I'm drunk and my judgement is not so great right now.
Ask a necrophiliac anything (that isn't incriminating) while I dump a shitload of corpses and gore.
Going to post once every three minutes, questions or no. My dump earlier got interrupted and I don't like leaving things unfinished.
Seven that I can remember. I was in a manic episode with psychosis and my memory was... less than reliable... so there may have been more.
I actually can't orgasm with a live person. It's superior in virtually every way.
How did you get to the point where you enjoyed the idea of fucking dead people.
I've found that with arousal, the more weird, and fucked up it is, the more it turns me on, I'm getting further and further down the list of fucked up fetishes as old ones get boring. Are people like this just inherently broken? Is this progression of sexual activity, where you seek the most fucked up thing called anything as a mental condition? Are we psychopaths?
Kill them first. Pretty much the only thing preventing me from going completely off the deep end is the social and legal consequences. There are a lot of unapologetic necrophiles out there... it's a sexual preference, I can't do anything about it, so if I could have sex when I wanted to without risking going to prison for it, of course I would.
I've never been prosecuted for every body I've been with, and seeing as how /b/ is a honeypot, I honestly can't say. Anyone else who asks the same question ITT will have to be directed to this post.
My home was very turbulent, abusive and unpredictable. Coming from an extremely large family, I was taken to funerals on a regular basis from a young age. My exposure to death was so positive that I began to attach coping mechanism after coping mechanism and every positive value I could to death. I've been attracted to corpses before I hit puberty, and I've never been able to orgasm without at least looking at one. It's not the taboo that I'm attracted to, it's virtually every quality they possess outside of social norms. I've never enjoyed other fetishes despite trying them, and I am NOT a psychopath. Since this exclusive arousal I have towards a typically asexual object causes me marked distress, it constitutes as a paraphilia, which I have been diagnosed with as a textbook mental illness. I am, by definition, suffering from a mental condition. Doesn't mean I won't still get off from this thread, but hey, what can you do?
Sorry to tell you this but any sexual preferance or (fetishes) can be treated or unlearned :/ , but do as you please. As long as no one is being killed for your pleasure i see your not all horrible.
>How do find the bodies you fuck
>What was the most decayed body you fucked
Had been deceased for nearly two weeks, unembalmed, outdoors
>was flesh dripping off of it while you were fucking it
It was winter so it was relatively preserved- think like a chicken that's been boiled a little too long. The meat was extremely soft and could slide off the bone, but it wasn't dripping.
Sorry to tell you this but I've been in therapy for the last six years and personally tried damn near everything I could think of. Everything from aversion therapy to chemical castration has fucking failed me. All I can do at this point is remain celibate and learn to live with it.
Thanks for the sentiment, though.
Reading a little more than a dozen posts sure is hard.
I'm bisexual, or as the tumblrsluts say, "pansexual." Genitalia doesn't matter to me so long as they're dead- in fact it's entirely unnecessary.
I'm drunk and not reading my own posts, no. If you can't read between the lines, it would be compromising for me to say how I've acquired dead bodies in the past. You're like, asking a pedophile how they get kids.
I deal with your same situation only mine deeply hurts my inside, at a young age i was experimenting with alot of illegal substances, now it has become me being fascinated with the human mind. The different substances that change the way you think, smell, hear is just outstanding i have thoughts were i want to open up my mind and unlock all the potential of the human brain. Sometimes i go pyscho and think how will this react to me. Sadly i have to stop thinking those thoughts cause i know one day those drugs will end my life
It brings me comfort to know that drugs are bad and I'm not this fucked
It's EXTREMELY emotional. I spend the majority of the time with them spooning/cuddling/stroking them/exploring their body/etc. It's also as sexual as humanly possible but there's much more to it than me wanting to fuck them.
Forgot how quickly /b/ moves. Make that every two minutes.
so you work in the crematorium in a mortuary is my guess that's the only place I could see anyone getting ahold of an unembalmed body if they didn't kill the person.
but that wouldn't really narrow down anything.
I understand we all need to get off, etc. But Dont you have someone you love in your life?
Maybe yourself, a pal, family member, someone who helped you once?
