Fuck /b/, I need your opinion. I live in Germany, in a university

Pic sort of related, one of the women kind of looked like her.

This was borderline rape.

- Does anybody from Germany know how my sentence could turn out if I get caught?
> War es Sexuelle Beleidigung / Belästigung / Nötigung / Vergewaltigung?

Should I seek a laywer?

> inb4 you're sick and pathetic

I know that.

yeah sure , no one at the streets, 2 womin alone , one woman middle age at alley
do you think someone will bait it kid?

you're prolly spending life in prison.

hope nobody helps you.

saged

>When I almost ran into the same women, I turned around and jumped in an alley where I was confronted with a middle age women, who, by her looks, could have even been the mother of one of the young women.

are you fucking kidding me bahahaha.
your the fucking Inspector Clouseau of perversion.

>>560079137
the two women were at the margin of the village with a car, the drove into the village were I also was confronted with the woman in the alley.

Can't help you with laws, but the psych interests me, how old are you?

>>560078732

ahahaha, du dummer spassti

>I took the bus home which is controlled by a camera.

dein einziger fehler. normalerweise müssten sie dich so finden

>>560079314
well, she was turkish, coming out of the same house of whicht the younger women were talking in front of, on the other side.

>>560079406
20

>>560078558
I don't think Jizzing on someone is Rape OP.
I mean sexual harassment or Battery some shit

>>560079456
wie lange denkst du dauert es, bevor sie mich finden und wie hoch denkst du könnte ein strafmaß sein?

>>560079519
Enjoy being raped by her pack of wild cousins.

Don't you know that only family members are allowed to drench a paki girl in cum?

>>560079723
I think so too but I don't know how much I get for that in Germany and if I - after 2 weeks - have reason to hope that I got away?

>>560079937
that's my biggest fear if I get caught. That the family finds out who I am.

>>560079834

bezüglich des strafmaßes habe ich leider keine ahnung, aber soooo lange dürfte es nicht werden, falls du auf die tränendrüse drückst.

aber falls sie so weit gehen und ein phantombild erstellen, könnte es gutmöglich sein, dass se dich drankriegen, da man heutzutage dank facebook etc leicht verpfiffen werden kann.

andererseits muss man auch sagen, dass du ja keine von denen irgendwie angefasst hast und deswegen könnte es auch sein, dass sie lediglich eine anzeige gegen unbekannt stellen und die bullen nichts großartiges machen. da gehen die bei richtigen vergewaltigungen zum glück ganz anders mit um

ich muss aber schon sagen, dass du schon ziemlich blöd sein musst, um deine verdammte DNA auf jemanden zu übertragen. geilheit hin oder her, aber auf sie wichsen? herrgott....

I assume this is the first time you have done anything like this, but you have had the compulsion for a very long time. Let me know if i'm wrong.

>>560080017
maybe a fine for assault, it's not like you forced her down and raped her.
Plus if she cleaned it off theres no DNA.

>>560080343
Ich habe kein einziges bild auf facebook.
Auch dachte, ich, dass ich in einer Studentenstadt vielleicht bessere Chancen habe?
Ich weiss auch nicht, was mich geritten hat, ich normalerweise ganz anders drauf und eigentlich kein kranker spasti (glaubt mir jetz keiner ich weiss).
denkst du, die erstellen ein phantombild bzw. suchen extensiv nach mir?
oder lassen die kamera aufnahmen von den 4 bussen oder so auswerten, die da aus dem ort gefahren sind?
Das mit der DNA bringt denen ja nicht direkt was, oder? Ausser die ham da ne Probe entnommen und kriegen mich, dann hab ich natürlich geschissen.
Warum hab ich das nur gemacht mann???

>>560080710
I have masturbated in front of women from a distance in other cities before. But this was the most extreme so far.
You are somewhat right.

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On another note, now that all you germans are gathered here.

I heard Berlin has a street populated with underage hookers.

I'm going there in a couple of weeks, so please enlighten me!

