Can we get a fells thread going /b/ros its been a bad night for OP
going to bump this with the litle i got changed computer a while a go to lazy to get my folders.
Yea lets get a fell thread.
I once had this massive stomach ache and shat quietly all over my pants in the elevator. Disgusted with myself, I tried to rush off the elevator at the next level but tripped and fell face flat on the floor (that 2nd floor was being cleaned by main tanenjie and was wet). Poor girl behind me had to see a brown stained pants infront of her. Next time I know to wear my adult diapers in a shopping mall :(
drinking some jack and coke while my movie in zona loads. How obout you guys ?
Thinking about this article and the fact that I'm a black guy who doesn't particularly like black girls ruins any chance of me having a relationship ever and kinda serves as dramatic irony
you never felt that way? maybe you are too young or maybe you havent had that feel.
in my book is good for you man .
Good to see this thread. Ill be lurking. Hangin with some old friends right now. Shits changed. I so different from these dudes now. Like we've grown apart.
Whats everyone up to?
Wishing I liked beer so I could at least drown the lonelyness away. Ah fuck it, I'll just fap
yep thats my in bad way i seen to be a jerk to every one no matter how hard a try to be good.
specialy my family i love them but i just dont know how to comunicate with em.
btw my inglish sucks gogin to put it out theare before someone goes crazy.
Fk being sad already. Yea I know, heartbroken because of a missing girl, depressing life. My dad passed away 3 years ago, does it affect me? I was devastated and cried every night. But month after month I soon forgot and quite frankly didn't think much. Maybe because I didn't want to. Because I know it will be scratching the scab. I don't wanna bleed anymore. I am me. My story on earth where it starts and end is a one of thing. Not one in a billion, one of a kind. The fucking stars don't reflect anything in my life. I am on earth now and never will be when I die. So I write my own story, I am the protagonist. There will be ups and downs but I have so little time left. I fucking believe in myself. Yes I have failed in the past, the girl I loved didn't like me back, family members passed away. Tears have filled the past pages of my story, but you know what? There's at least still some clean pages left. Not going to let these new unwritten pages reflect my sad past. I am a Hero, I am the main person in this entire universe. This is my book, all you guys and everyone I know are just npcs to me. I'm going to live in my own fantasy. Because when I die, even if to you I seemed a failure, but in my mind I've rescuers the prettiest princess and am the wealthiest of all man. Fuck reality
i only save super sad shit and i love feel guy he is the best no matter what he makes me smile in a sad way
Snow bunnies want "real niggas" which the very fact that I'm on /b/ proves I'm not
Getting a tranq, gonna see what I can rustle up
How my yellow fever wishes this were true...
only thing i can say is 100% agree.
i keep pushing every day i keep gogin but im a fuck up but is no big deal becuse i keep life going.
posting a happy pic and sad for em at the same time
This is the most truth I've heard in a while. Thank you /b/ro, truly comforting too me.
Why aren't you attracted to any black girls? Not even light skin girls? Not even beyonce? I find girls from all types of races got. As long as they're attractive I could care less what they are
why are you gusy sad is becuse you dont take risk and fail at life .
or is it becuse the way you are is mess up . when you try to say something or do somehitng it comes always as shity as a fucking moster and you pretend for so much time that you forgot who you were?
I found out today that my dog, 11 years old and has helped me through some tough times, may very well have inoperable cancer. He's had cancer on his tail, a benign tumor in his mouth, skin allergies, and a severe ear infection.
I've spent the day crying and feeling terrible. I've rediscovered Jameson.
I used to mock people who used alcohol when depressed. "How can alcohol make the pain go away?" but now I see. I feel so numb and that feels good. I don't cry. I don't feel the pain of imagining my buddy dying and suffering.
I'm not saying I deliberately don't find any black girl attractive. It's just a seldom occurance because I grew up around black girls and have developed a sense of displeasure for them as strong as any average /b/tard here
i do that all the time but some times the past and sometimes shit caches up to me hope you understand.
as a song i love ages ago some tiems i cant feel my face .
sometimes i forget all that and just live keep life gogin and do shit .
but some times things get me you know ?
Dude, its a dog. I get it, sad shit but dogs are companions. If you get sad around him he'll notice. Just enjoy the remaining time together. I wish i had, lost my childhood dog a while back. Was across the country when she died. Couldnt be there for her
That supposed to be may kanker and Ed?
yep pretty nice.
edd one makes me feel happy but sad becuse i never had that growing up .
but who ever did those deserves a lot fo credit relly like em.