I have a daughter and to think after i die, and after she dies. someone would do that to her. Makes me extremley ,mad.
But i also understand how uncontrollable actions can be, im a diagnosed psychopath
haha it deeply damaged me to the point where i dont even feel like i have a brain, just an empty skull filled with thoughts. It hurts me that i rarely feel any emotion any more... i have to think twice as hard to feel sadness or happiness. I can now see how the universe really is, just a fucked up place. But i tend to think on the positive side and do what any other (Normal) Human would do in a society. Which is help, till one day i die. If i was to die at a young age so be it i see that a i lived a good life.
maggots are one of my biggest fetishes
it's bad enough that even if they aren't on a coprse, the association is so strong that they turn me on anyway. it enhances the experience. it's like having dozens of tiny, squirming vibrators that eat away at anything that could harm you. they're nature's bros.
I have disowned my family and every relationship I've ever had ended because I couldn't be sexually attracted to my partner. I have friends that I care for, deeply, but it's not the same. I'm not a psychopath. I have a sex disorder. Doesn't mean I'm incapable of loving, I just can't orgasm with the living. I speculate I might be able to be happy with an asexual.
why would you be mad if someone messed with a dead body its just a shell. even if you are religious the body is just a vessel for the soul.
I wouldn't care if op wanted to fuck my dead body its a victimless crime.
I'm traumatized by my own actions, don't get me wrong, but I didn't need to rely on substances or anything and I can still feel emotion just fine. My perspective of the world hasn't changed based on what I've had sex with, only my perception of myself. God knows I'm doing everything I can now to help other people and be as kind and selfless as possible. I hope you find a way to live with yourself m8. Care to talk in any detail about what you've done? What kind of bodies you prefer?
I'm an organ donor and would donate my body to a necrophile in a heartbeat if there was a legally viable way to do so.
Its not a shell. Its like ashes almost? And i think its disrespectful.
All i hear from you is me me me. Im sure you had a hard life, and things led you down this path.
But trust me, you need to fight the evil inside you or it will take over.
I very nearly acted on thoughts of mine. Being a psychopath/sociopath, i often have thoughts i shouldnt. But i fight them.
Detracts, extremely. My little brother died a few years ago and I had a normal response to seeing his corpse. I can't get off to someone I know or have an emotional connection to, it HAS to be a stranger. I've said it before, and I'll say it again: I'm not a sociopath, if there's any room for me to empathize with the victim I can't do it.
I've bitten off and eaten large pieces of the living before. Cannibalism didn't appeal to me until extremely recently, and I haven't practiced it with the dead. Sanitary concerns outweigh any sort of sexual appeal. It's infinitely harder to protect yourself against something you're ingesting than something you're fucking.
No problem, that's the whole point of the thread.
Well op hope you keep your 'situaution' under control and stay to some degree 'sane' dont let the insanity lead you to any other harsher law breaking that can make you regret your reaction just so you can pleasure yourself.
>implying I haven't tried
I can't find it in me to believe in anything. Sorry m8.
I fight it every day. I haven't touched a body in three years and I never intend to again. I wouldn't be talking about it if I thought I was going to again.
You don't sound like a sociopath at all, you're clearly considering the emotions of others and empathizing. You wouldn't bother fighting them, you'd have that "me me me" mentality and do what makes you feel best, everyone else be damned. I think you're looking for an excuse to rationalize these thoughts you're having when there's something much more painful responsible.
Sorry, a few might wiggle their way into the dump.
People confuse not being able to truley feel emotion, with not being able to understand them.
I live for moments, i live in moments, thats all it is.
If you know about people like me you know we connect with people easily. that is because we understand how people feel. and use it for our advantage
>implying necrophilia hasn't existed as long as recorded history
>implying people haven't been getting away with it for even longer
You can't completely cleanse the human race. How about you stop casting judgement on people who can't help how they were born and look at what you CAN actually influence?
Thanks man. It is under control, it's been years since I've done anything and I'm under some extremely competent psychiatric care. I'm a law abiding citizen, volunteer, have a healthy social network, a good job, and I'm on a positive road to recovery. The only difference is that I can't have sex again. Ever.
