This sums it up perfectly. Still thinking about her. I doubt she ever thinks of me.
I Just went through a bad breakup. You can't sit and mope on your feelings /b/. Go do things you enjoy. If you didn't enjoy anything other than this girl then you need to find a center for your life. A relationship is a compliment to a healthy life, not the basis for one. Improve and heal yourself, then find someone else.
Ten days ago.
Invited to China for a seminar.
There is this young Chinese girl. She is 26 and cute. I'm 37. I cannot take here out from my head. Even when I'm right now cuddling with my girlfriend, I can just wait for this little Chinese girl daily mail.
All these guys have a point anon. Don't be a little bitch and dump her. She will never value you for who you really are. Let her suffer for what she did. Don't get any closure from her...it will only make things worse
>inb4 i dont know what youre going through
yes i do motherfucker. i found out my ex was cheating on me and she was crying/begging for me not leave. Me being a dumbass wanted closure and motives for her actions...just dont it...you will hurt yourself more.
>inb4 you say im too much of a pussy to do it
man the fuck up anon and get your shit straight
M girlfriend left me 2 weeks ago. Usually I always get her to come back but she hasn't talked to me or responded to calls/messages in 4 days. I think I lost her for good this time and I want to kill myself but I am so scared she could come back. So I just sit around waiting for any sign of response from her and it eats me alive thinking about what she is doing or if she will come back. She doesn't open the door no matter how long I knock or ring the bell and Idon't know if she even reads my messages or if she blocked me or left her accounts.
Woke up early to make breakfast, cleaned up the whole house, cooked up a whole nice dinner.
Wife is more emotional about upsetting some random reenaget on the internet than a damn thing I do.
I work, I cook, I clean...she just sits there in front of her screen lost in it all day, more concerned with people hundreds of miles away than she is her husband two feet away.
Been treated like I'm less important than anything else my whole life no matter what I do. Just makes me hope I don't wake up tomorrow.
You are so fucking naive it makes me sick man.
Been there done that.
What the fuck do you think will happen when you dig for details?
I can tell you.
It will hurt more, you will get the feeling "She is finally honest so now we can start over". She will still be lying ofcourse, or at least keeping shit from you.
But yeah, I've been there maybe 3 times, I didnt break up with her.
But hey, she made me cheat on her a couple of times before I dumped her and now I cant be in a relationship without being that "Paranoid boyfriend". So yeah, been single for like 2 years now. Cant fucking stand trusting women.
So yeah, welcome to life. This is only the beginning.
I am better alone with a fuck friends that in a relationship. :(
Am I broken ?
Go out and do something you love with your friends. If you don't have any, go and buy a new game, and get completely engrossed in it. Find someone who shares your interest in the game. Hell it doesn't even have to be a game. Could be anything, just take your mind off of her, and move the fuck on. You'll feel better in a few weeks
first, sorry, english isnt my language, sometimes y write funny.
I was in a relationship for more than 3 years, living together. Everything was fine, with the occasional misunderstanding, or routine sicknes, etc.
Then, some months ago, i found her fb open, and a conversation pops up. I cant hel but read it and i wont like it. I cant believe my eyes, so i just read all the conversation rom the start. Like 3 months of conversations, took me all night.
I was angry as hulk having a bad day.
just read the diagnosis criteria for AVPD for the first time and it fit me to a T. i was diagnosed 6 years ago with major depression and AVPD either in addition to or instead of makes a lot of sense to me.
what do, /b/?
try to move on, I know it sounds like bullshit but is always the best choice, at least think about it as "giving her some time" and in a few months she will talk to you again, trust me happened to me many times and it´s always the same.
>tfw i wont eve live up to my parents expectations, i know this, they know this yet they don't give up on me which makes it hurt so much more when i dissapooint them
I wish i would just not wake up tommorow
My dad died seven years ago, today, right at about this time from the worst lung cancer you can get ring in front of my eyes on the couch. I was 12 then, never really spent a lot of time with him at that age but I did when I was younger, don't really remember anything tho since I was a kiddo. Miss him so fucking much, fuck not having a gf, this is the shit that burns the most
Fuck guys, I had this dream today
>Be walking down the park, it's snowing everywhere
>This girl with black hair is walking the opposite way
>As we walk past each other we make eye contact and smile
>I turn around but keep walking, she turns around too
>Turn around again, she turns around again as well
>We stop walking, turn around and walk towards eachother
>We stop, she's about to say something
I wake up.
