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>Met In high school. >First actual girlfriend. >First sex. >Had entire life planned by my senior year. >Included military. >Drop by her house after signing my life away >She says I can't do long distance. >Get to boot camp >Letter...fucking your friend. >6 years later, haven't spoken to her since. >We cross paths, exchange numbers and she drops by. >She cocks her head to the side and looks at me. >My fucking heart explodes. >long story short, we get back together. >Date for 2 years. Shit falls apart. We spend a month doing the we can make it work, fuck it I'm done cycle. I get the text, there's someone else. >We don't speak for 3 weeks. >She drops by my house. >Starts out as an apology. Ends with me punching a wall. >She grabs my face and forces me to look at her. >One fucking tear rolls down her face and she whispers, make love to me..make me feel like you used to. Make me feel....anything at all. Please. >I can't move, I can't speak, I can't breathe. She walks out. I haven't spoken to her in 2 years.
>>562634702 This has to be the most retarded quote I have saw during a timeframe of approx. 1 year. Why the fuck does the world laugh with you when you laugh? I mean when I was beating a little kid up in the school yard the only one laughing was me. That will teach him not to mess with a substitute teacher.
>>562638090 I got all I could want...except the desire to do shit like normal people because I have schizophrenia. I got money, time and brains, but what is the use of it all if somedays I can't even bring myself to move a finger? it feels like if i had a 500 kg weight on me and it was impossible to get rid of it when it happens.
>be me yesterday >finally open up to girl after years of walling myself off >ask her out >says yes >talk to her on facebook the next day to set up time/day >blocks me and blocks my phone number >car overheats and explodes >can't make it to new job >probably going to get fired >check bank account >overdrawn somehow
>>562638864 Yep. Me in the pic. Thankfully despite random bouts of bad luck/depression/being stupid and it yielding stupid consequences, your opinion of a picture of my face from my nose up does not determine my self worth. I'm a father. I have a 10 year old little boy who thinks I'm fucking superman and king kong all in one. Long as I got that, ugly doesn't matter
>be me >just out of a casual relationship >meet this one girl >extremely reserved >go kill some time because we are at a park and bored >we exchange numbers >she asked me out >go out for a month >broke up because Im an inbicile >ff 1 yr >she still likes me >fuckitwhynot >go out again >been about 4 months >she breaks up with me >really grew fond of her >ff this summer >she talks to me again >we go out for a week > make love >tell her I love her >she tels me the same >she breaks up with me after a week >get a call from her friend >she's dead, she slit her own neck >oh >cry like a bitch Now I'm here, sorry if it isn't up to anyones standards, just never expected it.
>>562638808 never been there man. I've got a few screws rattling a little loose, but nothing that bad. However, my son's mother was diagnosed schizoeffective with traits of paranoia. There ARE ways to combat it. It IS possible to feel... not normal.. but better
getting more and more distant from my friends, saw one of them first time in about a month today. about once a week they invite me out to have some drinks. Always make an excuse not to go, even though i want to. when i am around them im really awkward and dont talk much at all.
>>562639382 Well excuse me sir but being loved by your child does not give you the right to not take care of yourself. You seem more than a couple lbs ogreweight. What you wan't your son to see his old man get a heart attack or smth?
>tfw your friends don't give a shit about you >tfw your family doesn't care about you >tfw you lack love and no one is there to fulfill that empty space >tfw your mom told you straight up that she doesn't give a shit if you kill yourself >tfw mom physically abused you and psychologically too >tfw your dad hates you, was about to fight you various times, and doesn't love you because you didn't grow up to be the son he wanted >tfw always been rejected by grills but who cares >tfw dad has never called you his son >tfw siblings dont back you up >tfw your parents aren't there to help you with severe depression and anxiety >tfw having trouble developing relationships >tfw therapists only want your money >tfw no one has your back >tfw tried to kill myself various times >tfw learned to survive early
Help /b/, I have always thought of ending my life. I can't stand this anymore.