>>560080774
I hope she cleaned it off. I am really worried about the police car that drove towards the village. I couldn' tell if they were actually going into the exact village to those women, but I am very paranoid of course.

>>560081174
I haven't heard about that yet, but it's possible.
There are some "higher" to low class hookers, for example at the Friedrichstrasse. However, I am not from Berlin so I don't know much.

Ok, to be a bit less specific (because of German law):

After how much time do you think I can relax and safely say that they've given up / that nothing more will happen?

>>560078558
Search for them and kill them bro its the only way

What is it about masterbating in front of them that drives you, knowing that they have no idea that you are there? Does them being horrified add to the experiance (best way to think of this: If they looked at you and didn't give a flying fuck what you were doing would you still want to continue).

>>560080710
so what do you have to say on the topic of my psych?

>>560080881

kannste denn sagen, in welcher stadt du bist? dementsprechend könnte ich dir die chance vermuten.

phantombild ist nicht allzu wahrscheinlich, aber die buskameras zu untersuchen wird wohl, FALLS es zu einer anzeige kommt EIGENTLICH wahrscheinlich sein, falls es schlaue bullen sind

ne probe sollten die eigentlich genommen haben. ich glaube nicht, dass moslems sowas nicht anzeigen. im schlimmsten fall wirste halt, falls du nochmal scheiße baust und die dich packen, ärger kriegen, weil deine dna im system ist.

kommt aber letztendlich alles auf die "opfer" an und wie die das handhaben wollen

>>560081819
I think it's to components:
The sexual part and the adrenaline rush, and they both go hand in hand.
Jerking off behind women when they are oblivious is not what I seek. I want them to see me and react in whatever way.

>>560081901
Nee Stadt sag ich jetzt nicht. ~ 100000 Einwohner.
Ja, die SCHEISS buskamera alter, wie konnte ich nur so dumm sein.
das waren jetzt keine muslems mit kopftuch (sahen nicht sooo strikt gläubig aus, also die frauen jetzt, die familie weiss ich ja nicht; das waren eher so "unterschichten" leute).
denkste echt, dass die ne probe genommen haben? Normalerweise würde ich vermuten, dass die Frau das direkt entfernt hat, im Schock?
Ich werd nie wieder Scheisse bauen alter.
Kannst du was zu der Zeit sagen, ab wann es höchst unwahrscheinlich ist, dass noch was kommt?

man wish I spoke german
Hopefully I'll understand it in cc.
Cause I fuckin hate living here.

Would you prefer that they were horrified and scared or shocked and angry? (This is going somewhere I promise)

>>560082587
Well, I live in the city, about 4 miles from the village and I go to university here. I can't easily move and that fucking sucks...

Or no shits given wither way

>>560082849
Just anything. If they were glad and would like to jerk me off: great! But of course that would never happen. So just any reaction. But more on the scared side. The dominating part is very strong.

Hey, du Pappnase

ich bin Bulle und erfahrungsgemäß werden solche Fälle von sexueller Belästigung schnell aufgegeben.
Ob jetzt die Kamerabänder angeschaut werden, ist Glückssache, aber es wird wahrscheinlich dazu kommen.
Aber selbst wenn, dann wird man dich finden, falls dein Gesicht gut erkennbar ist. (Wir haben Gesichtserkennungssoftware)

Phantombilder werden jedoch wahrscheinlich nicht erstellt.

Wenn ich jetzt mal wild raten müsste, würde ich sagen, du kommst knapp damit davon!
Mach das aber nicht nochmal, du Spaten.

>>560082809
"cc"?

>>560083132
Klar man, wie gesagt, ich weiss nicht was mich geritten hat. Ich geh jetzt denk ich auf in behandlung. Und ich unterschätze die polizei auf keinen fall, im gegenteil.
aber was heisst das:
solche fälle werden schnell aufgegeben aber gleichzeitig wird man wahrscheinlich die kamera auswertung anschauen?
ich hoffe natürlich, dass ich knapp davon komme...