It was so beautiful, I felt like shit when I woke up man. I even went to that park today to see if this will happen, if maybe faith gave me this dream. Nothing
Fuck life in general. I stay jaded for this reason alone.
I don't know why, but just looking at the picture without expanding it I saw a guy in a grey bunny suit doing a handstand. For a second I smiled... then I opened it and felt sad again.
>I want to share it, my friend.
Every fucking time.
I confronted her, and tell her that i see a part o it, (didnt tell her that i know it all) and she says something like "its just a joke, nothing happens, dont be a paranoid", or some shit like that.
I tell her ok, but keep watching, and guessed her fb pass, and watch all day what the hell she es doing.
long story short, i send a message to the guy, telling him i was her boyfriend (for what i know she never ever mentioned me), and asking him to tell me the truth. He says he didnt know me, of course. She confronted me again, and blah blah. But at this point i havent any real proof yet. Only some texts and suspicious behaviors.
This fucking picture, man. So crudely drawn, so fucking true.
>Start talking to a girl in high school
>Really cute, kind of shy and weird
>Talk everyday, eventually start dating
>First real girlfriend
>We really like eachother
>She's quiet, but she begins to open up to me
>She has a very un-supportive, drug using, slut mother
>Dad isn't around
>Her mother takes out all her anger on her
>Her mom hates me
>Say nasty shit to me and comes to my house to yell at my mother because I won't stay away from her kid
>Things get kind of serious, we've been together about a year at this time
>One day this bitch goes to our high school and makes up a story about how I physically hurt her daughter
>Makes her daughter testify against me
>Makes a friend get involved and say I'm abusive or whatever
>Get called down to school police office
>2 detectives sitting there
>Put in cuffs and arrested for domestic battery
>Restraining order filed against me
>No contact with her or I go to jail
>Only girl I ever loved
Fuck my life.
then, a day later, keeping my watch. i read a conversation with other riend of her, and she says ther that she was dating that guy. A daye later a send a message to that friend (part of the group of friends of her and that guy) and asked what the hell is going on betwen she and that other guy, of course he didnd know me.
I see in my gf fb, this friend contacts her and tells her some random guy are telling lies about her and blah blah, she says i am a ex, and that she will talk to me about this. More blah. She come back home and tells me that it was all a trap to see if i can be thrusted, but i spit the real truth in her face, and give her a day or two to leave my house, even knowing she has nowhere to go.
The most painful day of my life.
>>583586183 This guy is probably right
This one is bad. Read it if you want to baww.
You know that state of mind when you're like half awake half asleep? I had that this morning.
I felt her behind me. He felt her arms slide around me and tell me everything was going to be okay. I could feel my bed, and the presence of my room was the same - not like a dream where everything's different. There was no thinking, just her being with me again telling me everything was going to be fine.
Then I woke up for real, and I was alone again.
Nobody likes me, they like how i make them feel
people enjoy working with me, getting high on whatever or sharing an orgasm with me.
but they all leave once the job ist done or as soon as they had their precious little moved, im just a tool but i dont change anything about it...
afterall the only one that cares is /b/
Sometimes I think what would my life be like if he was still alive, I would probably never end up here, browsing /b/ into the late night hours, slowly rotting from inside out. He loved math, he was always trying to teach me it best he could but I hated math... Would do/give anything to go back to those days with the things I know today. Probably wouldn't drop out of school, would have at least some kind of a mid tier job or even no job (fuck it) and at least be happy and live with something called a caring father. Something I will never experience again.
Thanks for replying tho kind anon. :(
I was way more melancholic as a teenager than I am now.
Nothings changed, I've just grown a pair and gotten some perspective.
Life is not about "Warm summer nights" or "Slender bodies"
Life's about building something, whatever it is, bit by bit. Day by day.
I haven't figured out what I'm making, but I'm damn sure I'm doing a better job now that I'm not feeling sorry for myself.
