Making a new baww thread since last baww thread was kill. Let it all out faggots.
Good. You got anything to talk about? I'm going through my old baw folder from many years ago.. My friend killed himself last year. I still visit his spot. Okay, our spot. It was beautiful. I went there last week, to just talk to him. for a short time, i felt he was there.
Sure we tell everyone to kill themselves on here, but year after year I come back for the baw threads. I sometimes wonder how much 4chan has actually helped people..
I was out on E-Bay a couple of weeks ago looking for a new Samsung phone for myself and in the end, got the S5 Sport. I won't have it until tomorrow but I regret getting it. I could have gotten 8 people $50 presents instead I'll probably get a few people some cheap presents. It just feels too selfish, I could have gotten a Note 3 or an S4 for half of what I got this one. I wasn't thinking though what I was actually doing, I guess. I just thought that I wanted it and didn't consider what else I could do with $400.
I hate when threads do that when you're writing a resonse... I was the fag with the navy friend who i cut off from my life if anyone remembers.
money doesn't buy happiness. Just remember that.
Yeah. I spend money unwisely still sometimes...
> pic related
Thanks man. This is the spot. I resized it to 1080 so i could upload.
Probably being with family. Hopefully get drunk with the few remaining friends i have. I know new years the party i will go to has no alcohol. It would be selfish of me not to go anyways for that reason.
Here's some more pics.
>I didn't ask for these feels
When I die I think I'd rather have no one at the grave site than a small gathering. It's like, if I haven't done enough to gather a significant following, why even try at that point.
How are you guys capable of handling the loss of a friend?
I just recently (a year give or take) made actual friends and the looming fear of not having them around is making me so fucking scared.
I just got used to it, to the point where I don't want to go out any more.
The times I do take friends out on trips, I always end up regretting it. I get finicky when I go out shopping or trying to have a fun time and no one likes hanging with someone else when they get in that groove.
The way this has been edited makes it difficult to read on my 15" screen.
Fuck having a grave. I know where my friend will always be..
likewise my friend.
Its hard as hell. Just make the most of what you can with them, so in the event that you lose one of them, you'll have positive memories. Memories that will bring a joyful tear to your eyes. Also just keeping positive as you can and finding happiness not through friends but through other parts in life. Videos like the one above and the one below are examples of what makes me cheer up.
First video i've ever seen, and continue to see when i'm down, always helps me out. Sometimes its better to do that then look at the bottom of the bottle.
How many pictures of that bridge do you have? And why?
shit I forgot to add the second video. Here.
Its the place that my friends and I always went to. The one that committed suicide. Yes, its just a bridge, but to us its much more than that. I can understand why it makes no sense... but he brought us there saying it was a "cool and haunted place" so we checked it out and it was just our spot to talk about lifes problems, up on that ridge. I have many more but i don't really feel like posting them unless somebody wants me to.
I sometimes wish that it was haunted now.
Genuinely sorru to hear that man. Yeah, the curse of ones negative side can be heavy at times...
Yeah... It was rather easy to be happy on my own until I experienced a functioning and genuine circle of friends.
Funny how the future can take so much space when the present is the only comfort, dreading to come home because I know how I'll sit in front of the screen, incapable of moving or mustering the will to be productive.
Hah, sorry for the essay by the way
If you're feeling like you've had enough, remember this. My mum's best friend committed suicide when she was 23 and my mum's family lost it. My grandma cried, my grandad cried, my fucking wind-up merchant uncle cried. My great grandma was distraught, even though she had only heard stories of my mum's friend and never met her. She sat in her chair and cried all day. People care, people who you don't even think of care. Remember that.
Its in Ohio, in a place called "seymour creek".. I'll just leave it at that. We just simply call it "blue bridge". unfortunately a lot of stupid fucks go out there and ruin it for the best of us and at one point there was no parking allowed.
Been there, done that. Just fucking do it. I regret it so much.
pic related, upper left is that area we sit on to chill. I hope it never has a landslide. :\
Its understandable man, i feel that same way. Write as much as you want.
