Started low because my strongest early memories are sad one.
Began to feel depressed at 12. Middle school was hellish experience. Life gradually improved through high school. Met friends after my first stint in college that made life seem worthwhile. Fell in love with a girl shortly after that, thought she was THE one, got dumped a few years later and felt agony and despair. Moved, went back to college, graduated, found a great girlfriend, still struggling a lot but things are on the up.
If this one breaks up with me I'll kill myself, not a threat or a feel sorry for me thing, just reality.
Objectively happy childhood; don't remember much.
Overburdened myself in high school, got some professional counseling.
Joined the Navy right out of high school, all gung-ho and that shit. Quickly realized it for the soul crushing environment it was.
Got out at 24ish, immediate boost only marred by passing of father.
Future's looking pretty good.
Felt like I was doing nothing with my life but learning trivia facts in school. Graduated within the top percentile of my class but did not want to go to college. Decided to join the army. Happiest I've been since
Started good, drastically dropped at 15, severe depression since. Been thinking about killing myself lately.
Decided on it yet? Robin Williams an heroed just the other day if you need some motivation
Not old enough to know any better?
Ask a 2 year old if he is happy and his context is that scrapped knee from last week.
Most adults realize they had no real concept of unhappiness until roughly teen years.
shitty relationship and the subsequent breakup
>captcha less repayme
tried to kill myself at 15, ended up in the hospital :^( mdd wont go away either and docs will only assign me meds for anxiety
So everyone here was an edgy,suicidal teenager.
Why are you all so depressed?
I'm on my phone so I can't draw,but if I could my happiness would never dip below 65....
Except maybe when people died,and for very brief periods of time
2 years - finally learned to quit shitting myself
6 years - parents divorced, dad got custody
8 years - dad remarried! i've always wanted an old brother!
8.2 years - dad's second wife and family are a bunch of wankers
12 years - quality of life steadily declining due to horrible family
12.1 years - discovered fapping
14 years - novelty of fapping has worn off, but still feelsgoodman
18 years - i'm finally an adult
24 years - being an adult sucks.
24.1 years - discovered weed
24.11 years - discovers fapping on weed"weed whacking")
i think it's safe to say that life only goes downhill from here.
Best Ican do is graph how well my years have been. Pretty sure that's not the definition of happiness.
Its not life,its hormones.
Why did I never feel the urge to kill myself? I never had many friends,and haven't had the best life,but I never was really depressed,and always understood everything is good.
Maybe its because I realised at about 12 that I have everything I want?I remember not being able to decide what I want for my birthday because I never needed much.
Happy as a kid, then moved from eastern europe to germany when the borders opened. Somewhat happy time in the beginning, then my sister and i could not go to same school which made me sad. Found out school isn't that bad and i made new friends. When i had friends we moved to another city. Just when things got better, puberty hit me and i had bad skin, started growing late and so on.
Only when i got 16 it got better and parties and stuff started and i got a bit popular, first gf, first sex... then gf broke up, best friend i had in those days killed himself while on drugs. worst time of my life. met a girl with 20 but she was a stupid bitch. still stayed with her till 24, just because. left her and had new girl a month later. she gave me confidence back to finish a college degree. 3 months ago i got a great job. and that's all.
not 14, or depressed or even mildly sad. i don't even know why i made it. life's great.
Hopefully the mizzles won't follow us then
Depression is a weird experience
I've always had everything I could possibly want, was never really hated by many people, had a couple close friends, great family, etc. yet I still ended up being sad a lot and wanting to off myself a couple times.
At first it was just sadness and I was like "Oh I'm just havin a bad stretch here it'll pass" and it never did.
Started thinking about death and suicide a lot, at first it was just sorta thoughts but the more they came to mind the better suicide started sounding to me, which was the point where I decided I should probably discuss it with someone before I go off the deep end.
but they would kill these beautiful graphs D:
0-12: Had an AMAZING childhood. Great family, lots of freedom, had sex at 12 with neighborhood girl named Taylor who initiated it, life was really good.
13-15: Life started to suck a lot more. Taylor moves away 70 miles north and we never talk to each other again. Best friends I always hung out with move away as well. I become more shy as 7th-9th grade is a bitch.
