vent thread. it's Friday night and we're all here.
anything you need to get off your chest, do it here. i'm all ears.
>also feels thread
I don't have anything to share, but I'm lurkin'.
I'm sitting on a toilet with my phone looking at /b/. A turd is currently dilating my asshole. I farted a little. Its slowly coming out. Stuck a little so now I'm giving it a little push. Oh shit here it comes.. A little fart.. And.. Floosh! Its being followed by little turd nugglets.
Thanks for understanding.
Woah, im pissing out my ass. No wonder my farts were so stinky.
My shit's all fucked dude.
Pic related, what I do instead of work for the future.
I have a very difficult time feeling any emotion. The only emotion that I generally can feel is anger/frustration. I have over the years learned how to emulate these emotional reactions during a very wide variety of social situations. I understand how most people would mentally/emotionally react to most things or situations, but I myself do not feel any of these.
feel like elaborating at all?
i'm sorry to hear that. i have Borderline Personality Disorder, which is the exact opposite of that. can't imagine what the other end of the spectrum feels like. hang in there.
Yes, to a extent. I believe its because everyday is the same as those preceding it but with little variance. I do not even care if I were to die. Only reason I attempt to live is so that my parents and family will not have to have the emotional trauma they would experience possibly obstructing the process of their daily life.
I literally cannot do well in school because of how much class I miss do to migraine headaches. I spend every waking hour just trying to catch up because I've been cursed with the inability to do normal shit 8 hours a week. I'm pretty dumb on top of that, which isn't helping.
Onetime I won breakfast for a shoe drawing contest so that was ok I guess.
tried two weeks ago. neighbor heard ruckus and i ended up in hospital. college alerted their Crisis Team and now i have to go to fucking therapy all the time.
life is garbage. i haven't had sex since January and my last girlfriend dumped me after cheating. my mom died this year and my dad lives all the way in bumfuck Ireland.
i used to hate this place. now it's all i have.
how fucking pathetic is that?
Been seeing this girl for just over a month. First time I have ever been with a girl who I can relate to. thought it wasgoing places and I was happyfor once. today i stumbled across thefact she has been married for just over a year. I feel like a complete fool. I havnt talked to her about it yet, have no idea what to do.
I've drifted from this girl I extremely like a lot and we used to talk every day but recently we've grown apart help /b/ what should I do to fix it
I'm in the middle of a divorce and i'm keeping the kid wife was a cheating coke whore and all my "friends" turned their backs on me I have a shitty job and have tried time and time again to get a better one but have failed at that. My ex best friends sister has started hanging out with me but i feel she's trying to use me but i just let it happen because I need someone right now and she's the only one there
need more details.
i've been playing since my sophomore year of high school and only just got good enough to be in a band. keep at it, mang.
that's way fucking rough. sorry, /b/ro.
Hitchhiking to Florida from Louisiana tomoro morning
Sometimes i find myself thinking about why we created a society where the sole purpose of every individual is to run around money. and the fact that people are losing their scientific faculty, Obsessing over material and sueperficial shit. Anyone feel the same ?
Thanks OP, i needed one of these. I've been trying to make my move on this girl for days and finally, I decided to do it today. Sadly she turned me down and said she was already going to get coffee with someone else. I feel like it's bullshit, but whatever I guess.
been there plenty of times. my disorder keeps me from moving on like an actual, non-stupid person, but it'll get better. fo real.
i often think of the same things. truly a curse, sorry /b/ro.
Holy fuck, guys. I started using 4chan last month, and the number of people who say they want to kill themselves is ridiculous. I hope suicide is some kind of inside joke here or that it's being said tongue in cheek. So much misery and lack of purpose.
Well I met her at this party around June while my best friend who recently moved out of state was visiting we hit off great at the party but didn't really get much time to talk because she got dragged into taking her friend home, went home that night super bummed nothing became of it untill she follwed me on Instagram, then a couple days later we and the visiting friend were at a local sporting event where we bump into her and her friend from the party we make plans to go on a double date were basicly to make a long story short all 4 of us came back to my place I began to make out with her then they had to leave before anything major could develop we continued to talk and she confessed she really like me and wished she could stay longer that one night but recently we've kind of fell
Lets just hope this will change in the future.
Well then you wont have to pay anyone for the cover art :D Good on you. Its nice, got any samples to share.
Where'd ye serve Marine ??
Therapy ?? AINT NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT.
It aint. We are all the same.
But you are still here, and surviving.
Life is very short, a blink and we are gone. there is a lot of pain, a lot of learning, but there is time to heal explore and love. Enjoy the journey you have anon.
1/7 Twentynine Palms
0341 Infantry Mortorman
I don't even know what's happening to me anymore, I've realized that I am addicted to jacking off but the thing is that once normal porn started getting boring I went and looked for something more interesting, it's happened to most of us but it got to the point where I'm jacking off to CP, I know this might not be a serious thing compared to some of you out there but I fucking hate myself for doing it.
i wish we were joking, but we aren't. i don't know how it worked out this way, but it seems like most of us (not all) use this place as a sanctuary from all of the bullshit that plagues us all the time.
we call each other faggots and niggers and kikes as much as we want here without any consequences because it's a reprieve from all the bottled up bullshit that we're constantly fed all the time.
i wish i didn't need this place. i wish i had a girl to text so that i could ask about her day and see if she wanted to come over. but i don't. so i come here and pop open a rekt thread and take all these drugs to numb it all.
honestly, i'd kill just to get my mom back.
this isn't worth anyone's time compared to the other posts here but I'll go and say it anyway. The girl I like lost a shitton of notes for school so I was going to surprise her by typing up all the notes for her and giving them to her the next day. Well it took a shitton of time and I got barely any sleep so I ended up falling asleep in class and the teacher had to wake me up, and I finally see the girl and she tells me she found her notes. so thats my failure of the week
when i troll online if the person is cool i talk for while then as soon as i feel a friendship or they ask for kik. i don't know why but i say "go fuck yourself /b/ bitch rekt" or something like that but it not even for the lulz i just cant have people getting close to me. even i really want them too.
Hi guys, this is gonna be a bit lengthy, so bear with me. I'd been pretty alone my entire life, growing up I never really made many friends, and I didn't date much (a few occasions, nothing serious until now). So, I met my girlfriend and she was the best thing to ever happen to me. I started to feel normal because I had her. She's so wonderful.
However, my girlfriend is way too attached to her ex-boyfriend. We've been dating for a little over three months now. Her parents have talked to me once, they don't know we spend time alone together, or that we're dating for that matter. She invites him to her family's dinners and shit and not me (they both went to each others thanksgiving dinners). I don't get it, I don't feel inferior to him in any way, he's really a fuck up. I just feel like shit because he spends a good amount of time with her when she knows for a fact that I do not want her to. Worries me that they do shit, bc they probably do. Says I won't be a secret forever, but we'll see how that plays out I guess. How're you guys doing tonight?
>girlfriend 3 months
>still hangs out with exbf
>says I love you to him and shit
>knows i dont like it
>she feels bad about it but clings to him
>blah blah blah
>just really hope it doesn't keep going on
anyone have similar stories or experiences?
My purpose for coming here is because i really cannot connect with other people on a normal basis. Plus the anonymity and everything, its like everyones connected.Hive mind or somesht but really guys these CD threads need to stop whatever happened to those 10/10 threads or /s/ type threads ? I thought the shit about SJW being mods was a joke but really it seems like we are being modded by SJWs after all.
i appreciate the sentiment. really, i do.
you're a lucky man.
i'd recommend casually letting her know what you did anyway. try and bring it up organically into a conversation and see what happens.
i'm pulling for you, man.
thank you. sincerely.
I'm pissed off at myself for not making any move on this girl that I used to be friends with (who pretty clearly wanted my d) and getting in touch with her years later, only for her to be friendly but romantically cold to me like the little pussy faggot I used to be would act like. I also hate myself for not being somewhere better in my life at the moment due to unclaimed opportunities and me being an unambitious pussy faggot. I also am pissed off at the FAA for being so strict on their medical qualifications and stalling me from being a pilot. I'm also pissed off that I never fixed my relationship with my dad before he basically died of overstress. I'm also pissed off at Intel for making stupid Intel software that can't even communicate with Intel hardware
awkward, this wasn't as long as i expected it to be.
worth mentioning: she kissed him while we were dating, in front of me, and a bunch of other people. it's pretty scarring, i'm still figuring out if she's just using me or what. i really hope not.
however, this sounds worse than it was. she always puts herself down for it what she does, but doesn't seem to change. i mean eventually i'll man up and tell her she needs to pick one, right? just hope it's me.
my ex-girlfriend cheated on me with a good friend of mine. she texted me while i was on vacation overseas to let me know that she was pregnant and moving back to her hometown with my friend to raise their son.
she associated with him a lot and i let her know that i didn't like it. she didn't understand why i didn't trust her.
we dated for three years. i wish the pain would stop.