Absolutely not. I lost my virginity when I was 16 to a living partner and have slept with a LOT of people trying AS MANY different things as I could fathom to try and find an alternative. I'd wager I have more experience than most people posting ITT.
if they gave me express, written consent, and their family did as well. Even then I'd be EXTREMELY hesitant and probably couldn't go through with it.
oh lord if you only knew how many times I got myself tested. I'm completely clean! I hardly even get colds. either I have the immune system of a God or all the protection I used paid off.
>All i hear from you is me me me
You could start your own thread, psycopath. Then it would be all you you you.
>if you didn't use a condom
>implying I didn't cover myself head-to-toe in plastic, fabric, 4-5 condoms, washed myself with bleach, threw away my clothes, shaved every last hair on my body, etc.
Please. Bitch nigga, please.
I've tried it several times before, yeah. Never works. They aren't real enough unfortunately.
I'm seeing them for the first time in five years next month. I have a weirder relationship with them than Norman Bates and his mother so I'm pretty much pissing myself at the prospect. Hopefully it goes okay. Hopefully.
I whack it to everything I'm posting ITT and anything else related. Videos especially but it's LUDICROUSLY hard to find videos of heavily decomposed bodies.
They don't know. I was in a relationship for two years and they've been under the impression I've been with the same guy all this time. I tried talking to my mother ONCE while I was institutionalized and she couldn't process what I was saying to her. She's like a Stepford Wife, anything different from her perfect idea of her life won't register and she'll beat the shit out of anyone who tries to say otherwise. They can't know and I don't want them to know.
I can see why you wouldn't want them to know, it'd be a hard thing for anyone to process I think.
Have you ever talked to other necrophiliacs either on-line or in person? If so would you consider yourself an "average" necrophiliac, if there is such a thing.
They have no idea. I've been with so many different men and women they likely think I'm bisexual. I'll never tell them. They can't keep a secret. If I were to tell them, my entire extended family would know. It would ruin any chances of getting a decent job, having a credible reputation, everything.
i want to die badly and I am a good looking young woman, i could proof it with a picture of my breasts I send you with a timestamp, would you kill me?
I'd officially allow you to fuck my dead corpse after
I've never talked to one. Lots of people that claimed to be then revealed they wanted people who were sleeping, or pretending to be dead, or never did anything IRL. One of the clinics I was seen at had treated a couple of necrophiles prior to me but I didn't get a chance to talk to them. There's a program I'm going to next year where I might, but the chance is extremely small.
Most necrophiles are INCREDIBLY discreet, it's not as if their victims are complaining so it's pretty easy to get away with compared to other sex offenses. I doubt I'll ever talk to another exclusive mutilonecrophiliac who prefers severely decomposed corpses. I am not average.
You'll come full circle eventually and get off to vanilla porn again, or so I hear.
No. It's behind me and I'd rather die than hurt another person to get off. Besides, even with express permission, families and friends have a habit of ruining the lives of necrophiles. It's not feasible.
Yes. I went home early from work today for the first time in my damn life because I was so frustrated and agitated. It's a living fucking nightmare but I deserve it so I'll endure.
Read the thread dipshit ayy lmao
Are you serious?
I am, I actually am, this is a picture of me.
I can send you more pictures and also do some with a timestamp and we talk about it if you add me on skype : xxalissaxxk.
First of all, I really feel for you man, 4chan has fucked me up and now I have to repress certain urges, probably for the rest of my life.
Question: do you think you'll ever be in a stable relationship? Are you able to love?
Only dead humans. Animals, death itself, etc. won't do anything for me. Has to be a human corpse that's obviously decomposing.
I've been in a stable relationship before but I don't think I can love someone. I can care for them deeply but it's never in a romantic sense because I only feel that for the deceased. It's INSANELY depressing, I've been in a couple of serious relationships before and EVERY TIME this has been the thing to destroy it.
If 4chan is what fucked you up though, get offline, you easily influenced bastard. Seriously. Don't take anything here seriously.
always happy to shed some light on it, necrophiles are an extremely quiet bunch (for good reason, see above) so if I can help with some awareness or anything all the better
I don't work at a morgue so I couldn't tell you. From what I've heard the answer is absolutely no.
