Most guys here on /b/ probably feel the same way Elliot did,

>>548361197
Nah m8 I'm on 13 so far

Yeah, I'm very much a feminist, and I can definitely vouch for that

>>548361321
13 kills?

>>548361197

tru dat OP. tru dat.

most people have frustrations. don't deny it.

>>548361447
13 sloots

>>548361630
Then you are very fortunate (depending on how you look at it.) Many men are not.

Some people have morals.

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In all fairness, I understand where he's coming from. He's a half breed. As a fellow halfbreed I empathize with him on the cultural indifference.
You're not really asian, but you're not really white.
But the kid was spoiled.
He needed a good ass whooping, and he should of started lifting.

But top kek for being 5'9 manlet with 4" penis.
That's what you get when your dad is a jew.
I lucked out, my dad part of dat aryan race.

No, Elliot thought that girls were supposed to give him sex for being a supreme gentlemen. He thought girls were supposed to offer him sex because he was having a bad day, not feeling good, etc. He never even tried to talk to women or ask them out, he didn't think that was part of dating.

Most faggots on /b/ realize that it's their own fault they can't get any women because they don't have the courage to put themselves out there and show romantic interest towards women. Elliot was a deluded faggot completely lacking self awareness.

CAPTCHA: dis u ppl unite

>>548361971
You know, this manlet stuff might have contributed to his madness...

>>548361985
/thread

>>548361197
yeah we all hate women and are so narcissistic yet incredibly insecure and can't forget about that aspbergers syndrome we all have.

/thread

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I feel for him

my initial reaction was "well shit if he knew as much about pick as i did he would be fine!!"

but

i still feel myself lonely, i feel as though my own beliefs about women are misshaped and tormented to the point of being grotesque. I feel as though we're walled off from each other as human beings. distrusting of one another, fearful, selfish.

a lady friend asked last night, "why do you push people away?" and my answer was simply "because if i continue to do so you will leave." she didn't understand and probably just thought i was being a shithead but the simple fact is, we live in a throwaway society where unless everything goes just perfect nobody bothers to try. myself included.

we live in a vast, indifferent universe in which we are all alone, nobody will ever know our real inner struggles. i think this is what got to elliot.

he murdered people, but i still feel his pain

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>>548361971
I'm so sick of hearing "he was spoiled". People who say that will immediately turn around and say "material things do not provide happiness". If the latter is true, then just because Elliot had material things aplenty does not mean he had nothing to complain about and no right to be angry with life!

i wont
because its true

>>548362306
Can't /thread yourself, assburger.

I understand his situation but there is no excuse for killing innocent people he was a attention seeking whore

>>548361985
Yup, don't lump me in with all the Aspies on /b/.

>>548361197
I guess I'm not like most guys here on /b/

>>548362160
Nah, it didn't.

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>>548361971
But I'm 5'6" and not as good looking as this dude and I lost my V card when I was 17. It's all about confidence. This guy never even tried. He expected girls to just come up to him. What's even sadder is I think if one DID come up to him and try to strike up a conversation or something he would feel too intimidated to reply. He cared WAAAAAY too much about how others viewed him. He tried to emulate everything the "popular" and successful people were doing. He thought nice clothes and a fancy car would guarantee happiness. What an idiot.

>>548361985
>Most faggots on /b/ realize that it's their own fault they can't get any women because they don't have the courage to put themselves out there and show romantic interest towards women

This. I'm a 22 year old virgin myself and I take all responsibility for being a failure. I don't hate women; I hate myself.

>>548361197
If by saying most of us are supreme alpha males, then yes, we are.

>>548362365
she is definitely having a last look around her

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>>548362365
I was an aspie little shit that got everything from my dad.
Till one day, he cut that shit out, I finally ventured passed my block, got into FSU, worked out, drowned in the pussy.
The kid was spoiled, he had no social skills due to the fact director daddy waited on him hand and foot.

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>>548362660
Who needs an excuse? Not everyone is trying to be a "good guy". Sometimes evil seems like a fine solution to things, and evil needs no excuses.

>>548361985
What if I dont want women, I just want to be more mature and take sex from a more grown up persepctive. I want to graduate college and get a decent job before I get into all of this.

>>548361197
he sounds and looks like a little bitch, he had buku $$$ why not pay for it if that desperate. He really should of just heroed...or grew a pair of balls

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>>548361197
I know we all act like edgy virgins, but a lot of us are just normalfags.