>>562640476 Look kiddo. If you want to act like children, we can take this to another thread, my personal teamspeak, skype? You can berate me all you like. I'm 5 ft 6 170ish, and work in a factory. On my feet and active 12 hours a day 6 days a week. However, with that said, anyone who goes out of their way to make such ridiculous comments is hurting inside. I would be more than happy to help you if it's possible. Just not here. Feels threads are semi sacred and always have been.
>>562641462 With all due respect, while I'm not paid to listen to him or anyone else bitch or moan, I gladly do it. I'm not completely down right now, but I have been, and a baww thread let me feel like shit when I needed too. The next day I picked myself up and started trying again. Fuck you and your pretentious self-righteousness
>>562640728 No I get you, you're thoughts are normal and everyone has them sometimes. I know it's hard when those are your only thoughts most times. Just know that there always someone who cares no matter how alone you feel.
>>562641731 The fact that you used the word "brah" demonstrates your age, or at least mental age. My health is just fine. I don't need to lift weights. I'm healthy and the work I do more than keeps any muscles I have from deteriorating from non use.
Your going out of your way to insult and hurt someone on the internet based on a picture of their nose to the top of their head.
You've got to be hurting inside. Something's wrong. Are you sure there isn't something you want to talk about
>Meet guy in beginning of high school >First real boyfriend, first everything together >Thought the world about each other >Date for five years, gets told he's cheating >Believe in him like a good little girlfriend, he'd never do that >Get a picture of him boning my best friend's girlfriend >Finish college, move across the country all within two weeks of getting the picture >Year later, with another guy, still fucking cry about him every once and a while.
>>562640728 >was about to fight you various times but he didn't > always been rejected by grills but who cares this one is on you. completely your fault, nobody elses. > parents aren't there to help you with severe depression and anxiety 99% that it is self-diagnosed > therapists only want your money only proves the point about self-diagnose > tried to kill myself various times why don't also start a thumbrl account with that? Word of advice: if you trying to an-hero then please understand that the point of this is you not being able to breathe not "hur dur I need help pls love me".
>>562643238 If that's what helps you, friend, then I retract my previous statement. Insult away. I meant it when I said I come to baww threads now to help if I can. You need help /b/rother. Insult away
>>562638808 I think I know how you feel, I mean Im only in highschool so I know I dont have any life experience. for as long as I can remember Ive been "above" my peers, but it started to show more in highschool because I excel at all of my classes without trying when my classmates struggle to keep up, and lately I just cant find any purpose in it. I keep hoping that when I get to college Ill get challenged, or Ill find a job that gives me purpose, but for the time being Im just waiting for something to happen
>>562642606 >meet girl in highschool >date for awhile (like 2+ years) >never felt the feeling of family before >her house was fucking awesome >cooked together >did HW >fucked a shit ton >parents let me sleep over >started on couch >eventually her room was cool >hired me for there company to do summer work after graduation >help her move into dorm >stops wanting to see me >blows me off for her college friends >call her on her bullshit >says I'm not around enough >break up >get back together >break up again >gives me a "good bye forever hug" >lose my shit .call to talk to her mom, that lady was like a real mom to me, my mom is a piece of shit >2 or 3 calls later she tells me to never call again because "I have my own mom"
Fall into deep depression, felt like I lost the love of my life, a best friend and my mom.
>ITT that was 2007 and it hurts just as much still
>>562643979 Question. Is your house a wreck? Dishes, clothes scattered, yard look like shit? I ask because when shit gets bad for me, and I don't feel like doin shit, my place is a wreck. I live alone, I feel like shit, why should I do a fucking thing about my place..
Try this. Start small. Spend a couple of hours cleaning up, straightening up, put shit in it's proper place. I'm not you so I don't know if it will work... But that tiny teensy baby step in the right direction helps me sometimes
You know, bros. I understand that girls can be difficult. Stubborn, cheating, mental, and I mean most of us just want to love someone and be loved back, even just a little. And it can be lonely without someone to care about.
But in all honesty, the thing I really want most in life is a friend. Perhaps more than a friend. A companion, a partner.
Someone who is my best friend. Who clicks with me, shares my jokes, understands me. And we can talk about the world, and ourselves, and all the things we want to do, staying up late until we can hear the birds out the window and see the bags under our eyes.
And we would love each other, and remember the better times.
