hay /b/ i have about 2 weeks to live
what are some things i should do?
>inb4 travel im dying... i cant travel
>inb4 get layed, i've gone through kemo, not happening...
Do what you only have 2 weeks left to do.
Sorry to hear that, OP. But do anything you can. Don't shoot up a school or any of the other shit posted, do what you want. Play games, eat shit. If you like drinking, get fucked up every night. See your friends, see your family. Do drugs non stop if thats your thing, but don't get caught. You don't want to spend your last two weeks like that. Very sorry to hear that you're dying, but you'll finally get to see what's on the other side, eh?
figure out why you are afraid of dying
confront all those issues/wants/needs/goals that you can or can't achieve
Do everything you can, love your family, and become a better person than you where yesterday.
As long as you can forgive yourself for all you have done, you have nothing to fear in the end.
Submit yourself to the Almighty Creator of the Worlds. Ask forgiveness for your sins and pray that you be accepted into Paradise. Any money you have, I'd suggest donating it to a charity in order to purify yourself.
May The Lord have mercy on the righteous.
I'd recommend you try psychedelic drugs before you go, many people say that it's one of the most spiritual experiences of their lives. Getting them is not really a problem with things like SR. Sorry to hear about your situation :(
Do you have friends and family around you?
Just spend as much time as you are able talking to people. Finish any games, books or TV shows you're interested in. Get off 4chan immediately. Get someone to take you on a drive to somewhere pretty. Smoke some weed. Be sad, cry a bit, accept it and then die
no one is going to do shit to a cancerous high kid, and if he has 2 weeks then there is no time for sending him to jail, plus he will not even stay in for the night if he looks like chemo
i would say you buy different types of psychedelics (plan it with an eye in substance tolerance, avoid cross-tolerance, etc.) and trip about your impending death
when you are not high be with family/friends/dogs, then trip again until you die
if done right you will go more than in peace
Oh, man. I'd recommend you seeing your friends, old friends, family, distant family... Drink with them, eat with them, talk to them, hug them. If you can get out of the hospital, of course. In your final days, go to a trip to a nice place. Go abroad if you want to. But tell to people who are coming with you to burry you there, so they don't have to go through all that inconvinience of shipping you back to your city, etc. (at least that's what I'd do).
Get the hottest chick you know to come in and give you a mad lap dance. The only way she will say no, is if she is a soulless bitch. And if she does say no, write a not saying "all I wanted was to die happy", and get a friend/relative to give it to her when you pass. Will destroy her for the rest of her days.
Sorry to hear about your situation though /b/ro.
Take a stand against something you hate, protest then off yourself on camera or something after preaching said hate.
You could get real hardcore like them monks and set yourself on fire, but I doubt that sounds fun.
Make it so your life meant something, if we hear about you on the news you've done something right, if we don't you're just another thread to forget after a couple of hours.
Something that you would want said to you in the end... from your families perspective.
Everything that you could not say
>dont say you love your little sister or some shit though rofl
Tell your dad it's your life and it's what you want. Tell him to respect the wishes of a dying man. Also if you can't find anybody here from cleveland start a thread again later with timestamp and your location just asking people to come visit you with drugs or other shit. If /b/ fails try craigslist or something.
i plan to in about 30 minutes~ i just hope they dont come n steal my shit otherwise imma be bored, also my dad is a bible thumper... so it is kinda odd for him just to take that im acnogstic in stride.
i have experimented with only light stuff, aka weed, but like i said it's not easy getting it in a hospital, and i cant exactly go to far
Well man, as long as you accept your life, have no regrets for words said in the past, or anything like that... see you on the other side /b/ro.
>You can research Near Death Experiences if you are having worries about death
like i said, i accept it. hopefuly im just gonna respawn :)
you can but i doubt they will be here before im either moved outta the ICU. or am already passed
it was boring, kemo smells terrible, and now waiting for the end is a chore... sorry that came out sassy... uhhh but it's honest
Try and get some Endone OP. Was on that shit when I was going through chemo, and it fucking rocks. Still got a box of it in the kitchen. If I wasn't an Ausfag, and lived near you, would try and get some to you.
Would hit you up on D3, but don't wanna intrude on time with your mates.
Endome? you think i could get that being 17? ._. and im sorry but we already have 5 and we are doing harcore :)
anything psychological, nothing to brutal though. and has a good twist near the end :D
I'd recommend you watch Enter the Void just because the situation you're in. Check out the trailer see if it's something you'd enjoy.
Plan your last words, if you have a chance.