Holy shit girl, Don't ask for this type of stuff.
Lets meet up, I can fuck you in ways that wipe those grim thoughts out of your head in an instant.
If you're underage we can find something else to do till you're 18.
>I'm not a 30 something neckbeard, I'm 19
Technically I was 14. I went to a funeral for a family friend and had some time alone in the viewing room with the body. Got to feel it and touch myself for a little while. Didn't actually fuck it but it was the first experience. Didn't really do anything major until I was 19.
Yes, I'll say enlightenment.
Not everyday we can ask question like this.
you'e said it's been about 5 years since the last time and you still have "craving" for dead bodies?
Or is it under control?
Livor mortis, bloat from organs collapsing and gasses expanding inside of taut, slipping skin, the moisture and leaking fluids, seeing it drip out of every orifice, the smell so pungent and strong you can taste it, clouded eyes, mutilated faces, distortion so impossibly convoluted the person's original identity is almost impossible to discern, their stillness, how quiet it is, the vermin, especially maggots, feeling the eerily cool skin and meat and bone. Not so much the blood because it obscures a lot. Bile, yes. Everything, man. Absolutely everything. They're beautiful.
I "crave" it every fucking moment. I don't get relief even when I'm asleep. I'm absolutely fucking obsessed and it physically pains me to do nothing about it. I feel like a part of me is being squashed out, like my light and reason for existing is being repressed, that I'm denying who I am and what I need and the only thing that feels right
IMPORTANT BUT HERE
I recognize that it's all mental illness and I can't hurt other people for my own pleasure. So I suffer. I won't kill myself, I've fought this for so long that I can't give up. I deal with it. It's under control no matter how much it pains me.
Because /b/ still has many people from every walk of life imaginable coming to it, I'll just assume you're being truthful and this isn't one delusional troll.
This entire thread is beyond fascinating. I don't think I could ever fuck a corpse, but I've never truly believed that such people even existed.
So tell me, OP. If you were to die today, in whatever fashion: Would you be okay with, or even go so far as to want someone else to fuck your dead body? I mean, yeah dead's dead so who gives a shit but, still.
One of them asked me to kill him and had every intention of going through with it. I stopped myself at the very last moment. We never saw each other again after that night.
Another had been with me while I fucked the majority of the bodies I've been with. He had no idea and reacted as badly as humanly possible. Called me a lot of names, wished me dead. broke up with me while I was in a mental asylum.
The last one was extremely supportive at first but eventually showed that all he wanted was to get his dick wet and thought he could "fix" me by wanting me badly enough. I broke things off when he couldn't stop insisting that I needed to try harder if I wanted to be normal.
Odd to think that I never told any of the women.
We exist alright. I'm sure there are a lot of people like me too terrified to speak up who have to live with this every day. I'm really happy to hear that I've been able to talk to a few people who appreciate it.
I would want another necrophile to fuck my dead body. I'm already an organ donor. If the bits that would be thrown away could be given to someone who desperately wants it, I would gladly give them over, regardless of who it is. It seems like it would be a waste not to.
I've read through the entire thread and you're an extremely interesting person. It's good to hear that you understand how your fetish affects others, and I wish you all the best luck in overcoming this part of you. For the most part, you sound like a bro.
As for my question: would working at a morgue be a dream job for you or the worst job?
Thanks. It's understandable.
you've already done a great work on yourself by asking for help, admitting it's a mental illness and do your best to overcome it.
Hope you'll find something that can help you to feel better and suffer less.
I repeat, great work by now!
Thank you so much m8, it seriously means a lot to me. My dream job is to be a forensic pathologist. I have slightly higher ambitions than just being a coroner or funeral director. Being around bodies and being able to help people and bring closure to their families and loved ones is kind of the best thing I could possibly imagine spending my time and energy on.
Making me choke up a bit here
that's a really nice sentiment, OP. follow your dream with all your strength, I get the vibe that you could add some great new information to how we deal with death and the deceased.