And I wouldn't care about how they looked, or who they wanted to be because they were
I'm trying to avoid suicide. Have numerous pills, pain killers from last 2 uninsured operations. Been abusing them, .5 to 3, a night. Now at 7.5, feel horrible. >Main Story Depressed, no idea why. >runs in family, no surprise when it shows up. No-one notices, even with EXTENSIVE history of family history. I fight myself, "im a special snowflake, hehe) End up worse off. Truthfully, i cant think of a single thing that i could possibly be sad/depressed over. I have an ok job, decent house, never without foo/water. >never, even with stupid parents. No death in immediate family. Me? All i feel is, sorrow/depression/anger for my life. I fully understand that i, as an american, have MUCH better opportunities than most of the world. I can't stop my sadness/depression, for the last 3-4 years. I am lost, honestly. No clue what to do, i feel the answer is right there, maybe i am blinded from it? TL;DR it may not be your fault, maybe mental. >Get Help Anyways Anon, It Works..
for me, and a lot of other people it seems, it's like we did know Robin Williams in a way. His name just has an aura of family laughter to it. It's like he actually is family in a way, sort of like a silly uncle everyone loves.
Robin Williams was no Heath Ledger or Paul Walker, he was a true bro, and the last person you would expect to fucking kill himself
I'm 32, 4 years in the military, associates degree in computer information technology, taking more classes online. Dropping resumes and looking for a job in that field. Working in a factory 12 hours a day in the meantime. Don't make that much money but my bills are paid, and when my son has a school trip I can afford to send him.
Ah! I'm an addict.. here we go. I am an incredibly bad addict. I was once told by a friend who gave up on me that I was addicted to being addicted. That was during my 6 month meth binge. That's gotta give you some ammo right?
I'm clean and have been for 10 years and 6 months, when I found out I was having a child.
Wrestled in high school, so still go for runs occasionally, though not much time. I'm definately not buff, and definately not cool. I don't go out, haven't had a girlfriend in over a year.
>>562645189 I still do occasionally. It was an off and on thing but 6 years of my life I was convinced I had a soul mate. I'm a difficult person and she understood me anyway. I'll never be worth a damn in a relationship now. Only reason I haven't an heroed is my little boy
>>562644376 I never really care about celebrity deaths and shit. But idk this one actually made me sad.
Growing up watching his movies,his serious roles, I really liked. Always felt you could 'smell your own kind' he was one of 'us'.And watching him just, felt like he wasn't the bright guy he appeared to be...maybe that's why his serious roles stuck more?
Yeah gonna miss seeing his movies and interviews...his wild antics. RIP in peace brother.
>>562645202 Most certainly anon. The same way you love your family, it's called platonic love. And to be honest it's something I've never experienced, and it pains me that no matter how much I search for it, it never seems to find me.
Girls come and go, bad times can pass. But a true friend, I like to think they last a lifetime.
>>562644589 >n all honesty, the thing I really want most in life is a friend. Perhaps more than a friend. A companion, a partner. >Someone who is my best friend. Who clicks with me, shares my jokes, understands me. >And we can talk about the world, and ourselves, and all the things we want to do, staying up late until we can hear the birds out the window and see the bags under our eyes. >And we would love each other, and remember the better times. >And I wouldn't care about how they looked, or who they wanted to be because they were >my friend. I can be your friend
Well from what I see the only thing you can be sad about is not being able to afford your kid the best things you can get. Women and other stuff like looks are not as important but fuck if I had a child I would work my ass off to get him something good and factory work won't suit it. Let this come not as an insult but as an advice to focus on career and money making.
>>562645103 Well i'm a candidate for suicide the more that i get old i'm a candidate for suicide the drugs have taken their toll i'm a candidate for suicide i was raped at 8 yrs old well i'm a candidate for suicide cause i'm a cheap liar and a whore
>>562646341 Was aimed at the /b/rother that was hurting and needed to insult me to feel better. Was trying to help him. I'm not really sad. I'm here hoping someone is close enough to where I have been that I can relate and help them.
Don't assume shit that you know nothing about. Yeah, he was about to fight but various has he also physically abused me as well. As for the girls thing, I put "Who cares" at end, I applause your reading skills.