Once a Marine, always a Marine. That's a title I will take to the grave.
i feel horrible just hearing that man. sorry. my situation is way less dire. i'm convinced she loves me, but she's definitely still feeling emotions from her ex. they did date for years, so he's kind of a part of her at this point. the problem is, i love her for her, and her only. i didnt expect her to be a package deal.
god i wish it were that simple man.
>>583315250 ya thats my issue too man. feel u.
If you haven't figured it out yet, I'll break it down for you. She is using you for whatever fucked purpose she has, leave her, she will pick him, she wants him, sorry mate but she is a bitch if she's doing all this shit in front of you, and trust me she does not give two shits about what you have to say in the matter. Leave her.
this feel. i know it far too well. hang in there, man.
I have my dog lying across my bed, head on my lap. he's 5, and he's a breed that doesn't live very long. but a great dog.
in six or so years, he's going to need to be put to sleep. not now, but knowing I'll have to say goodbye is heartbreaking sometimes.
I hope the atheists are wrong, because never being able to see him again would be completely unfair.
that's my rage against heaven and hell, and the reason I am who I am every day. I want to be the man my dog thinks I am.
Lonliness isnt a feeling bruv, its a state of mind. Snap out of it.
URA URA URAA !!!
Any person who has served in the military deserves respect. Military service is about sacrifice. Sacrifice for your country.
Nice music choices man. Do you frequent /k/ ? Its my homeboard
"come on in sometime, it can be fun around here", really its like home to me.
LOL, where in BF3 ?
Worth a shot.
bomb ass sex tho
>>583315751 gay best friend wouldn't worry me in my situation. she texts like only guys, because the whole "girls are too much drama". 9/10 of the guys she texts have a thing for her, I know it, she knows it, but she denies it. meh. i'll get over it eventually whatever happens.
sorry to fuck up your feel vibes guys but i'm feeling really optimistic. i have a very bright future in the navy as a nuke and have just recently realized that i have far more motivation and drive than most people, which will help me get a commision and climb the ladder. the only thing that i really need to deal with is occasional vague and mild rage/deppression/regret flashes, which is really not that bad at all considering other people's problems. currently getting into shape and looking forward to grinding my way to the top.
some advice for you guys
>tell yourself what you want to feel, focus on what yuo want to be, act like the person you want to be, and you will slowly become that person. you will be surprised at how much your mind follows your actions
hey man. im sorry you gotten on this dangerous road. self-hate isnt the best motivation though. talking to someone can help.also, some drugs can be used as motivation and challeng you introspectively. i would suggest looking into this drug ibogaine, it is used to treat addictions of all types (usually heroin), but it could potentially be the catalyst you need. whether or not you do any of this, dont forget that you are not stuck like this man. i believe in you.
>don't know how to green text
>grunt Marine on a honorable discharge
>parents can't handle my anger when at home
>travel with the carnival for two years making fat bank all over the US
Have this girl I've been really liking for some time now, for whatever reason I can't talk to her. I have her number and I sit with her in class sometimes. But I can't get past it. I'm like scared or someshit
The other night I have a dream we're dating and she actually came to visit me and met my mom and shit. Then I woke up. How gr8. Pic reminded me. Fuck it I'll text her tomorrow morning asking her out
I feel that if I disappeared tomorrow, the only people who MIGHT look for me are my parents. I barely talk to anyone nowadays because I'm wasting their time. My roommates would miss me for my rent money and my coworkers would be upset because they would have to find time to cover my shifts.
As long as your enjoying man.
You have us.
What does the title translate to ? On the one you linked before.
Been there bruv, have faith, realize what your priority is in life and DO IT. Dont look back, ever.
Read up on the butterfly effect. Everyone matters.
The live of my life finally get things settled and im at the peak of happiness but her dad hates me and i dont care but what he wants to do is move her to hawaii.....FUCKING HAWAII. She cant do shit to stop him because he is a psycho and insists that im the source of all evil but im always there for her and of curse he decides this when im getting ready to put a ring on her finger
I'm 23 and not living up to my potential. I graduated from USC but I'm working a shitty job for 30K a year and living at home. I could easily get a better job, but I'm too much of a pussy.
>Tfw no piano
Anybody ever felt that feel?
I'll never live out that feel when piano. Here I thought I was finally getting a piano with the hours I put in, and now I've got college to look into and I will never have the time to juggle anything other than work. I was made to play piano, but I cannot do it. I was hoping to throw as many hours into it as possible to really live out my passion, and now I can't.
Lcpl Hill to u! Lol who the fuck is that?!
Motherfucking caturday!!! Biotech!!!faggots with big dicks!!
at least you have the right mentality towards it. it's been a year and a half since my ex left and every day i still think about her. i admire your fortitude.
at least you were good enough to get into a four year. i'm stuck at SMC, haha.
My mom died 8 years ago, I'm 22, i haven't been taking care of myself the way i should, I'm unmotivated and I don't have friends,
All I do is Play video games and work at a job where I'm just trying to move up to management just so I can get some more money going because I have a baby on the way, but it kinda sucks not having anybody to talk to besides my gf, I can handle having some conversations with people but overall I'm still socially awkward and My self confidence is pretty shitty. I also frequently go on /b/ and hardly post, Mostly just to fap.
Can I be perfectly honest? I really love you guys. People say that /b/ is where the worst members of society lurk, but actually most of you aren't that bad. I just wanted to say that. Thanks, guys. I love you all.
I'm in love with my friends younger sister. We grew up together. My best friend also is in love with her. She likes some other guy.
I am half-assing my way through college because i have no motivation to do well in my classes.
I have low self-esteem and hate myself. I always feel someone else is out to get me and that everyone is against me. I always assume that I'm the dumbest in the room.
Friends that I've grown up with seem to be moving ahead and I feel like I'm falling behind.
I hide my sadness behind sarcasm and being the mean/funny guy. Essentially I'm a douchbag.
My father has never been proud of me.
I have useless skills in music and arts.
I lurk both here and on reddit because I am a massive faggot.
If i just had one person that i could open up to everything would be somewhat better, i have to put on this fucking fake smile and pretend that everything is ok when that's not the truth.
My friends became friends with my brother, and went to go smoke weed without inviting me, yet they wondered why I wouldn't let them use my bong, my brother invited me, but if they wanted me there they would've invited me, and then they have the nerve to ask me why I don't let them borrow my bong? Are they fucking clueless or brain dead? Not done ranting, but if this gets a reply I'll continue..
>be 21, making a living, feels good
>working in maryland
>mom and sister are in minnesota
>due to complications I may lose my job
>totally stressed out, retreated from all friends I've made in the local area
>just sit at home on 4chan on nights off
>lost interest in both /v/ and /a/ which were my only hobbies
>thinking about how I don't have enough money to get home
>thinking about what I can do to fix anything
>think about suicide daily
>getting comfortable with the idea
>that idea causes even more stress and have regular breakdowns where I won't even leave the house unless I'm working
>complete shut in
>job is complete shit and going nowhere, it was a mistake to begin with
>haven't done anything to alarm others yet so I suffer alone in silence
>probably better this way
>maybe one day I'll wake up and take charge of my life and do something about this shit situation
>or get enough balls to off myself
I just want to know I'm not the only anon out there who doesn't have crazy stories to tell about their depression and not looking for attention through their disease but are actually scarily close to having that story soon enough
Shit man I'm sorry for your loss but at least you have some motivation, why not try and focus it in different areas as well if anything try a to be a good example for your kid.
Yeah I've been this way for a while now, ever since her death its just been like this. Any time i'm stressed if I can help it I'll just seclude myself somewhere I can be alone and lose myself in video games.
