I'm finally going to do it. I have all my letters to people that made a difference in my life, a helium tank, the mask and i've tied most of my loose ends up. It's happening tomorrow and all i need are tubes that i'll grab tomorrow. Just saying bye to one of my more regularly visted sites
helium's going to hurt. dignitas only used helium on 4 people, the thousands of others used barbiturates (just google dignitas + helium).
super selfish btw. your family and friends will be scarred for life. but you don't care, you've only *ever* cared for yourself. as if your notes will mean anything to them - they're slaps in the face. you wrote them for you. not them.
im gonna kill myself in a few yrs. i need to find out how to do it. how does helium work in killin urself?
bye anon. i know wat its like to be so sad everyday. im not even suicidal yet and it's bad. i don't kno u but i love u cuz i understand the pain.
Just buy a gun you pussyfuck
or pic related
no - but if you're in pain and sad, and haven't tried to get better, then you're a lazy narcissistic sack of shit. there are so many different things that make life bearable. most people with depression are so self-centered and self-obsessed, they rarely (if ever) truly think of others.
Haha I hope you're not serious. Helium will expand your lungs until they pop. It will be very painful
Through out highschool I saw a counsellor twice a week. During uni i saw the counsellor and received medical advice. The doc didn't want to prescribe me meds because he thought i would become reliant on them. I'm seeing a therapist but each session is $240, just so they can ask me how I'm feeling. There isn't any main reason why i feel so shit everyday, and it just builds. I have a steady job, a normal family but not very close, and i've had 3 or 4 girlfriends. None of which make me think any different on life. I see where you're coming from but don't you ever get that feeling where you're just done with something because of the mental suffering it causes, and when you actually try to get rid of it, it persists for more than 7 years.
My suggestion if you want to die painlessly is to boil a log of chewing tobacco and take the almost pure molasses nicotine, put it on the door handles and car handles of everyone that made you want to end it. Profit. Put a few drops in your coffee and die peacefully knowing you did your best to take the shit people out with you. Also more tits
I failed a suicide attempt a few weeks ago. My mother came home from work 3 hours late to find me passed out on the floor. 56 Klonopins (anxiety prescription) and 15 beers weren't enough to take out my majestic liver. After the experience, I find that I'm glad to have not managed it. You may experience the same. Either way, it would be absolute hypocrisy to tell you that it's not the only option because I felt that way too. Instead, I'll ask you to think ahead. If this doesn't work, where would you go from there? Wishing you fulfillment either way. God speed, sweet prince.
Or you could end it funny like dressing up like superman and jumping in front of a moving train. More tits
I thought very hard foe many years about making a similar decision.
Since you haven't done anything yet I know the decision is still on your mind
Whatever you choose, well met. See you here tomorrow or on the other side.
No pain you're feeling now amounts to the pain your family will feel when they hear the news.
A friend of mine committed suicide and I can tell you man his parents will never be whole.
Your life might be so hard, but would you want your family to go through the feelings you're going through now?
That will happen op. It's a fact that suicide runs in the family, and that's not a coincidence.
Please op, I have no idea who you are but I love you man.
Don't do it for your family. Be strong, try to find medication through legal means that may help you, you can do it bro.
I love you man. I believe in you.
Yeah, i've thought about it, usually i'm alone up until 5. I've taken a week off work just letting them know i feel a little sick. I'm really hoping this works though. I'm thinking on donate blood one more time and while my cell count is low, thats when I start the entire process. But i know if it doesn't work, i'll be even more depressed and just pretend like im ok again.
I used one of those tanks to fill balloons for a party.
The kids started to inhale it after figuring out how to them from the ceiling and all my work resulted in a room full goofy helium filled pandemonium.
Good times OP.
But in all seriousness I tried to kill myself. Stood up during morning assembly, took a razor and cut my neck in front of the whole school. My asshole teachers saved me and became local heroes. After I was released from the hospital I ran away hitch hiked to Florida did a lot of things i now regret for food but I actually lived. Maybe that's what you need op. Take a few months off get a backpack and a bike and just roam. I was a missing person from 2004 to 2010 I'm 29 now amazing career, beautiful wife making a ton of money for never even finishing freshman year highschool. So don't kill yourself go out there and hitchhike . Also more tits
>cut my neck in front of the whole school.
Thats the definition of "somebody pay attention to me". If you really wanted to an hero, you'd do it where nobody could save you, dumbass.