Make 'em hilarious or deep as fuck, your call anyway.
>psychological, good twist near the end
Bridge to Terabithia
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
I hope you enjoy man, these are some of my favorite movies (matching your description of course)
The trailer is a bad representation of what the movie is really like. Trust me. I highly highly recommend it. If you don't like it after the first half hour you can still turn it off but it has an uncanny ability to suck you in, to hypnotize.
Trips dont lie OP.
I'm sure if you asked them to, something could be done about it.
I dunno, maybe a portable oxygen tank or something.
And fuck them having to monitor your heart.
You're going to die regardless if they do or do not.
The game is a fun movie but not something I'd watch if I was about to die. The Fountain on the other hand.....It's pretty much spot on for you if you can get past some of it's faults.
I'll do quick ones thou.
>the game is a psychological game that he was never expecting, something that might be the end of him... or the beginning.
>source code is a solier stuck inside of a loop of events, he relives them inside the body of another man... there's a lot of twists I don't want to give away.
of course man
yea he asked for psychological though, so I answered lol.
Agreed fountain is wonderful, especially for this situation...
If you're gonna die anyway, why would you care about being ''stuck'' in the hospital? break free out of the window, go do some parkour, take revenge on people that bullied you in school and make a video saying how you're the supreme gentleman
ill talk to my nurse tommarrow
who in the hell is gonna believe i ever had a million dollars?
well being stupid has never stoped me before! the game it is
i really do appreciate it! the game then source code
i was never bullied, and i was either happy or bored 99% of my time. and im not parkouring shit with leukemia....
Protip: OP is just bored attentionwhore
My mother went through kemo etc, and her cancer wasnt even that aggressive, yet her last weeks werent spent in any state close to being able to surf /b/. ur a faggot op
Write a proper last will. There's interesting ways to be processed once you died. You can get your incinerated remains get stuffed into shotgun cartridges. Get the address of another 4chan psycho and let them be sent to him. Maybe he shoots a politician in the face with your ashes.
If you still have the power, you can also write some life tips or memoires and share them online. Tell your /b/rethren and you won't be forgotten for a long time.
And even if you can't get it up anymore, cuddling an escort might prove comforting.
Good luck, man.
faggot OP is sitting in a bed at 6:21 AM. and you do realize there are several dozens... maybe hundreds? of cancers she likely had it bad with blood cancer. lung cancer, of the such.. so before you go around talking shit learn first you inconciderate asshole, your mother would be ashamed
>ill talk to my nurse tommarrow
You maybe have a couple of weeks to live.
You cant afford to say shit like "I'll do it tomorrow" cause tomorrow might not happen to you.
Press that fucking button near your bed and call the nurse now.
It's basically like pot, but ramped up x1000. Makes you chill as, and it relaxes the fuck out of you. Cause it's a painkiller, you don't feel shit. Works awesomely, unless you end up like me and build up a resistance. Was on morphine, endone, panadol forte, and a couple of other tablets every 6 hours when I first went in. Don't really remember much of the 1st 4 days of being in there. Mind you, this is going back 2 years ago.
Good chance you could bro. Like I said above, it's a painkiller, and here in Ausfag land, needs 3 signatures from the Registrar and 2 nurses on duty to get out of the safe. So you'll need to work em over a couple of days. Just keep telling em you have really bad pain, but make it believable. Doesn't matter how old you are, they give it to everyone, they just base it off height and weight. So if you work the nurses well enough, you should be able to get some no problem.
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If you are genuinely going to die and what you make a huge impact on someones life, you could help me out with some monies. I'm so broke it ridiculous. I could list a load of sob stories but in comparison to yours, well theyre meaningless. Nevertheless, if you dont need your money any more and want to share some, please send paypal donation to
>ill talk to my nurse tommarrow
not sure if intentional pun or subliminally stimulated
hmmm not a bad idea i could go for icecream cake
its 6:30 in the morning...
life tips? uhmmm ill think about it!
ill be back in about 30 minutes /b/ros, ill have a time stamp n everything so assholes cant say im lying
What in the actual fuck are you talking about, cliche' movie end speech nonsense? Figure out why he's afraid of dying? Maybe because he has cancer and has less than 2 weeks to live? Maybe because he's young as fuck and is dying? Forgive himself for all he's done? What like get cancer?
Just fuck off.
man obviously you've never died before.
>I have, so get over yourself
I need to go to sleep, jeez
Make a sweet funeral soundtrack. What is the OST of your life?