You said you could only develop romantic feelings for corpses. Are these feelings really romantic or more leaning to the sexual side? (seeing as you chose strangers, you can't know their personality)
It's getting late on my end so only one more question.
What was the push that made you seek help regarding your issue?
Also as others have said I really hope you keep making progress like you have been. You sound like a solid chap with an unfortunate mental condition but you having acknowledged that has hopeful put you on the road to recovery. All the best luck with reuniting with your family and further rehabilitation.
that's what I'm really hoping for, too. my experience might come from a shitty place but I feel the best I can do is apply it to something that can help a lot of other people, you know?
Virtually everything on a corpse is as sexual as a cock, pussy or breasts to me. I've gotten off from some severed toes before, and they're were pretty fucking liquidated. Injuries, especially knife wounds, get me off like almost nothing else. It's all fucking amazing, man.
As romanticized as you can make an object that you base the entirety of your emotional health off of, something you obsess over night and day, something that you lust for as badly as someone with oneitis, something that you risk your name and your freedom to pursue even for a few fleeting moments. It's terribly, impossibly romantic. It only enhances the sex. Their personality has no role in it. It's not the stranger, it's not who that person was. It's the inanimate object. It's their corpse.
I had a complete mental collapse after an intense manic episode with psychosis where I could not control my actions. I knew if I didn't get help, I was going to pursue this, and nothing else, until I died or was killed. I value pretty much everything else in life more than my sex drive. The trouble is that I'm very sick and feel nothing more strongly than the urge to pursue this, so it feels like I'm working against my most basic needs when in reality I'm fighting it to look after myself as I really should.
It's kind of hard to articulate, especially when I'm inebriated, but I hope that sheds some light on things.
Thanks again for all the warm wishes, I really can't tell you how much it means.
Pretending doesn't work. I've tried it several times before and I can't even get turned on.
(it's not bad don't worry for fuck's sake you're on /b/)
just read the thread. terribly fascinating, yet terrible condition you have. i wish you the best. how old are you? do you think you could go to college? do you think that fulfillig you fantasies through pictures and thoughts rather than the action lowers your chance of "relapsing"?
>tfw I've received more kindness and acceptance on 4chan than anywhere else on earth
it's a weird world we live in
a sick, fucked up world
Thanks man. I'm 22, and hoping to go to college by next year. Studying is a right cunt when I'm trying to deal with so much. Doing stuff like dumping pics here and talking about fantasies helps tremendously to not do anything in person. So long as I have some outlet, I'm sure I'll be alright.
then an hero, it's not that hard.
I hope you find the help you seek, I for one don't have anything against necrophilia (I don't find it pleasent either) but seeing as you suffered from psychosis (maybe because of your urges) means you have to find some help. I'm rooting for you, /b/ro. And don't you ever forget, that if everything in your life starts to suck, you have a crapload of friends here, the comments I've seen in this thread made me realise the old /b/ isn't dead yet. Best of luck!
Thank you so much ;_;
Anywhere. Absolutely fucking anywhere, m8. An amputated thigh with a whole carved into it. Dry-humping a slit throat. Anything.
i think 4chan is society without the social limits, the anonymous system allow to express, maybe, a bit more what we think or we are.
Sometimes it's incredibly interesting, sometimes creepy as hell, etc...
No animals, too. But seriously no fucking kids. I draw the line. Why have a kid when I could have a nicely developed lady or a well-hung guy? and the thought of desecrating someone's child
hey if it means anything you are very attractive, I'm sure you'll make this necrophiliacs dream come true.
Not sure why people just want to die so badly, and so young too, but to each their own right?
See you later.
Op, you're awesome. I've never thought about this necrophilia thing like this, you literally opened my eyes. Thanks, this thread is one of the best threads in recent time on 4chan.
that's what I'll try and think of in the future mayne. thanks.
If you're genuinely a necrophile, could you talk some more about it? or are you just another thirsty fuck looking to bang some chick and leave her high and dry with 0 interest in her corpse?
Fair enough, I just gathered otherwise.
I like that you see it as desecration, you aren't actually 5edgy4me.
Which is what I expected from this thread from the start.