As nice as you are, i've thought about this for a long time. I care, but I'm fairly certain about this.
I'll post face tomorrow sometime. Probably a little earlier than this. At risk of someone knowing me then suddenly, someones at my door.
I doubt ill be streaming it.
lol nah, i studied industrial design in uni.
Don't do it, OP
try to be a different person, kill your "old" self and seize life! drugs my help you with this ego kill.
>I couldn't bear dying with a mask on.
Once you start feeling dizzy, you can't even feel the mask on your face anymore. Its kind of like laughing gas at the dentist, except there isn't a sober third party to regulate the gas.
don't fucking do it OP Bayonetta 2 is coming out in a few months
I'll say what if iwere you, what i do:
Go to the treet, do things you dream to do: go around all america backpacking, become a soldier, i dont know...
you dont have any to lost, so, all will be good incomes... if you die... well... it's same than suicide... but, if you just suicide... is nothing
Faggot I have had clinically diagnosed depression for most of my life now, one of my close friends just tries to commit suicide twice, and sometimes I feel like doing the same. But then I remember how retarded of an idea that is and how it won't accomplish anything and I get on with my damn day.
Fuck helium. Get a welding tank full of pure nitrogen. Watched a test done on pigs where they placed food in a box full of pure nitrogen. Pig goes into the box to get the food, passes out, they drag the pigs out and revive them, pigs go right back for the food. If death by nitrogen was painful, the pigs would avoid the food but they didn't.
Either that or build a guillotine and use a candle to burn through the rope so you don't know when it's coming.
OP you are a faggot ass bitch.
man up pussy.
Option One: if you are going to kill yourself become awesome first then tell me you want to die.
Ex: Go pull mad bitches, or drink at a college party, or rape someone. Go fight somebody, go punch a baby. Piece of shit faggot op.
Option Two: Drop off the grid so people think you are dead, but then you actual just become a woodsmen.
Option Three: Continue to be a lurking faggot of forward slash b forward slash and quit your crying.
Option Four: Become beta fag and marry dom wife.
Last words for you, If no one cares about you then do some crazy shit lazy fuck.
I know how you feel OP. I felt the same way about my life. I was working a 50-100$ an hour job getting 20 hours a week and living at home through high school being a morticians assistant. I was so exposed to death I became desensitized. I had a 8/10 girlfriend through high school but no matter how much I fit in I was dying on the inside.
I slowly alienated myself from my closest family and friends only to lie in a dark room with intense emotional pains about how humanity and life is worthless/ that we aren't real. I disassociated and completely shut the world out.
I never turned for help, I watched as all my friends and familynsaid goodbye through my college years. The pain only got worse when I realized I was finally alone.
I turned to drugs to get the feelings that I hadn't felt for so long. They helped but they left me feeling more empty than before. I hit rock bottom and then redefined what truly made me happy.
I alienated myself to feel happy and eventually I accepted that I was right all along that I didn't need anyone else. I don't feel like sunshine and rainbows but I never have. I am just here livingf out my fake reality in what way I can.
Just thought I'd share to connect with a fellow /b/ro one last time. Thank you anon for being on the other side all this time.
Is there any way you would change your mind?
From what you have said it sounds like your only problem is a brain imbalance. If you have nothing to lose you should try self medicating with some affordable Canadian meds.
Just think of all the things you could do before you die. Disregard everyone else. Just do what would make you happy other than killing yourself since that is like flipping the table instead of continuing to play the game.
hey im curious, how much did the helium cost, and can i just buy it from a random place. what is the pain involved in this kind of death compared to other methods?
just curious about the research you've done and other options you have considered.
It's the plot of a pretty famous book I am sorta surprised no one caught on and some got kinda mad also boobs
Fuck man if you kill yourself you'll never be able to play Pokemon Omega Ruby or Alpha Sapphire.
If you kill yourself you'll never be able to play Half-Life 3 (if it ever comes out) and Fallout 4 or the new smash bros. It has FUCKING MEGAMAN IN IT. A FUCKING SUPER FIGHTING ROBOT.
So it all comes to this op, you kill yourself and you'll never be able to experience this or you live and live another day to play all of these.
You know how I can tell you've never been seriously depressed? Just manning up isn't a viable option. You don't have the desire to man up, because you don't have the desire to continue living. I hope you didn't tell your friend who tried to commit suicide to "just man up" and walked away with a sense of accomplishment.