>gf is autistic social retard
>takes everything literally
>everything's a fucking competition
>I'm busy at work
>she texts me all excited about some song she likes, asking if I've heard it
>tell her no I haven't heard it, but feel free to send it to me, I'll check it out
>she asks how she's supposed to send it to me
>annoyed she's asking dumb questions when I'm busy at work, but just say facebook is fine
>she gets indignant about how it'd be easier for me to just search for it rather than make her download it and send it
>I don't need her to download it, just give me a fucking youtube link
>I'm busy at work, I don't care about your fucking song, you're the one who apparently wants me to hear it
>but I hold my tongue and helpfully tell her a youtube link will suffice
>she's all find it yourself
>I can't right now and I won't remember later
If she didn't want me to listen to this song, why even make a deal about it? If she does want me to hear it, what's so fucking hard about sending a goddamn link? Fuck she gets on my nerves sometimes.
I'll be real honest i know I'm not ready for a kid, but I'm gonna try my best to provide for him the best way I can, but I need to focus on growing up as well. The motivation is there though it's just not as strong as it should be. I got two months to go before he's born
Anyone thinking of suicide is a selfish pussy. Go murder someone who deserves it first. Do society a favor.
Anon you're not alone. Literally going through the exact same shit only in a state north of you. Hang in there
>the butterfly effect.
See you think you dont matter, no one will care if you die, but inadvertently everyone will be effected in some way. Read up on it
>Listening to others.
I fucked up big time tonight.
I don't know what to say to fix this shit.
I'll keep it short and to the point:
>roommate comes back with his friend.
>roommate is stoned, so he's chill.
>he ask's me what I look at on the computer all the time
>I tell him it's 4chan, gore material to be more precise
>Show him a webms and gifs of people being murdered
>I actually fucking laugh.
>Now my roommate and his thread think I'm a psychotic maniac who get's off on murder.
What the hell am I supposed to do now? Please guys, I haven't had a social problem like this in months.
I cant stand the town I live in, I cant stand these people and their social scene. Everyone knows somebody that knows you it sucks. Im 27 I had jobs good ones shitty jobs i have a college bachellor degree, I dont give a fuck about getting to know new people in this piece of shit town. I hit on chicks not because of friendship or trying to get something romantic out of it, I just want to fuck, yet they get into this hollier than thou attitude......Im moving next month srsly I hate this town
That reminds me' IM SO FUCKING DEPRESSED MAN, I NEVER HAD A FATHER WHEN I WAS GROWING UP AND I ASKED MILLION DOLLAR EXTREME ON FACEBOOK TO BE MY FATHER, AND IN HIS Q&A HE SAID HE HATED 'SILLY' PEOPLE LIKE ME, TFW I WAS SERIOUS
It took me me a while man, There are gonna be days where you're just gonna feel like the world is shit because she's gone. I always feel that way about it. Holidays are also going to be especially rough. Especially Mother's day. My only advice is to keep a positive outlook. And think towards what she would want for you. It's easier said than done, its been 8 years and I still struggle with it. It's one of those things that one can't simply "get over".
I wish i had my mom back aswell.. she was my everything as a child and everyday i still miss her
I dont feel alive since i lost her, i dont feel safe or happy, i cant stop seeing her die
although i've helped anons with earnest intentions before, i have to believe that on average, you're up shit creek without a paddle if you're hinging your last vestige of emotional resolve on /b/'s potential for altruism and genuine sympathetic care
for those of you requiring someone to truly sit down and listen, cognitive-behavioral talk therapy is the best thing going (more or less). seek out a therapist ASAP (if you don't have insurance because you're poor, get to your county's human services office and enroll into your state's medical assistance)
Im pretty sick of everything at the moment and have no motivation for anything not even to get up to eat anymore all i want to do is sleep, and ive pretty much forced it into my own mind that if im not dead by 30 ill kill myself because life is just way to long to be going through this
This is actually my first post on /b/ if actually been lurking for close to two years now
Honestly ive lost the drive to do anything for myself, and have thought of suicide almost daily for the past four years, the only thing keeping me from doing so is that i dont want to burden anyone like my roomate and i know it would crush my parents if i did so i keep going on, I do tech support from home for a living which i can barely bring myself to do it everyday, its at the point where i have been having to force myself to work just so i have the money to eat and pay the rest of my bills, the attendance policy is overly lenient and i take advantage of it and honestly ill probably be fired soon i have no clue how i havnt been so far and when i finally do lose it ill be fucked, i smoke weed so i cant just find another job, because of me living at home its not hard for me to not leave my house for 4-5 days and on average i spend over 22 hours in my room or more between working, sleeping and spending my free time in here
Maybe im just being a bitch and man the fuck up, i really dont know but the burdens been getting harder and harder lately and ive begun to grow ever more lonely, i have no plans for my life nothing im just going to waste away because i couldnt care less about myself
I've been talking to this girl at school who've I known since the fourth grade. I thought she was perfect, as we got along very well and I thought she was unlike the other slutty/addicts in my grade, as it seemed she had a very similar point of view. I was convinced to ask her out until today when I found out she was just like all the other girls in my school: drunks, druggies, hanging out with the varsity kids just to get high and drunk
missed my gf's mother's b-day dinner because of work, she's pissed the fuck off even though I left the flowers I bought for her mom on their porch while they were out after dinner bc it was too late and too far for me to get to in a reasonable time
now I'm drunk on bourbon at my best friend's
I cant believe this fucking bitch is acting like i dont exist now. She was begging to come suck my dick and get fucked for a month sstraigt and the moment her ex comes back in the picture she acts like i dont exist. Fuck you dope head bitch.
>Now my roommate and his thread think
You need to take some time off from 4chan man. Gore is not socially acceptable to normal people. Too much 4chan will warp you perception of what's acceptable
I think I have friends. But I really I only have acquaintances. They never ask me to hang out, I'm never invited to gatherings. I feel as if I just don't belong with the few people I get along with. They're there when they need something and on and off when I need them to be. My girlfriend lives hours away and the distance has made me feel as if I don't need her anymore. It's nice to see her but I could really live with out her now. It is becoming more and more clear that I am and will be alone. It terrifies me.
Wife and I are splitting up. It's "mutual" but I can't believe all the shit she is saying about me behind my back. I still love her, and I'm still in love with her, but I know I can't stay with her, especially now that I've seen her true colors.
I wouldn't say it hurts, but it definitely feels "something". Maybe I just feel foolish for not realizing what she is after so many years.
>tfw I know I'm starting to get depressed
>tfw can't admit it to myself and get help
why. why must it be like this
>never had a gf before
>not a virgin, fucked a slut from okcupid
>meet freshman girl on Facebook (on a textbook buy/sell page)
>ask for her number
>we chat over the next month, more and more each day
>gets to the point where she texts me @ 6:00am even though she knows I'm asleep
>I clue in that she likes me
>meet for coffee once, see her at a social function another time
>finally ask her out
>dinner and movie
>she says yes, we agree on a day 3 weeks in advance
>she becomes a part of my life, comes to one of my classes and to my stupid student club meetings
>4 days before date she makes excuses that she can't go
>I finally ask if she wants to go at all and she says no
>says we don't share the same values and that our "connection wasn't great"
>Im heartbroken, don't feel anything for a week
>cry so hard on the way home from school that I have to circle the block before I can go inside and face my family
I struggled to figure out why she changed her mind. I narrowed it down to either she wasnt physically attracted to me (I'm a little fat but I'm working on it) or that she doesn't like that i smoke weed (she doesnt know how much, I do it once a week). It could also be that I called her “bb” sometimes, but she was the one who said it first.