Are you that guy on xhamster that jizzes on girls with them somehow being completely oblivious to it?

>>560083013
so what's the conclusion?
I should add: 20 years old, male, kissless virgin.
Strong anxiety issues (not only because of the above).

>>560083691
no, obviously they caught me. and I didn't film it.

guys, just a couple more concluding responses, then I know a little more. what do you think of my situation (especially if you are German)?

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maybe I should quit p0rn.

>>560083618
Das bedeutet folgendes:
Je nach Beweislage wird der Fall entweder weitergeführt, oder halt niedergelegt!
Wenn sie die Bänder anschauen und du gut erkennbar bist, dann bist du schonmal weg, das kann ich dir jetzt schon sagen.
Meistens sind die Aufnahmen aber total kacke und unbrauchbar für Gesichtserkennungssoftware.

Wenn die Aufnahmen angeschaut werden, bzw. du nicht gut erkennbar bist und sonstige Augenzeugen auch kein aussagekräftiges Profil von dir machen können, wird der Fall nach schätzungsweise 3-4 Monaten komplett geschlossen.

Das ist aber nur eine Schätzung, die bei der Kripo arbeiten immer anders als wir beim BKA.

>>560084160
dass du ein vollspast bist

>>560082849
Hey man, are you there?
In what you'd have to say I'd be pretty interested...

auch
>>560081901
und
>>560083132
im bezug auf wieviel zeit vergehen sollte, bis es unwahrscheinlich ist, dass was passiert...

>>560084527
weiss ich selbst man, das bringt mich jetzt nicht weiter.

>>560084428
danke man. ich sollte vielleicht noch sagen, dass ich lange haare habe, und diese im bus offen, bei der aktion aber zusammen gebunden hatte.
vielleicht macht es das schwieriger, mich auf den aufnahmen zu erkennen? allerdings hatte ich ne kurze hose an, was vielleicht gut zu identifizieren ist.
es war bei der aktion stockdunkel und die frauen vielleicht so unter schock, dass sie nicht viel erinnerung haben... vielleicht.
danke für deine hilfe und die schätzung auf 3-4 monate.

Op cut you hair bald, grow a beard. Buy new cloths

Dann passt alles

Your biggest mistake is that you left your jizz on them, but it's not like theres a huge semen database out there. If they didn't wipe off your semen, the police got your dna off it and went to you for dna then you'd pretty much be fucked. That's only if they ever come to you though. The only other mistake that could really fuck you over is that you opened the door. They can get your fingerprints off it and get you, but then again thats only if they come to you.

>>560084428
UND: ich könnte vielleicht noch in einer anderen beziehung glück haben. am selben wochenende würde in der stadt in der ich wohne eine frau fast vergewaltigt (versuchte vergewaltigung). vielleicht lenkt das ab?
es kamen 2014 schon einige andere fälle von sexueller belästigung in der gegend vor, vielleicht hilft das auch?

>>560085382
the door was already open, I didn't touch the women or the car. The semen is a problem, maybe the woman cleaned it off, maybe not (maybe the police has a sample). But if they have they can only use it if they finally find me.

>>560085382
I consider taking the bus the biggest mistake, I could have walked.
>>560085347
The clothes are very generic, black t shirt and grey, short pants.
In my city, there are a lot of hippies with long hair. I have a beard, maybe I should cut it.
Maybe I am lucky.... I doubt it, but well...

>>560082849
>(This is going somewhere I promise)
Really? I don't notice any of it now.

>>560085870
Yeah, start with changing your looks.

Honestly it's most likely you just get of on the intamcy that you most likely don't get anywhere else in your life. But this is what I was getting at:
If you enjoy the sexual discomfort/ pain of others it will have started very early in your life, it wouldn't have meant anything then. But as you got older (mid teens) you may have noticed it was strange, at that point you start making excuses (I just like BDSM, it's all consenual) and by the late teens early 20's the feeling bubble to the top, you do crazy shit, it's hard to stop doing the crazy shit annd you have to keep getting more extreme to be satisfied.