I've traveled a little. And i was almost in the Australian Reserves that i quit because of uni. The only thing i can think of that i really want to do is climb everest. But it's fucking 16k, and i think all the sharpers are on strike because of some sort of avalanche.
The whole different person thing doesn't work for me, i feel im just covering up and bottling it in.
Listen, this email is temporary and will be gone within the hour. If you would like to send me your Skype information, we could talk for a little while via text. Even though I don't know your life, I know what the pain is like. If you want to vent for a little while, you'll find that I'm not judgmental. I wish your passing or otherwise to be as full of closure or relief as possible. If you decide to email me, include a timestamped picture of the supplies you've shown in this thread saying hello to Bill. Otherwise, I wish you the best. Have a wonderful evening.
LIVE STREAM IT WHILE MASTURBATING UNTIL YOU DIE.
It's the plot of a pretty epic book. I thought someone would have catched that also tits
Dude You should at least use up all the rest of your money to go on a big road trip vacation thing. Do everything you can do that youve always wanted to but couldnt because of commitments. Take HUGE risks you wouldnt have otherwise. Seriously go nuts.
Actually have some real fun before you turn the lights out.
Go do something REALLY dangerous, whats the worst that could happen? You'd die?
There are people who would be jealous of the freedom you hold in your hands right now. Dont waste it.
What I've always fantasized about doing
>get some cobat-60 from a factory or a hospital
>make a dirty bomb
>find a big school, even a university
>covertly bury the bomb in the football field, with a primary charge so it airbursts like a German s-mine
>wait for big fooball game
>school is kill
>all the sherpa are on strike because of some sort of avalanche.
Who needs a sherpa? go do it anyway. worst case scenario is you die
I told you he is full of lies!!!! Also more boobs
People be like: No, don't kill yourself that's selfish, don't you care about the ones that love you?.
They don't fucking understand, we're not here to stay, fuck living, it doesn't matter if you live to a hundred years, you'll cease to exist anyway.
Selfish is wanting to keep alive someone who no longer wants to be alive so you can feel better with yourself. Fucking Hypocrites! Have a nice trip to wherever we end up after death, if you can send a post card. I'll be joining you some time later.
PS: Tits are always nice.
>have nothing to lose, better kill myself
>depressed - better kill myself
>feel pain - better kil myself
when you die, pls visit me and tell me how is it - assuming you are not going to suffer even more lel
coming from the summeresty summer fag in this thread. I've been coming to /b/ for over 7 days now and i've never seen something as summer as your post.
appreciate it, i really do. But i probably won't email you.
wait what? what mask should i use?
Umm i honestly can't remember how much the tank cost. About $50au i think. I've put a fair amount of research into it. And it seems like the cleanest quietest way to go. People that have used bags, generally survived, so I'm going the mask route.
Would you send some money to my paypal? And instead of dying tomorrow, go to the DMV and get yourself checked for organ donation, and find another way to kill yourself so your organs can be used for other people. You have your reasons to suicide, and I won't stop you. But, if you can, you can make a few of everyone elses' lives better.
-Paypal me some cash?
If you're going to do it, do one thing:
Plan out who the unfortunate bastard that finds you first is going to be.
That's a life altering event, colours the rest of your life different.
Just think about who finds you.
OP: Would you buy me Dark Souls II before you go? Or maybe borderlands 2, it's on sale on steam :) http://steamcommunity.com/id/shitfaced14/
Not sure if this is troll or not, but you obviously made this thread for a reason OP. Youre hurting, and youre hurting hard. Deep down inside. You think you are worth nothing? You are no good to society? You are typing, spelling, and even making complete sentences that actually make sense. You know who can't do that OP? Retards. The mentally challenged. Are you a retard OP?
When are you doing it?
Did you send those letters today, or what?
OP, I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL PLEASE AT LEAST LISTEN TO THIS BOOK BEFORE YOU DO IT AND SEE IF IT DOESN'T HELP YOU. I SWEAR JUST TRY IT!
also try suicide hotline
If i was retarded I wouldn't be able to go through with it. One of the main reasons i'm posting here is because i've been lurking since about 05. Although it's changed heaps I still enjoy some threads.
Don't do it. Everyone here is disconnected from reality. Go take a long walk on a sunny day and sit down on a bench. Not getting enough exercise and/or vitamin D leads to depression. Try this first.
It would be a waste to see you go, OP.
