Alright /b/ros, fucking hate this life, but can't get to a point where I'm absolutely sure I wanna end it. Help me get there, seriously, this place sucks. No suicide hotline, don't do it shit.
Life will move on, indifferent to your absence. Hardly anyone will notice. Those close to you will feel a passing sadness, but deep down they will he reliebed to be free of the burden that is you. DO IT YOU FUCKING FAGGOT
I don't really agree with suicide, but if you're so set on life being shit, just go do life endangering things that will help better mankind since you're gonna die anyway.
Don't make alive people waste their time with your useless corpse, use it for good if it's so worthless to you.
Honestly though, suicide isn't hard if you wanna die that badly, and if you're not willing to go out in a painful manner, than you're not truly ready to do it.
You didnt always feel this way. You have to find something that makes you smile again. Then grab a hold of it and dont let go. Then youre back in the game. Life is interesting as fuck. You just forgot how to care. Brain imbalance...nothing more.
Stay here now. Someone cares.
suicide is not the answer BUT if you do choose it,please stream it.
Hey man, I've had depression all my life, I know how you must feel right now.. no matter what any of these other guys say, just know that because when you've dug a whole deep enough.. all you can do is look up..
Don't jump to the easiest conclusion, because weather you like it or not, this is what you got.. so don't throw it all away over one bad period.
The fact that youre here proves you still want to be. You gotta find out why. If nothing, its worth figuring out for the mystery.
Imo if you kill yourself, you start over again. You cant run from things. You have to face them like a leaf to a hurricane.
It's not just a bad period... I've been depressed for almost my entire life
I've tried doing new stuff, learning to play new instruments, learning new types of programming, anything, nothing makes me happy..
You are choosing things that you see make people happy instead of seeing what's probably in front of you already.
Depressed your whole life is basically admitting that it's an attitude problem. Depression refers to an onset abnormal condition.
Seriously, re-evaluate your goals and friends
I appreciate that. Suicide is...Perfectly valid in the moment, but we forget that moments change and so do we.
100% of people who survived jumping off the golden gate bridge regretted their decision immediatelly. Some forms of suicide dont offer that last chance.
There is always someone in the world that cares for you. Don't do it, if you need help talk it out with someone. It will leave a scar on the people close to you. I've been through this too, it sucks but push through it, there's always a positive in life...
/b/ro, obviously people care enough not to let you just end it here and now.. no matter what, you just gotta find something that makes you happy.. I promise this is just a phase, no matter what you may think. It'll pass just like everything else does with time.. Just do whatever it takes to make you happy.
Is it possible that your just surrounded by really shitty people OP?
When I lived with my dad, I HATED my life and really started doing some self-destructive things. Once I moved away from him, I realized that he actually was making me hate my life because he was so creepy/hateful/vindictive.
Bro, my advice to you, is to take out college loans, go live on a college campus and get some degree then TRAVEL THE WORLD. Why kill yourself? Just say "fuck it" and go as hard as possible. Make money and do crazy shit! Don't kill yourself man.
By your kind dying we would help clean the breeding pool of nonpure genes, which would help the future generations, think of the children, would you like them having depressive unhappy genes of which they couldn't control?
On the complete flip side your got dubs, so don't do it, We need that gene.
P.S. Livestream and become an hero
The only person I loved moved 7 hours away...
well..that is kinda surprising seeing what /b/ is usually like...
I'm not really a people person, so I try to avoid people at all costs.
Then get off your ass and go for a walk. Clear your head. A room full of people who have never even seen your face care about you for no reason...or is there a reason? Well fuck man, do I gotta spell it out?
I am a lot like you...I'm empty, but I found a way to make it less...bottomless: pretend. Pretend the feelings are there for the world, for the people around you...who knows maybe one day they will be.