I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, thats why I was given prescription on medication but it didn't work for me.
Please do the world a favor and kindly fuck off this Earth, you self centred little shit.
>>562644521 Come to think of it I do really enjoy doing the dishes, I never understood until now why I enjoy it, but I see that I enjoy it because it serves a purpose. I think im going to start doing doing more housework. thank you anon, I wish I knew how to help you more
>>562646341 >>562646441 Nope, never diagnosed. Never really tried to prescribed myself till i honestly wanted death. But "NO" anon, never diagnosed, though i feel i need help. I know im not some special snowflake, or anything.. Just feel i need help beyond what i can do for myself..
>>562647360 I don't know how to say this any other way man. I was responding to someone else who admitted that he needed to insult me because it would help him. He asked for "ammo" I was providing it. I'm not sad.
My priorities? I work, sleep, and raise my son alone. by myself. that's it. When I can't sleep, I come to /b/ to laugh, occasionally cry, and if I'm lucky, find a baww thread with someone who is where I once was and help them.
>>562646097 You know why those don't exist? I tried to be a true true friend but I was only rewarded with all of the others leaving me behind and ended all alone. You may look out for others, but that doesn't mean they will look out for you...
>>562647248 Well maybe you should have stood up for yourself and bashed him in the gabber? maybe that was all that your father ever wanted? Watching his son stand up for himself. >I put "who cares" at the end obviously you do since you wasted about 5 sec. (give or take) writing that sentence. + if you don't care about women, what are u, ghay?
>I was given prescription but it didn't work for me
Well tell me all about it. Why did your doctor not change your cycle etc? What were you on? drug/period/dosage? Just trying to help you buddy, maybe right meds will help you.
>>562647432 To anyone but me, this will sound like shit, but my only reason for existing on this earth is to help another, to impact someone else's life, in any small way I can. If a suggestion I make gives you even an inkling of a step in the right direction, and some day we cross paths on /b/, that's enough. My darkest days have been when I was so broken I couldn't touch anyone around me with anything but negativity.
>>562645103 get help with the painkillers man. seriously. meet a doctor. SSRIs can turn your life around. i've been where you are. except with stims not painkillers. sobriety is key. start exercising, eating healthy food. drink tons of water. take vitamins. get out from behind your computer. go for hour-long walks outside every day (especially right when you wake up in the morning) so you have time to yourself to think and appreciate the beauty in the world around you. then find something you love to do. whether it's swimming or tree climbing or fucking pogo sticking. something you like. it's gonna suck at first. but please please please trust me when i say it's worth it. there's so much more than you're experiencing right now. there's just blinders you have to take off. it's easy to get stuck in a mindset of not seeing the forest for the trees. watch the shit out of this guy. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pj5HS9c7n4g he looks like a dumb hunk of muscle but trust me when i say he has a LOT of shit about this life figured out. a lot.
i wish i could be there to help you but this is all I got. good luck man. i wish you all the best.
>>562647729 You can't help people over the internet on matters as such. All these baww threads are basically circle jerking and using tears as a lubricant. Most of these people are probably just "muh privilege" teens that never faced serious stuff in their life but some do have ( I am guessing obviously but statistically it should be true) serious mental problems which can not be helped without serious treatment.
I heard you say That you dont feel like youre worth saving If its all the same Well you can put the blame on me
I looked into your eyes to find the light Ive been gone for years and there are only tears left But it came so soon 1983 on a Monday afternoon
Dont make it better for me I wish youd just stop pretending Everyone is here for you
Your life is beautiful and... And you better hold me down Stand me up, keep me safe, while Im falling to pieces And, and tell me how I should bid if all Ive known is to break You didnt have to lie, I know you tried You took what they give, expecting time to heal you But it came so soon It was3:11 on a Tuesday afternoon
Dont make it better for me I wish youd just stop pretending Everyone is here for you This is your beautiful ending This is your beautiful ending
No one ever takes, your place No one ever really smiles quite like you I wish I knew the words, to say Other than goodbye
to this everyday life Its so much harder for me Cause you were so undefended Oh, I dont think you ever knew (I dont think you ever knew) It was so beautiful and
Dont make it better on me I wish youd just stop pretending Were all here waitin for you This is your beautiful ending This is your beautiful ending This is your beautiful
>>562648309 >when people are depressed their energy... Stopped right there. I mean Elliot is a good trainer but he is soo full of bro science that it makes me kek 24/7. Although like I said he seems like a cool dude.