Clench your teeth and go on living, as long as you are careful not to drift apart it'll get better I guess
I'm not even sure of what I'm saying and how close to reality it is but to be honest I see no better option
Just do anything to keep your mind off her. Hobbies, friends, etc. How long ago and what was it like?
As fucked up as it sounds, thats the best thing that prevents suicide is knowing how much it hurts the ones that care, and being in the position to be one of those people that was affected changes everything..
Because you're a cunt. Just kidding, they probably are though. Care to talk about it?
Fuck. I hate this.
I'd like to talk about it, but it's pretty late here. I think I'm just going to sleep. Thank you for offering.
she doesn't want to talk anymore until I fix my jealousy problems
Today she told me she doesn't want to see me anymore and it broke my heart
Any /b/ros here need a person to talk to, I have a lot of friends and am considered quite popular but am a fucking wreck inside and take it apon myself to try and help people worse so if anyone wants a friend give me a shout
I understand, that's sound advice. But I don't think I have it in me to even talk about it. (Feels pretty pathetic)
Nothing wrong with that, not all problems in life are Romance. Feel free to share.
Well now we let out our fag side for a post, what do u guys think, is the first girl the last too?
No matter how many girls or feelings will be, if u get married, if u have childs. I think u always will remember the first all of your human/love side.
My first girlfriend died, and I miss her so bad.
Thats what we're here for. This thread will 404 sometime.. And we'll be on our seperate ways as it is so might as well discuss it while you have an audience.. Plus i've heard pathetic shit before. And baww threads usually don't judge about those things.
Romance isn't everything. Everyone has problems and i've heard of things way worse than "girl problems".
You sound like my friend.. he was always helping people and we should have helped him... but didn't. Are you sure you don't have anything to talk about?
I do, but romance isn't my biggest source of grief. I have more than enough romantic sadness, it's just not the only thing that fucks with me.
Thanks, anon, I guess I will.
When I was 13, my mom died. It was a long time ago, but it still effects me. Not just in the way you'd expect, yes I miss her, sometimes a lot, sometimes I weep about it, but that's not all. I think losing my mother at such a young age has made me emotionally damaged. I'm extremely clingy towards all my friends, and if I'm not physically with someone, I am lonely without exception. Soon, I'm leaving for the Navy, and I don't know how I'll handle it. What do, bros?
When I was young I used to hang out at the military Base where my dad worked as a kid after school and there was this one guy who just joined up minim age (17) who was amazing to me, showed me how to do so many things and was like a brother I never had, after just over a year he got sent away to Afghanistan and he was so proud, so was i. A couple months later my parents were reading the paper and saw that his name was there, they showed me. He had been badly ingured by an IED and then shot several times till dead. Still fucks with me now.
Yeah man I've always done it, try to make others better like happy and shit, take their sadness into me but when I'm not with others i realise how fucked I am. Btw the post about the military is me as well
I know that feel bro. My ex told me the other day to leave her alone for good. It's so hard when every fiber is screaming to just call her so I can hear her voice one more time.
Yeah man she thinks it's the best action for now because arguing ruins everything according to her but man
I just think arguing with someone I love is better than having someone to love at all
Fuck that sucks. You have kids with her?
I talked to this one girl, i don't talk to her anymore. I claimed she was clingy, and we fought quite a bit. over nothing really.. and now i feel like i'm clingy. I miss her so fucking much but the one i'm in love with now told me to stop talking to her last year. I did, and its for the better.
But i've been clingy ever since and Its awful. I myself don't know what you can do to prepare for it but just go with it and be strong. don't bitch out and any emotions that you feel negatively just use it to push you harder. How? I don't have a fucking clue. Figure it out man, best of luck.
Its hard to lose somebody that close. Especially someone whos like a brother.
Thats what hit me through my teenage years: realizing that bad things happen to the best people.
Fuck. Why did moot have to be a massive faggot and remove IDs. This shit is annoying now. - OP
care to explain the situation before you start acting like an attention whore? jesus fuck dude. don't go tard caps lock on us. We're here to help.
i wasnt being attention whore, i see that picture a lot in this site and since the first time i saw it i think that.
i just dont have anybody, i dont know what im doing wrong, it looks like nobody wants to hang out with me, i try being the nicest i can but fail every time, and everybody in my family doesnt talk to me, the only ones that do are my sis, my bro an my mom, and thats becouse they live with me.