I'd recommend selling all of your shit and maybe getting some shit job and saving up your money and live off ramen noodles, you don't even have to do it too long try it out for a couple months or less if you'd like
as is you whiney waste of oxygen is going to do it, it would be the first thing you pathetic loser would have ever accomplishd in your life and i just don't see that. instead, you're gonna puss around until you die of age. pathetic mangina
or having built up a fake happy image of yourself you'll come to resent all the pretending and end up making yourself worse. it's always better to be honest. "truest manner of lessening our agonies is to shrink from their pressure—is to confess that we feel them" - oliver goldsmith
I was just quoting my favorite line in Dexter, but tbh it does represent what I used to feel. But then something changed, I realized I was sick (depression) so after my gf dumped my I went to a doctor. I'm on fluoxatina, 20mg every day, and I feel great! Granted, I've changed some bad habits but I feel the meds jumpstarted my will to live.
I bet you can even get some wifi once in a while on every city you visit, get on craigslist, and find some shitty jobs and live off that, or you can do what some guy on a documentary did and set up craigslist add asking for a place to stay for the night just be careful
Fucking christ. Kill yourself, instead of solving your problem your projecting it on all those around you, and now /b/. If you end it then we all get peace of mind, your parents and mate can handle a death. People die in the world all the time. You. Are. Weak. If you want help then go to not a suicide help line, but a facility where the take care of people who have this lack of strength. Even if you do 'recover' will you fully? You wasted how ever long trying to fix yourself while others have been succeeding and accomplishing things while others have been wasting their time on those who can't help them selves. We can forgive you if you do it on camera.
Look at how much support you get though? Surely life is something we shouldn't waste, althought father like son. After we go through this with you whats to say your suicidal unhappiness gets spread to your children? Would you one your joy and happiness, the thing you created to be suffering what you feel right now? That would mean you cause others to hate themselves. What is Mom and Best Mate compared to thousands.
-- Honestly I don't care if your an hero, I just don't wish for people who want help to annoy those whom are unprepared or unwanted. Don't want to call someone who is trained to help you? Don't call apon us. I've given you enough reasons to commit suicide if you really are looking for a reason you can do it now.
Never had anti-depressants...which is actually pretty fucking retarded of me not to...so fuck it..that's the plan as of now.
Near Shallotte NC
You seem to know a lot about it. Done it before?
How am I an asshole, I gave him what he asked
for, while you people are doing EXACTLY what he asked for you not to do. He specifically said >No suicide hotline, don't do it shit.
P.S. Welcome to 4chan
Gonna try another anon's advice and try to get on anti-depressants, if that doesn't work after a few months, I'll consider trying the vaggabond thing, if not, I'll come back and stream it, linking to this thread to prove to you guys it's me
I feel like the army would only make things worse...
No but i'm going to OP, life has not been what I wanted, I want to become a musician while my whole family has been egging me to go to college. Like you i've had depression all my life, suicidal for a good percentage, never been social, dealt with substance abuse, sexual abuse and all that shit life throws at you. I don't like society at all and just want to live how I want, I want to experience life as a man on his own at least, this is the closest thing next to living in the woods but I'm not knowledgeable enough yet, someday but not now!
You need no prescription for fluoxatine (at least in my country) you should take 1 every day for 3 months, then one every other day for 3 weeks, then 1 every week for a month. That's how I'm taking it. The effects appear around week 2, it wont make you happy but will take the darkness that surrounds everything away.
No one planning to die ever has a plan. Seriously. Shoot up a school? Shoot up a mall? What the fuck did that do?
No. Find someone you hate, or a group of people you hate, and go after them. If they are famous it's even better.
All I ask is that you do a little work before you suck a bullet. No go out there and be creative
If you're really dead set on killing yourself gas is the best way to do it. Propane or natural gas. 100% painless and actually very enjoyable. Just have to ensure you keep breathing it after you pass out.
High-school dropout btw, but the only job I've really every wanted was a software programming job, I've never had drug problems, I occasionally smoke weed, as in maybe 2-3 times a month. Anyways, good luck with your journey anon if you so chose to go that way!
I think here in 'merica you do
Gonna go with helium as I have an entire tank of it
Thanks for the advice anon, psychologist to get anti-depressants and/or see what's wrong with me
Let knowing you have the option to commit suicide comfort you. Know that you ultimately have a way out. That's your ace. Then focus on staying alive. First, get angry that you feel so shitty that you would actually consider killing yourself. Then use that energy to change all the things you possibly can that you hate about your life. That would be a start.