That was really brief but you fit directly in the beggining stages of a sexually sadistic rapist.
You would deny this, tell yourself your just sad and unhappy but at night when you feel like shit you turn to sadistic fantasies that reming you who you really are.
That escalated quickly.

I honestly don't think that's you by what you said, you most likely enjoy the intamacy, real pain would not excite you, you want them to SEE you and know what you've done, not for them to be hurt.

But be honest with yourself, your anxiety and what you have said indicates you just want attention and part of someones life.

.

I am an American cop, and just letting you know, of I personally got a call like this I would go and do all the paperwork just to laugh my ass off and see the hotty who got spunked on. I would, under no circumstances, waste my time I could be using catching real criminals/ harrassing teens who look like shitheads, to catch some dude who moneyshots and runs.

>>560086342
Your posting your physiological rants about others mental states shows a real craving for others attention and admiration, and it has advanced so far that you seek these things out from sources and miniscule and un important as the internet.

Consider getting more friends who can be impressed by what you do, this is obviously what you crave.

>>560086342
>I honestly don't think that's you by what you said, you most likely enjoy the intamacy, real pain would not excite you, you want them to SEE you and know what you've done, not for them to be hurt.
>But be honest with yourself, your anxiety and what you have said indicates you just want attention and part of someones life.

Fuck man, you nailed it. I really can't add anything to it.
> the beggining stages of a sexually sadistic rapist.
But how and why did I become like this? And what are first steps to stop it?

>>560078558
Hans will fist you in jail. What kind of fucking retard masturbates in public and cums on a stranger. Good luck with your ass stretches.

>>560086790
however, he perfectly described what I observe in my self.

>>560078558
depends if in north or south of Germany

>>560087010
I didn't say he was bad at what he does.

>>560086465
Well, I hope German cops think like that....

I did this for me, i'm fucked up in the same way I described and I was somewhat hoping OP had the same feelings. So I could understand myself better.
That's all.

>>560087163
Isn't your country about super efficiency?

>>560087174
well... fuck man. what to do. we're pretty much on the same downward spiral. what you described really fit me, I'm not just saying that or rounding it up.

>>560087363
yeah, I guess I'm fucked.
However, there have been a couple cases like this in the area, like I said.
And the police always asked for help via the newspapers website. So maybe they are generally overwhelmed?
My case I haven't seen in the newspaper (online) yet. Maybe it's a very bad sign...
>>560087067
More in the south.

>>560087067
dont u mean east and west germany?

>>560087363
Not really, a few weeks ago my friend had a burnt toast incident in his apartment. 2 firetrucks showed up with 30 guys to investigate the scene.

>>560087134
alright man.

>>560087895
well, that's not efficient but thourough...
>>560087878

nochmal an
>>560081901
wie lange müsste vergehen, würdest du sagen, bis die sache erledigt wäre?

>>560087174
do you think having a girlfriend and regular intimacy and sex would solve the issue?

>>560085870
>maybe im lucky
Dont test ur luck

>>560088690
so.. now you bite of what? first saging and calling shit on me, no posting?
whatever man.
of course I should change my appearance.

>>560088909
*or
*now

jesus fuck.

Oh wie ich hoffe, dass sie dich kriegen. Scheiß dir richtig ein bis dahin.

any last words before this 404s?
yeah I know I'm a retard, loser, etc.
anything constructive?

>>560088096
For burnt toast. He was kicked out of his place for 2 hours telling every guy what the cause of the smoke was.

Without knowing you personally I can only generalise:
You have suffered from axiety your entire life, and have a most likely unhealthy desire to be liked and accepted. (Most commonly shitty relationship with father, trying to prove something.) But you could never actually put yourself in social situations (probably convinced people didn't like you, didn't want you around even if not neccesarily true). You tell yourself your an introvert, inteligent ( not neccesarily untrue, just an excuse for not connecting with people) and you crave love and attention more and more but make more and more excuses for why you can't.