Ok no problem it's good to hear from you. And about your stuff I get it there are a lot of phony bastards out there its a.life long struggle to find your real friends. I hope you don't feel too bad about your phone thing, sounds like you deserve it though, you worked up for the money and do you have anyone who would do that for you?
So you've lost someone too? OP here again, you've replied to a few of my posts. Why do you feel all finicky and shit? is it hard for you to make friends? socially awkward?
As for the phone, meh. I've spent way too much on stupid shit. I need to save and badly. I need to get the fuck out of this state and get a meaningful job. best case scenario i can make the girl I'm talking to fall for me when she visits next summer.. and maybe i can move down where she lives. Whenever i think about it, it puts a smile on my face. Then i realize i can be too fucking clingy towards her sometimes. :\
Hey bro hope shit works out for you, sounds like you've earnt it. Being a little clingy is good it shows how important they are to you. I hate how were spost to act a certain way to girls we like in order for them to stay instead of just acting like we feel
I'm sorry anon... nobody would be happy that you're gone, Maybe you're just friends with the wrong people? I know, its hard to get friends. You don't just go up to somebody and be like "LETS BE FRIENDS" because thats weird as fuck. Theres no manual for it either. Its just learned.. common interests, conversations, you'll find people that are like you.
I know of one person that I wouldn't care if anything happened to and she was being a cunt. You're not a cunt, anon.
Now tell me more.
Yeah a little about my friend who died in service. I'm 17 in school, been on and off depression for about 2 years but not in an edgy emo attention whore way I ended up cutting myself, still have those scars from back then. I am always the one fixing other people's problems and making others happy and at the end when I'm finally left alone I realise how shit I am, I just want to absorb other people's sadness into me becuse they deserve to be happy
i dont know, when i was little my family kinda broke up, with my parents getting a divorce, and my mom moving with me and my siblings to another town. every one of us reacted diferently, mi sister cut herself, my brother got into the wrong people and was raped (cause all this happen with me and my siblings being 15-14-12) and i just didint care, i stopped every interaction that i had with people
>was sexually molested as a kid by sister
>said sister has attempted suicide multiple times in the house and is a mental patient
>father is dying of a heart disease and an alcoholic
>mother is dying of a genetic disease so I'm likely to get it as well
>2 other sisters have miscarriages all the time and are dying of the genetic disease as well
>high chance of cancer
>gf just broke up with me never wants to see me again, she was my first
There you go anon
that leaded me to also get into the wrong people and also getting kind of rapes,I say cause i was little i only though it was a game, so i dont think it was soo rape cause i kind of agreed.
My brother, blackmailed me for years with the theath of telling my parents, which scared me to death, until one nigth i couldnt handle anymore (it was a tv figth with my brother, kind of silly) and told my parents.
Your life is at a low point, anon. A life is a horrible thing to waste. All the lives you could touch, all the wonderful things you could do, is that worth wasting? I can sympathize with you, you've suffered more than I could ever claim to know, but the end doesn't have to be now, you still get to try and have a happy ending. I'm not saying you're promised a life of ease and bliss, but, couldn't you at least try?
Don't be a piece of shit. Make a change.
You obviously know pain more than most other people. You can help people get through theirs.
It's up to you to be a snob and an hero or go out and do something. Who fucking cares if yours is shit, life is temporary for everyone after all, so make it memorable.
Thanks anon it makes me feel a bit better sometimes when someone tells me I've helped but generally it just makes me feel worse like I empathise too much I feel their pain and I re live it over and over again, but it works for them so it's worth it for me.
>I won't be around to receive it
Also, trip dubs.
then,my brother got send to live with my parent and his lover (cause they got married) and I never saw him during that time (even hes a psycopath he was my only friend) so that really took me more away from people. i spend time in school alone and hiding from bullies
Thing that sucks is shes already in a long distance relationship with somebody that in my opinion, cares much less about her. Shes perfect. But as long as i'm comfortable around her (i'm very sure i will be), I hope she can fall for me too.
I met a few girls online, sometimes its 2 years before we actually meet, yet we're always there for each other. Thats a great friend.
