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>Be me, HS senior (I'm 18 now, inb4 b&)
>had huge crush on friend(she has anxiety/depression), but we never really talked much
>always seemed kinda fatigued, nervous, etc but never thought anything of it
>she goes out for a month, her close friend says "she has mono"
>notbuyingit.jpeg
>decide whatever, if she wanted me to know she would have tole me
>flash forward to this year, work up the balls to ask her out
>she says yes
>fuckyea.png
>eventually she tells me some bad shit that happened last year for her
>She got this manipulative and emotionally abusive boyfriend (I'll call him B)
>B scared the shit out of her, he was unstable, violent, and generally awful.
>Eventually he convinced her to sneak out, then he tried to make a move on her, she said no, he did anyways
>she says to me "Anon, you remember when I was out for a month last year?
>tells me she tried to kill myself, and went to a mental hospital for a month
>flash forward to now
>She still has these awful flashbacks
>she still wants to kill herself/self harm sometimes
>she had a flashback earlier, not too bad this time
>she says how she's so sick of dealing with this and wants it all to be over
>says she hates herself and that really hurt to hear. I think shes such an amazing person and to hear her talk about herself like that makes me feel awful for her.
>by the end she tells me: "Anon, I'm so sorry I'm like this, you deserve someone who isn't broken like me"
Fuck that just made me burst into tears in all honesty. I know, I know, but it just hit me right in the feels knowing through all of this, she was thinking most about what she thought I "deserved" and how she doesn't feel good enough.

But every day I just wish I was closer to her earlier last year, maybe none of this awful shit would have happened. I just feel like it's my fault she got raped then in turn tried to kill herself.
>MFW I know I could have prevented this from happening to her.

So /b/, how's life?

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Anonymous 2017-04-11 03:56:41 Post No.728736272
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Anonymous 2017-04-11 03:56:41 Post No.728736272 [Report]

Honestly, you shouldn't blame yourself. I think the best course of action is just making sure she knows you care about her unconditionally. Nothing can change the past, and if you blame yourself, she will feel that negativity. Just be positive and be there for her no matter what. If she can feel that you are supportive and care, then only good can come out of that. And if she does end up taking her life, then there was nothing you could've done.

But yeah, when she says to you that you deserve better, reinforce her not just by saying that you don't want better, but that she's more than enough, etc, and letting her know you truly care.

Also maybe try just randomly giving her gifts. If she asks why, just tell her its because you love her so much you were compelled to. Even if the gifts aren't monetary. Like a poem or a piece of art. Even if it's shitty art or poetry, she should appreciate the thought.

Anonymous 2017-04-11 03:58:05 Post No.728736416
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