He is a dog, so he will always be happy as long as you are. To him, it doesn't matter if he is sick or not as long as his best friend is okay. Just spend the rest of your time together in peace and happiness, and when it's time, do it. Don't let him feel pain. Don't let him suffer because you will feel worse for letting him suffer than to put him down.
I have a dog and I can't bear the think of the day he is gone.
lol, Forgot I saved this in my feels folder. The irony of the situation always makes me laugh. It's hilariously sad
All of my feels. All of them. I'm close to giving myself to the current.
Fuck man... Why would you post that? That thumbnail cut me up.
Continuing with the Eds.
maybe somethign to bring up the spirits.
i dint care too much for dudstep but this video is fucking great.
shit, this should be a gif. The fuck? Oh well, more feels
People don't understand.
Guys are far more romantic then girls. Think about it. Girls have the same love for shoes as they do for men. They think about them, but they also think about other things, and that's fine.
But when a guy like a girl, and I mean really likes, then she is all he can think about. She is everything to him, literally the only thing he wants. His heart aches just thinking about her, and of how she might not feel the same way. He just doesn't stop thinking out her, making up stories in his head about how everything would go if they got together. The lengths some guys will go to get her.
And then one day, he asks her out, but the thoughts never end.
You know, when a guy asks a girl out, the girl needs to give him a lot more credit, because everything ounce of courage he has goes into it. Everything.
This concludes my dump. Wizardmon gets me every time.
Keep your heads up /b/ros. This may sound weird coming from someone with so many feels pics but I keep them to remind me I'm human. I will always have flaws that I need to overcome but it's possible to overcome them. Just takes time, some more so than others. But I believe in each and everyone of you and at least one of you needed to hear that tonight.
I read it in a more sarcastic/ironic way.that enhances it's impact and the notion that no one cares when you kill yourself
>Nigga jumped out of the middle of nowhere
>Wow man, that's fucked up
>Life goes on
Feels like a long read, I apologize.
>3 years ago
>Get with girl end of sophomore year in high school
>Fast forward to 3rd quarter of of senior year, madly in love with her
>her parents almost split
>I'm there for her
>Her parents strict on going home right after school
>I don't bitch, I completely understand
>Other than between classes, I didn't see her as often
>She was allowed to hang out with her annoying friends
>Between classes, she'd start to ignore me up until the bell rang to go to next class
>Couple months of this, I need to say something
>Tell her, she says that she never noticed that she pushed me aside
>She completely denies, I don't wanna lose it
>Text her later, I didn't want to keep being pushed aside
The rest of high school she dated a friend of mine, I completely lost it. I pretty much disappeared until graduation.
We made up(breakup was pretty heated) on graduation day. But I kept thinking of ways to try and get her back. I fought through it and stayed logical, no rebounds.
I've been single over 2 years now, and I don't see myself getting with another girl anytime soon, no matter how much I want to.
Don't you 404 on me.
Ima give a big BUUMP to sed thread
It's so much easier with a drink though..
Life is a bitch Anons and I'm not about to let a bitch convince me to actually succeeded in killing myself from now on.
Welp if your "brothers" and "sisters" had grown up as a race in the past 50yrs you wouldn't have this issue.
But instead you spooks keep chimping out, doing niggardly shit.
There's a lot of different feels in here, in us all, and in myself as well. But I'll post about one that only you guys can really understand because of the context.
It was 2004 and I had just gotten my copy of Halo 2. I was 13 years old. What an awkward age, right? And yet what a great age. Old enough to know about the world, but young enough to consciously enjoy being a child. No worries. Life was so good.
Anyway, I found out about Xbox Live. I HAD to have it. After my mom got it for me, I played on Halo 2 A LOT. I'd either play that by myself or with IRL friends, or CS:S with IRL friends.
Then one day during a ranked match I met a guy on XBL, his name was some variant of "Joker". We got along and won the match. It was fun. He added me. I played with his other friends, and we all added each other. There was about 8 of us all told. My two "best" friends were Joker, and CrazyEagle.
I can't begin to express how much fun it was, every weekend, to get online and play with my buddies. I'd played online and made friends before, like on CS:S or on Red Alert 2. But this was different, I had a mic to communicate back with. Halo was fun. They were 17, older than me, but I was mature enough to get along online with them.