>Yeah I felt it
Up until I was about 16 I was most entitled shit you could meet. I used to steal my parents money, run away from home, got kicked out of school etc etc.
It was my dad that eventually gave me the motivation to keep going. Eventually I got back into school and completely the IB. Now i'm in university (not being as productive as I should be lol).
I thank him for all for all of that. After my parents divorce he was left to look after me and my sister. Without him i'd be absolutely fucking nowhere.
idk if youre still here but is this the one
I'm really worried i'm not going to get this back. I had the perfect girl and I fucked it up because I was stuck with the mentality that life was about getting as much sex from as many people as possible.
I miss her so fucking much.
>My dad has a collection of bicentennial quarters
>Been collecting them since 1976
>Whenever my uncle would see my dad he would give him any bicentennial quarters he came by since he last saw him
>5 years ago, my uncle passes
>Family goes to clear out his apartment
>My dad finds a pile of bicentennial quarters on his dresser... they were for him
Today I fucked up and forgot to my mom's dog. She apparently only needed that to set off what she'd been holding back for a while. She told me that I'm not happy, that I seem empty, and that I don't care about people.
I jumped to disagree like I think she wanted, but I hesitated. I've thought I was happy, but I don't think I have been now. I kind of just was there. Now that I realise I've been just existing, she can be right. Now, I'm empty, careless, and unhappy.
Holy shit that cracked me
> Being told by girls that you are amazing, caring etc and that you deserve the best
> Being told by others that you are such a good person and that someday you will get a reward because of that
> 1 week passes
> 1 month passes
> 1 year passes
> Still no reward, no love, no monetary gain, no blind luck
> Realize that these people only told you that to cushion the blow
> That really you are just an average person with nothing to offer.
>> Being told by girls that you are amazing, caring etc and that you deserve the best
>> Being told by others that you are such a good person and that someday you will get a reward because of that
Do people actually say this shit to you spontaneously?
So, he saved a homeless woman because he wanted to fuck, and now he feels all special? What a cunt. No way he would've done that for a man, or a woman he didn't find attractive. If you're gonna take homeless people off the streets so you can cum in them, fine, but don't act like you're some kinda Nice Guy for doing it.
>that feel when I don't want a gf, friends, family, much money etc. Just to be by myself with no close relationships.
I envy these people who have that, who are really free. I don't like people. Don't hate them either but I really was born to be alone. I hate small talk and trying to say the right things. I talk only when I need to and as a result, people think I'm a sour bastard which in turns leads to discord and bitchiness. ffs. Maybe I do hate people.
Shit I mean, I'm smart, pretty good looking, tall and fit (with a bit of spaghetti in my pockets no doubt) but none of that matters because if you've an ugly personality. I can out up a front, be charming, cool etc. but it feels fake.
** YOU HAVE BEEN VISITED BY LE PELICAN! ** post this in 3 threads or you will be fucking killed
> was 16, fat attractive male, now 20, 8/10 guy.
> Summer, hot day, hot night.
> 28th august 2010.
> visiting uncle, aunt and cousins with parents and sister.
> evening, arrive after long time travel by car.
> younger cousin's birthday so family is preparing dinner-party.
> my cousin and his friend decided to go for a walk
> i go too.
Kinda bored all the time since i was fat i didn't want to do anything all day at all.
> We go to a shopping mall.
> Suddenly text message from my sister.
> "You won't believe what's here. Piece of meat for you"
> Didn't actually care. Told my cousin and to his friend.
> His friend said it was his sister.
> Didn't care again.
> afternoon, going home.
> Almost at cousin's house
> Cousin's friend starts running out of nowhere to arrive home first.
> I arrive 2 mins later.
> Listen to him saying out loud "look, look, he wants to meet you"
> I cross the corner and see the 10/10 of my life in the backyard sitting on a chair.
> I go say hi to her with no hesitation.
> Go inside say hi to other party guests.
> Go back outside.
> She's staring at me almost all the time.
> Time passes and it's dinner time.
> Nothing special happens until...
> Dinner is over and everyone is talking and she's nowhere to be found.
> She appears and sits in front of me.
> We start talking like we knew each other since ever.
> Suddenly cousin and his friend decided to go for a walk again.
> She says "oh c'mon, let's go for a walk".
> We go for a walk.