>>562648580 I understand that. But I promise you... there is someone close to their breaking point. Someone who has no chemical imbalances, but their world crashed all at once and it feels like there's no reason to try. Maybe, just the realization that another human being on this earth would be upset to hear they ended it, or maybe that someone has been where they are, and somehow, shit got better... maybe it will help.
I was that guy once, I had half a bottle of pills down, nevermind what got me to that place. But someone identified with me, suggested a small thing I could do that snowballed into things working out
>>562649069 See anon? That is your problem, you always try to get away from people by calling them names and so on. Trust me, you just got help me to help you mate. Now tell me exactly the drugs/period/dosage of the medicaments that you were prescribed by your doctor.
>finally meet qt >not very pretty, but good enough for me >doesn't mind me still living with parents >I've hidden my darker side from her >start to get close >intimacy ensures >mom notices development >has a talk with gf behind my back >mom tells her everything, even about the shit jugs >gf confronts me >tells me it's too much, even for her >severs out relationship >I confront mom after her work >ask her why she ruined it for me >mom says: >"That girl deserves someone better. Someone safe, someone who'll..." >spash my soda into moms face >run into room >mom later finds me crying softly in bed >"I'm sorry, anon. Shhh...It'll be fine. Shhh" as she pats my head >leaves NO IT WONT, MOTHER, NO IT WONT
>>562650064 I reallyyyy don't want to get into the full story of my life. It's weird twisted and parts of it are ugly. I got SOBER when my son was born. That doesn't mean shit has been perfect since then. After my son's mother left, I was bouncing from temp job to temp job. I couldn't provide for my son and I gave my parents legal custody for a bit. I was also borderline homeless, had occasional deep depression bouts. etc.
My life still aint perfect now. I'm a basket case when it comes to relationships. I don't leave my house other than to go to work, groceries, pay bills etc. But I'm not where I was.
You've replied to multiple threads with negative remarks, insinuating a myriad of things.
>>562648309 Trust me, i am on the path your are talking about. I know the painkillers are bad for me thats why i didnt take them all at t once that horrid night, where i shed and wished i would.. I took them slowly, night after night.. Today, or i guess last night depending where you are, is my 3 months till my 24th b-day. I wanted to take today as a day of renewal and being able to be accepted. I failed in some aspects, but gained in others, >I Can Make It.
>>562650176 looks like your mother just wants you to man up and start taking care of yourself more. Don't hate her, hate the current yourself.
>>562650818 Wow you actually read back my posts? Damn mate then at least go to the doctors again for more medication or something. If you have serious depression nobody will help you except medication ( or a good beating from your father which you obviously didn't have).
Your speech and your actions are a reflection of your conscious and subconscious thoughts, and of course your emotions can come before or after your thoughts. Now the thing is, we are creatures of habit and if you constantly think thoughts that induce negative emotions, your mind starts to need these emotions to feel normal, just like some nasty drug. So you actually want to feel shitty and you seek out content that makes you feel shitty or else your mind gets bored and the desire will grow for negativity. I believe because of this, /b/tards are trapped in a vicious cycle of negativity, bitterness and depression. Feeling good and optimistic is all very strange for you so you’d rather view a gore thread or be racist or sexist and generally horrible because you need to be.
But you can change this by altering the content which you consume and altering the thoughts which you think. Think, speak and act with kindness, love and decency and seek out kindness, love and decency and soon you will need only these things to feel normal and purposeful.