Be rational here.
Why, because its some stupid copy pasta I didnt get?
Am I not immersed enough in 4chan culture?!
TEACH ME SENPAI
I'm an oldfag, been postin before you knew what the rock was cookin bitch
Nah, that wasn't me. I was however here about a year ago enquiring about the same things. Wondering what suggestions i can take. Everyone was really helpful and it took me about that year to tie up the loose ends.
I would if your profile pic wasn't so fucking retarded.
If i can listen to the book in a night sure. But if it's a huge bitch, thats not happening.
shut up faggot, if he ills himself theirs over 8 billion to replace his ass.
People who are saying do it: stop it.
OP offing him/herself is not going to make you feel better about your own life, and if it does, then you need a long reflection on your life.
Don't do it, OP. There are so many other things to do besides killing yourself.
Op confirmed for selfish and lacking perspective.
Far be it for me to tell anyone to not kill themselves, I tried when I was in my early 20's. Thanks to a dud rim fire .22 I 'm not dead, or worse, a vegetable from the ineffectiveness of a small caliber round in the roof of my mouth.
Anyway, stop being an angsty child who thinks the 20-30 years of his life dictate how the rest of it will be. That's like a child crying because his toy broke, completely blinded to the future by their assumptions.
Grow up, nut up, and let whatever pain you have make you better for having experienced it. Faggot.
< MFW op is going to kill himself. obviously
I'm actually feeling really motivated and a little excited to do it. The nervousness that comes with it, is more, if i get caught situation.
Sun isn't out in Australia right now. I do however prefer walking in the rain. I take vitamin tablets everyday if that helps.
That's the plan. Probably around 13:00 aus time.
At least the autopsy will show you were healthy, you should stick a note in your pocket saying " the pelicans don't even know where i stored my scones " and have a picture drawn of a cat with a tophat, because what i said was fact.
You don't get to choose to be alive. Two strangers come along and fuck and you get born and have to deal with it. But if you try to choose not to be alive, people come out of the fucking woodwork to try and stop you.
Do it bro its only like 2 hours, Ive been feeling suicidal for almost my entire life and since I started studying psychology I feel much better and Im getting better everyday. I just found that book in the past week and its what I was looking for my entire life, I swear to you its the best book you could ever hope to find. Just listen to it all the way through its really good you wont get bored. I hope you see the value in it, I wish you the best. If you learn about psychology on your own and take it seriously you can unfuck your mind, society is fucked up not you. Good luck man.
As a balloon pro, please don't waste helium.
But if you're going to, get the big 291 T-tank. It'll blow the brain stem out the back of your neck and your lungs out of your chest. You might even have one final moment to reflect on what you've done.
Why not heroin overdose? Fun, peaceful, warm sleepytime. Or don't you want your parents to think you were fucked up and on drugs? Stupid prick.
You were doing great until you cried for help on an anonymous image-board. You could have spent some of the last shreds of your existence here with meaning, but you're piddling it away.
The problem with people that commit suicide is that they haven't found what they've been looking for, what makes them happy. It's not that easy. you have to search. You have to work. Suicide is the mother fucking easy way out, and that's a god damn fact. Weak bitches quit.
This shit is gold.
Go out with no ragrets OP
You fuckers just don't get it do you?
If he's serious its beyond our grasp. Encouraging this will only make him determined for his final voyage. Many people go on with life wishing for many things, he's making his dream come true. We're at 7billion and if I were to take a wild guess less than 1% make any real difference.
OP I hope you tied off any debts so that your family isn't harassed by the juden. Remember to exhale and release the valve carefully so you don't blow up your lungs. Best of luck /b/uddy.
From your steam profile picture you might need to get out more or play a sport. I'm trying to log in now, to get you the game. but seriously, go outside.
I actually really like this idea.
Nope. Well eventually be seen so my organs are still fresh for the picking.
It's not a broken toy situation it's more of a, would i rather that or this situation. There are different reasons to commit suicide, I never said i had a tough life or future ahead of me.
if op wants to get caught, he better realize that they'll shove some pills down his throat and he'll never function properly again.
if anything you should at least dress up as a clown, though
give the scene some atmosphere
May you find peace OP. I have been in your situation many times before.
OP LISTEN - JUST FUCKING READ THIS.
I've been there before. Drop it, spend money on gym membership, use internet to find out more about nutrition/training. START LIFTING. Just do it.. try it for at least 3 weeks. Thank me later.