If you haven't already heard the song "aruarian dance", hear it. I could die to that easily. Maybe the lowered pitch homework edit for thought and chilling
I lost my mum, 2 uncles, 2 auncties, and both sets of grandparents to cancer. Fuck cancer.
But because they were all different cancers, the doctor says im "just unlucky" and it doesnt mean i wont get it......yeah right
Get your doctors permission to leave and go op. do whatever you dreamed of. tandem skydive or whatever, just go happy and with the ones you love. Or just meet up with everyone you know and do it by your own hand after you say goodbye, suicide can be a positive thing
hay im back, is there a way i can send a picture from my phone to my computer some how? (it;s a verizon intensity 3) i wanna time stamp,,,
i think imma use that!
well some cancers are inherit able IE blood, some are not...
again no suicide, thaks though
again im pretty happy with my life, even though i know it is short compareitvely, it's fine
Ok so I really don't want to ask this because taking money from a dieing person makes me a piece of shit but at the end of the month I'm basically fucked. Already in debt etc. Don't have paypal. If your kind enough to provide me with the means to at least buy Dark Souls 2 so I can enjoy my last month not being homeless that'd be really nice. I don't have paypal though. If you feel generous I'm out about 3 grand....yeah. I'm fucked. Simple no will suffice if you can't/wont. I'll still recommend you movies but that's about all I can do for you, sadly.
Haha yeah, the joys of chemo. I can back OP up on this. Couldn't get a boner for a few months after I had chemo. And even now, dick doesn't get as hard as it used to. That's one of the problems with chemo saving your life at times, you can end up shooting blanks and having permanent brewers droop.
sorry anon im 17 and broke ._. and dont worry man, i wanna thank you and wish you the best of luck!
i did but i forgot to reply sorry, and if i had to pick a song it'd be life is beautiful by sixx am... cliche i know but it has good meaning behinde it
OP if you have money you dont need, you can give it me, but tell me what to do with it, ether specific things or general sage advice. I will try to live by your teachings/do your dare/whatver and post for /b. You will live on through me.
Or just make me smile and give me some money to live.
Fuck. Well thanks anyways. Here's some more movies:
A Town called Panic - One of the best comedies I've ever seen
A Separation- Fantastic recent drama film
Grizzly Man - My all time favorite documentary film. I fucking love Werner Herzogs work
Boondock Saints - Cult classic if you haven't seen it. Not good but entertaining as hell.
I'll try to think of some more but I can't access my hdd anymore since my old pc broke. Running shitty laptop here.
Lol is it not cool to pester a dying dude, even over the internet?
Also if you really wanna stir shit up tell your dad to stay angry at god for letting you die, might fix his religion.
As a side note: if you want to be a real good guy donate your body to science. Maybe they'll learn something new about your type of cancer and be able to hel psome other people.
Im sure you're tired of the pitty party.so ill make it quick, Remember OP
The Only Way To Take Sorrow Out Of Death Is To Take Love Out Of Life.
Something to think about. hope it helps.
OP, i know it's in bad taste to pester a dying man for his money, but as someone who will be around for a while who is in a very hard spot in life right now, if you could do anything it would be apreciated, if not however, i wish you luck and hope this thing doesn't take your life as soon as you say it will. God bless, op.
Captcha potatoes dspolla. Paypal is firstname.lastname@example.org
sorry, OP. that's my worst fear. I don't want to see my spouse and family crying over me before I go... I'd rather it be quick and unexpected. how are they taking it? keeping a happy face for you?
already been asked you thirsty bastards
well, get some hookers, drugs and other things and lets get started 2week hooker druggy festival in your apartment
if you dont have money, go sell all the things which arent necessary
>its 6:30 in the morning...
That's not an excuse!
You're in a fucking hospital!
There would be nurses round-the-clock.
Let me tell you a story OP because you procrastinating just annoys the hell out of me.
>~10 yrs ago older bro got mugged
>was stabbed multiple times
>spine was hit and got paralyzed from the waist down
>liver and kidney were hit too
>docs gave him 2 weeks to live
>I dunno if they base that number off of something or just the standard number they give to dying people
>anyways, older bro was still alive even after a month has passed.