10 years ago, the beginning of my teenage years is symbolized by the music of the time, the movies of the time, but above all, I always remember Halo 2 online with the two coolest people I ever met online. And yet, I never did meet them, did I? We only had first names, names I have unfortunately forgotten, gamertags, and our halo characters to see. But what a connection we had.
Well damn. I got some stuff. I have feelings for someone and she's one of the cutest and sweetest girls I've ever even laid eyes on. Everything she does is adorable. We've flirted a bit here and there. Only problem I really knew about at first was the fact that I'm pretty much completely emotionally reserved. I don't get invested emotionally in anything. Yet for some reason I have a huge crush on her and I barely know her. She doesn't have a facebook or anything of that nature which is surprising this day in age. I asked her for her number today after class (I'm a senior and she's a freshman) and she told me her dad took her phone and destroyed it on purpose and told her if she wanted a phone she had to get a job and pay for it. She told me it was pretty bad. This made me wonder if maybe half the smiles she ever has are forced and faked. Kinda like how mine are. And it makes me wonder if every time when she smiles at me it's a real smile, like she doesn't have to fake being happy with me. Sort of like whenever I smile at her it's a real smile and she actually makes me happy.
I may not be a complete alpha, im certainly not a 10. I am simply me. I have stood beside so many people that I care about, friend, family, anons. I stay alive knowing that there are others out there whom have nobody. I had nobody for the longest. Nobody to help me against my constant battle of depression. Nobody to pull me out of my downward spiral of self hatred. Nobody to save me from myself. One day, I was at a card shop and I seen someone sitting outside smoking. I bummed one from him and we started bullshitting. Long story short he was a few years younger than me and going through a lot of the same shit I had. I shared with him my story. A few weeks later, I ran into him again while I was playing MTG and he broke down in tears and thanked me. He drew strength from me, hope, perseverance.
The things we go through in life are not destructive. They are not there to "break us" as some may say. They exist to strengthen us.
Your story might be the strength that someone needs to keep on. It is this that keeps me alive. That I learned how to be strong by being there for someone when I couldn't be there for myself.
We are our pens and our lives is the parchment.
Nostalgia is so bittersweet. It can hurt so much, to know that time is gone forever. You can never go home again.
Every once in a while, I really do think about where Joker and CrazyEagle are in the world. In late 2005, I was in high school and they were off to college. One of my last memories of them was when Feel Good Inc came out, and Joker was singing it for us all on Coagulation. It was funny then, and I can only smirk and recall it now.
We moved on. Like most people, I don't remember the exact last time we all "hung out". I remember the good times most. Jokers account disappeared, and when the Xbox 360 came out, CrazyEagle never got one. To this day, on my 10 year old XBL account, he is still on my friends list. I can't bring myself to delete him. Seeing that name, and that old, original Xbox logo as his avatar... I know it's not him. He is around 27, 28 years old now. He probably doesn't remember me, or even think about his old gamertag and online profile.
But I think about it. It's crazy how people I never even met face to face can have such an impact on my life. It's a warm, good feeling.
But knowing I will never talk to these people again is quite a hollow one. Where are they now? That's all I really want to know. I just want to know if they are doing well in thier lives.
Joker, and CrazyEagle, and the others whom names I've forgotten. Here's to you. I hope you are happy and well. And if you are no longer of this earth, I hope your spirit has found happiness, perhaps on a Ringworld somewhere out there, in that large expanse of space...
I'm sad because I love a woman. She is an idiot, a depressing, naive, helpless, childish, idiot. She makes the wrong choices when she knows the right ones. She follows her emotion regardless of logic being smarter and safer. She does picks wrong and then feels all the worse that she was wrong when she already knew it from the start. She is every single thing that bothers me about women.
And I am unbearably in love with her, even 3,000 miles and some years apart. I left for a reason, and I won't go back, things are definitely better this way. I never asked to have this shit happen and I'd like it to stop. How do you fall out of love with someone when you never wanted to fall in the first place.
I don't really think of this too often, but idk, tonight must be that kinda night.
I know them feels all to well... It sucks but just keep trying man make her happy the best you can even if it may be a little faked.. She will get use to you and maybe even be "really" happy.