Yeah. You want to know real hopelessness, depression. Go live in a dirty ass thrid world country.
"Oh god I have clean hot water on tap, electricity, insulation and protection from marauding militias. Boo-hoo!"
Get some fucking perspective.
Or your could just jump off a bridge, someone once told me its like the water is giving you a big wet hug, my personal suicide plan, go squirrel suiting off a mountain then take the helmet off and go " I WAS DEAD LONG BEFORE THIS!" then smack head first off the mountain side
Some people don't want amenities, in fact I'd argue that's what leads to people like Op. Life has ceased to be difficult; thus, life has stopped being interesting. Maybe Op does need to go to a third world country. Maybe he can find what he needs in the squalor.
No one makes any real difference.
YOU ARE JUST A BUNCH OF ATOMS.
If anything it's an altruistic move. We are severely overpopulated and one of the best ways to undue many of our problems is to reduce the population.
Go for it. Everyone else saying not to is just trying to make their shitty lives feel like they have some worth and meaning.
That is why you speak of the one percent doing something meaningful because you are not part of it.
OP has the most balls and willpower of anyone if he were to go through with it.
Farewell OP, i'll join you sometime next week. I'm thinking wednesday.
Fuck third world countries. It's not OP's or anyone's duty to care about them. Tired of this same bullshit, so what if they have it worse? We're not allowed to feel sad because our lives are better than theirs? Sucks for them for being born in a shitty country. Why don't they stop reproducing? Who brings a child into the world knowing they're just going to starve and be in one of those commercials asking for money.
Already joined a gym, been lifting for about a year now i think.
I used to live in Philippines, that's a little third world.
I've exaughsted a fair few options. Well i can continue seeing my therapist, and save up for another vacation, but when i get back i'll just feel the same again. Or i can just fake being a different person for a certain amount of time and again, be in the same situation. Either way it's happening, i believe.
your a little fucking party pooper aren't you..
Who are your behavioral models that youlearned suicide from? By this I mean "suicide as a realistic go-to solution to life's adversity"?
Have you not been exposed to behavioral models that are tough and fight the adversity? Do you see your suicide as comedic or romanticized?
arrest =/= criminal offense
that doesn't fucking matter. still a crime. if you fail like the attention-seeking slob you likely are, then you get punished.
so then yes. it is a crime. there are places in the world where it's a fucking crime.
you fucking knob, le was overused by 9gag and he was using it properly because he was making fun of the 1337 speak that usually goes hand in hand with le. kill yourself you newfag underage b&
Don't forget to say a nice squeaky "good bye cruel world". Finding meaning in life is pretty easy when opportunities are limitless living in a developed world. Or just ended and someone else will take what you will lose.
If you're really going to an-hero at least take out some pieces of shit with you.
Examples of pieces of shit:
Repeat offenders for crimes such as robbery.
You can easily find their information online in your local clerk of courts website.
Here you go everyone in cases any wanted the blue prints
That's a real short list of options, and I think most anyone here knows there's actually a lot more and that when you're depressed you actionably ignore many to perpetuate the feeling.
Ever tried meditation? If yes, you're either lying or need to really try again. If not, then try it.
No it's not, you fucking retard. You can be confined to a hospital and forced into treatment if you're suicidal, but the actual act of killing yourself isn't illegal, now do the world a favor and fucking kill yourself.
Fuck you Ryan.
The wikipedia article says that by 1990 only two states listed it as a crime and this has since been removed.
If you read on it tells you how it is an unwritten common law crime to protect the individuals estate
I hope you do. Suicides make me happy. Every time I hear about a faggot either attempting or succeeding, I chuckle, sometimes audibly depending on the environment. It brings me satisfaction and a sort of personal power to know that I can handle and have figured out what others failed miserably at. Every an hero makes me a better person.
OP, I hope you find happiness in the afterlife.
Also let me know if there is an afterlife.
>crimes can only be crimes if they can be enforced.
false. that makes no sense whatsoever. enforcing crimes?
yes, dipshit, it is. maybe not where you live in your assisted suicide wonderland, but i don't give a fuck about that. suicide is a crime. all criminal acts are illegal.
my steam isn't letting me log into another computer, and the verification code isn't working.
I'm gonna be completely honest and say i don't know what the fuck you're talking about. If you're talking about people that i admire and look up to, that have strong personalities and fight for their life. then no... i am that person in the group of people i know. People have always come to me for shit about their lives.