Thoroughly surprised, 10/10
op suppose you were in the forest and stumbled upon a recently deceased corpse (adult male or female). would there be any hesitation to fuck it?
also i assume you are a male?
It's been quite some time. 10 years I've been here, and a thread like this comes maybe 1 time every 2-3 years.
Good work OP, though I think I'll stick to live people personally; but do what works for you
>within your moral grounds
well shit, thanks. it's been my pleasure.
don't question my hypocrisy, m8. there's no use arguing if pedophilia or necrophilia is more degenerate. being the latter it's my obligation to side with what I practice.
Weird thread, OP. One of the more interesting ones I've seen recently. Three questions that I don't think have been asked:
1. Are you particularly attracted to the decay/flesh, or would a bare skeleton be a turn-on for you? Would you (could you?) try fucking a skeleton?
2. Does it have to be a body (read: majority of person), or to individual parts work for you too? Say you just found a leg severed from the knee down and nothing else, or an arm from the elbow down. Would that do anything for you?
3. Does the smell enhance or detract from the experience, or does it not bother you?
I am loving your thread, bro.
When you were fucking corpses, where did you fuck them? how many male/female?
In the usual orifices, or in stab wounds, etc?
Also: what do you think of the music of Alice Cooper? He has performed4 or 5 songs on the subject, though perhaps tongue-in-cheek.
>can you get diseases from fucking dead bodies
you are literally the epitome of human ignorance
On the other hand, if there's an Ebola outbreak (p. much impossible) OP will be kil, or be driven insane by his cravings.
Fucking hell you guys, my heart is fit to burst. Thank you so much. You've turned this from a night of bitterly drinking home alone to feeling some serious acceptance and kindness from the world.
That shit would be free game and I'd be out of there faster than you can say "sex crime"
I'm female. Wasn't going to mention it unless someone asked explicitly but there it is
It's like God himself has descended and blessed your body with the gifts of the blessed. Man. It seriously defies description. I've passed out, multiple times, from jizzing so fucking hard. The most rotten I had was two weeks, almost all of them had just gone cold. Didn't have a lot of time to work with. There is an EXTREMELY high risk of disease and you can catch some horrific shit. Luckily for me I'm still clean.
Thanks m8, I really appreciate it.
I do not like skeletons. I need their flesh. It's decomposition that turns me on, and skeletons have nothing left.
Individual parts work. I've been able to get off on as little as a few toes. A leg would be more than enough.
The smell enhances it and I can get off from it alone if it's from an actual corpse.
Hotels, motels, abandoned parking lots, wooded areas. 4 female, 3 male. Everywhere. Fucking everywhere. I molested the shit out of them.
Cold Ethyl is absolutely hilarious. Alice Cooper is alright in my book.
Obviously posting once per reply due to the sudden influx
I can't even tell you how much I'd love to grab a few beers with you guys.
Yes, when the body decays you will be exposing yourself to a number of harmful things.
It's really fucking obvious, anon.
tits or gtfo tho op, you know the rules
I seriously, highly fucking doubt I will ever get the chance to talk to another female necrophile. It's pretty depressing but I'm sort of resigned to it by now.
Been tempted a couple times to write to Karen Greenlee but the thought of being traced somehow is too much for me to even try
Same way any woman fucks anything. Humping, putting bits of them in me, brushing my breasts against them. Pretty much any proximity to them turns me on, I don't even have to touch the corpse to orgasm. Grinding up against it or being penetrated by any part of it, needless to say, gets the job done.
More than happy to have provided it. This has been really, unexpectedly nice.
Probably a 5/10. I used to be incredibly attractive but I've stopped caring over the last few years.
>will never have a living partner
>no reason to look after my appearance beyond basic standards for work and school
>0 shits given, forever
It would be a shame if I had anyone to impress, but I'm naturally attractive enough that even no effort exerted is enough to still use it to my advantage. Eh. Sorry for rambling, it's not very relevant to the thread.
I've been continuously drinking this entire time lol
>implying there's nothing to be gained from talking to people you aren't sexually interested in
I know this is /b/ but surely the concept isn't so abstract you can't grasp it
Now everyone is going to circlejerk and speak almost only about how OP is (potentially) female.