I realized that the other day. I had many hours to play any game i wanted. What did i do? feel like shit and just listen to music the whole time. I have way too many games and need to play more.
Sorry to hear that.. sounds like a miserable life. I try to tell myself that people, like you, will eventually find happiness. That they will find something worthwhile, for all the bullshit you've been through. Mostly because i feel like i'm one of those people. My dad has diabetus. His foot likes like an elephant foot and we get along, but we're constantly assholes. I asked him how he's doing.. He's going blind guys. My dads fucking going blind. He is/used to be the best shot in the county. Now he can barely drive past 5 o clock. on top of that he'll probably have his foot amputated. I haven't put much thought into it now, but fuck.. it makes me sad to see him do this to himself. The worst part is he can't even get physically fit. He's beyond repair. Hes on disability, mom works the dayjob, and i'm just doing my own thing in the house keeping them together pretty much and i'm fucking 23.
Reciprocity man. When you're with somebody talk to them.
Man thats awful. continue if you like. I can't even fathom what that would be like..
>moar blue bridge.
I've never asked for help emotionally, people just have no idea. Most people I know think I'm one of the happiest people on earth and that nothing phases me which is the mask I put on becuse seeing me down and blue could bring others down too and I don't want that
only real gf that I trusted broke up with me about a year ago. Can't get my mind off her. We occasionally talk and play vidya games, but I only do that to not seem like a jerk and block her outta my life. What the fuck do I do?
next few years I really cant remember, cause magic.
but the next thing i remember is my grandfather dying (he was the only one that didint looked at me in disgust) which killed me inside.
next year my grandma died. and becouse my brother though he had knocked out a girl he came living with us again.
Then, my sister came out as a lesbian, and moved with a girl (pretty cool actually it works for microsoft or something like that)
>You'll buy a new one.
I won't, I promise. In 6 or 7 years,I've bought 3 new or newish phones.
I wish I had that scene to photography. It looks awesome.
I need your address, anon.
>Not having $3
I don't mean to mock, I'm just surprised.
That one is retarded. Some people would be sad if I died. Maybe cry, maybe some tears. Maybe even someone would kill themselves. But I doubt it. No matter who dies life goes on. Sorry to the faggot that wrote that reply but life goes on. We arnt that special
then i changed schools, that actually helped me, cause i get a new friend.
started smoking pot with my brother and becouse of that loss my only friend (he reacted like shit to me smoking pot, ive stopped smoking for it but it didint help so i got back to smoking). then i started to realize that my life was shit and.. here i am
lol, im from there too
Where you from? Its in ohio.. i would never usually tell the internet where this is. but eh you seem like a pretty cook dude isn't afraid of nothing.
If it helps, Huron county. Its all dead now though. I'd love to see some pics if you go there. or anyone.
Be honest with her. Tell her you have feeling still. i did the same shit... kinda blocked her out of my life. we still text each other happy birthday and christmas but as for the rest of the year its just... silent. she was the first girl that ever made out with me. coincidentally i had a dream about that first time, last night. :\
I'll remember that. Though I'm in Minnesota, I have some extended family in Zanesville, but I haven't been there for quite a while. We might even go through Huron to get where we're going.
I'm a little confused, the United States Post Office needs something like this:
LINE 1: NAME OF ADDRESSEE
LINE 2: STREET ADDRESS OR POST OFFICE BOX NUMBER
LINE 3: CITY OR TOWN NAME, OTHER PRINCIPAL SUBDIVISION (i.e., PROVINCE, STATE, COUNTY, ETC.) AND POSTAL CODE (IF KNOWN) (Note: in some countries, the postal code may precede the city or town name)
LINE 4: COUNTRY NAME (UPPERCASE LETTERS IN ENGLISH)
More like Norwalk/Milan. Come out here sometime. its about an hour drive probably. Also there's a few other nice looking places i know of. Would you like email or something? before this shit 404s my emails firstname.lastname@example.org. let me know and who knows, maybe we can have a beer together one day.
Yeah you will if you do. Huron is in Erie county which is where Cedar point is. I used to work there... Huron county is one county south of that. Lorain county has some good spots.