Now 2 weeks ago
>start talking to her again
>its gotten to the point where she initiates the conversation
>she’ll send me pictures that she takes randomly throughout the day randomly like she used to
>it feels like it did before she rejected me
Has she changed her mind /b/? I mentioned that I'm going to get into shape and have not mentioned weed at all
Advice plz guys
i work a seasonal cashier job at sears because i quit my high-paying and make-my-own-schedule job doing jack shit for a cadillac dealership's website back in june. i quit because i got the job through nepotism and the make-my-own-hours aspect gave me anxiety about how much time to actually put in (i only needed to work a few hours a day to have enough to pay bills and still have money left over. it paid WELL). then i was unemployed from june to november, living off of my savings so i could stay in my apartment. my parents are super supportive and have always given me love, i'm an only child, and could move home any time i wanted. but fuck that, i'm a college graduate and i can never live at home again, you know? and i have a degree from one of the top liberal arts colleges in america. i live in alabama, and there's virtually nothing here for me to work in my field. i want to move, but i have ocd (technically anxiety NOS, but on ocd meds) about where i'd move to. i had a relatively good day at work today, sold a credit application, made some people happy. i just came back from walmart, where i get my instant gratification dinner almost every night now (my stove/oven is broken and i'm too ocd to get it fixed yet). all i want to do is eat my hot pocket and watch speedrunslive, but my internet is fucking up.
i hope you guys are all making it. i really want everyone to fulfill their potential and be a winner at life. i just needed to get that out there, because i don't know how much longer i want to keep fighting.
im about to turn twenty-one this february. try and make it that far man. twenty and nineteen were fucking awful for me. i literally laid in my parents basement shooting up heroin doing nothing, hoping each shot would kill me, if it didn't i would load more up on the next one. it was terrible. if you pull through though, it'll get better.
this place is a bastion for depressed individuals by design; it's self-selection
anonymity allows people to say what they want without fear of either getting people too close or having any long-term repercussion. the general lack of mores gives one a freedom of expression, and the fact no idea is explicitly verboten (only CP, in visual form) lends to that feeling
of course, since it is a place that attracts angry, depressed people, you often get a lot of people who're too cynical and self-involved to help. instead, they just lash out omni-directionally out of fear and bitterness
these places are better for the humor they bring; it's the best product of 4chan. it does allow you to take a quick pulse of various subcultures (anime, video games, etc.), but even that's a bit skewed based on the type of people most likely to respond (e.g. most reviews are negative because people who don't enjoy something take the time to complain, while those who enjoy what they have are too busy living their lives). a distinct parallel between image board culture and happy, well-adjusted individuals could me made
in short, yes, there is a mild psychological benefit to a feeling community amongst suffering. unfortunately, many are lost here because no one knows the answer for themselves (if they did, they likely wouldn't stay here long), and as such they end up getting worse due to the sheer negativity of this place
tl;dr: better to seek real help with real people than count on the chance encounter with a /b/tard who isn't totally warped by his own self-involved world of bias and pain
>be 12, Australia, 2006
>In primary school,
>have a cool group of friends that i still chill with today
>one kid tries to hang with us, we take him in
>at first he is pretty chill
>he gets into trouble now and then
>starts dumping it on us, getting us into trouble with him
>Starts copying our work and handing it in before us, blaming us for copying his
>Cut connections with him, avoiding him after ~2 weeks
>fast forward 3 months, late November, Christmas hype building
>Teacher gathers the class
>Turns out the little shit got leukemia
>one of the boys gets an idea
>start calling him luke
>he complains to teachers, nobody believes him, he is on and off school for a while
School ends for the year
>Come Back, chatting about what we got for Christmas to the bros
>Teacher has informed us that the faggot has been kill
>feel like shit
>Class writes a card for his funeral
>mate writes before me, has a chuckle
>passes it to me, i glance at what he wrote
I had to get it off my chest, i felt like i was the only one in the group who understood the severity of what happened, i still think about it today..
Hey /b/. Been with this girl for 3 years, she's recently started with this infuriating nonsense of focusing on every delusion of her inadequacy and berating the shit out of me with it; begging me to break up with her.
She's either lamenting the fact she's dumb, fat, ugly, unsupportive or just a "bad girlfriend". In reality? She's a very smart young woman in decent shape who's cared a fuck tonne more about me than my own mother at times, and it's just fucking exhausting and stressful having her with this perpetual pessimism and self berating tendency.
I miss just hanging out with her and knowing it won't wind up with her crying over yet another newly-imagined personal failure. She keeps going on how I love her less and should break up with her, when honestly her tendency towards doing this shit is the only thing that could possibly drive me to do so.
The problem is I'm working a full time job to try and pay for the rest of my degree, and I don't have the flexibility to just sit up with her for hours and talk her through this stuff everytime. I do so anyway, because I care about her a lot...but trying to work full shifts when I'm exhausted and stressed from this stuff is really taking it out of me.
I just want her to accept I'm over the moon she's in my life, and *enjoy* the fact I adore her instead of inventing reason after reason why I shouldn't.
> be me, two years ago
> start falling into a dark depression
> stopped eating healthy
> not exercising
> sabotaging my own career
> most cherished friendships falling apart
> be me, now
> a physical and mental wreck
> abusing hard drugs
> unemployed, no friends, can't meet anyone new who likes me
> only core emotions remaining are varying degrees of contempt and remorse
> start to realize im slowly destroying myself but am not compelled to do anything about it
> on second thought, don't be me, ever
i got a gf recently, she was a virgin when we met... hooking up for the first time and she was really tight.. fingering her and getting her wet... tried to penetrate but way too tight... she pushing me away saying it hurts.. im losing my patience and getting irritated.. i just said FUCK IT and just shove it in...(crazy tight) she than kicks me off of her and starts crying... she runs back to her dorm room.. im scared she might report me for rape or some shit...
I just spent $700 on computer parts, waited patiently for the case which arrived in the maximum number of days free shipping obliges. I received every other piece in 2 days, the case after 7. It arrived broken, so I sent it back, ordered a better one made of steel which arrived on Thursday, and then waited until the weekend to build so that a friend could help me. After 2 hours of configuration and finding a working disc drive to download Windows (got it through my sisters school because cheap so its on disc) I get the download going and the fucking product key won't work. According to Windows support, it's a valid key, but the disk and the key do not match or something. I will not be able to play games tonight. I don't even know if I can get another disc tomorrow, I might have to wait until Monday.
I am a very tired ball of rage. Worked all day, came home, skipped going out drinking with a couple hot girls, and now I'm at home, sober, and exhausted. Contemptuous is probably the right word for me right now.
captcha: pic related
i would just put the bullet through when he says 'yeah' the first time. that song has always just given me that vibe. its ironic too because the song is about being strong and continuing on.
i know guys who didn't have a dad growing up and they're doing fine. Nothing wrong with them mentally/physically and they have their shit together, somewhat. I don't understand peoples man-child like obsession of needing a dad. Sure having a dad is great, he can buy you shit and impose his values on you and shit. But the real men are the ones who grew up without one and found their own way
I watched my mother get raped and killed when i was a kid. The only girl I have ever loved abandoned me and self harm and suicide attempts are a daily occurrence. I hear about death on the news and feel a genuine sense of envy.
I'm stuck in this thread cause fortune won't reload.
Hey Mike, how's it going? Did you know you forgot you own birthday this year? You've must have been pretty busy lately huh? You know, life can be really difficult sometimes but when that happens we're there for you. I remember when you were young and your mother to you to all those counseling sessions to help try and figure out why you weren't able to make friends and why you didn't like social situations. I know you didn't like it, but she was just doing it because she loved you and wanted to help you. That's sort of the same reason I'm talking to you now. We all love you and just want you to get better, I know you don't trust anyone or anything but it's true. We need you here with us, please don't go. Please stop all of this, come back to us, I'm so sorry. I can't .
>finally meet the girl of my dreams
>start talking and get to know each other
>interests almost identical. "edgy" humor and all
>talk for months
>she always wants to chat or hang out in a call
>tells me she wants to leave her boyfriend
>tells me she begged for her ex back and he straight up ignored her
>both admit to enjoying spending time with each other
>tfw "just friends. right?"
why do I even fucking try
Nothing that isn't too far from the truth sometimes, but some of it is just nonsense. What we agreed to is mutual, and we are working together to try to rid ourselves of each other, but she makes it sound like I'm doing nothing.
I think one of the most confusing things is that she hints to her friend that I'm out with another woman when I'm actually working overtime so we can both have money to escape each other.
Just realised the highlight of my day is talking to you faggots in such threads. sigh.
Been there. Have faith and en-fucking-joy the ride.
"Yeah gf its nice, but Rammstein is better"
Thats a standard response
Finish it already.
Shit be cray
She found a new man, one that's better than me at everything. Nice job, nice car, good looking. It's amazing how you spend thousands of hours living with someone, learning everything about them, being by their side in their worst of times. And in a moment it's just gone. I tell her I'm happy for her, but inside i wish she'd come back.
>being this much of an edgy faggot
If you're gonna talk about killing yourself, then fucking do it you pussy. Otherwise, stop being such a faggot and die like a respectable member of society.