Do you see? I'm not the one ruining the thread with bullshit.
OP, another question:
Does anyone know about your issue in person?
If so, what do they think about it and how have they acknowledged it?
OP im having dinner at the moment plz seize pic dump for a while :( Also save thread screenshot or whatever so that you can look at the nice comments anytime you are feeling down
I'm crying right now from laughing so hard
just wanted you to know that
Oh look we got a piece of shit that tries to call its self human. That's cute
>Does anyone know about your issue in person?
>If so, what do they think about it and how have they acknowledged it?
Several friends I've made from 4chan know and they treat me as if it's not even an issue. I fucking love them all beyond description. My last forensic psychiatrist, current psychiatrist and current forensic psychiatrist also know, and they are all extremely uncomfortable and reluctant to discuss it. When they do, they're very frank. The forensic psychiatrists are painfully clinical. The regular psychiatrist is very sympathetic but obviously unsure of what to say or do.
>plz seize pic dump for a while :(
lol do you know where you are
Watch your tone, fucker!
OP is a lady!
I might just overcome my paranoia one day and reach out to her. I don't think she'd have any incentive to forward me to the authorities and it could help.
>about an FBI fisher
Feels gud brah?
Thanks for answering. It's 3AM so I'm going to bed. Thread won't be up when I wake up.
Good luck with the future, OP. I think both that you're able/willing to talk about it as well as your ability to recognise it as a "problem" (for lack of a better word) are very positive signs. I hope you're able to take away from this thread that not everyone in the world will shun you or abandon you because of it, even if we don't understand or condone your actions/feelings.
Personally, if I met you down the pub and you told me you're a necrophile, well...wouldn't stop me including you in the next round. You don't sound and weirder than the next guy. Or girl, in this case.
I've been told I look like Lena Headley, Lucy Lawless, Aubrey Plaza, Eva Habermann, and a couple others. I'm sure you get the idea. Lena is definitely the top though.
oh right, sorry - lol
i read your posts, higher up and i gotta say, i understand you. i myself am a spankophilliac and i'm wired just the way you are, except it's with spanking not with corpses. but i understand how you got it because like you said you went to many funerals as a kid, i got spanked one too many times as a kid and my mom always threatened me with spanking, which gave me anxiety and as soon as i hit puberty, that anxiety turned into a class 3 fetish. the orgasms i have during normal sex are okay, but the orgasms i have before, during and after a spanking are divine. it's like being kissed by god it's better than anything else in the entire fucking word. the longer a spanking is, the sounds, the slapping sounds, the burning cheeks, the color of the cheeks, the scolding, it's just so...soo goood, it's ecstatic, i could get spanked forever, i loose track of time
lol i got carried away, so yeah i know why you have it because i'm wired like you are, except it's spankophillia not necrophillia
i've always wondered, do we feel ''more'' pleasure ? people with fetishes ? do we feel more than normal people feel during normal sex ? because our fetish don't do anything for normies but for us it's pure heaven
Not really, it's been fairly continuous. I'm charismatic and relatively good looking so people are attracted to me, and it's difficult even normally to handle deflecting that interest without hurting people. Having to come up with excuses to turn them down make it even harder. Which is how I have to deal with it.
I've been waiting the entire thread for someone to make this joke
You've made my night
the old necrophiliac white knight trick, works everytime!
Beer is served room temperature, lager is served cold.
How do people not understand this?
If you've never drunk real beer then you won't understand but lager is served chilled/cold because it generally tastes like shit so you can't drink it warm, real beer has flavor.
fetishes can't be fixed, it developed for years during growing up so nobody can re-wire those wires...once you have a fetish it's there for life, and it's better than anything else, food, air, you name it, the fetish is 1000x better, it can't be rewired because it's a huge part of you and who you are
Woah now, let's not get carried away. I'm a cynical, alcoholic, perverted, /b/-posting necrophile. Lady is stretching it, even if I have good intentions.