Early teens you just jack of to the girls you want to be with.
After never getting with them you start to look down on them.
Late teens your amassing porn folders from facebook, fantasising about being with them, you know you can't do it (anxiety) you get frustrated.
You do something like your original post, you force them to have the contact you want without worrying about anxiety because your in complete control.

>>560086790
SICKBURN
#REKT

>>560089193
nett und danke.
mach bloß nie was falsch in deinem leben.

>>560089391
true again, except for the part with my father. Ironically I have a good realtionship with my parents. But everything else is pretty damn true.

>>560088909
>huuurrr Heaven is one person
Kill yourself you stupid kraut I should report you with the german police

>>560089391
Should I throw myself into social situations, go out with women and confront my anxiety (how)?
fuck this is too interesting and important to 404

>>560089440
ja was? meinst wohl man sollte auch noch mitgefühl zeigen bei dem was du da abgezogen hast? und ähnliche aktionen haste ja angeblich vorher auch schon gebracht. also bitte ja. kannst dir vorstellen wie das klingt?

>>560078558

Not to mention, OP, that your seed was left at the scene of the crime. Note however that we are not completely at a loss. In Germany, you will NOT be charged with rape for what you did. Consider the following: suppose I am peeing on a street corner and someone walks by and is sprayed by the stream. This is the equivalent, but there is no assault. It is purely circumstantial. You happened to be masturbating when they were in their car (and how can we even be sure they didn't pull up to that spot after you began masturbating.

In fact, you may get away with public indecency/public masturbation (which is a far less severe charge). No need to worry.

Good luck.

schätze mal 2-3 monate haste eierschwitzen bleib undercover rasier dich haare ab den ganzen salat verbrenn die kleidung oder sowas.

To really stop you need a relationship with someone that you believe truly loves you and will be 100% honest with you. Otherwise every time they get a bit of you will feel like they are leaving/cheating on you and the shit will seep back in as a coping mechanism.

The above could even apply to a family member, but the shit is hard, it will be effort.

>>560089838
yeah, I just remembered that heaven is the new cancer of 4chan.

>>560090126
die*

>>560078558
Ich feier dich hart für die Aktion!
Mach dir keinen Kopf, falls irgendwas passiert und die irgendwie auf dich kommen sollten, wirst du eine polizeiliche Vorladung erhalten. Zu der wirst du natürlich nicht erscheinen sondern stattdessen einen Anwalt einschalten. Davor würde ich mir keine Gedanken machen, ich halte es für unwahrscheinlich, dass sie großartig nach dir suchen werden.
Machs bloß nicht noch einmal.

>>560089273
have you play unaltelbach(sp?)

>>560090163
thank you very much man! and good luck with your own life.
>>560090126
genau das hatte ich vor, nur das mit den haaren bring ich kaum über mich.
>>560090121
thanks man, that was my rational as well. I used no force, didn't threaten them, etc.
>>560090107
die aktionen davor waren nichts im vergelich damit.
mitgefühl will ich nicht, aber du kannst dich auch einfach raushalten.

>>560090525
what?

>>560090447
Danke man, aber warum denkst du, dass es unwahrscheinlich ist, dass viel passiert?

ach und btw OP kenne eine chaya sieht ihr ähnlich aber ist deutsch. zu dem thema cops hoffe wohnst nicht in bayern sonst gg. lebe in süd hessen hier wurden im raum frankfurt viele ermordet in letzter zeit, erschossen and stuff und deren pappenheimer werden schnell gefunden kp wie es bei cum unfällen aussieht

Thrusting yourself into social situations ONLY works if you can handle them. It's all about maintaining your anxiety, keep it even/high.
If it spills over you end up feeling even worse and you need to do something like original post to get yourself back in control.