I'm such a socially awkward god damn moron that i put my all into relationships online that are so one sided that it is a joke. I find myself talking to people who don't reply all the time. I was supposed to meet a girl who i called my girlfriend, we talked all day every day and we both bought each other christmas presents (idk if she bought mine) she liked star wars so i bought the whole damn set in blu-ray. Cost me around $100 and i hate star wars... it's unopened on my shelf.I feel like a ghost, i've never had friends, girlfriends or anything like that. I feel like a ghost and an empty shell. Sometimes i wonder if i'd be as much of a disappointment in death as i was in life.
>all of my friends are hanging out
>i wasn't invited
>check my instagram
> all of my friends have a post about them hanging out
>some random guy i dont even know got invited and not me
>nothing to do
>sit alone at home on 4chan
really want to get some of this stuff going faster than it's going to go and can't stand all this waiting. this idea is solid and floating around my head and i want to pitch it so bad, but it's not the right time. i can't fuck up the timing, it's the most important thing. i think she'd dig the idea and probably give me a shot. hopefully it's a good horse to bet on.
I've always been "that guy". The weird loner who doesn't have friends, if any at the time. No matter what, I've only had my place in being the jackass of the group. It's the only place I feel comfortable being. It's part of why hate being complimented or having somebody even saying something too positive about me. Apparently I'm good looking, but I've never even had a gf. The only place I feel I can admit it is here where I'm just another pathetic faceless loser. I don't want pity, I just want someone who understands.
I had a girlfriend for about 1.5 years. I never loved her, I just thought at the time I probably couldn't get anyone else. We had sex awkwardly, she was kinda psychotic. Part of me stuck with her though was because I knew she was bad for me and somehow I wanted that, even though I didn't really like her. I told her I loved her to her face, and sometimes I'd feel fluttery saying it but in actuality I really didn't feel anything for her. I let her mentally and physically torture me and I didn't care. She truly was stupid though.
Later, I joined a humanitarian group and was super productive in it and was doing a lot of things in it, it was hard and tough and didn't pay squat but I was helping people I suppose. They expected me to be there for awhile, but I got accepted to a really high university for something I love, full scholarship. Maybe I'll help more through this, I don't know, but it required I leave this group. Ever since I've left though, I've been very frenzied and audacious, actively taking part in things that could kill me and almost not caring, for nothing in it practically. Sometimes I'll just walk into busy intersections and not care if something hits me, It's not suicidal just... a little crazy and sociopathic. I feel anxious all the time, and whats worse is I don't really feel anything for others anymore. Before I used to get butterflys talking to girls, or daydream about a crush but now... I don't feel anything for anyone. I feel so damn lonely but I don't feel anything for anyone, and so continue to be lonely. It's paradoxical. It's moronic. My life is a flicker of images all stacked on top of each other and a breeze is blowing them all over the place and nothing makes any sense anymore.
i bought a sweatshirt for this girl's birthday and she turned me down before i gave it to her. now it's just sitting in my closet as a symbol of my regret.
I'm fed up with my piece of shit mother.
>inb4 underage blah blah I'm 18 suck my dick
Since my unlucky ass is still in high school and I get paid a shit wage at my shit tier courtesy job at a local grocery store, I still have to rely on my mother for a roof to live under. I got sick and tired of her threatening me about how she's gonna send me away or kick me out or do what the fuck ever. So I just kept walking up to her and kept asking what she's gonna do about it. I got sick of her acting like she can walk all over me. So she ended up calling the police. I stood right there listening to her give her story of how I was sooo intimidating and scary n shit. Okay whatever. I wasn't even yelling or doing anything. I was just calling her a piece of shit mother and that she deserves whatever hell she'll be put through. The police came and they didn't do shit. They were nice to me and were respectful. I wasn't capable of talking since by now I was choking on my own breath since I was outside and it was kinda cold at the time. Anyway the police left but they said I had to go to my room and stay there. Okay whatever bye. I start packing a bag to take to my grandma's since she said I could always crash there if I needed an out for a bit. My mom is on the phone with my grandma sayin how she'd fuck me up if I tried anything.
>oh looks like we got ourselves a badass over here.jpg
So now I'm laying on the basement floor in the family room since it's the only room with a working tv and I got my xbox hooked up and I'm probably gonna fuck around until I have to work tomorrow. Screw sleeping. Btw I walked here which was 3 or so miles carrying 2 bags full of school shit plus my xbox and my laptop and some clothes. Can't afford a car and apparently I suck ass at saving my money considering I have a new xbox and a new laptop.
And she makes it sound like I already found my own place and left. I haven't done shit yet. I'm waiting for her to get her shit in order before I even try. I can't leave her hanging. I've done enough damage to this relationship as it is by being awful with money. Might as well try to work my way out of this hole.
But, why should I care about damage that I do to the relationship? It isn't a relationship. I'm just trying to keep the peace and reach a point where we can both get away from each other comfortably but all she does is spread half-truths and outright lies.
But, I can't NOT be the good guy - or at least I can't NOT try to be. I don't think I would feel very good about myself if I left her hanging, even though she has left me hanging for the last three months by neglecting me, forcing me to snoop all of her emails instead of read her mind, and figure out from there that she's as done with this shit as I am.
I still go on her tumblr everyday, i still think what could have been. With her i felt like i had a reason or purpose but now i fill the void with drugs and shitty alcohol. I just want to feel normal again. I miss the simplicity of childhood.
can't really rustle the jimmies of someone with an Xbone. I love console gaming, but there's also PC titles I like to play too.
also my laptop bricked so I needed a long term solution.
Faggot European putting down whole continents because he's done with his Saturday night. Source, Canadian drinking beer at 3 in the morning, will stay up all night drinking Saturday morning as well. Get your head out of your ass.
>vent thread. it's Friday night and we're all here.
>anything you need to get off your chest, do it here. i'm all ears.
>>also feels thread
OP, you are in control of your own destiny, stop being a fag.
"You don't share the same values." aka she hates you smoking the reefer. Dated a girl like that once in high school. Total fucking waste of time. If she gets hung up on goddamn pot, lord knows what other stupid shit shell get hung up on.
I was abused a lot growing up and was told I was going to never amount to anything. Ive been working very hard to be a good musician and everyone tells me Im amazing but I just dont have the confidence to succeed in anything in my life. I see so many assholes seemingly waltzing through life and I just dont have the guts to do it. I am mean to myself and think im a piece of shit but Im tired of feeling hopeless and suicidal.
>like anyone uses that shit
just shut the fuck up. why do you even care enough to respond to me anyway if you're going to put people down for being serious in a serious thread? fucking retard.
Knowing what I lost and squandered , I'd rather just blink and be gone.. 9mil is my brothers drawer next to his airsoft pistol, fresh grip tape on that imported pistol, sure to work temple to temple 151 grain self defense ammo. He could keep my 32 inch samsung ... And my 4s.
>actually ditching a girl over your drug addiction
B-But it's not got any s-side effects!
So... a good friend of mine stole my girlfriend and now she says she misses me and wants me back but doesn't want to hurt him by leaving him. This girl being like THE one, we've dated for over a year and I really love her and she regrets us even breaking up but can't bring herself to leave my ex-friend...
What the fuck.
she's one of those girls who would rather read a book than go to a party, so i assume all she has been exposed to about pot was through movies and TV and the people who used it in high school
i would stop smoking it if it meant i could be with her
Being love sucks. This girl doesn't like me back and I have no idea how to cope woth it. I'm certainly her first choice to hang out with. Just tired of feeling so alone all the goddamn time.
hahaha by today's college consent standards that is indeed rape. If it starts to get real, dont answer any questions the police ask and lawyer up. Youll be just fine. Just dont speak and let your attorney handle it. And also, if you play a girl's body right, shell be begging for you to put it in. Might wanna brush up on your foreplay.
She was there during one of the best times of my life. Maybe she was the reason it was on of the best times in my life. Who knows, but she certainly made it better. 4 months we saw each other every day, I'd get a phone call every night asking if I wanted to come over, she'd pick me up, we'd go to her place, drink, smoke, watch movies listen to music, fall asleep holding one another, until one day
POOF fucking nothing
She starts dating some dude, I get tossed aside like a piece of fucking trash. We're in the same friend group, I don't want to be dramatic about it, and everyone side steps around me like it didn't happen, everyone knows I'm hurt, no one cares, business as usual.
Breaks up with him, starts coming around again, I'm still bitter, I deal with it because I don't want it to seem like it bothers me.