I had those feels as a man in my twenties back in the earliy 2000s before myspace/facebook it was easy to loose track of friends you had in middle school or highschool or at your first job
but then with facebook i was able to track them down
it feels great to know what your old friends are doing now, but i remember the feels from my twenties about thinking i'll never see them again and wondering what they're up too
nostalgia makes me feel like shit because things now will never be as good as they were before
especially with games....I miss you so much Halo 3
Words do not sufficiently describe the feeling. Nostalgia is only a name.
Also, that fucking story, anon. Fuck.
Anytime I need a baww thread, and I come here and we all feel together, I am continually reminded that the basis for feels seems to always be a bond lost, or a bond wanted but never confirmed.
It can be any type of bond. Man to man, man to woman, man to animal, hell, even to an inanimate object. But, usually, that object will represent a time in your life and will remind you of people you loved, or of your youth in general.
Living beings and their bonds, that's what we all cry over here.
>dat feel when only thing I ever wanted as a kid was a dog
>someone who wouldn't judge me
>someone who'd be there when my parents never were
>someone who'd always appreciate me and who I could just fucking love
>someone to look forward to seeing while walking home from school, black eye and bag ripped to pieces from bullies
>dat feel when dad was allergic to dogs
I'm 25 and I still dream about having a dog
What is it about getting close to someone? About enjoying time with them so much, that once it is over, we never forget it? And if in our daily lives we do forget it, once we are reminded, why is the force of the rushing emotion so strong?
Why is love, the basis for these bonds we have, so fucking strong?
Only an emotion with this much high, can bring us to such lows.
No wonder people invent a life after death. I cannot blame them for believing in heaven. I don't want there to be nothing after all this, either. It would seem like such a waste, such a terrible waste, that everything we know and cherish actually mean nothing...
Dogs are the best. Get one eventually, anon. If you have a kid, get one for him. I'll never forget my dogs... pic related. I posted this story and capped it for ease of sharing.
There was this guy I knew who always pushed me to do things and his name was james and he wasnt related to me by blood but he always took care of me as a kid when my dad was abusive, he was around 24 when he passed from a disease, I was really close to him, I recieved these three messages from him a few days before he died and I didnt get to respond, The worst part, Is He knew he was going and I didnt get to say goodbye.
Goes from bottom up
>tfw current gf is having exact same issues like my ex did with her family.
I have another one. I met this girl over the internet. Literally have everything in common with her that we could think of. I've never met someone who understood me as much as she did. Since we were so much alike, we ended up pushing each other away. I ended up having feelings for her, and she fell for me pretty hard. The only thing in the way was the fact that I wasn't in love with her. She was someone I loved talking to since I never had to explain anything. She just understood it all. Well... Long story short I ended up hurting her a lot and it sucks because to a point I don't even care a whole lot if I hurt her. I hate it because I wish I would just let myself have feelings for people and I can't. The worst part of it all is she's physically and emotionally dying. She probably won't make it much farther than a few months. Maybe a year. And I keep beating myself up about wondering what could have happened between us if only I would have let something come of it. Now we pretty much hate each other and we've moved on. Or at least we pretend we have. When in reality we both wish we had what we did months ago but we both know we'll never have what we did. It's long gone.
That picture...I hope that he found somewhere safe, perhaps he's moved on from online gaming and all, but I would fucking hate for anything to have happened to that guy.
Return to us, we will wait a thousand years for you.
I've posted it a couple times since I first wrote it, and I cry every time I read it again.
I'll say the "worst" part is when I asked my dad if we were gonna get two new puppy dogs again. And he said he didn't think so. When I asked why, he told me:
"Over the past 40 years I've buried 7 dogs. I love each and every one I have, but I don't think I can do this anymore."
She was in bad health too, before Primo died. Just wasn't as bad as primo. IIRC she had bad joints and intestinal problems. It was better for her to go then, while she still had SOME health, than to wither away like Primo did, honestly. It was depressing what Primo looked like right before he died.
for those who like reading long ones, this is not a happy ending...
I can't remember a single day when I don't smile.
I had a chance to see my father for a day. I was excited had the day off any everything, then I was called into work. And that wasn't the first fucking time they messed up my plans.
But everyday, I'm depressed and angry, but I won't let them know...I wish I could go just a single day without smiling for others.
sorry my movie finaly loaded.
still lurking ?
Always a great way to put stupid feel good chick shit in its place.
I'm just really lonely guys. I work out, I run, I fence, try and be as social as possible but I still feel empty. Had a girlfriend for 4 years but she left a while ago. I just want a relationship with someone that's meaningful I guess, don't really know if that's what I want honestly.