At the same time doing nothing puts you on a clock
1. Feel alright
2. Agitated
3. Why can't I just...
4. I NEED...
5. (Relief via whatever crazy shit)
6. Feel alright

That's a really over the top example, it's why serial killers have kill clocks. Usually once every 2-3 weeks. It's also the same kinda timeline for an an average person to have sex. Same reason.

>>560091195
baden württemberg, soviel kann ich sagen.

>>560091182
die absolut einzige Art dich zu finden, wäre wenn sie aus der Busüberwachungskamera (sollte diese keine Attrappe sein), ein gutes Phantombild herstellen und dich damit irgendwie finden könnten.
Not going to happen.

Du hast keine Verbindung zu den Opfern, du bist kein Wiederholungstäter, deine DNA ist nicht im System, kein Tatmotiv, bla bla blubb

>>560090818
ich würds tun die scheis haare wachsen nach, pref haircut über knast digga

>>560091383 da hört man recht wenig von bullen

Good luck breh, who know maybe you'l see me on the news one day.

>>560091280
ok, you really seem to be involved in the subject matter.
how can I practically get a grip on my anxiety and what can I actually do if I feel step 4. coming up on the "clock"?

>>560091013
The german vn "bernd and the mystery of unaltelbach" or shit like that
Educate yourself and go to krautch

>>560090818
>die aktionen davor waren nichts im vergelich damit.
jeder fängt mal klein an, denk mal drüber nach was da mit dir passiert. im ernst. du sagst, du verstehst selber nicht, was in dich gefahren ist. trotzdem hast du es getan und der ärger ist groß.

>mitgefühl will ich nicht, aber du kannst dich auch einfach raushalten.
bekommst du von mir mit sicherheit auch nicht. vielleicht solltest DU mal versuchen dich in die lage der frauen zu versetzen oder das ganze von außen zu sehen. aber eigentlich will ich auch gar nicht mehr mit dir reden.

kannst froh sein wenn dich hier keiner verpfeift. falls die ganzen angaben hier von dir wahr gewesen sein sollten. ich speicher der thread trotzdem mal ab. bin müde. morgen ist auch noch ein tag.

>>560078558
Du kommst nicht zufällig aus Würzburg, oder?

Was den Vorfall angeht würd ich mir mal nicht zu viele Gedanken machen. Auf dem Weg dich zu kriegen sind so viele "falls".

Whats with the sudden surges of nazis

>>560091487
das bestätigt jetzt meine gedanken, ich hatte halt schiss, dass ich mir da nur was einrede um mich besser zu fühlen
>>560091580
ok, ich stimm dir natürlich auch zu.
dickes ding: einer meiner besten kumpel ist bulle, aber in ner ganz anderen gegend.
ich hab halt keine ahnung im bezug auf aufklärungsraten bei solchen aktionen hier in der gegend...
>>560091589
hopefully you won't see me. then again: who am I, and who are you.

>>560091862
is ja gut alter, ich bin ja dran was zu tun. psychische behandlung werde ich sicherlich aufsuchen.
mir ist auch bewusst, dass jeder mal klein anfängt und die "opfer" kann ich auch verstehen, ich bin (noch) kein psychopath.
was willst du mit dem thread anfangen? könnte ein troll gewesen sein. ausserdem gibt es keine eindeutig verwendbaren daten. sein kein arschloch, lass es einfach. ich bin mir bewusst, dass ich ein arschloch bin und ich glorifiziere mich ja auch nicht.

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>>560091862
sei mal kein ritter der gerechtigkeit, da bist hier falsch bringt nichts

>>560092068
yesterday I've seen a heaven from Dortmund.
heaven is a nazi.

Make sure it never gets there, around 2-3 you should start going out of your way to do simple shit likegive a friend a hand with something, go to the cinema with someone, tlk to someone you're interested in briefly. Anythin but lock yourself down.
THink of it this way, you spent mos of your teen years in stage 2-3, because yur contantlyu forced to be around people.