One of my oldest friends is my room mate, who was in that same circle of friends, he was dating her room mate at a time, they ended things. Now she comes here every fucking day, at first it was just him picking her up from work and then they'd hang out here before taking her home.
Today he picks up before work, they hang out all day in his room, then he picks her up after work, I walk out of my room and hear someone in the shower at 1am, he says it's her, I ask if theres something going on between them, he says no, they're still in there, guess she's staying the night.
A little fucking honesty from my best friend is all I want. At least just let me fucking know. I don't know how to deal with this. I can't fucking deal with this.
She's trying to manipulate the situation in her favour by making you out to be the bad guy.
You shouldn't care about it at all, as it's over. It's only natural to still have some feelings invested in someone after being together for a while though.
This is why I don't understand people that monkey branch from relationship to relationship. You need some time to process everything when it comes to an end in my opinion.
OP here. been lurking, but i have work early tomorrow.
thank you for being here. i'm glad i was able to do something constructive on here for once.
take care, gents. live to fight another day.
I need sex...period. I'm so pent up with hornyness, that I am in need of a release. Fapping don't do shit, just makes me want the pussy more. Got played into thinking there would be a no strings attached meetup with someone, but saw my pic and suddenly had something else to do. Fuck this shit, I just want to fuck, not have a relationship!
i'll share something that's giving me feels today
>about to uninstall tinder after using it not very seriously
>10/10 qt matches with me
>we talk for hours and have probably the best online conversation I've ever had
>keeps on asking me to make out with her and even asks for sex at one point
>I can't believe this is actually happening on fucking Tinder
>She mentioned she's kind of seeing some one but off and on I didn't think much of it
>Assume if things go well she'll stop seeing him
>She adds me on facebook
>Find out he's her actual boyfriend
>Ask about the dynamic of the situation and she pretends that she just wanted to be 'mates'
>tell her it's a messy situation and fuck off
everything was perfect apart from that one factor
moral of the story: online dating is still shit
Girl from middle school is crazy about me. Completely obsessed. Says that she loves me. Calls and texts me everyday. She feels this way because I was the only guy that didn't treat her like shit. I was the only guy to call her my friend. She amplifies everything I say and twists it to make it seem I love her back. She uses her parent's failing marriage to try and make me pity-date her. She has no friends now. I don't want to talk to her at all, but if I say that she might kill herself. I'm stuck /b/
like everybody saying they feel like shit
i do feel like shit
like a fucking big shit
a shit bigger than you
but imma say im happy
and i really am
yall are but focus on depressing thing
just smile my friend .. just smile
I am a few months away from my 27th birthday and haven't accomplished shit with my life, I'm lonely and saddled with self hatred and depression. I want to meet people and be social but I don't because then they will get to know me and see how little I've done with my life and what a raging loser I am.
if you date her for that reason it wont work anyway and she will kill herself then too. its not your problem man, just be there for her to the extent you're comfortable with. it is the healthiest and most effective option.
My fuckin job man, so fuckin easy.. 2 guys, 8 bags of chicken per box.. So fucking easy. I'm on the end of the line, so I take all bags, and box them, no matter what. The guy next to me is supposed to take 4 bags and pass 4 bags, so we keep the boxes flowing.. THE FUCKER CAN'T EVEN COUNT TO 4. He has to point at each one he's passing, and then he panics for no goddamn reason. and somehow I always end up getting a stupid amount of bags, then he fills up the boxes as far as he can go, and tells me there's nothing he can do when I'm getting overrun with bags and no boxes to put them in.. ugh. And this is the same guy who has no idea what the specs are on his computer, but tells me that because "it's an alien" [Alienware] he can run any game on it.. and that "Aliens made 6 or 7 years ago can still handle games being made today on the best settings" ... clearly nothing to do with system specs... God I'm getting dumber every day I spend next to him
Yup. I'm not sure what to dk either. Do I break off communication? We get along pretty good but I just want more then being friends. And she doesn't. She says it might change because she's in a rough situation right now, but I don't think that's ever going to happen. She's way out of my league aswel.
Tell her straight up that you aren't interested in being in a relationship but that you will be there for her as a friend.
Make it clear that it isn't fair to put heaps of baggage on you though
I was in a similar situation.
>Have 8/10 qt3.14 girlfriend.
>Date for 4 months and then she moves in with me.
>We spend nearly every waking hour together spending almost weeks at a time within 10 meters of each other.
>Treat each other like shit.
>Out of no where she cheats on me and i'm heartbroken
>Break up, she moves out
>Angry at her all the time
>Slowly become friends with her
>She wants to be more than friends
>Eventually forgive her and tell her that I just need some time
>Realize that we're just so different that we can't be together
>She constantly waits for me to forgive her so we can date
>Keep telling her I need more time.
I love this woman so much, and I want her in my life... but I know we CANNOT date ever again. I have to let her go, but I can't do it just yet. It's horrible tasting medicine. :(
I recently got accepted into university for next year. Im so glad I did, because if i hadnt, i would of killed myself. Thinking about it now though, I'm not that excited for the university course, I'm more glad that I didnt kill myself because now I'll be able to play witcher 3 and MGSV.
Mine was chill. Very old school, all about cooking and family. But she died scared and alone in a nursing home because her kids wouldn't let her pass away in the comfort of her own house.
I need out of here, but there was a time when I would have told anyone he was my brother, literally my oldest friend, hung out everyday, we were there through each others shittiest and best times.
But I know her, only after the fact did I see that when she ends a relationship she gets lonely, and she's so scared of being alone she runs to whoever is convenient, and when it happened to me I convinced myself that her feelings were genuine. I want to think that he doesn't see her like that and nothings happening. I fucking hate her and I shouldn't care either way but god dammit the thought of them together in the room right next to me fucking or holding one another, the same shit we used to do, just makes my hands shake with anger.
I don't know if my heads in the right place, maybe it's just jealousy leading me to conclusions that might not be reality. I'm not sure, I don't know where the fuck my heads at right now and I'm so confused and fucking done with all of this.
stop complaining and do something with yourself. Thinking about the past isn't gonna change shit, keep doing things to drown out the shit you've already dealt with.
well if you're going to admit defeat then she deserves him. he won and you're on /b whining about how someone better is porking your former partner. You gave up, she didn't. Either get better, or settle for less.
good news is there's probably no afterlife, so you won't be a disappointment there.
but for real, man the fuck up. if you are really this shitty, just go out and do something. gather your testicles and be outgoing, flirt with someone out of your league at a bar, get rejected, who gives a fuck? nothing matters, especially not how random people feel about you, so try not being you for a little while. be someone else, just stop with the self loathing, its only gonna make you feel shittier.
Moved to a new town, 20 years old and i know no one my age, its not like im some beta fag who cant make friends its just the fact that i have no idea where the fuck 20 year olds hang out in this town. btw unemployment sucks but i had an interview today so thats good.
I have trouble feeling love towards my girlfriend, I notice.
She's great, almost a perfect match for me, despite some minor small pieces I could really overlook. She's pretty, she's affectionate, smart, great humor, almost anything you could want. "I love you" comes out of her mouth to me like water through Niagra Falls, but I feel like I'm not feeling what I'm supposed to be feeling. Like I can see it in her face that the love is real and her reactions and her mood towards me, especially when we're alone, but I don't burst with the feelings she does.
I don't know why.
Yeah, I asked her about it and she said it was because they were "currently off".
I also considered telling her 'boyfriend' but couldn't decide, so I flipped a coin and then coin said no three times
>be earlier tonight
>just dropped off some ganj too a qt 3.14
>get on freeway and start gunning it to get home
>get in HOV lane (the fast lane)
>at about 75 mph my front driver side tire blew out
> i over correct trying to avoid swerving into the other lane
> hit retainer wall and lose control
>slide across 3 lanes of medium heavy traffic
>slam directly (head on) into the end of one of those concert barrier about 55 mph
>feel blood glushing from nose
>crawl out of car
>can walk but body hurts
>people have started to run over to car
>grab wallet phone and ciggerretts from car because damn theres so much smoke
>people are amazed im alive
>EMTs amazed im alive
>tell EMTs i wasnt wearing selt belt
>deal with police and chain smoke cigs
>get ride home and huge list of tickets
i remember the barrier rushing up to me and thinking im going to die. im here now and pretty much okay. Idk /b/ Idk. will post pics / answer questions if anyones intrested
Yeah, I know what she's doing. She's always been that way too, I just never put it together until it wasn't about me. I don't plan on jumping into anything else anytime soon, even though I'm afraid of being alone for the first time in 9 years.