16-17: Social confidence builds back up. Have way more friends again, popular kid in high school, grades are decent but not great. Feels good man.
18 (Now): It's been hard lately. No friends, moved to Seattle and it's the summer right before I go to college. Been trying to lose some weight to try to look good, general anxiety of going away to school, etc.
They don't seem to care, at least once we push a thread beyond redemption
Went to a Southern Christian Baptist "school", one room k-12. Once got in trouble for laughing out lound when the "teacher" said "Poe would have been better if he had Jesus in his life."
>first memories not happy
>4 years old told mom I want to die already
>5y.o. School starts. I love school.
>5 - 10y.o. All kids are equal. Boys and girls it doesn't matter. "I'm going to grow to be an awesome person!"
>Puberty strikes. Wait we are different and I don't like where this is going.
>12 - 25 are the worst years ever.
>25 and above. Fuck it man. Lets do this. Being sad doesn't change anything.
just some miscellaneous anon, although i tripfagged on /mu/ a but as well before here
elementary school + high school was terrible
last year of high school finally got my first gf
first two years of university was the best time of my life
now, third year of uni, feel like shit, depressed, no self confidence, procrastinating all the time...
I'm an emotional roller coaster, but I don't talk about my feelings to others.
Yeah it's like they can't even afford a constant supply of morphine
>inb4 Bane jokes
This sums it up pretty accurately. I'm currently almost 34.
Mostly issues with father, step dad, "friends" and relationships. Fuck people, man.
>/b/ doesn't make me happy
>unless there's a good thred
>unlike this one
I know I'm a faggot for only being with one woman, but I'm a happy faggot.
Seeing a pretty common trend here.
Explaining my own.
Things are great until we go to school. Then everything goes to shit.
Followed by year of depression from 21 onward. Dropped out of college and fucked around during my 20s.
That was also how it was for me. I didn't recover until I decided to go back to college at 31. Feeling much better now.
Everything will be ok, anon. It's all about baby steps towards a more productive, outgoing lifestyle while maintaining the progress you've made previously. Start cycling every once in a while to clear your head and improve your health. Go out of your comfort zone once a week to talk to someone new.
Didn't know I can get feels from looking at fucking graphs. Jesus fuck /b/. It's like I'm back in geometry
Life started well, not much more to say. Happiness went down to normal levels as I aged, not much to say but middle school blues. High school starts, my friends get old enough with me to actually have fun (fireworks, pot, drinking, partying generally).
Turn 16, get girlfriend, get sex. She's a psychopath with alcoholic parents, start drinking with them a lot. Dad get's sick with crohn's disease (bad flare up), I find out I have Crohn's disease, but it's mild. Shitty time.
Girlfriend cheats, dump her ass (I fuck and chucked her). Her good friend is a 7-8/10, dancer's legs and ass with DD's. Also, really chill and thought I was a messiah. Fixed the problems in her life (poor self image, parents in failing marriage, no confidence). She dates me, becomes the beautiful person she wanted to be.
Life is fantastic. Have great friends, great girlfriend, family is doing alright, though money's a bit tighter than I would have hoped. Go to college, first semester goes great, girlfriend and I had barely had a fight in a full year of relationship at this point.
Winter break comes. Dad is noticeably sicker, mom has been overspending, sister has cocaine addiction. Got through it thanks to friends and girlfriend.
Not resting from taking care of family winter break kills me. "Mild" Crohn's disease turns severe. 12 bathroom trips a day, hospital visits during semester, missed classes. Right before finals week, girlfriend calls. She cheated on me and is now dating new guy from her university. Dumped me because I got sick and she didn't want to date a leper.
Fail one class, do meh in others (2 B's and C). Forced to leave school (I can't dorm anymore with Crohn's). Go home to find dad sicker than me, sister now addicted to heroin, family bleeding money.
Now ex-girlfriend is clingy, and I'm still in love. Spend whole summer caring for her like girlfriend, sex included. Be taking care of two other mentally ill friends.
The sky is the limit. My childhood sucked but I think I am almost over it.
Thought about ending it, but then university, liquor, and women.
To continue (I know none of you care, but venting helps a bit)
Ex girlfriend drops me out of the blue once school is two weeks away. Just ceases conversation with me, days after telling me that her boyfriend MAY have chlamydia and I MAY need to get tested.