>>562651153 To be honest because I think that the only way for people to stop being such crybabies is some though love and motivation (excluding if the problem is serious like clinically diagnosed depression). Well at least that shit helped me, well, at least to some extent, so why not try that on others. >+ I have seen some shit and most of the stories in such baww threads makes me think where did the parents of some of the posters went wrong
>>562652098 You're missing the point, friend. Some of us need baww threads. We can't let it out to family, friends, etc. We come here, because /b/rothers don't judge. We acknowledge the feel, offer a piece of hope, something. Tomorrow, most of us will roll out of bed, put on our pants, and go to work, school, smile, and be strong, because that's what we do. We carry on. For most of us, it's a fake smile, a front, because we can't let anyone know we hurt. But for one or two of us, that smile is real. It's a little sad, but it's real, because last night we /bawwed and a friend bawwed with us.
We baww here because we can baww nowhere else. You have done nothing but try to take that away from us. Find another thread friend.
I'm not following your shitty advice, especially when you're being this ignorant.
>If you have serious depression nobody will help you
You got it wrong, you're just proving how ignorant you are even more. Medication won't help you. All it does is balance the chemicals in the brain. You probably didn't even know that when you came to this thread.
>Get a good beating from your father
No. You obviously need to go outside and see that the world doesn't revolve around you. All your shitty advice comes from your perspective and like I said, it's not helping anyone.
Wow now it seems like the problem is you not the family. First going to doctors is an obvious choice, second - medication is your best chance fighting depression you uneducated fuck. Looking up the statistics sure won't do you no wrong.
The worst thing about being depressed is when you don't even have the guts to fucking kill yourself. When you put a brave face and feel like shit just because, not even knowing what is happening but wanting to die. Not having the balls to fucking end it, but not wanting to kill myself, i tried cutting one (yeah, so tumblr-ish) it didn't work. I'm too much of a faggot to kill myself, /b/ ¿Why the fuck can't i just off myself?
sup /b/, this thread may 404 soon, but I just need to put this out.
> be me > had ok amount of friends, low self-esteem, but had the confidence to speak, not with girls anyway > didn't know that girls think I was cute but no one thought I was date-able > meet a super-cute 7/10 > its one of those girls who is petite, and has the cutest smiles ever, and to this day no one came close to her > what I thought was a super nice girl once I first met her > don't talk for half the year > miraculously, we have the same private tutor > end up going to her house > really got to know her > shitty tutor, but stayed for her > honestly didn't fall in love her, rather loved her for who she is inside from what I got > parents were complaining how my marks were going down and decided to stop the tutor in the beginning of may > I knew that I was getting distracted by her and I didn't know what the fuck the tutor was saying > marks go up after that > we stop talking, but I really can't help but think she likes me after that because of all the damn signs she was giving me > be me with low self-esteem and confidence with girls I don't talk to her about it > wasn't too sure but my love for her died down > I ignore her for the rest of the year > she still likes me because of all the signs she was giving me
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>>562653442 wow you have so much anger in you anon. I would feel sad for you but we all know that you are the one desperate for the attention since this probably is the only place you can "get off". I just tried to be friendly and you called me a edgy teenager, faggot etc. You really hurt my feelings :(
>>562654747 So what you are saying that you made an image of her as your personal "waifu". Don't get hung over that shit. Just try to man up and ask her out of something since you can't actually see difference in signs so they might actually mean nothing.
Aww, the little ignorant professional made a diagnosis! How cute. Not.
>Medication is your best chance
Haha, show me some scientific prove you ignorant fuck. You're also forgetting that most mass shooters such as the ones from Columbine had some sort of medication in them. Where's your eduation, Mr. Professional? Oh right, down the garbage along with your high school diploma.
So I wanted to post about my life too cause of reading about so many others. This isn't as bad as some of yours but I started talking to a girl in grade 10 and we ended up dating briefly for like a month before she broke up with me after I broke a promise. She then dated someone else for about a year and the entire time all I could think about was her. They finally broke up and we've on and off talked for 2 years until we went to a party together where she openly flirted with everyone there and eventually went to her car and fucked someone. We haven't talked since then about 6 months ago and it still eats me alive every single day and keeps me up till 2 or 3 every night because I know that she was the perfect girl for me and that I'll never find someone like her and now I'm basically not even attracted to other girls and just pretty much ignore any girl that try's to talk to me because I can't think of anyone else. So yeah I'm stuck in that situation and have honestly though about suicide cause of it.
