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>tfw she loves someone else >tfw you still love her >tfw you'll never be with her >tfw she loves a guy that's way better for her than you >tfw you know this >tfw you still can't help feeling anger and sadness
>tfw she's perfect >tfw she's 2perfect4you >tfw she's that one that you could've had, but just didn't make an effort and now she's with someone else
Now I'm just sitting here, wishing I've made a move. No, I'm just reduced to an alcoholic, a person with no direction, just because of some girl. Why is it that must be the way it is? Is it because I'm a beta? I hope it is, I hope it was just the way I was born and not because I'm just holding myself back.
>be me >grade 10 (ausfag) >chubby dude, awkwards, small circle of friends who think i'm the wacky stoner guy >start jogging >low carb diet + c25k and other shit and i lose 10 to 15 kilos >one chick starts paying attention to me (first time it ever happened, really) >she's a dumbfuck hippie but still really nice to be around (i'm into dadrock and she was too.) >never held hands or kissed or anything like that. >mother is a miserable, jealous, freeloading whore who thinks I have anorexia since she "can't" lose weight (i.e she is too fucking stupid) >buys all her personal food, gives me and my little bro nothing for lunch (apart from a little can of tuna and some almonds) >nothing else in the house but junk food >eventually realize that i get nowhere near enough food and my mother will never give it to me, so i can either get malnourished or i can be fat again. >one year later, me and chick from earlier haven't spoken in months, i'm fatter than before >graduate highschool, move away >she wants to talk to me on facebook now. >only seems to do it when she's at a party or drunk (most nights; she claimed to be "the biggest fake virgin in town")
>deactivate facebook, useless poison website that does nothing but remind me of the past >she got my mobile phone number off one of the "friends" i have abandoned >tried calling me a few times last night, i pretended to be sick/drunk and said i didnt know who she was
I'm like this but less emo about it. What I mean is that the reason I never talk to anyone about my feelings is because I find it annoying and tacky when other people do it. Whenever anyone asks me "How are you?" I always say "Fantastic as always." even if I'm sick or whatever.
>>540756684 >act pissy, say i'm going to hang up on you, bitch >"haha of course you won't. go ahead anon. hang up! i know you want to talk to m-" >hang up >tries to call me twice in half an hour >didnt answer
I just want to lose weight, get some muscle and get over this crippling fucking social anxiety.
I always lie to everyone about remembering things. I say I don't remember past yesterday, when in fact I know everything that happened. My memory is really great, but yet I still lie to people saying, oh no I don't remember that, when I did. I think I do it because I don't like my past. Anyone else do this? Just lie about their recollection of things when someone asks you a question about your past?
>>540757058 Its not that I'm emo, I just am addicted to helping people because my peace of shit self isn't good for anything else. I never talk about my feelings to anyone and I don't think any of my "friends" know I'm depressed.
>>540757587 I also sleep a lot, everyclass I'm sleeping. People ask me why I sleep, and I let them decide why I sleep for so much, narcolepsy, insomnia, staying up late, whatever. I've always been tempted to say, It's because one of these days I hope to never wake up.
>>540757380 i do this because i don't want people to think im crazy for being able to remember trivial shit. people who don't give a fuck don't dwell on things and because of that it can seem like theyjust dont remember so Its almost cool to not remember petty shit. i do give a fuck and i dwell on things but thats not the only reason i remember things. i just dont want people to think im some crazy manic fuck that remembers every thing
>>540758474 I have friends, yet I still feel alone. They all went, got their girls, their own little slice of the american dream, and here I am on /b/ by myself. All my friends surpassed me and left me in the dust, and I just couldn't keep up. See I grew up a fat kid until 8th grade, and I guess that really fucked me up. I noticed I fucking shake when I have to talk to someone I don't know, a stranger, and I just kinda freak out. I'm getting better at not being so outcast, but I always look depressed/angry, and that's because I am. I'm not good at masking my emotions, and people ask me, why am I so sad? I almost fucking cry, I have no idea why, and I just say, I don't know. But I do know why.
>>540758998 damn dude thats brutal. i know it doesnt mean much but hey at least you got us. it makes me feel slightly better knowing that i'm not in this shit alone that my bros are going through the same hardships i am
well /b/ i guess i can relate, i mean i don't really have it as bad as you guys, and i have had my share of "American Dream" myself and honestly all i can say is it fucking rocks. Now what can you look forward to is a motive to try and get that slice of "Dream cake". Now i know this is the hardest part for everyone but don't worry the time will come and when it does you'll be venturing out looking for more flavors of cake :p
>>540759330 Yeah, it's comforting that I have /b/, as much of a shithole it can be sometimes, I guess it keeps me together. I may be just blowing my situation way out of proportion, but it still doesn't fucking change my feelings. The worst thing is, I was so close, so close to getting what I wanted, happiness, and I purposely fucked it up. I first thought, well shit why the fuck did I do that, but now after a bit of thinking, I know why. It's because I'm afraid of relationships and shit I've never done, dates, etc. I'm scared of it and I guess, I guess I just want to stick what I've been doing. Maybe I do have social anxiety, I've never really formed a serious relationship with anyone, not even my parents. Fuck, I'm on the verge of tears. I was so close of having happiness, so fucking close.
anyone else here who has turned down girls and possible relationships because you felt like despite really wanting to date her, you would have absolutely nothing to offer? not being interesting at all, no real hobbies etc.? seems the case with me a lot. I tell myself afterwards it was for the better, but well.