Dad is sicker and sicker. He's main income, also my role model for surviving with Crohn's. Sister is getting deeper into the spiral. Mom is spending faster than I can put money into her account.
Just found out that I am too ill to attend university in the fall, may need colostomy at the age of 19. /b/, I can't think of a good reason to stay alive. I just don't care anymore. My family is crushing me, my friends aren't doing anything to help, my love ditched me from some 2 bit douche after I built who she is as a person, gave her confidence, showed her what she loves now.
On top of that, I'm about to lose my colon at the age of 19. I can't be promised a long life at all. I've tried, I'll admit not fully seriously, suicide twice. Pills. Came close once, but threw up too much from crohn's. I'll probably go the robin williams route with slitting my wrists and a belt as a noose. I don't have the money for a helium tank even. So if I do kill myself before I come back to /b/, thanks for being around to give me a laugh when I needed one, always. I've been posting on here since 2008 (yeah yeah underage fuck you I'm 19 now), and /b/ has never failed me, no matter how shit we are.
Pic related, shit like that made me chuckle years ago, still does now.
Haven't had any heated arguments yet. Normally it's financial shit that breaks a family apart, thankfully, we both make good money, and I'm amazing at managing my budget because my family was poor as fuck when I was in HS.
you place too much importance on relationships.,
Life accepted as complete and irrevocable failure at 20.
Attempted suicide once.
man, didn't realize my life had so many ups and downs.
Fuck this chart
>Life started well, not much more to say. Happiness went down to normal levels as I aged, not much to say but middle school blues. High school starts, my friends get old enough with me to actually have fun (fireworks, pot, drinking, partying generally).
>Turn 16, get girlfriend, get sex. She's a psychopath with alcoholic parents, start drinking with them a lot. Dad get's sick with crohn's disease (bad flare up), I find out I have Crohn's disease, but it's mild. Shitty time.
>Girlfriend cheats, dump her ass (I fuck and chucked her). Her good friend is a 7-8/10, dancer's legs and ass with DD's. Also, really chill and thought I was a messiah. Fixed the problems in her life (poor self image, parents in failing marriage, no confidence). She dates me, becomes the beautiful person she wanted to be.
>Life is fantastic. Have great friends, great girlfriend, family is doing alright, though money's a bit tighter than I would have hoped. Go to college, first semester goes great, girlfriend and I had barely had a fight in a full year of relationship at this point.
>Winter break comes. Dad is noticeably sicker, mom has been overspending, sister has cocaine addiction. Got through it thanks to friends and girlfriend.
>Not resting from taking care of family winter break kills me. "Mild" Crohn's disease turns severe. 12 bathroom trips a day, hospital visits during semester, missed classes. Right before finals week, girlfriend calls. She cheated on me and is now dating new guy from her university. Dumped me because I got sick and she didn't want to date a leper.
>Fail one class, do meh in others (2 B's and C). Forced to leave school (I can't dorm anymore with Crohn's). Go home to find dad sicker than me, sister now addicted to heroin, family bleeding money.
>Now ex-girlfriend is clingy, and I'm still in love. Spend whole summer caring for her like girlfriend, sex included. Be taking care of two other mentally ill friends.
I should've put at 8 and 13, two other impulses. When I met the guitar, and when I had my first electric guitar respectively.
First one I met my first band.
Second one, I bought lots of nice stuff for my guitar.
Something along these lines I suppose. In retrospect I'm glad I never did buy that rope.
Pretty sad. At least I'm not dying I guess. But 24/7 foot pain with no job I can do right when I'm 18 is not fun
ITT: /b/ in a nutshell - kids from ruined marriages, bullied at school, got trough tough separations and shit...
all of you are damaged in more than one way...
no happy anons around
If you haven't been happy, I hope you find it.
If you have, I hope you keep it.
Dammit, I've been holding everything together well. I didn't think a post on 4chan would push me over tonight. (I get it, I'm a fag, just like OP).
I got my own apartment at 18 my dad pays for it though
me mom died when i was 15, thats the big drop
I have a family with money.
And I don't really have choice cause I study somewhere far away from anyone I know.