Yup. If my wife wanted to be friends, I would have been okay with that before all this shit started. Now, I don't know anymore.
>dog will not shut the fuck up
>all night every night...
>BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK WOOF BARK BARK BARK
>hello sleep deprivation.
faggot ass captcha I TYPED IT FUCKING CORRECTLY
This is such an excuse. Unless they actually don't like you, they're not gonna turn down your company. Maybe they do get annoyed by you, or they don't like how you act sometimes, but if you consider them friends, try to keep them in your life. make an effort to go hang out with them, text one and ask if you can come chill, he'll probably say yes and just be as casual and nice as you can be. Just play the good guy, don't be a dick to anyone, just be kind. Sometimes you have to put a little effort into friendships, and just because someone didn't invite you doesn't mean they aren't your friend, but maybe you should change your attitude a bit around them.
Great picture mate. That's the painting of Ivan the Terrible after he kilt his son, correct?
As to your situation, just start making even small positive changes. Eat more fruit. Go longer without drugs. Get more outside air. Look at the trees and the skies. And just kkep forward movement going.
Blessings to you mate.
Focus on yourself then. Employment/independence is all a man needs to be considered accomplished. If you already have those, then you're more accomplished than a lot of people.
BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK AWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BARK BARK BARK BARK AWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BARK BARK
Still think breaking the communication would be the best thing to do for me at this point. But its ard giveing up on something you want so bad. She's all that I want right now. Fuck these fucking feels.
Me and my best friend got in an accident recently, and I like didn't think I was gonna die, I KNEW I was going to die. The car went off the road and flipped over four times, totaled. We both lived, and he hit his head and doesn't remember it. I still do, and ever since life just seems really pointless.
PEOPLE WHO PLACE CANDLES IN THE FUCKING BATHROOM AND NEVER LIGHT THEM.
Holy fuck. Fuck these people so much. You buy a fucking candle, place it in your bathroom (usually on top of the fuckin toilet), and never light it. WHY DID YOU BUY IT? CANDLES ARE MADE TO FUCKING BURN. READ SOME ARISTOTLE FUCK. A candle isn't a fucking decoration. If you wanted something to look pretty there, you could have placed a MILLION other things on top of your fucking toilet.
An unused reveals multiple personality traits:
(1) you have no eye for design since you have a fucking unused candle as a decoration
(2) you use some pleb-tier glade air freshener (if at all) to clear your shit smell from the air since YOU NEVER LIT THE FUCKING CANDLE;
(3) you're cheap, you're like a hoarder in an RPG that never uses their good potions because they don't want to lose them, you own things for the sake of owning them, their utility means nothing to you
(4) you aren't spontaneous. you're too reluctant to light a fucking candle. What the fuck are you waiting for? the "perfect shit" to light your bathroom candle for? live a little.
(5) you don't appreciate luxurious scents
Fuck these people and their shitty five-dollar dusty candles they're too reluctant to burn. Light that shit under their shower curtain and walk out. Burn their fucking place down.
>on mobile so i cant x
>sorry for spelling, im on my phone
>typing this on my phone so i cant go into detail
>gonna wrap this up as my battery is dying
Glad you enjoy my pain and suffering haha
luckily I'm getting a bit of a promotion, barely 2 months into the job (I swear I'm the only sane english speaking person there)
Think I'm actually getting promoted Monday, if not within the week
This is how I am exactly, except i don't feel anger since I started not feeling anything. Strangely though I can feel things portrayed though TV/Anime/Music... honestly if I couldn't I don't know what I'd have done to keep sane.
Worst thing is that none of my friends can see how broken I am because I can fake it so well and I've been faking it so long that I can't stop.
Also its very annoying that after 6 years I've finally tried do something about it this month but every where I go I get asked questions about self harming attention seeking shit that I don't and never will do or just how often I'm depressed or anxious... I'm just sitting there thinking, so I'm not borderline, manic or suffer from anxiety... I already knew that what am I suffering with then? But they just fob me off because I don't fit their bullshit parameters
Shit anon, that's heavy. I have lots of suicidal thoughts but I never go through or entertain the thoughts since my little sister was born. I cannot honestly offer advice, as I don't know how to fix myself either, all i can offer is that you should branch out and maybe stay in touch with a /b/to since you seem comfortable enough to talk to them.
>be me @16
>date tons of girls
>got laid often too
>didnt care much for relationships
>fast forward to now almost 19
>tries to find a gf
>cant find anyone that dosnt know that i used to be a jerk(ish)
>in this mounth dated again but was nice and forward about my intantions.
>think i found my new gf
thats about it /b/ros. just wanted to share..
Speaking to coworker for a year and getting on really well.
Start falling for her and finally man up to ask her out to dinner and get let down easy.
But fuck it I'm going on holidays in a couple weeks so I'll try and forget her then..
Is it ever not about a her? Biggest pain in the asses, but we all want a her by our side.
When do I cut it off then? Got a few cobcerts comming up which I'm seeing with her. First one is next. After we're seeing one january and atleast one in february.
i cant talk, can't leave home much, cant draw or play videogames, cant help those i want to help, im ugly, stupid and socially awkward to the point it simulates autism. i cant believe in myself at all.
It'll kill him and if I was him/his friend I'd say you're a terrible person, but if that's what you need to do, do it.
Just make sure you soften the blow as much as you can, people kill themselves over that shit.
Went on tinder date with this girl from out of town (out of the country actually).
I thought it'd be nothing, we'd meet up, eat, talk, and enjoy each other's company and that's it.
We ended up kissing etc
Finally the time came and she left. And I woke up the next day yearning for more.
Fuck! I wanna see her at least one more time.
I dont know if im ending up in the friendzone again.
>be me, 19 new in city
>met some cool people in university
>in a club we meet them again
>also there is his roommate
>a small, cute girl
>be cool, talk for a long time with her.
>a few weeks later
>met her again, we both are very drunk.
>after some talking, we leave the club
>she lives just a few minutes from me
>on the way home start kissing.
>message her a few days later if she want a coffee
>she says yes.
>we were going to a concert, going out, to the cinema.
I dont know if shes just shy or not intrested. Her roommate is a friend of my roommate. He told me that she is hard to get.
I feel the exact same way.
We've been dating for two years now and I used to think she was the one. But we go to different schools and I only see her every two weeks on the weekends. I don't text her or Skype her as much as I used to and when she's with me, I love you will come out but I know I don't really feel it. But I just can't see myself without her I don't know what to do so I keep myself with her
nothing profound, the first part happened really quick no real time to process it, but as i swung across traffic and came up to the barrier everything slowed down then boom it was all still
honestly yea thats all i keep thinking. i keep catching myself dead stareing at nothing and thinking about what could have happened, shit what by all intensive purposes should have happened
this shows how far i pushed the barrier back, id say about 15-20ft. the concert just crumbled
OP here. was going to go to bed, ended up doing drugs instead.
The thing of it is I don't usually don't get thoughts of offing myself. It's almost always during anxiety attacks. They're semi-rare, but they really just crush me. I noticed smoking pot helps alot but I don't want to become a burnout, so I've stopped for about a week so far.
you better write the best god damned novel of the 21st century to leave your boyfriend a note the day you leave the country.
unless you left out telling us that he knows you're leaving, knows there are problems, understands it all, etc.
Today is actually not all that bad. I mean I've still got social anxiety and shit and I'm still a wizard in training, but for some reason it just doesn't seem too bad right now. Made more money this week than I thought I was going too, got the next two days off and the hair cut I got today is a lot better than the one I usually get since the stylist asked me if she could cut it the way she wanted too. All and all probably one of the better days I've had in a long time.