>>562656837 This is a motherfucking feel thread, we dont come here to see people getting angry at each other because their life was worse than others, we come here to feel like we belong, this kind of threads are the ones where we feel the tiniest bit accepted, so you better not fucking take that away from me, please don't...
>>562657207 This. I understand that this is the asshole of the internet, but come on man. Just let people have their time to talk. For some, this is the only conduit they have for their troubles. So just don't be a cunt, guys. Please
>>562654858 Start with something simple meet someone online cant say they wont break your heart but everyone will eventually it just works as a nice start and even though they will break your heart its totally worth it love starts as the best thing ever something you would never want to give up till its over and all you feel is pain and sorrow but it leaves the best memory's possible
>>562634702 Sometimes, I feel like my life can be best summed up as pic related. I try to stay optimistic and confident in my future/abilities, but I'm reminded everyday of just how much a failure I've become, and am likely destined to continue being. The only reason I don't jump off a parking garage right now, is because a small part of me still believes I will achieve what I've set out to do.
>>562654747 > notice she's changing slowly > starts hanging around with the sluts and douchebags > im slightly worried but I didn't let it get it to me > all her friends give me the look of knowing what's going on > I try to message her during the last week of school and she replies > basically its some really beta cringy shit I don't wanna read, but her replies seem either she's being nice or she likes me, and I don't even talk about her liking me or how I feel about her > don't want to message her again to make me feel thirsty > kick myself to this day as to why i haven't taken that opportunity
> school ends and I move away to a new town
> fast forward a month later > I feel lonely, suddenly I love this girl again > thinking about what could have been > I round up the courage to message her > just a simple "hey" > no response > wait a day went she goes online > expect her to reply > no reply > wait one week > no reply
> say fuck it and move on but I have mixed feelings for her
now /b/. what do I do? do I message her again and try to start a legitimate conversation with her? or just move on? I still have some feeling for her but I don't want to get ignored. has she changed? has she become a bitch, /b/?
I'm confused, /b/. should I start a long distance relationship or just move on and be with new people?
sorry for the late reply, I had a few drinks and I'm tired. I'll add whatever missing info is needed.
Depressedfag here. I still sit alone outside at night contemplating suicide and asking myself if things really would be different if I offed myself. But recently, I gained a little brother. He's three years old and he loves his 'Bubby'. He is the sole reason I still exist. He loves me so much, and I have no right to take that away from him, especially at his age.
I don't condone suicide, but I understand it. I wouldn't blame you for killing yourself if literally everything in your life is permanent shit. But permanent is the key word here. My brother is permanent to me. I just thought I'd share that. I wish all of you a life a thousand times greater than mine. Find that permanent thing in your life. Have a good one.
>>562658517 I think your best interest is in moving on, friend. If she's fallen out of your life, and you've tried to make contact with her multiple times to no avail, it may be time to just get her out of your life so you can take in what's happening now instead of harping on the past. This coming from a guy whose very first girlfriend cheated on him. Twice. Then I talked her out of suicide. Twice.
>>562658517 If you can anon, move on and focus on other shit. You've got hobbies.. dig into them. The mind is a powerful fucking thing and if you use it to dwell on someone they can become this untouchable goddess that you are forever worshipping, but if you use it to move on, eventually, your mind will move the past where it belongs
I turned 19 yesterday. My mom spent the whole day out shopping and my dad had to work. They promised we would all go out to dinner as a family, but when the time came nothing happened. Last month was my little brother's 14th birthday. My mom got up early to make him his favorite breakfast and my dad took him to a car show all day. I guess this is how it feels to be the forgotten child...
>>562659094 Nothing. Nothing need be said. I've been in some dark shitty places and came through.. that took someone loving me. I swear on my life, no one will ever go without that if It is within my power to love them
>>562656126 I know it really seems that most girls are completely heartless. They can just seemingly up and forget about you, and leave you behind to pick up your pieces that they couldn't care less about. The stories we read on these threads about lost love, loneliness, and suicide.
Everyone is looking for 'the one'. All you want to do it pour your love and attention into someone to get some meaning out of your life, and for fuck sake it's really difficult to find someone who will accept it.
It's painful. It really is. Love will hurt you.