>he loved playing gba but since he was paralyzed he asked me to play for him instead and he would just watch and teach me
>I was 12 and didnt have one so I was just too happy to oblige
>since I was always by his side I'm always the one he tells his regrets to
>he knows he is going to die so there were a lot of things he wanted to do but cant because paralyzed
>the only thing we could do for him was let him eat anything he wants to even if it was forbidden by doctors cause he was dying anyways
>late one night, he craved for some ice cream
>me, being 12, got excited too
>we were talking about which flavor to get, he wanted pistachio and I wanted cookies and cream
>after a long debate, he finally yielded
>we had our dad buy one
>when dad got back, bro said that he no longer feel like eating ice cream and went to sleep
>he then made me promise not to eat ice cream without him, even added that he wont forgive me if I did
>fell asleep too
>I was then woken up by my mother crying
>bro died in his sleep
>to this day, I still havent eaten ice cream because the fucker made me promise not to
TLDR: stop procrastinating. do shit now.
Jesus christ people already asked for his fucking money, Hes 17 for fuck sake. if you really gave a shit about him enough to ask for his money you would read the fucking thread...
i;ve already signed the wavor and had my dad agree, my whole family thinks im being cremated
im not pestered like i said before im doin alright, playing some Diablo 3 with 2 friends right now, i dont think people could get me in a bad mood if they tried.
and about the religion, i see it as a live n let live kinda thing.
thats bullshit, i had a stomach ache earlier from prunejuice and i was sorrowful i drank that shit....
like ive said im 17 and broke, cant do much for yah, i think in my last few days imma do give aways for all my gaming accounts (LoL, Steam, maplestory and alot of others
it was REALLY shitty for the past month but now we have all come to expect it, and i've asked that my funeral not be sad.... the only part waiting for the end kinda sucks, it's like being stuck in a bad movie with family and REALLY having to use the bathroom....
DUDE I CANT LEAVE IM HOOKED UP TO A FUCKING WALL AND CAN BARELY BREATHE WITHOUT THE SHIT, THEY WONT BRING ME A PORTABLE THE FARTHEST ILL MAKE IT WITHOUT ONE IS PROBABLY TO THE END OF THE HALL. im not procrastinating... im limited
im not a moralfag by any means but these people asking OP for money is probably the most disgusting thing i have seen on this site yet and i frequent /b/ since 09
OP im verry sorry for you you are too young to die. i can only imagine how painful the chemo and accepting your fate mustve been. i really hope you will be granted a new life and wont have to endure shit like this
you are strong
thanks man i really do appreciate it, and i mean think about it this way, through my eyes 17 years is a life time, a fucking long time imo so dying young has no meaning to me.
I wish you a fair wind sailing over the horizon, who knows maybe a nuke war will start the next day you die and we all will join your ass.
Im glad youre trying to make the best of your experience.
Im a bit scared about the whole dying process but hey we all come to an end eventualy.
Also enjoy your DMT trip when dying and dont be Scared :)
Then I doubt you've ever fallen on truly hard times yourself. I'm living on bread and water with no options. I know asking for it was shitty but you have to understand just how shitty some peoples lives are and before you go spouting something about how they should get up and do something about it you should know it's never that simple.
see you on the otheride anon~ we will be waiting
yes giving away my game accounts i really want your worldly possesions...
i want to but i dont have a cam on my labtop and my phone isnt exactly smart :/
haha you're right
>Then I doubt you've ever fallen on truly hard times yourself
i was german youthprison from 16-19 for a crime i didnt commit without getting compensated in the end. trust me i know about hard times. if you think begging dying people for their money is ok then thats your choice. karma will fuck you in the ass tho
What if you were rewarded with games or drugs? I meant that more as a reward for people who aren't dieing soon. Being a registered organ donor for example should come with cash gains or something to incentivize more people to do it. I know that's cynical but a lot of people are assholes so...
you're an aussie right? is australia as scary and deadly as people make it out to be?
i agree, hopefuly drugs become a slightly less feared thing among the general public to make life easier
hmmm, druggie anon's what is heroin like?
i cant do that because i like feminists (let me explian) feminism is male = female, feminazism *which should have a diffrent word used is male < female
so i dont wanna piss off the nice ones but the mean ones can burn with stake in their ass
btw is there a bump limit?
my buddy giovanni on diablo 3 said he could maybe bring me some... so i was wondering if it was fun or like make me paranoid
i already did that a month ago... and im not exactly strong enough to take most of them down, but case in point my dad takes pride in being a
>bible thumping christian willing to suck on god's hulking erection
don't be sad, think about it this way 33% chance ill be happy in the after life 33% chance ill be sad and 33% chance i wont know the diffrence. and the 1% i fuckin hate those guys...
Do heroin seriously. It's mainly so addictive because it's the perfect high. Any care, worry, pain just drifts away and you feel whole for a while. If you weren't dieing I'd say stay the fuck away but for you: go for it.
