in common. Sad thing is she has a boyfriend. He's been in the military for a while and she never sees him and she doesn't want to be with him, but she doesn't want to hurt him by ending it. I think I'm in love with her but I didn't speak to her about being in a relationship because I still wanted to at least fuck her and I didn't want to make things awkward. On one hand, I think if I better myself by getting in shape and getting a job/car/house I can take her from him, but on the other hand I feel like I'm deluding myself and I'll never get to be with her.
>>586883334 Oh, and I forgot to mention I've been a recluse for years and I've only had sex one time previous to this experience. So basically I got a taste of a social/sex life, and now I'm back to the same old boring shit.
>>586883334 Careful with the army wives man. Not telling what he will do when he finds out. Plus, if she's fucking him over, what makes you think it will be different for you? You're in a tender spot right now so you're probably not thinking too clearly.
>>586883784 I'm sorry anon. I love /b/, you guys kept my mind occupied when my pets died, you guys gave me advice on how to forget certain girls, hell you guys made me cringe, laugh and cry in one evening I'm sorry I can't stay, but you couldn't teach me how to be happy, i hope you all find the answer one day You fucking deserve it
How I feel right now is lost. I work a ton, and on my off-days hang out with the gf. But lately I've been waking up every morning feeling, for a loss of an adequate word, hollow.
Every day is the same, and I work so hard just to maintain a life in pursuit of nothing but routine. I fear I'm wasting my opportunity to experience the human condition because I have neither the confidence of idea to enact the change in which I'd like to see in my own life.
>>586884484 Yeah, you're probably right. It's just kinda hard to accept man. >>586884733 The man she's with is a non-issue, I'm confident I can handle myself. But I have gave lots of thought to the possibility she wouldn't be any different with me. On the other hand though, she's only 19 and she only gets to see him a couple months out of the year. I think if we were together all the time it might be different.
>>586886098 It's too hard to say anon. What the other anon said makes a lot of sense too. She probably just feels lonely/horny. It's good you're confident about handling yourself but if the guy comes back emotionally scarred or something he might just straight up shoot you.
>>586885009 We'll miss you man. If there is nothing that can convince you not to do it then I hope there is something better waiting for you because you deserve it. I really wish you wouldn't do it but godspeed to you if this is the end for you.
I feel kinda shity. I've been married for 3 years now. And come to realize I'm in love with my best friend of 17 years.... So I'm breaking it off with the wife so I can break it all to my other friend. I'm sure it's mutual but I got to get out my marriage first...
>>586887207 On my phone, sorry it took a while. Based on what I've read, narcissists pretty much have little to no connection with empathy. They use and manipulate people to get what need and get the attention they so much deserve. Its also very difficult to spot one, though they'll slip up every once in a while. They tend to be the one that always wants to be in the spotlight, always has to be the best at everything. General traits for Narcissism are: lack of empathy, grandiosity, dream Of wealth and power, feeling that they are special. I can go on but I just smoked a bowl and its wearing me out
>>586859156 I've fucked myself into a corner. Got canned from my job. It's complicated why... but now I gotta wait to piss clean before I can even think about applying anywhere. I live in Colorado so it's legal but companies can still deny you employment. Pretty much just hoping I get into a car accident and die. I quit wearing my seat belt so fingers crossed.
So no matter how all of you are feeling -For those of you feeling good, awesome, and for those of you feeling not so great, hope you feel better soon- I would just like to wish everybody happy holidays. Merry Whatever-the-Shit you celebrate, from the bottom of my heart. As some random person on the internet, I'm sure it means a lot. But seriously, hope you all have a fantastic holiday season this year.
It's easy to become bogged down with negativity. We're bombared with it 24/7 because fear is easier to market. But there's so much good in the world if you make the effort to see it. People are amazing and disguting and boring and inept.
None of this gives an excuse to see the bad instead of the good. You either choose to be happy or be right.
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