>>540761085 Well, I've turned down girls because they were ugly, but no, I've never done that. If you mean like they hinted they liked you and you didn't make a move because of what you said. Yes, look at the post above you.
>>540761369 I'm not deliberately socially anxious, I spent most of my time at home but I have a couple great friends and I'm capable of conversating with people, girls too, without a problem. Relationships are the shit though, I'm a great friend to girls, but not appealing for them too much and when the rare one shows signs of interest, I just turn it down because I feel as if she would be dissapointed with me. I only play the bass guitar, listen to music a lot (metalhead) and spend most of my time playing computer games and reading, so I can't really imagine many reasons to get together with me.
>you look around and every single on of your friends are arrogant assholes > you don't want to be around cocky self centered people who really don't give a fuck about you > I used to have a decent group of friends who actually cared about each other and were always concerned for one anothers well being >LOL THEY DONT PARTY OR GET ATTENTION TIME TO ALIENATE THEM
But pretty much now I'm stuck around completely arrogant cocky douchebags. I'm so sick of arrogant people. I can't have a conversation with anyone for more than 5 seconds with them being sarcastic or saying some random insult for literally no reason. I can't stand it.
Thanks /b/ro, doesn't help that my ex gf who i still love was a complete bitch to me the entire day. We went to the beach and she bought dinner but she was being cold toward my feels and made me feel like shit ontop of already feeling like shit....feels bad man. Pic related, last moments at the beach together
Not sure if this is the right thread to post this.. but I need some advice >Be me >Be depressed all the time >Complete pussy who is fucking terrified of death What the fuck am I supposed to do when I don't want to miss out on life but, it's still so fucking dreadful to live?
>>540762697 Dude, just tell her that you like her. Just one of two things come from this: She cannot work with the fact that you like her and she will leave you or she is okay with that and still hangs out with you. You can lost her, but maybe this will increase your friendship. Anyway, after you tell her your feelings, you feel so much better.
>>540763231 I don't get out of my house much, I'm literally paranoid about death. Almost every waking minute of my life im thinking "dude you're gonna die one day. you're going to stop existing. you are never going to feel anything ever again and you wont even be conscious of it happening" and it prevents me from doing anything other than sitting in my room staring at a fucking wall for hours paranoid at the slightest sounds
>>540763428 I know that feel but you gotta look on the bright side, life is an adventure and what you do here and now depicts how you'll be remembered for eons to come. Hey listen man i know what you're feeling about just not existing 1 day but do yourself a favor a give church a try, not a boring bs church, but an actually 1 that'll make you feel welcome and where people know your name. Trust me /b/ro there is a comfort in putting faith into God and working towards a happy afterlife, even if it's slight
>>540764038 Also the only thing that has so far kept me from breaking down is the single thought of maybe just maybe... the human race will find a way to become immortal. And the worst part is is that I know thats not possible.
If I thought you faggots had the attention span to read the point-form version of my last 8 days, I MIGHT post it. But you're all so destroyed by how your cat avoided you patting it and some schoolgirl didn't like your faggot poetry you probably couldn't even comprehend real world problems.
Get back to me when you have dependants and the world still rapes your arse in all manner of ways all on the same fucking day.
First time posting in a baww thread but fuck you cunts make me sick even when I just scroll past these threads.
>>540764225 Hey man the human soul is real, it's been proven by science. So maybe, just maybe, there's a way to be immortal. I mean how do you explain ghosts & crazystuff like that. Just have faith in something and be a better person despite what happens in the end.
>>540764631 And yet you are still here. You know, I bet you're one of those Alphas who secretly a fucking pussy inside, more so than us. You're afraid and that's why you lash out on us. Fucking kill yourself, do everyone in your life a favor and blow a fucking hole in your head.
-lonely -36 months of almost solitude -losing perception of own mind sometimes -empty shell walking in a staged world -See no reason to be here if not to change humankind, just being a parasite now -lost hope in having kid -body has gone really downhill
An hero? No, I want to see how bad it will go with the world. And do lots of drugs.
>Knowing that ppl are shit >Country its selling out to corruption >People dont care about it just about their "smartphones" >Working for a shit pay(almost slave) so other can gain money with my affords >Bank gimme 50kdlls for a house now says i have to pay 150k dlls in 15 years..... >People saying im insane cause i rage of their poor decition and they dont want to see the problem >Watch TV everyone thinks "EVERYTHINGS OK" RELAX AND KEEP BEING A FREE SLAVE >JUST WANT TO BE FREE AND LIVE >Cant do it because no "we need money"no money = no food = dead >SO What to do be a slave of the sistem or a free homeless person
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