I can't dream and every day my tinnitus is getting worse, i don't have money for college because my adopted parents spend money on themselves instead of saving got a dui 2 years ago completely illegal how it was performed but i don't have proof since the oolice confiscated my phone and all the money from my wallet i have an ok job now but it's still goinh to court costs... never had a gf im at least good looking but im so depressed now it doesn't matter im on house arrest until dec 17 to go hang out with my nonexistent friends. .. girl i thought i was dating told me we were never dating this was a year ago, today she messaged me saying she misses me but she's just lying and it hurts it feels like no one treats me as a human being anymore :( i don't even want to live another 6 years of school I've lied to everyone i know that IT is my "dream job" just because i have 0 passion for anything besides fitness and computers i just feel alone so much fucked up in my life that i could never control plus insomnia i just want to drive somewhere and tell people i joined the army so i can die alone so no one in my life can use my death to get themselves attention... there's just so much wrong with my life nothing goes right i feel but at least i can vent here thanks if anyone takes the time to read my stupid life in a nutshell im thinking about jumping off a bridge in a few weeks im just tired of everything i don't have anyone to even talk to i told someone i knew before when i was really contemplating suicide one night but he never cared no one seems to i just feel all my time in my life has is and will be a waste ugh idk anymore
no greentext cuz on phone
I find reasons to hate everyone around me except a few people.
I've generally come to the conclusion that I don't want to trust anyone. I'm very private and none of my friends know that, but whereas I ask them questions about themselves and act genuinely interested they don't give a shit when I say anything.
I'm okay with that though. I'm so frustrated but also kind of excited to see if anything new ever happens.
It's like a shitty TV show that has mundane episodes but every once in a while a scene gets it so right
I know what it feels like to be generally happy. That feeling is too foreign to me to "strike up a conversation" with a girl. Even when I do bring muh A Game, its for nothing. Good to make a girl smile tho.
Why the fuck cant i bring myself to study seriously?? Im almost 23 and still struggling to finish a degree while all my school friends have already started high paying careers and bave been on amazing trips overseas. I have motivational issues that i cant seem to overcome so everytime i need to work on an assignment i cant bring myself to do it. I know im capable but i just procrastinate and get depressed.
I've already dropped out once which was such a liberating experience but i know i need a degree in something so i came back.
Fuck it makes me miserable that for most of my life all my world has consisted of is the classroom. Only 2 years left if i didnt fuck up last semester
I hate my roommates they are filthy and never care about the shit I do for them. I am pissed because I can't afford to live on my own and going back home is not good for my mental health. I wish I could just live in a tiny house by myself and not deal with anyone.
Well I'm gonna be dead honest... I kinda wanted an 'open relationship' and she didn't and then I flirted with and made plans with another girl.. my 'friend' who liked her saw the opportunity, she cheated on me with him, I ended up fucking the other girl, and only then realizing I don't want meaningless sex I want the love I had back. Now she wants to come back but also likes her new boyfriend and doesn't want to leave him. Her parents and mine also know all of what happened and don't want us together. It's just fucking rough. At least she talks to me every day and says she wants to come back...
I've had such a confusing life, I have derealization/depersonalization and bouts of depression because of abuse in my childhood from someone very close to me, and I have too many thoughts about suicide. I used to smoke weed to deal with it, and I stopped to get a job and now I'm too depressed to do so.
>Girl becomes my first relationship
>Like her so much
>Never thought I would get this lucky, so happy
>Accidentally say thing that offends her
>She breaks up with me and says she's losing feelings for me already
>Feels the need to continuously put me down
>Not sure if I should even try anymore
i'm sitting here listening to Elliott Smith. i think just snorted way too much Oxycotin.
this is the girl i've spent the entire year trying to get. literally on January fucking 1st, we started dating. in between then and now, we've made so many goddamn mistakes but i've never loved anyone as much as i love her.
i look into her eyes and all of the dark, depressing shit just goes away. she's sweet and sardonic and understands all my problems and knows how to fix them and goddamn it WHY CAN'T ANYTHING FUCKING WORK OUT FOR ME
we're still friends, but i still flash to a life that i want so bad. i hope there's an alternate universe out there where we're together and we're happy and oh god
we'll see, thanks for the replies im pretty shellshocked and talking is def helping
here a different angle
OP give me advice. I'm dating a girl who cheated on me like a 2 years back. A lof of cheating. She's now a straight up sugar moma to me while I'm in college and treats me well as fuck. I have it in my head that I'm not sure that I want to be faithful to her, because she wasn't to me. Have had this in my mind forever
Wat do? Do I stay or go?
I feel you anon, same with me. when we are drunk friends start to ask me qustions so they can find some info bout me, i get them thou.
look at it as irl and not a tv show, dont get cocky too
I had the same problem
I'd recommend doing other things that require discipline such as nofap, working out, eating healthily. They'll teach you how to be disciplined when it comes to study.
And keep an idea of the bigger picture, it's easy to think "I'll do it in an hour" or "I'll do it tomorrow" but you've got to be thinking "If I don't do it know the consequence is ____"
Imagine you have a limited time to complete work and then it gets destroyed and you can't hand anything in
well, i hope you did everything in your power to figure out why he feels the way he does with you. if you didn't, there's really no excuse for what you're about to do.
unless you have some really excellent potential that you're going to start pulling off once you leave.
so good luck, anon. just know that it's not only sad to him, it's really, really dangerous for you.
Asked her to go with me. This was before I started feeling bad because I like her. I think if I tell her that I would still like to go but with someone else, she would completely understand. Also, I can't break full communication with her. We see each ither atleast two times a week at our sport club. We play the same sport. And I'm not willing to give up my sport for her.
be the bigger person. don't do it. you'll only feel like shit.
being cheated on sucks. i know. i've been through it. but the whole "eye for an eye" thing is so fucking played out and not true
also want to add that she said we could get back together after being broke up for a little while, but after 2 or 3 fucking days she's already telling me she's lost most of her feelings for me, I haven't, this shit feels fucking awful and I don't get why bitches have to play these mind games
i dont even know what a liberal is so you dont have to inb4 there.
downward spiral started in middle school. years of shit just made me the way i am now.
this is how i normally am now....yeah.
since i have no one else to bitch to.. i live with a girl who completely supports my broke ass and im stuck in this sort of limbo. went out tonight with friends for her bday and cant even flirt anymore. wish i could get out of this situation and support myself. feel like a god damn prisoner. sugga mommas arent all what they're cracked up to be. im drunk fuck off. these captchas are queer
>i hope there's an alternate universe out there where we're together and we're happy and oh god
don't hope for that you fucking idiot, if that's true then that means you're probably in the universe where you never get her and are never happy.
No, it works like this
If you have something that you really can't decide on, flip a coin. If the result makes you angry and you wish it was the other way around, then you know what you want.
If you don't mind either way, obey the coin.
If you mind a bit but just need to make sure, make it best of three.
It should only be used for things that aren't life threatening but relatively important such as "Which girl should I pursue?" or "Should I buy this even though I won't have much money for a month or two?"
A few years back I had that same derealization experience. Shit sucks. Bad. I remember having a distinct feeling that I was dreaming and that nothing I did mattered because it wasn't actually happening. It was a daydream. It scared the hell out of me.
I do know this. If I can survive depression and thoughts of suicide, then I know someone else can too. Stay strong, anon. Know that someone has faith in you. Given enough time, all things heal. Nature even serves as proof.
that's exactly where i am. she's dating some attractive stereotypically perfect white guy with a fucking line up and a button up shirt. my game ended a long time ago. now all we are is just friends.
i miss having her head on my shoulder so goddamn much
Yeah... I tell her I just want what she had, but she says that it shouldn't have taken this long. She's right too. I feel alot better after venting on here. Vent threads on /b are actually pretty fucking awesome.
completely agree. the really sad thing is, they don't even mean to be manipulative. they just naturally are.
and, it's not really even manipulation in the negative context. it's just how they interact with people, that's all they know how to do.
anon just needs to give her enough distance so she'll start to wean off. in the case of my experience with a girl like this, i had to cut her out completely, after i tried for months to explain to her why she was wrong to begin with.
Cut her out of your life
Love is a hard game friend and even if you keep on trying, you can only ever win once.
Your first girlfriends are never usually life partners or even worth getting too serious with, they're better for learning more about how to maintain a relationship and having fun with some one for a while.
Cluster headaches. Oh shit man. Well idk how you feel about drugs, but studies have been done where LSD can actually stop cluster headaches. Try that if you get the chance. From what I've heard, it's also quite fun.
shit I never dream when I sleep but I love to sleep I got tinnitus bad enough that it keeps me up at night all I feel is anger and soul crushing sadness I also lost all my friends to league I hate my life but the only think keeping me from an heroing is how my mother and uncle would feel I have nothing I am nothing and im too depressed to do anything at all