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>>548363063

>>548361985
>Most faggots on /b/ realize that it's their own fault they can't get any women because they don't have the courage to put themselves out there and show romantic interest towards women. Elliot was a deluded faggot completely lacking self awareness.

They feel this way because of how women have treated them throughout their lives. In turn, women behave cruelly because of an innate lack of empathy they all possess.

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No. Most guys on /b are not in denial about their homosexuality. They either admit or are into traps. None of the heterosexuals think it's the women's fault. They know they're losers and understand why women are disgusted by them

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Elliot Roger was obviously gay.

I can't believe that hasn't been brought up in the media (as far as I know)

Well kids he went an hero so no use crying about it now. Though someone should've busted out the Pear of Truth or had him drawn and quartered medieval style. His corpse should be fed to pigs so he can physically become the pigshit he was in life.

http://m.apnews.com/ap/db_268744/contentdetail.htm?contentguid=BG9ZPuWq

>>548364059
>Pear of Truth

Is that the thing they heated up, shoved in somebody's ass and slowly opened/expanded it?

You faggots make me sick to my stomach. Do you how mentally disturbed you look when you post about how much you worship him? Why dont you worship a real god with a much higher kill count like Yahweh.

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>>548363524
No one asks to be a "loser". No one makes themself a loser. The universe is designed to punish people for that which they cannot change and are not to blame for. It is only natural that such ones learn to spit upon abstract social constructs like "morality", and appease their fury with violence. They need no justification, for justice does not exist in their worlds to begin with. This is the realm we live in; conflict, suffering and death are as integral to it as are gravity and light. There is no escape from it. There is no right nor wrong. Everything suffers and dies.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2_GVmAe0Pc&list=UUoqTL76PVy61_gpqPKuaGYw

>>548361870
I'll admit that I was a virgin until I was 17, I used to get friendzoned a shit ton and one night I threw a party and fucked some rando which really pissed off the women who friendzoned me during HS, but I couldn't care less about them anymore

>>548363858
>(as far as I know)

a "specialist" on fox news was interviewed last night, he said exactly that

>>548361197
You're extrapolating.
Literally.

>>548362365
His affluence gave him a superiority complex, which, coupled with his inability to talk to women, made him flip the shit when he couldn't get any

>>548362838
20 year old kissles virgin same feels /b/ro. But i am trying to change i stopped fapping a few days ago and i need to force myself to hit the gym. If not i will just become an hero at thirty

I was still a virgin well into my 30s.

But it never occurred to me that it would be anybody else's fault except mine.

I did a few things to try to increase my appeal. I got a good education and a good job and saved money. And I made sure that women knew that I was serious about a lifetime relationship with a strong commitment. There's a certain type of woman who's attracted by that, and I eventually found one.

>>548364564
The gym will change your life m8, stick with it, I promise

Not just the muscles, but the testosterone and confidence go through the roof

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>>548361197
My best friend lost his virginity at 24. Now he gets more action than I do, because while I was always better at closing the deal, he was always better at going out with a girl in the first place.

There can be no sympathy for the Rodge. He was king of the faggots. Most of us are not "a little saner", we're on a whole other level of normalcy compared to that faggot. That's why we're on here... to vent are hate and frustration for society. That's healthy. What that cunt did, writing a manifesto, and not even at least sleeping with hookers, is just fucked up. Genetic trash has been disposed.

>>548364564
I was a level 21 wizard until a few days ago its easy you gotta talk to them like everyone else
I don't even work out

>>548365198
>are
our

I do feel the same as he did, women really do have far too much power, they don't have the mental, emotional or physical ability that men have to allow them to have such a big part in the way society works, it sounds crazy to say it but I really do feel that way

Pretty much every single woman I come across is just beyond retarded, completely controlled by their fluctuating emotions and entirely deluded about how society works and how people interact

Feminism is a perfect example, it's absolutely ridiculous, and anyone can see it, and yet women still always get their ways when they talk about the patriarchy, rape culture and gender roles, they have no idea how anything works but they want to completely change the way the entire world works to suit what they they think would be best

We're living in a age where females are being elevated to god status, and as a result, they are hyper-selective about who they want to mate with.
So they'll pick any reason to shoot a guy down; he's short, he stinks, his shoes are stupid, he lacks self-confidence, thinning hair the list goes on and on.
I think a lot of this shit is grossly exaggerated on the internet that if you're not a perfect alpha specimen of Kal El himself, you're useless to the species and should get back in your cage until we actually need you, which might be never in some cases.
Then add on to that, the rampant misogyny and slut shaming and feminism crap that's just poisoning people against each other, and it's really no wonder this guy snapped.
He realized he would never have a shot at being happy. Which is weird because he's a trust fund baby, so you would think he would be living a much better life than any of us.
It's just sad really, and this will only act as fuel for the fire in the feminist agenda of having all men either jailed or castrated.