But sometimes, if you're lucky, you'll find a girl hiding away in her room, just like you. And she'll seem strange at first.
Plays games to pass the time. Draws the monsters she used to imagine as a kid. Likes to laugh and make silly jokes. Points at neat things she sees on the street and asks you what you think about it.
But she'll be just as confused and heartbroken as you too. Thinking too much about the things she has no control over. Feeling sorry for herself and seeking company with people who feel the same way, even if she doesn't even know any of their names.
And she'll realise that being lonely with you has made her really happy. And she'll toss in her bed thinking about it, about you.
And she'll shake, and giggle nervously. And she'll slowly build up the courage to tell you that you mean more to her than anything else in her life.
And for the first time you will realise, all of us will realise, that there are people just like you in this world. And they are not alone even when they think they are.
And, to be honest, they will love you more than you will ever imagine.
>>562659301 I know how it is man. My sister who's a junkie with 3 kids gets all the support from my parents. They literally just spent a few thousand the past week on them to go on vacation. They always buy them everything they need. Especially on birthdays, it's like a sweet sixteen every birthday for the kids. And here I am, sitting in my room day after day wearing torn up clothes, broken everything and trying my hardest planing to make them happy. They didn't get me anything for my birthday the last 4 years, and all I was really asking for was a happy birthday. I'm 23 years old and going no where but trying my hardest to end up somewhere just to be appreciated. I'm sure it'll get better; just not here
>>562658929 I'll try to start another conversation with her, when I'm probably drunk, and most likely I'll spill
>>562659041 >>562659053 I know what you guys mean. its in my best will to move on from this. but I can't let her go just yet. I'll try messaging her again, but right now, I need answers. I need an answer if she likes me or not. I need this to come off my chest for my sake.
I've watched this thread since it started. For those new to this thread.. please..read every post. For every asshole who is confused thinking this is a post where trolling is cool, there are 2 more who actually made some effort to be some comfort to someone. It's...heartening to see
I don't have time to green text the whole story, and I'm sorry but I need this off my chest. I miss my friends. I miss all the friends I have lost in the last year. All the fucking mental ones I had so much fun with. And why can't I see them any more? Well I was with some girl, they all hated her so much. I left her for someone else, so she fucked all my friends and now they're her friends instead. And because of the way I left her, I can't be her friend. And my jealous now-gf won't ever let me speak to her. I don't hate her any more. I just want my friends back.
I'm sure this doesn't mean much coming from me, but sometimes things just aren't as they seem. and maybe the case is that they don't think you need help. Maybe they think you're perfect and fine on your own.
>>562660418 your parents probably feel that she needs the most support because she fucked up her life bad and as parents they still have hope after everyone else gave up they are trying to rase her kids because she cant
>>562660446 When it comes down to it anon, you truly know what you need. One of my last conversations with the girl I thought was my soul mate involved screaming, crying, and finally a deep resolve to move past her.. Do what you have to do anon. But no matter what happens. Promise me this.. be broken right now, be broken if she rejects you. scream, cry, punch something.. but then.. pick yourself up. Carry on. I promise you, as long as you carry on. you will be ok. Pain hurts. but it doesn't last forever
>>562658929 I'll try to start another conversation with her, when I'm probably drunk, and most likely I'll spill
>>562659041 >>562659053 I know what you guys mean. its in my best will to move on from this. but I can't let her go just yet. I'll try messaging her again, but right now, I need answers. I need an answer if she likes me or not. I need this to come off my chest for my sake.
>>562660869 Junkies like that should be euthanized. And definitely not allowed to have kids. My cousin is one. She had three kids and abandoned her 11 year old daughter at a beach in Florida to go get her fix and came home a week later. Her 20 year old son hates her guts and I agree with him.
>>562660685 I went through something similar, but not as extreme as that my freshman year, Anon. My girlfriend was a social outcast, and that pivotal year of high school was spent consoling her that she had friends, her parents really did love her, that killing herself wasn't the answer, while practically the entire grade shunned me. Then She cheated on me twice. And I talked her out of suicide. Twice. >Thanks for the cry /b/ros. Keep your chin up, it will get better.
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