>start out happy, parents got divorced, dad got custody, psychotic and abusive
>he eventually got ECT and became a docile half-vegetable, round the same time get first gf, lose virginity (14), slightly happy
>gf end up being batshit crazy, tries to kill self/me several times
>break up with her, switch high schools, start some faggot band that made shit music with cool friends, drink beer (17)
>happiest time in life
>meet next gf--she ended up being batshit crazy too, faked pregnancies and tried killing self, faked having cancer, all to keep me with her
>worst time in life
>finally dumped her ass, whole uni hated me, she claims I raped her for two years, abandoned her with fake "cancer"
>meet new qt3.14 gf, start at new uni, got our own place and life is good except for our shitty roommate
First drop was feeling isolated in a new country, second was gradually worsening depression that saw me spend time in a mental hospital. Big upwards leap after that was getting my life back on track, then the drop down to 0 was cancer. And then remission, and a steady job, and meeting a great grill is that final one. Miscarriage is the newest slope.
lel I'm a faggot
>hardcore pokemon inbreeding
I don't know I found it on a facebook page, it's the dog of someone who sent them a message. They post cute doge of the fans. They were just a little message like "Second time she's going to the park, she's really excited" or some shit like that.
Thought it would fit perfectly here cause her face is epic.
Thing a progresively getting shittier. Suicidal thoughts on the daily. Dateless, kissless virgin, only one friend that I think actually has a large amount of genuine concern for my well-being. Even she can be pretty bitchy, though I mostly blame my socially retarded self for that. Best part is that im hopelessly in love with her and not a single chance of ever being with her.
sad cuz mom snapped my cod disk for swearing at her
had a few downs but all in all cool, now its going down a little and i have to say 4chan is kind of part of it, the laughs are better than ever but its so cold around here idk how to explain
Can I meet you ? Or just talk with you ?
When you're a kid you don't see any problems in life usually, you just have so much things to discover. I mean, even butterflies are like tiny dragons, that's amazing.
You can expect to see the vast majority of graphs slowly or sharply descend over time. It's a nostalgia effect. You remember a bit of the past, but not the entire circumstance. Looking back retrospectively, you see a situation in which you were completely happy, but in reality you were still equally as mentally unstable, just regarding different things.
Black is recorded, Red is projected.
I'm not a man first off. But everything just starts to make a bit more fucking sense as you get older. Used to be scared of ageing but now i'm kinda excited to see what other shit I learn.
Do all old people have sticks rammed that far up their rears? Alright, SIR.
What makes sense though? Why does the thought of slowly rotting not make you uneasy? I get the learning thing, experience is awesome and it's like whole new worlds open up, but damn. What use is learning if I'm just going to turn into dust? What if I don't like raisin bran? I'd be terrible as an old person!
Haha, I was going for the i'm a female angle but Sir will do.
Everyone's going to die obviously, but between now and then awesome shit can happen, like exploring ways to connect with the world and people around you. I was bought up in a pretty cynical family and this is /b/ so believe me I don't take this lightly when I say, meditation is pretty cool guy and helpful. Hippy talk over.
the drop during preteens was due to severe OCD, after i cleared that up it was pretty norm from then on
>2-8: cartoons, video games, fruitsnacks, not a care in the world.
>16: SEX!! YES!
>18-20: reality, work, no sex, depression, kill me. (gun in mouth)
>21: BOOZE!! kill me (gun still in mouth.)
>23-24: BOOZE AND SEX! WOO! (gun now pointed at niggers)
I had a terrible childhood. My brothers always picked on me and I was beyond socially retarded at school so no one (justifiably) liked me. I had serious anxiety and was just terrible at everything. Almost overnight I just started accepting what was going on and started improving, to great success. Now I am at University doing what I want to do, and am away from my brothers. These days my youngest brother is fine, my older brother is acceptable and my oldest brother is still a massive asshole and always will be. Overall I am really satisfied with where my life is going.
Dude are you dumb. It means power to the Jews
I'm always gonna have mental health issues, but right now I'm optimistic about the future, with £1.3k saved up and good job prospects when I graduate next year.
do what you have to but remember back when you were dumped the first time? You got through it and moved on with life. You certainly can again if it happens agian. I mean, do you really plan on letting someone else's emotions/feelings for you decide whether you live or die?