It has been illegal in the past. At least in the states it is no longer illegal. Assisted suicide and the like still are illegal in all but 5 states . In many states a person that has attempted suicide may be forcibly admitted to a metal health institution. Also suicide may be considered homicide in order to void insurance claims by the heirs.
It actually is not.
>in your assisted suicide wonderland
Is that supposed to make me feel bad or something...? Stop being retarded and realize that it's not illegal you stupid faggot.
Its okay my little wonderous party pooper of whiteknight rospects, come into thy bussom and all will be forgiven
I saw progress in the first 6 months or so, and then it slowed down.
I always though if i meditated the silence and tranquility will bring my mind to think of even more suicidal thoughts.
you enforce the law.
those who do not uphold the law are criminals, and their actions considered crimes.
It can very well be illegal to commit suicide, and people will go out of their way to prevent it, but once the act is done, there is no penalty for the accused.
I think we got off on the wrong foot Ryan, I want him to kill himself I'm not being a whiteknight. I'm just pointing out that killing yourself isn't a crime.
?For all you depression fags he is so helpful advice start taking HTP5 no o won't tell you what it is stop being a fag a youtube htp5 benefits or google it I've been there the shit helps
Yo, suicidal ausfag. I am also from aus, and hate paying bullshit steam prices.
give me games, i respect your descision to do whatever the fuck you want with your life. Godspeed.
you don't enforce crimes, faggot. stop changing your words.
>those who do not uphold the law are criminals
it doesn't matter if there is a penalty. there are more repercussions when a person dies than the person dying.
>stop being a faggot and pretending your local laws apply to the planet.
Isn't that exactly what you're doing? Listen if you're retarded, you might wanna let me know, I might actually feel bad.... Or not I'll probably just call you autistic or a fucking re-re.
you werent the first
you wont be the last
>use fucking helium to try and kill self
>helium rises fuckers
>start breathing oxygen again
>wake up 2 and 3/4 brain dead
>get on Oprah Winfrey
>marry that fucker
>buy 4chan passes for everyone
Go for it op
Also, say hi to bryan when you get wherever you're going. He was a top bloke, the cunt.
no, faggot, i am responding to your faggotty claim
>suicide is not a crime
you're wrong. there are places where it is a crime. it's probably a crime where you live. stop being a massive faggot and move on.
Dude just don't do it.
I had a friend who blew his own head off, his little brother found him.
It took a huge toll on his family and friends. Just remember if you think you have no reason live, you can still live for the ones who love you.
At least try meditation. once or twice a day for 5 days. If you want to know more I can show you. Otherwise this is my last comment because if you're not interested in such a simple option, then maybe you do need to kill yourself.
>stop being a massive faggot and move on.
I think you should head your own advice retard. It's not a crime. End of discussion.
Get comfortable. Relax all your muscles, starting at your head and working down to your feet, then back up. Keep doing this until the pain of relaxation goes away. Then stop thinking. It's not wasy for some at first, but it gets easy rapidly. Just stay that way for as long as you'd like. It's that simple. One time may not reach the desired effect, but after doing it once a day for 5 days, a positive difference in mental state is guaranteed.
OP, just ignore all these fags telling you to live for your family. It's not their decision, and it's fucking selfish to make you keep on living just for them, when you really just want to end all this shit. Go for it OP. Become a pelican, and go find your lost scones.
I wish i had one without the gay watermark. Oh well though.
Great thing about bumping yourself off is you can always put it off for another day.....just in case things change..
I'm not gonna try to change your mind, OP. I'm sorry it has come to this. I'm sorry you've given up. Good luck tomorrow.
>The doc didn't want to prescribe me meds because he thought i would become reliant on them
That's pretty shitty of him, and I would highly recommend that you consult a different psychiatrist.
I have an ex boyfriend that killed himself last year. I was blamed for his death. I was all he could ever talk about after I left him. i'm sorry but if you don't want to help yourself then no one can even try and help you. for three years I put up with my ex beating me, threatening me and attempting to kill me when what I did wasn't what he wanted. I loved him yes. But I couldn't stand there beside him and watch him destroy himself. If you are going to kill yourself, you are going to do it regardless. thats how Suicidal people work. I know I've stood there and had to force my ex to puke up 200 xanax so he wouldn't die, telling him it was my fault. But guess what? that didn't change anything. The day I found out he was dead was the best day in my life because I didn't have to hide anymore. i didn't have to hide on facebook, in my home town, hell I could actually answer phone calls from random numbers again knowing that it wouldn't be him. If you are going to kill yourself I feel sorry for you because there is so much to life that you will miss out on. It's not the best thing on earth no but your life is what you make it. Its the only thing you have that is truly yours.