Keep on top of how you feel, limit yourself to small social situations if you feel aweful to not make it worse, force yourself into bigger ones when you feel good to increase you tolerance make it easier next time.

>>560092773
meine rede.

What's with the psych shit? Whatever happened to getting away from the cops?

>>560092862
very good advice, thanks again.
I experienced a lot of "lock down" situations in the past 2 years... where I jsut isolated myself and in the isolation it all bred and the urges became more powerfull.

>>560092049
>>560092943
Da du mir anscheinend nicht die Ehre einer Antwort erweist, nehme ich mal an, dass ich recht habe.

Ich glaub deiner Geschichte nicht, macht mal jemand nen thread auf falls er darüber was in den Nachrichten sieht um mich vom Gegenteil zu überzeugen.

>>560093092
yeah, both aspects are important.
do you have anything regarding the cops?

>>560093335
Do you have a gun? If so then you are allright

>>560093204
ouh scheisse, habs total übersehen, sorry.
nein mann, ich hab schon gerschrieben, dass ich nicht aus bayern bin.
das mit den "falls" sehe ich auch so. auf meiner seite ist halt aber viel "hoffen" dabei.

>>560093334
nun, ich hoffe, dass nie was dazu in den nachrichten kommt. so etwas kommt ja normalerweise auch nicht im fernsehen, sondern nur in (regionalen) online portalen der (regionalen) zeitung...

>>560092943

Just read your story, and honestly bro, I don't think you should freak out. If it's been 2 weeks and you've heard nothing about it I think you can be pretty sure nothing will come to you.

That is not to say it's a free pass to do it again. You know it's wrong anyway.

But, just to reassure you. I understand your fear that the state a police are an all-seeing machine that will undoubtedly punish you for the bad things you know you did.

That's what they want to make you believe, but that's not the truth. The truth is that they are a bunch of under-staffed state workers who have better to do of their time and money than to do a fucking DNA test over a guy who came on a girl's dress.

Nothing will happen to you.

>>560093584
Tut mir leid, hab mir nicht den ganzen thread durchgelesen.

Was studierst du denn, wenn man fragen darf?

>>560093334
und: wenn ich ein troll wäre, dann wäre das ja wohl 11/10, oder?
ist aber nicht der fall, dazu war ich ja auch viel zu interessiert an allen möglichen aspekten. wie dem auch sei...

Very well said.

>>560093945
thanks to you, also! a very good conclusion.
I however do not trust the safety and silence, I will have to stay alert.
>>560093969
gesellschaftswissenschaften. mehr sag ich nicht.

>>560093834

And by the way, if you REALLY miss human (female) contact, my advice is get an escort/prostitute.
I've been in that situation and I know it can be a crushing pain. It took a LONG fucking time to accept that I could pay for sex, but I feel 10.000 times better now.

It's like fake it till you make it, it's not the real deal, but it feels like it anyway.

>>560094181
have you ever "acted out" like I unfortunately did?

>>560094321
I've considered it, but my pride was always in the ways. After the incident however, all barriers broke away and now I am really and strongly considering it, since I don't want to turn into a rapist.
But working on my psychological situation is my top priority because I feel like loosing controll more and more and it's not a sole sexual thing.
going to a prostitute in my state of mind could make everything worse...

>>560094737

I was about to shoot myself when I finally took the plunge and went to see an escort.

And it's AFTER doing it, that I realize how much human contact and acceptance is a basic human need. It made me feel whole again and so much better.

I'm not saying it will resolve everything, but it can heal some of your depression.

any more input regarding:
police, law, therapy, the incident itself, ...??
anyone who has done something similar?

>>560095207
I do recognize that but the timing has to be right.
A friend of mine has done this and it fucked him up because he also was on drugs that night, which was stupid.
But yeah, I might go to Amsterdam in two weeks (if nothing else happens with the police, ..) and see one there. Not doing any drugs though.