Anyway, gonna contribute, Jeff Buckley's version of Hallelujah always gets me
Damn guys I can only take so much of that one
Yeah. I'm like, fuck happiness. Not everyone gets the utopia of their dreams. I've been replying 'I'm fine' for quite a long time, i honestly don't remember when I replied 'I'm happy'
There's this song, I just wanted to make you something Beautiful. It's the way I've felt my entire life.
I just want to give her something that will make her smile and laugh and feel something. I just want to explain to her that I'm not as crazy as she thinks and that I'm getting better.
But I can't. Everything I do isn't beautiful enough, nothing could even come close to making up for what I did.
I'm sorry C, I fucked up
I've always thought so. But I've never had an opportunity to use them that way. These are the only pics like this that I keep.
Today I was daydreaming about being a Space Marine and saving people from Xenos and Chaos. Then I get back to work and think about how I'm going to die without being any closer to this. I just want to matter.
I know what you mean, man.
From about 18-21 I was always in and out of a state similar to depression, lamenting over women or some other bullshit. I'm 23 and I think I've matured enough to realize I am happy with life, but I am not content, and that there is a difference and it's OK to be this way.
You are not content, anon. You may enjoy things, but I personally believe we all have an inner desire for a purpose that we have to seek out. Only in commiting to our purpose do we find true happiness. For some this could be parenthood, or being an Olympian. For others it could be something as simple as a line of work crafting things or even just travelling the world to meet people and see things.
You need to find your purpose, friend. And even if you never reach the end goal, the journey toward you goal is happiness.
It's funny how much music can send us back.
I'll always remember this song as "Marge and Homer's" song, from the Simpsons, of course. What a comfy memory and episode.
And then they go back and rewrite that wonderful way they met. Oh well.
You can tell that the subject in the picture used his disfigurement as an asset. Why would you sit still and pose for a picture if your face was covered? You would only do this if you were still recognizable even with the coverings--Joseph Merrick's cap and hood was actually quite recognizable to people living when he did. Some more pictures for you:
galleryhip com / elephant-man.html
I hope you find your way, anon, and on it, all sorts of happiness.
Crying - purposeful crying as a reflection of emotions within us - is good for you every once in a while. Go ahead, I already got mine out. We're all in it together, friend.
everyone on /b/ needs one of these. they just dont know unless they open it.
linkin park makes me feel. not just the lyrics, but takes me back to a time when they were the coolest. when life was so much more simpler. when i actually had friends.
It's been a good long while since I participated in one. I've had some emotions that needed to be let out, for sure.
This is an old one but for anyone who hasn't read it, its a must read honestly. A job none of us want, but somebody has to do...
I look for these every night b/ros. Every time, results in me bawling my damn eyes out, every damn night. You guys make me feel. I have an absolute shit life. My parents are constantly fighting, and verbaly abusing me. My biological father wont talk to me, call or fucking shit but hangs out with my sister almost daily. I have no friends, because they all leave me after a few months of knowing me. My life consists of getting up, going to works, getting home, /b/, sleep, repeat. Thanks b/ros, for giving me something to look forward to every day.
This is one of my all time favorites. No words need be spoken or written or conveyed. Those 14 panels tell more than a few words ever could.
This one makes me sad and angry, on so many levels. What a tragedy.
They gotta come back home eventually.
I needed this after a real shitty break up i had
Fuck, that sounds tempting. You'd go down in the annals of history.
I mean, a lot of us on here lament being born too late to explore earth, and born to early to explore space. This IS our calling.
Fuck i just bawwed so bad. DIdn't even mean to stick around for too long.
We had a good thread, friends. I've shed my share of tears and my mind and spirit are a little clearer, a little lighter. I hope you all feel the same.
Until next time. See you, Space Cowboys.
You lost the game.
You shouldn't change because of a relationship. You should change because life calls for change. Whatever friends can't come along with you don't belong in your life. Keep the old ones if you can but make new ones constantly.
Its really hard to invade in dark souls when crying your eyes out
thanks bro. I'll keep looking.
May I have to say is the most honest of the three in that show. She doesn't care how stupid Ed is, she likes him because he's just him. She would do anything that he asked and love him for who he is.
Keeps you up at night, doesn't it? Wanting someone who just loves you for who you are, always happy to see you no matter how awkward or idiotic you are. Someone who thinks you are alright just the way you are, that you don't need to change at all.
Not always, the death of my first dog still sticks with me all the time.