If you still go through this this /b/ro I'm sorry for you and I wish you luck in the afterlife. If you don't I hope you can find something good to do with yourself or find something that you love to do and continue to do it for years to come. With this I bid you Good night.
Even if it was illegal to kill yourself, what are they doing to do? Arrest your corpse?
And besides, OP said he was from Melb, which means Vic state legislation applies, specifically: Section 6A of the Crimes Act 1958 (Vic) which states that the rule of law whereby it is a crime for a person to commit or to attempt to commit suicide is hereby abrogated.
Do your research cunt.
To become an hero, you have to change immensely. The Hero's Journey resonates for a reason.
Becoming a hero means leaving your comfort zone behind, experiencing trials and triumph, and
allowing your old self to die so that you can be reborn as a fully realized hero.
It doesn't necessarily mean that you're some action movie protagonist, soldier, policeman,
superhero, vigilante, or whatever.
It just means that you go from seeking comfort and pleasure and ease of life to having the
strength and courage to face adversity and champion what you're supposed to champion in your
life. You could be a doctor, a soldier, a writer, an artist, an engineer, a chef, a stay-at-home
parent, a veterinarian, or whatever it is you're destined to be, and you can be a hero. It's just
about realizing an ideal self that can only be revealed through allowing your current one to
struggle and fight and die.
Say you have a cushy life at home with your family, but you're called to leave that behind and go
to college or take a job in some far-off place. That's the Call to Adventure. If you refuse the
call and stay in your comfort zone, that's easier, but you'll ultimately just be building a maze
around your minotaur instead of facing it. So you go. You struggle and grow and meet strange
people and face trials and get tested though feats of sacrifice and strength and wit and courage.
You get stronger. Along the way, you're tempted to give up by setbacks or distracting pleasures.
Eventually, though, you succeed, and you find yourself transformed by your adventures, and you
return home with whatever you won over the course of the adventure. Now you're a hero, because
you've completed the journey, and you're strong enough to protect and champion whatever your
That's how you become an hero. Not by killing yourself.
I had the same gear ready about a year ago. I read somewhere that you should wait a month once you've reached the FINAL decision to end it. I gave it a month and things were a bit less dark so I postponed it.
Since then I moved to another state, got a gf, changed my perspective and mindset. I'm now a semi content normal guy. I get choked up thinking about that time and how close I was.
I don't know you're life and only you can make the decision about whether you really need to or not but I just want to say that it is possible to escape that suffocating bleakness and I hope you can. Keep working and hold on.
I love you man. There is another reality.
Dearest of all OP's
B4 killing yourself did you know that all your suffering is coming from your mind? (dwelling on past and future)
The pain body inside your mind wants to survive like every other organism on earth
Control your taughts and your depression will not have food to survive....
Also read "the power of now"....or just kill yourself :3
Anon, do you know what alpha means? Not bein a bitch ass nigga.
Op a bitch ass nigga.
Op, if you're gonna off yourself like the beta you are, do it in a fucking hilarious way
Do as many front flips as possible from a tall building
Drown in sewer after writing a note saying nobody gave a shit
Put a plastic bag over your head, then light it on fire
Just do fucktarded shit until you die, it's the point of life, fuckface
If you're only giving yourself a day or so before you take the exit, then spend it meditating as much as you can stand. I promise you will notice some difference in short order.
Killing yourself is a coward's way.
I am a gay, androgynous-looking Native American who is allergic to dairy and red meat, has severe chemical brain imbalances, who has been homeless, raped, beat within an inch of his life before, broke his head open, was a complete loser in high school with bad acne, nearly went blind from an infection, and you know what?
Fuck all that, I beat all that bullshit and now I'm a good-looking, well-liked respected man. Fuck depression.
it's a crime faggot. in india it's a crime. in russia it's a crime. in singapore it's a crime. in parts of america it's a crime. the discussion is never over, faggot, much like your craving for cock.
i am this guy
meditation works. but controlling your taughts is easier to do and effective 24/7. i used to meditate daily
the thing is that one needs to find the road in between over thinking and meditation.
coz in op's case he would simply start overthinkin again once meditation is over
Why are you not going out with a bang?