>>560095207
may I ask how your "performance" with women is in general, and how your physical appearance is?
I am very skinny but tall, I've been told that generally, I am not unattracitve and women like me, but somehow I never bonded and nothing ever worked out.

>>560095492

Trust me bro, choose the most fucking beautiful girl you can find, and when you'll see that girl that is so out of your league thrusting herself on your own cock, it will blow your mind.

>>560095756
hmm... like I said I have to get some shit sorted out before that. I think I couldn't handle the emotional cold and lack of intimacy right now. that's fucked up: I strive for intimacy, I don't have it, and that somehow also prevents me from having it, a vicious circle. At least that's what I tell myself...

any more final input regarding the police / law situation specifically?
natürlich hauptsächlich an Deutsche gerichtet.

>>560091734
After reading this through I think you've got all the advice you need, but I'd say in terms of both chances of getting caught and the severity of the charged crime, you're in luck and you'll be fine

At first I was like 'wtf why would anyone do that' but I guess I even started to relate to you, so you can't be so bad - goodluck

Außerdem möchte ich als Britische die auch deutsch spricht sagen, dass du richtig gut Englisch kannst. Zumindest war diese fade gute deutsch Übung für mich. Noch mal alles gute, OP you sick fuck

>>560095698

OK I'll tell you. I'm not ugly, but I'm fat, and I'm 33 years old.

2 nights ago I fucked the fittest woman that I've ever been with, perfect body in my book. I made her stand on the bed naked while I masturbated...

I was asking her "seriously girl? a girl like you? You really accept to have sex with me?"

You know what she answered?

"I accept? No, I want to fuck you!!"

And she didn't lie. Why? Because I've seen about 50 escorts now and in the process I've simply become good at sex.

And so this girl sees me behind the back of her agency and we exchanged phone numbers, facebook, etc... so I knew she meant it when she said she wants to fuck me. Simply because I give her pleasure.

And that kind of shit is very good for confidence...

>>560096607
Hey, thank you, again. /b/ has been a constructive and almost nice place today.
thanks also for your specific input.
Actually, as I even almost can't believe it myself that I did this.... I really asure you that I am not a bad person, at least I don't want to be. But like the other person said before, I fit the pattern for becoming something much worse.
Ja, ich habe immer schön gelernt und mich in die Gesellschaft und das Bildungssystem eingegliedert, darum ist mein English ok.
Today my English was really bad for my standarts because I am so disoriented and desperate right now.
>>560096681
great input, and motivating.
I guess we're really different or at a different stage when it comes to dealing with escorts, mentally, but I'll consider what you told me.

so /b/, thanks for posting!
I think I am going to let this 404.
If anybody has something more to post, do that.

>>560097570

Well it wasn't like that from the start of course. My first few meetings weren't great, I was really stressed out, but at least I was getting action and interacting intimately with women, and it was a fucking great feeling anyway.

>>560097570
>motivating
>getting motivated about fucking a whore
Pathetic
Damn you germans really got broken by those jews

>>560098106
I do believe that. Can you imagine that I am 20 and I never even hold a girl's hand?
And I have tried so many times but they always rejected me. Then, a few weeks later, I hear girls speacking nicely, admiring me for good grades or whatever. What the hell man?
I feel like a loser but I don't want to be somebody who drowns in self-pity.
Sex with an escort is something I am having no trouble picturing anymore, but my first time, with an escort? That's so depressing.

>>560098195
motivating to not kill myself.
motivation through relation?
trying to use "motivating" as a non native speaker for something similar but not quite the same that I can't figure out the word for.
fuckdamnit heaven, just swallow yourself.

let it 404 now.

>>560098509

I've been there. And like I said, actually have intimate contact, and sex, with beautiful women, whatever way I achieved it gave me tremendous confidence and happiness.

I'm now way more confident and way less awkward around women.

Btw, that girl, after telling me "I want to fuck you", she lowered herself onto my cock and we fucked like rabbits for an hour ! And when I left her place, she hugged me so tight.