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>>548364949
>And I made sure that women knew that I was serious about a lifetime relationship with a strong commitment.

Many men are literally not designed to do this, and that is the source of their problems. They only require sex for mental well-being, but social norms force them into a cookie-cutter mold that they cannot fit into. They are made to feel that there is something wrong with them if they do not really understand what a "relationship" is, and cannot achieve nor tolerate that sort of emotional intimacy. Conversely, women who can accommodate men like this are branded as "sluts".

Plot twist: he was gay.

>>548363858
I thought the same thing when I saw he favorited Taylor Swift and Adele videos on you tube.

>>548361197
You mean desperate, creepy, lonely and delusional? Nope, I'm not any of those.

>>548366141
So he was a deranged woman hating faggot. No wonder these cocksuckers love him.

I'm like really surprised he wasn't a /b/tard

>>548361197
I used to be a lot more bitter towards women, but then I got a hot gf.


Its really not that hard to do.

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>>548365792
>implying it doesn't hurt like hell to be cheated on

>>548366141
they are actually good singers
isnt it more beta to conform to what people view as a gay, rather than listen to whatever you want without caring if its gay

>>548365198
That's a sad view of things. I feel that if I cannot sympathize with someone, it means I simply cannot understand them well enough. Lack of sympathy = lack of intelligence.

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So who else read all 140 pages of his auto-biography? All this nigg did was throw tantrums to get his way, cry ALL THE TIME!, thought people that didn't even know he existed were insulting him in front of himself and/or family, and threw starbucks on anyone that he thought slighted him. He definitely had a fucking mental illness.

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>claims to be supreme gentleman
>"I'm awesome. Yeah you better believe it.
>"Fuck you haters."

He thought people deserved to die because they lived happy lives.
Guy was a fuckin wierdo.

>>548363858
It's because the media is having a MASSIVE circle-jerk about how great all things gay are and that if you're gay you're automatically America's biggest hero. I think the pro-gay movement is more annoying than feminism. I agree they should have the right to get married but I could give less a shit about going all apeshit about bullying and putting gay people on some pedestal.

>>548361197
Yeah, it's true. He was depressed, I'm depressed and you wouldn't know it because we both own fancy cars and a lot of sunglasses (I actually have a pair of Gargoyles like what the Terminator had). And I can't get laid either. After reading about Elliot, though, maybe I don't want to get laid afterall.

>>548362365
that fucking look on her, god. women can be so fucking annoying

>>548366501
It's a pattern that is unusual for a 22 year old guy. I like female singers just cuz, but I don't go online sign in and like their video's. There was also a comment he posted about how excited he was about Brittany Spears. Odd.

>>548364564
lol that no fap shit is such bullshit, even Elliot tried it.

>>548361197
Nah.
I never "blamed" women for myself being shy, socially awkward, and overweight.

I did however blame women who bitched about their problems to me because they made stupid choices.

>I got drunk at a party and now I'm pregnant help me you're the only person I can turn to
Bitch please, go talk to the fucking father
>I don't know his name or where he lives or any of his contact information
Jesus fucking christ. Ended up driving the bitch to the abortion clinic because I'm a softie then taking her home and consoling her until her fucking dyke friends showed up to take over, at which point I was reprimanded by them for being around her in a "vulnerable" state. Despite her asking me not to leave her alone.

This has happened more then once btw.

Then theres the typical

>omg I hope he asks me out hes so hot
>why would he dump me after we had sex? :(

I need to have less female friends I think.

>>548361197

have you actually read this manifesto? its the batshit crazy story of a little shit with entitlement issues,
http://www.scribd.com/doc/225960813/Elliot-Rodger-Santa-Barbara-mass-shooting-suspect-My-Twisted-World-manifesto#page=107

seriously if you think you can identify with this psycho betafag kill yourself now

>>548361197
I dont hate women because my heart was broken and i dont want to kill people.