>be me junior year high school
>moved around every couple years my whole life
>young and resented my parents for losing my friends, identity etc. every 1-2 years
>not close with them, never talk to them
>in retrospect it was fucked up but it's hard moving that much
>only had one real friend my whole life, my dog bogey
>we just moved back to states after a year in italy
>dog getting skinny, never active, seems pretty happy and healthy though
>one day I come home and he hadn't moved all day
>mom says it's time, we need to put him down
>I got to the shelter, they have everything set
>two weeks ago he seemed like he was getting stronger, even playing outside again
>I get upset and say he still has time
>it's friday, if they don't do it now they won't be able to over weekend
>that night bogey is dragging himself to door, I practically carry him outside to go to the bathroom over and over
>he is trying to get away from house, lab instinct to go away to die
>the struggle continues almost all night
>after hours of terrible pain and struggling he dies
>he died horribly, in awful pain because I was too weak to do what needed to be done
After he died I went hard in wrestling, going from a JV scrub to state tournament. I started doing coke, acid, pretty much anything I could get my hands on. Nothing affects me, no matter how hard I train or what drugs I take all I can think about is how I was too weak to do what had to be done. Still effects every decision and action I take today.
I both love and hates these threads, they overpower. Both in looking back at this failed experiment I call a life and knowing that others are doing the same every day.
>In my thirties.
>Never had a girlfriend.
>Never had a girl seem interested in me.
>Hear my entire life that girls wish their guys were like me.
>I'm like me.
>I am me.
>Always me. Never us.
Why do I click on these threads.
They get me every time.
Knowing nobody will ever care about me the way I care about anyone else makes me feel so shitty and I'm just so tired of it. So tired and I can't even sleep, sitting up at night in threads like these.
My son was building a computer about 4 months ago. He had done all his research, picked out and ordered all his parts. He was so excited.
He was killed by a drunk driver the day before his last parts got here.
I learned how to build the computer. It's sitting in his room. Never touched.
Just sitting there.
I put my dog down a few years ago, I loved her. She was a small dog arthritis, would drag her hind legs sometimes. Let me get to the point.
One day I wake up, I take her out to go to the bathroom...she just doesn't go, infact she just sits in the one spot i pt her down in. Think nothing of it bring her inside. Notice she hasn't eaten barely drank...notice she had no energy at all. I tried to give her food, not dog food, but people food she wouldn't eat it...it was only when I made her an ice cream, that I knew she wasn't doing good....she didn't eat the ice cream, she loved ice cream.
She didn't eat it though, she licked it a few times, but nothing. I knew it was time for her to leave me. We took her in, got her ready, 'do you want to stay or leave?' I stayed, there was no way I was leaving her.
They don't tell you have fast they go, once the needle is empty, they're already gone, She left with her head in my hands, a kiss ontop of her head. I stayed there crying for well over 30 mins, before I finally looked up and said it's time to go. I didn't care that the vet came back every few mins seeing if I was gone. She slept in ,my bead for years. I had her cremated, the whole week I kept watching my step, cause she was always waiting for me, whenever I left the bathroom, whenever I went outside. When I got her ashes back I stopped worrying about where I stepped...I need her or someone right now, I've had too much loss in the past few years. Dad, brothers...conch? I need you guys right now. I need you.
I'm sorry for your lose, and I'm sorry for this novel, no one has to read it, I'm just venting.
>Played Halo 2 for countless hours countless nights
>Older bro and cousins were there too
>Had so many fucking amazing times, just playing and dicking around doing nonsense
>Oct will be the 2 year anniversary of my brothers passing
>Less than 11 months later, a cousin, more of a brother than a cousin really, well his cancer comes back...sept is the 1 year anniversary of his passing
>Hear about Halo 2 anniversary...tfw cousin and I would talk about H2 all the time how we missed it, how we missed those days...how we missed other bro,
I never thought H2 would come out again, it just didn't seem like it was gonna happen a lot of hype about it, but nothing ever came of it. Well it's finally coming.
As unbelievable as it was to hear that news, I never in my worst nightmares ever thought it would come out, and you two wouldn't be here with me. I miss and love you guys, tell dad I'm sorry for everything.