> We talked as my cousin and his friend (her brother) walked behind us.
> I ask for her number and he gives it to me.
> We came back to home, we sat on a wood bench on the backyard alone and talked.
> Time flies and she has to go.
> Didn't kiss her on her mouth when saying goodbye because too beta for that when with her.
> We text message and I end up knowing i could have kissed her. Even her beautiful legs.
> Go back home with parents and sister.
> Talk to her on the interwebz.
I just want to fucking live...
Where the fuck did all these promises of wild nights and great times go?
They spoiled us with high expectations and left us to smash headfirst into concrete reality. FUCK.
I just don't want to keep sleeping alone...
There's more going on in life right now, including being half drunk, but I'm not ashamed to admit I teared up reading this. The feels thread was appropriate to where I'm at in life right now and this picture did it. Maximum feels. Thank you, Anons. Feels threads bring me closer to humanity than anything else in my life
20 years old and still going downhill. Only reason i haven't killed myself yet is because dead people can't eat cinnamon rolls. I know I'm pathetic.
Y'know /b/, I just want to know, why does no one screencap the good stories anymore? I read very nice stories on here almost every day but no one will screencap them to preserve and share them like the times before. Why?
Literally no one ever says this to me.
In fact in my last night out with my old friends group we had a round of goodbyes and they all started with "Yeah you can be a dickhead but..."
I'm sorry, Anon. The only thing I can suggest is what I'm trying to do to conquer my obstacles. Evaluate yourself and what causes the issues you face. Figure out what change is necessary and why change is so goddamned hard. Change.
Fresh OC, just sent this message to a girl I liked.
She did something I never thought she'd do, and the way she told me was just... I can't explain it. It just feels as if she didn't care about me at all when she told me. It was unbearable, so I just had to end it.
> to cushion the blow
id have to call bullshit on that anon, id argue this is the cruelest thing a person could do.
heres how i see it
its as if you tell a thristy man wandering the desert that there is an oasis 5 miles in the direction he was going (even though you know damn well there isnt), and when you see his face light up with hope/cheer and determination you think you have done something good, and you part ways and continue traveling in your direction.
but you don't have to be there to witness the look of despair on his face when he gets there and finds nothing.
Nice I did all of that almost exactly as how it's described. With multiple girls too.
>mfw i come here to appreciate my wonderful life
>mfw contemplating about my success and wonderful gf
I can't live with my brain anymore.. I can't deal with this depression. . After years of medication and therapy I don't feel any better. I want to end it all but I can't imagine how much pain it would cause my young kids. I want to be normal so bad
I popped my current gf's cherry last year. We've been together for a year now, she's 19 and I'm almost 22.
It's not to late. Get that feeling of teenage love with her. It's more of a connection with a certain person than an age thing imo. Had shitty "relationships" at the age of 15 too.
Since the traditional route hasn't helped, have you considered trying any herbal antidepressants, like St. John's Wort? Try searching online, and see if you can find some alternative treatment methods. I sure hope you can find some answers, Anon.
One of my best friends died a few months ago, he had a fight with leuchemia. It seemed like he was winning, but then he lost it. I felt sad but I was mad at myself for not being sad enough y'know? I didn't see him in a while so I guess it didn't shake me so much.
So a few days ago I was having a dream. I dreamt that we were outside and that he was alive. It felt so real and vivid, and I was so happy. I didnt even wonder how he was alive and well, we just hanged out.
Then I woke up. The illusion broke. I realised that it was a dream. I cried. This was the first time I cried because of him, and it felt fucking devestating. I just dont know /b/...
I've recently realized that I've turned to alcohol. It doesn't make me feel better. I always feel like shit. I'm in a fraternity, but I'm still the loser I always was. I feel like I'm alone. I'm surrounded by people, but I always feel alone. I can't talk to people and by the end of every night, I'm always drunk, I hate myself, and I end up crying. I hate everything about myself and I've thought about killing myself every week since I've come to school. I'm pathetic.
> end up knowing i might one day have sex with her because she finds me attractive and my lips turn her on.
> felt in love. Couldn't even eat whenever i thought about her.
> End up knowing she has a boyfriend too.