That's called projecting OP, you think you're not far off from him so you project it on the rest of us. I doubt there are many people even on /b/ who are close to being that guy. That guy is an asshole

>>548362365
very well put. It is a contradiction how people can say both of those things

>>548366479
I'm sure it does... to people trained by their upbringing to view monogamy as exclusively morally correct. Pain is integral to our existence. It also hurts like hell to to be deprived of biological and emotional needs because your society is held captive by the baggage of the Christian dark ages.

>>548363462
yes yes yes yes this

Nah. It's not like women are fucking out to get you if they're not on your meatpole. Just like I wouldn't stick my dick in any women that walks by, I don't expect just any woman to let me jam it in.

Though it'd be breddy ace if they did.

I bet if he did manage to get laid he probably would have gotten the whore pregnant first time.. We all know he wasn't shooting blanks

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5laxoAPWoMA&feature=youtu.be

All I gotta say is it was all Elliot's fault he didn't get laid cause seriously, living on the beach and being that pale??? come on man, how ya gonna basement dwell in beach paradise?

>>548367168
You are either a newfag or completely loony if you don't think a hell of a lot of guys here have similar, if much less severe, emotional trouble a Elliot Rodgers.

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ok I admit, in my younger days I felt many of the same feels that Elliot did
but instead of fantasizing about slaughtering hot chicks I chose to escape to a world of drugs
like most of you I blamed women for my fails and spaghetti with the female gender. today I feel silly for being so misguided
today even though I'm an oldfag I have no shortage of sex and companionship from beautiful women.
I've had gfs, one night stands, threesomes, was even married at some point. but all of this only happened after I let go of the "supreme gentleman/women are evil" bullshit

do you want to go from a m'ladies man to a ladies man? first step is accepting the possibility that everything you know about women is wrong. entertain that thought in your for a while.

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he should have embraced wizardom and lived happily ever after.

>>548366628
>That's a sad view of things
That I'm not sympathizing with him? Well I did a little bit at first, but to blame his roommates? Are you sympathizing with the parents of Weihan "David" Wang, who lost their only son, a son who wanted to move out?

This story is all too common. I don't need to sympathize with it anymore, I don't need to sympathize with the scum to understand it.

And what do you accomplish with your sympathy? Had he not died, would you be giving him more concern than the dead families? Take your bullshit argument about intelligence = sympathy and fuck off.

Oh shit, I thought all this shit was some dude trolling.
He actually went out and did it? What a god..

>>548367867
>everything you know about women is wrong.

elaborate pls.

>>548364957
Gym won't do it all if your not trying to improve other part of your life I was skinny and underweight gained 30 pounds of muscle still felt like shit about myself it sure does help but it isn't the answer

>>548366628
sympathy -> intelligence
intelligence -/-> sympathy

>>548361197

What's the difference between an egg and Elliot Rodgers?

An egg gets laid before it cracks.

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>>548368161

we can start with the most common one

>women are only attracted to douchebags, there is something seriously wrong with how their brain is wired

^wrong

>>548367113
Nah elliot stopped fapping because he started hating sex. Not fapping has already increased my sexual attraction to women i only after a few days am more lustful and care a little less about rejection.

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>>548362846
>last look

>>548361197
im a 23 yo kissless virgin and i share none of hes views.

>>548361197

I'll admit I do feel this way when I see a black guy with an Asian Girl. My wife is Korea and I'm white, yet seeing an Asian girl with a black guy....I just know they can do better than that. White women I couldn't give 3 shits about.

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>>548367140
How can someone not have entitlement issues? We exist as individuals and experience life exclusively from a single perspective. If anything, a lack of a sense of entitlement is a symptom of fear and cognitive dissonance. When people cannot get what they want, mother culture tells them a little story about how it's OK to not get what you want sometimes because, after all, "you're only one of 7,000,000,000", and this makes them complacent and less motivated to wrend the things they desire out of the clutches of this absurd system we live in.

I, for one, fully expect to receive anything and everything I desire, no matter what it takes to make that happen. All of humanity are worthless illusions to me; broken machines whirring about senselessly and making up lies to fend off their fear of their own mortality.

Nobody deserves to die, but nobody deserves to live either. There is no "deserving" in my world; such abstract ideas are lies invented by someone from eons ago, someone I'm not acquainted with, someone who is fucking dead.

Only I am real.

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>>548366479

webm related, I knew one of these days he'd die laughing, which im sure he will never truly die,

>>548362325
"Why do you push people away" is code some people have for "you don't have to push me away"

Doesn't mean you have to open up or trust them or rely on them
Can simply not push them away
Your feels are complicated because you think you sympathise more with a psycho killer than with someone trying to be there for you
They wouldn't be trying if they didn't think you were in pain.