I have to say, this has been a genuinely disturbing experience for me. I think the last shred of humanity that I was gripping onto slipped beyond my grasp. Obviously I am applying a reasonable amount of scepticism towards the authenticity of this thread but so far your responses have been so real, believable and so gritty that I'm not sure how I will recover.
Thank you OP.
I'll do it, if you're in my area. Attractive, too, if that matters.
Those garment bags are heavier than they look!
Oh, GOD, no. God, no. No. First and foremost, I'm prone, genetically, to a lot of mental and physical illness. It would be incredibly unfair to any potential children of mine to pass that on to them. Next, I'm a bloody fucking necrophile. I'd need to raise them with a partner I love and unconditionally care for, and I'm not capable of that. I'm not financially, mentally, emotionally, just in no fucking way developed and responsible enough to have children in the forseeable future and with my history I wouldn't trust myself to look after a child's welfare. If the operation wasn't so invasive I'd have my tubes tied. As it is I'm on birth control perpetually. No kids. No thanks. Not ruining any more lives.
My psychiatrist functions as a therapist, as does the forensic psychiatrist. Because I'm on quite a few medications, their primary concern is the medication, but that doesn't mean they aren't giving me therapy as well. I've had many, many therapists, sex therapists, etc. in the past, and they couldn't change my paraphilia. It's deeply, deeply engrained in my and there are a lot of other things I have to work through first before I can hope to effect it.
having a festish isn't a problem at all but the problem comes when you become to suffer from it.
Meaning that's pathological and a psychologist-psychotherapist won't fix you, he'll provide new way to handle it and not suffer from it.
If you see this when you wake up, thank you /very/ much for your kind words. It means a hell of a lot to know that there are people out there who won't wish me dead or worse for something I can't help but like. I'd buy you a round any time, anon. Thanks again.
I've been lurking. This thread is very, very interesting. Most of what /b/ posts is useless, inane bullshit. I'd like to talk to this OP and BS with him over lunch. Besides, I know guys or have talked to guys/girls who are pedos, have foot fetishes, vore fetishes (admittedly I like vore), like futa, rape and shit/ scat so I don't feel like I can judge OP here.
I'm legitimately interested for the first time in a long time.
>divine. it's like being kissed by god it's better than anything else in the entire fucking word.
jesus I couldn't have said it any better myself
I speculate that we do experience more pleasure than your average person
There's simply no way that they could feel and experience sex the same way as we do when we're indulging our philias and not understand what we're struggling with
It's great that you can engage in yours without hurting anyone other than yourself (and even then not permanently)
Absolutely not. When I was a kid I enjoyed killing animals but it's never been sexual.
This is almost in par with paedophilia, sufferers of this and paedophilia desecrate something which in their own ways are pure and defenceless. Both have consequences on the family (if they find out.) Both acts are equally depraved. Obviously, this is an opinion.
If any of you are from /r9k/ I did a few threads like this several years ago
I've also been dumping gore on /b/ for over 10 years now
Not meaning to make anyone abandon faith in humanity
Just opening a few eyes and answering any questions anyone might have.
Holy shit I had no idea we were so close to 404. Should I make a new thread then? I'll answer any unanswered questions in the new one, of course.
OP as aforementioned fucking fascinating thread and you got balls for fessing up and coming to terms with things.
Got no question but hope you manage to get by ok. Hope wanking to gore is enough to sate you
i no longer think you are lying
honestly you seem like an alright dude, you get that fucking dead bodies isnt socially acceptable and you seem like you dont want to harm anyone
i hope everything works out for ya buddy
Yeah, I get it.
I enjoy being abused in any way possible, punched, slapped and spanked. . . whatever.
Also verbally assaulted by a sexual partner.
It's what makes me feel loved and appreciated.
How do you get the bodys?
What state (Fresh, decomposing, etc) are they in?
Any extra safety measures besides condoms?
Maybe you could just do a rundown of the entire process for me?
>I "crave" it every fucking moment. I don't get relief even when I'm asleep. I'm absolutely fucking obsessed and it physically pains me to do nothing about it. I feel like a part of me is being squashed out, like my light and reason for existing is being repressed, that I'm denying who I am and what I need and the only thing that feels right
It's like me, but with self-harm and a self-harm fetish