> She tells me she's confused and cries
> decided to go to my cousin's house by myself
> traveling 180km for her.
> Best friend going back to his home country on the same day i leave
> Didn't say goodbye to bestfriend.
> Arrive cousin's house
> Text message her "I'm here"
> The following day i went picking her up at her house and came back to cousin's.
> Had awesome day and i ended up doing a Lotus Flower origami to her. She loved it.
> Suddenly "she has to go".
> Tried to kiss her but didn't happen.
> She texts me we can't be together. I said i loved her and i'd do everything for her.
> She said it was impossible because it was the second time we were together and she loves her boyfriend.
> She said she was sorry.
> Cried that night like a baby.
Whenever i go to my cousin's house and we hang out i sometimes see her. We talk like we could be married, we talk about anything but i just can't get shit done. I hugged her the last time i was with her and didn't even tried to kiss her. Had a girlfriend for the last 2 years and i still think this girl had me more than my girlfriend. I still think about this one girl. Last week i went there i saw her acting with my younger cousin and my brain just stopped. She said she has my flower on her room and i can't just understand why and how do i feel this with her. I don't know how she feels about me. I think she just doesn't care. I live with the feeling that i will never kiss this women ever.
I'm going to marry someone that can be incredibly rude, can become angry at the slightest of things, and is unappreciative of everything that I do for her. It hurts because I love the shit out of her and don't think I can turn back. I feel like there's nothing I can do, and I wonder how my life will be with her if things continue this way.
I look at angry, old, and bitter couples that don't talk to each other as they have dinner, and I think to myself what a terrible life that that would be.
I am surprised this thread is still standing.
It's 01:18 when I start typing this.
It's cold outside. I buttoned up my coat and put my hands in my pockets. It's quiet outside this late at night. There is no snow, but the streetlamps shine down upon a delicate sheen of frost beneath my feet. Nobody else is out, they're either asleep or not going anywhere.
But I am.
I went for a walk. Not because I felt like it, but because I needed it. I couldn't stand spending another miserable minute in my room, behind my computer screen. Even though I know that's exactly where I'm going when I got back. I can't sleep, because that's even worse, nothing to distract me from my thoughts.
So I went for a walk.
As I walk, I make no sound. The gritters have not been out yet, so the frost cracks lightly beneath my feet. There's no other sound however, and it is quiet. Almost too quiet.
And just as the tears began to come, I round the corner, and I heard a noise. At first, I thought it was the breeze tickling the trees above me. However, it was quite simply, and almost disappointingly, a small kitten. With or without a home, I don't know.
I ignore it, and walk onwards.
Some houses later, I turn to my side. I see this same kitten watching me beneath a car. Has it been following me? Or am I just imagining this company?
Nontheless. I continue.
Now even still, when I turn to my side, this small kitten is once again, sat beneath a car. Silently watching me.
At this point, I stop. I get to my knees and I watch it back.
Slowly, it walks over. I do nothing. My hands stay in my pockets.
Brushing its head against me, it then drops to the floor and rolls over. It's purring, even if I have done nothing, it is purring. Perhaps just delighted by the company I've been able to give it, even though I still feel so alone.
I don't do much. I spend the next few minutes with this kitten, I have a smoke, and I walk onwards.
All the way home, this little kitten follows me. Waiting at my door.
Nah mate, sadly, my ship has long sailed. I've been diagnosed with cancer. I have at best 4 months to live. Why don't you be so kind and start this task? I know it's hard, but I bet when this place is long gone one can read through all the archived stuff and live up to the old times again.
I had a very strong feeling like that on LSD and Marijuana. The only way I can describe it is a complete sense of child like wonder. Everything just amazed me in a way I can't really understand. It's an amazing feeling that I recommend to everyone willing to give it a try.
Fucking hell. After reading all this shit I just really want my boyfriend to get home from work so I can stop imaging him getting into some horrible accident on the way back. Fuck you /b/, I can't handle all these feels.
I don't know where to start.
Now that we're apart I realize you're like a dart to my heart.
Your looks are off the charts and you are too smart.
I can't describe your beauty, because you distract me with that booty.
Why do you have to be such a cutie, your looks are always on duty.
I'm not poetic but you sure are athletic.
Where did you get your aesthetics, I hope it was genetics.