Hang in there bro. This stuff comes in ebbs and flows.

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>>548368321
FUCK YOU AND YOUR PUNS

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best part. he died LOL

>>548361197
ITT: shooting sprees waiting to happen

>>548367254
So it's okay for me to sleep with every pussy I want, but not to let my bottom bitch touch another cock because I don't want the pain of being cheated on?

>>548365227
I can talk to women. I have most of my college friends are women. I am just so scared of rejection i hide my feelings until i lose contact with the girl.

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>>548361985
this

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>>548368882
6/10

>>548368882

>I, for one, fully expect to receive anything and everything I desire, no matter what it takes to make that happen. All of humanity are worthless illusions to me; broken machines whirring about senselessly and making up lies to fend off their fear of their own mortality.

This just makes you delusional and massively butt hurt later on.

>>548369020
Their will be pain no matter what you do. There is no such thing as OK. Choose your Hell.

>>548361197

Most assholes that are rich are stupid as hell, pay for pussy, or get it free, he was inside a BMW for nigger Jesus's sake

>>548362838
See woman can smell that shit from far.

>>548367571
Holy fuck

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>>548369218
That came from the heart faggot.

>>548361197
no, not at all. he was a pompous jackass with no personality or charm. No WONDER he couldn't get any pussy.

>>548361197
nah i am married and i lurk because i can't help but be fascinated at the psychology of /b/

>>548369591
better start saving for guns and a BMW then sir, ASAP.

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>>548362853

>>548361197
UMMM , his name was Robert Paulson

/ derail

>>548369332
You would say that. You are designed to. Every single feature of this dimension is designed to thwart and torment me,

>>548369717
>Psychology
>/b/
>MFW

>>548367119
ninjas chopping onions during this post

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>>548367678
It might be similar in that there are a lot of people here hung up on failed relationships or no relationships at all; but that can be said of a lot of people.

This dude was an outright sociopath with no empathy, that's different from your typical sad sack neckbeard who's main problem is usually that he's shy, misguided, mad or stupid. You're falling dumb edgy bullshit if you think the majority of people on here can actually be murderous

>>548369779
Guns and cars cannot kill the foe I am after. I don't know what can, and I probably never will. This world is a Hell designed for me. I have reached the stage where I know who my enemy is, and the latest punishment is to be left with no weapons with which to do battle. Hopelessness is my trial today.

>>548369881

Please just shoot something up. I really love getting new meme's and hours of comedy gold.

>>548363192
Pretty much

>>548369881
hmm..

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>>548368321

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King Elliot could have made some fat chick really happy. Instead, he waited for some hot blonde to throw herself at him.

From what he wrote, it sounds like he never even asked a girl out. Would it have killed him to give Match.com a try?

At 22, he really should have just focused on losing his V card to any skank he could land, instead of expecting some 10/10 blonde to come up to him and offer sex out of the blue.

That said, women are, in general, cunts, and I wish he had killed more of them.

>>548370242
You are your enemy. You are your weapons.

If this world is your own personal Hell, then the only logical thing to do is to kill yourself and hope there is a life after this one.

Women never acknowledge me. I'm not attractive and even tho I try to have a good personality i think I make things a bit awkward with my silence. I do try tho and I do get rejected a lot. However there is so much more to life (in my opinion) then just women. Obviously I know this because I can't get a woman without paying for their company. But either way I've found other loves to try to fill that void.

What I've learned is my love for books, music, and of course Japanese culture didn't fill my void for women. I believe that there's a high probability that I won't ever fill that void, I'll have to deal with being a lone for the rest of my life. But with my other interestes in life I don't think that will be such a bad thing. I'll have bad days no doubt, but there isn't much I can do about how I look (lol)

Its sad innocent people died because of this dumbass.

>>548370114
Maybe so. I often forget that other people's revulsion at crimes like this is genuine. Mine is not.

>>548370242
jumped the shark m8, 1/10

>>548369401
Interesting. I choose to undo my lust and not have cheated on the woman I love. I hate myself for it. I hate myself for hurting her, losing her, and causing myself all this pain.

Fuck your "monogamy" is unnatural bullshit. I choose to believe in the concept of love, that souls entangle.

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>>548370614
>What I've learned is my love for books, music, and of course Japanese culture

I think I see your problem.