I meam honestly,if your heart is set on becoming an hero,then do so,but why not fulfill all your desires before that?
Rape whoever you fancied before,go and kill/torture whoever offended you before,kill those you dislike just because you can
As long as you carry around a quick way out,like a gun,or better yet,cyanide,you can avoid all consequences of your actions.
So why not go out with a bang,OP?
i don't give a fuck what they would do. that isn't relevant to it being a crime. but, it has repercussions beyond punishment. insurance, etc. i don't give a fuck where op said he was from. op is a faggot who posted a pic of a tank he has never seen.
yes and no. In some states (I'd bet bible belt) attempted suicide is a crime (which is kinda fucked up because if you successfully kill yourself no crime has occurred but a failed attempt could be prosecuted; kinda encourages you to get it done right the first time)
No, that happens if you quit. Many peoples problem is they think "Wow, it worked" and stop their routine. You have to keep meditating to reap it's rewards. And to learn how to control your thoughts. I commend your perspective, though, you're definitely on the right track.
>that i'll grab tomorrow
well, lets talk tomorrow OP
the purpose is to deter suicides, especially those attention craving faggots who use vital emergency aid resources.
there is nothing noble about a suicide. no man is a fucking island. all of the resources you have used throughout your life need to be paid back by you working and fulfilling your end of the social contract.
That was depressing. Sorry for your loss? Obviously the dude was a dick though, if he was beating you.
Sorry to hear that bro. You'd be the brave one...
ok. ill spend the night meditating then. I don't usually sleep a lot anyway.
It doesn't matter whether you look up to them or not. How did suicide become an acceptable option you?
Suicide as an idea enters into the mind of everyone, as a possibility that could happen to someone. It can remain as an unthinkable, unacceptable response in the person's mind though, something they'd never consider doing, no matter how bad things were.
How did suicide become an acceptable solution for you? When did suicidal ideation begin? In response to what?
Thanks, op. I won't be on later, so I'll assume you at least tried and will rest easy. take care out there, and if you're honestly going to try it, then enjoy your new mental state and perspective on existence.
Seeing as you made up your mind I must commend your dedication. Every second around the world someone is thinking about ending it but never do. They drift from day to day wishing for it to all end but never have the strength to do it. Instead these lost souls sap the lives around those they interact with, often being a 'debbie downer' who ruins the buzz. People on /b/, religion, politics and your everyday Joe are going to argue the basis of life on who has the right to live or die, but this your right to choose how you end it. If you're suffering why continue? Would you let a loved pet suffer endlessly because you love it so much that you selfishly keep it for yourself? To end it in this manner can be viewed as one of most selfless ways of departing this planet. Painlessly going and not taking others with you that so many have choose;murder-suicides, shoot ups ect.
Again I hope you have all your debts squared away, fuck the banks and other creditors. You should also consider packing your belongings away so that your friends/family don't spend an enormous time cleaning out your living space. You can also clean your PC/phone so that its less embarrassing for others.
I say these things in hopes that you take it as a view to find that peace that we're all searching for. Best of luck friend.
Can confirm the benefits of 5HTP. Used to do coke and MDMA quite often not to mention lots of drinking. Became very depressed which I'm sure was a result of a constant fluctuation of seratonin levels. Started taking 5HTP twice a day while I was on drugs and it made life much more pleasant. When I became sober I continued with the 5HTP and let me tell you, life was grand. One year later I'm no longer taking any drugs or supplements and I feel grateful for every morning I wake up to. Don't be discouraged though, it took about 3 months for it to fully take effect
well, everybody does what best works for him i guess
for me stopping the brain dwellings is easy. I realised that i cannot fuck up my future coz of my past. coz of uncontrolled taughts. meditation is nice tho, you feel real good afterwards.
the problem is that meditation is not a 24/7 thing. for me at least. i have some stoner friends; for them its half a day thing
I would rather keep it out of the local news paper. Not even sure where to get a gun in Australia, i would actually love to get cyanide if you know where to get some here. But yep, i'd rather keep it clean with hardly any hassles.
You guys have been arguing for a bit whether it's legal or not.
No, it is not illegal. Section 6A of the Crimes Act 1958 (Vic) states: "The rule of law whereby it is a crime for a person to commit or to attempt to commit suicide is hereby abrogated."