What you do to me is theft because I have no more words left.
I'm bored enough to write shit this dumb, pretty sure it's time for me to go to bed since I have an exam tomorrow.
> Be fouteen and asleep.
> Wake up to a weird kind of moaning over the sound of the shower.
> Be terrified to the point that you can't move.
> Finally act after what felt like an hour.
> Shout out to your dad in the shower if he's okay.
> Don't get an answer.
> Find water pouring out from beneath the door.
> Panic and start to look for a key to the bathroom.
> Open the door to find your dad crumpled on the bottom of the shower, blocking the drain.
> Become shocked and unable to do anything other than what you're told by your older brother.
> Fast forward to the point where you are sitting just outside of the hallway where paramedics are trying to revive your dad.
> Be unable to imagine living without him.
> Hear that that is exactly what you will have to do.
It's been about three and a half years since then. My oldest brother got custody of me after his death because of certain mental illnesses that prevented my mom from raising me. These mental illnesses took over her life around the time that my parents divorced around three years before this. The divorce took a year and a half to finalize and when it did I didn't see my mom for two years.
Things were actually looking a lot better for me around the time that he died. I had a close relationship with my dad, which might have been because I had been homeschooled up until around when the divorce happened so I only had my dad to talk to. I looked up to him and learned a lot from him, and I later realized that he was really the only person that I could talk to and have understand the concepts I was talking about.
I realized very soon after my dad's death that the thing I would miss the most was not the care and support he gave me, not the food and shelter he provided me, but just the selfish need to have someone to talk to that could understand me, and then I realized that I would probably never have that kind of conversation again.
I decide to pet it. Just a bit. At first, it's meaningless. But as I run my fingers through its fur, I can tell it's not homeless. Perhaps it's locked out, or simply doing the same as I. Walking, thinking, and hoping for company.
I don't know why, but I will go back tomorrow night.
I hope that little kitten's there again, to grant me some company.
I hurt inside. But even the company of this little feline started to give me some warmth, even in this cold.
/b/, I will be thinking of you when I go out, as you're what made me go out tonight. Let this little kitten be company for us all, yeah?
I remember seeing her for the first time. She was cute, but I didn't think much of it being the typical cynical teenager in high school. I had convinced myself that all high school relationships would end and most of the people that indulged in it were just doing it for the attention and/or popularity (some of that is still true). So, I carried on with my life. I didn't think much of her. But one day we had different seats in Chemistry class and she, let's call her Nnyl (yes that is the OP image name), was seated next to me. In that one class I was exposed to her, I fell in love. She was the most innocent, nicest, and generous person I had ever seen. I've always been known to be an incredibly salty and cynical person, but she radiated goodness to the point where it penetrated my shields of pessimism. I made it my duty to get to know Nnyl better. For the first time in my life I signed up for an afterschool club in order to spend more time with her. And that I did. The first day I stayed afterschool with her was a blast. We didn't do much. It was actually a bit awkward. I talked to her for a bit but then she went to play ball or something with her friends, so I just moped myself to some corner and sat on a chair and watched her play. I just sat there and fiddled with my thumbs until she came up to me and said "I'm done. Let's go!". I've always been a bit shy when it comes to being personal with someone with people around. So we walk outside of the school and I try to talk to her as long as possible. When it came for our time to go home, I told her I didn't have a ride and I was just going to walk home, which was a couple miles. She chimed in with "Do you want me to walk with you?" I said yes, of course, and I hid my excitement. We walked for a couple miles talking non-stop. I'll never forget her smile. Eventually we had to split up at a CVS Pharmacy and we went our separate ways. I walked a solid mile or so more alone, but it was the best day of my life.
You're too gentle. People will tell you you can pick up girls if you're more aggresive/more of a dick but faking it is never going to make you happy. If what you say is true, it means you are a good person that will never be rewarded for it.
In this case, I sincerely hope some nice girl likes you for it so you can be happy.
>tfw alcoholic depressed fag finally doing well/taking meds to make my gf feel settled.
Still on meds but the thoughts of not wanting to wake up tomorrow are coming back.
I'm pretty wasted and took a bunch of anti D's so I probably suck at a feels thread right now
sing it with me one last time, men.