>be racist and piss off feminist because it's fun, you can do whatever you want, screw who is nice
Piss off the tumblr landwhales, feminist bitches, basically all those insufferable cunts.
All while hiding behind your impenetrable shield of "dying cancer patient".
Oh god I would love to see how they would react cause they lose either way.
Hey OP, that sounds awful, and you sound like you can't do anything fun.
Fuck you. Are you giving up? Who the hell do you think you are? Don't you realize that you were going to do something really badass before you died? You're not dead yet, I'll tell you that much.
it's not optimism it's acceptance
>hmmm, druggie anon's what is heroin like?
I haven't taken any horse, the only thing mildly qualifying is tramadol (synthetic opioid) and codeine (a morphine prodrug), which are both opioids like heroin. I didn't like either of them. The only thing that happened to me was alternating between being awake and being drowsy/in a half sleep state. And a little bit nauseous, with some puking in between the sleep. The sleeping was pretty nice since the dreams were daydream quality. The puking I didn't mind while high. It was itching like hell as well though.
All in all, it was boring. A new experience which I am happy I did, but nothing I feel like trying again. I'll stick to psychadelics and dissociatives.
If heroin is anything like the opioids I've tried (I should add that the ones I've tried are the weak ones), you aren't missing out on much. Then again, people enjoy different highs. Some people love this shit. If you're curious about opioids, I bet you can get a hold of some oxycodone, which is among the stronger ones in medicinal use today.
I'd probably kill myself if I was terminal. I like having the choice. Plus I figure it be less scary if I was in control the whole time.
But that's up to you.
Say bye to family and stuff. Maybe write a few pages reflecting your life and thoughts.
Have one last jack if you can
Not much else to do.
Sorry if you really are dying. Life isn't fair.
Sorry man to hear that. I would suggest to try out most of games in steam before you reach second week.
Hey, death is not scary at all. You might be lucky that your next lifetime that you might become millionaire or some shit like that.
If you have a talent and you know there's something you want to do with it, it's not too late. If there's a character in your head, a story, a song, anything.
Get. It. Out.
Somebody else might feel the way you do and be able to carry on with the plot or the character.
hay guys im sorry to cut this short but im being moved outta the intensive care unit. if i can get wifi where im going ill be back, thanks for all the wise words and a few luls, best of luck everyone. and everyone doing bad in your life remember the darkness isn't so bad if you've never seen a light
LSD makes you want to go out and explore. If you can't leave your bed, LSD will probably make you feel very uncomfortable and trap you in your mind. I wouldn't recommend it at this stage.
But OP, if you can get DMT (psychadelic) or ketamine (dissociative), you definitely should try it. DMT, contrary to LSD, gives insane hallucinations and only lasts around 15 min if I recall correctly. You may believe you're talking to god at one point, or aliens, up in space. LSD will only distort what you currently see and force you into mind loops. Ketamine may make you nauseous though and I don't know how that would fly considering the chemo you're on.
If you want to try psychadelics and you can't leave your bed, DMT is probably the best. Correct me if I'm wrong though.
Op, here's a song to cheer to up: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=frAEmhqdLFs
Also, Ausfag here, if I could man, I'd share some of my bud. I'm seventeen too, good luck man.
You can't feel the warm grass and sun on your skin through Oculus Rift. The senses that are important while tripping on acid are; sight, touch and hearing, the latter being less important. Not only visual which many believe.
If you can make it to georgia anon lets sit together. Have a drink. Share a smoke. Talk about your life. Lets talk about all the great things thay have happened to you, lets talk about all the bad. I will try to help you through, and I promise youll be remembered
hay /b/ros im sorry to do this but imma end the thread for the day... im sorry
i was told to say something rememberible... the only thing i can think of is 'The darkness isn't that bad, well aslong as you've never seen a light'
idk if ur thing or not, but realistically speaking, since u cant seem to leave ur hospital, would u like some manga or anime recommendations? manga has always been a good source of feels
and if ur not kawii, then i implore u to read poetry. u may find solace or realize something new at this stage in ur life.
i salute you OP. hope you had your fair share of fun. I wish for you to not have the same lemming body as you did now the next time you respawn. I hope I get a chance to meet your respawned body because you seem like a pretty cool faggot. Anyway, I'm drinking this pint in honor of you.
>inb4 travel im dying... i cant travel
why not? you some kind of pussy?
fucking do something with what pointless little life you have left. how about you ask yourself what that thing you always wanted to do is, then go do it. christ, why are you asking fucking /b/ of all places?