This. Fucking this. I know no one cares but I'm just so numb/sad all the time and I can't keep faking like I'm not. I have a cute girlfriend, I'm doing well in uni, I have a nice dad and a job. But that's not enough to keep me going. I want the numbness to go away. I want to feel happiness soon. I need to. Otherwise, I don't feel like I'll be around much longer. I just wish there was a single person in my life I could tell that I'm clinically depressed and ready to quit. But there isn't and that's what really gets me. Thanks for being that 'person' /b/. I love you.
>rebellious spirit everywhere
>have a big fight with my grandfather
>pray at night that he dies, though this was the only time I prayed in my life.
>2 month later he gets sick, cancer diagnose.
>6 month after he dead.
till this day I fell guilt for the loss on the man that was more father to me than my own father.
Black girls like this usually prefer to date White guys.
So Anon is right back at square one. The Black girls that he may find attractive probably don't want him.
I've dated those kind of Black girls before and they always expressed that they just aren't attracted to Black guys.
It's a never ending cycle. Sorry for your conundrum, Anon.
What can I say? Become very rich and successful and them more White women will want you.
ex of 2 years was te first love of my life. she was depressed since a child. got raped from 9-13 years old. fucking asshole stole her childhood. suffers from anorexia now. gave up 2 years of my life trying to take care of her. breaks up with me because I couldn't properly understand how to make her better. been 6 months now and she's married with another guy. happy that she found someone who can take care of her properly and sad that I wasn't able to do it
don't have much time to type the story about her but She made every rough time I had seem so miniscule and unimportant. unfortunately I let her go and stopped talking to her when I had the chance to possibly get her back. I lost my chance to be happy again. i'm still in love with her. if i could say one thing to her it would be thank you, and that I still miss her even after 3 years. If only i hadn't given up.
My god man. I know it's tough, but you have to realize, you praying even though it was your only time doing so, was not the cause of his cancer ok?
You have absolutely no fucking weight in that area man, none. It's not your fault anon, it's really not. Your grandfather would not want you to dwell on something that was totally our your hands...hell it wasn't even in his own hands. I'm so sorry that it happened, but it was no fault of yours.
Cancer doesn't give a shit who or what it affects, prays don't pull it one way or the other, it's cancer, it lives, so it can kill. Nothing more, nothing less.
First thing that popped into my head.
Thank you I'm just venting but it's nice to hear that...also I'm close to 30 Yeah, women are..idk fucked up.
Dammit Anon. I was in the opposite situation of yours. I was the one that fell head over heels for her. She was literally perfect. Being with her felt as natural as existing. She dated me so she wouldn't hurt my feelings since she knew I was in love with her. After two years she walked out of my life. I guess she felt the same way as you Anon... except she completely broke off contact without any warning, and left me forever. Why must you make me feel this again...
Hey, if you're out there right now, I'm sorry I pushed you away. You were one of the coolest people I've ever met. I looked forward to when we'd stay up all night and video chat, and watch movies together. I felt like I could talk to you about anything, I was really depressed back then and you helped keep my head up. I hope that you're happy now. I can't bring myself to message you or find you on facebook again because I feel so bad about how things ended. I'm not saying I want to go back to that, I'm in a happy relationship now. I'm just hoping someone who is as amazing as you found someone worth your time. Someone who will help you with your goals, take care of you, and generally keep you happy. I hope you're successful in everything that you do. I love you.
>implying anything or anyone actually matters in the grand scheme of things
I'd agree, but I haven't chased happiness in a long time, and guess what? Still unhappy. In fact even worse than before, the girl I have loved for well over ten years recently got engaged. I lost a family member...a close family member in back to back years, and today I lost yet another...so don't tell me not chasing happiness is the best way, sometimes the shit rolls down hill, for no fucking reason.
Fuck life, fuck karma, fuck happiness, fuck god. I'm sick and tired of hearing 'its all part of his plan'
What fucking plan was it, to have a child manipulated abused and fucking tortured by his father. His own fucking father, the one man who was supposde to protect and love him unconditionally. You know what, if there's a god, fuck you, when's my time huh? Where's my fucking break? I prayed to you when I was a kid and you know what you gave me? Nothing, in fact you took away the one person who was a father to me, you let my bio dad poison me against the one man who loved me like a father should. You let me hate him...and then he died, and I'm here fucking broken. Then 10 years later you take my brother from me, less than a year after that a cousin, who was more of a brother than a cousin, today you took a brother inlaw from me. fuck you wheres my break, one day you're gonna take my mom, and then ill have nothing, when was I supposed to be happy?
oh fuck you anon. got me right in the feels