A few days ago I was visisitng my therapist and I opened up to him about something, which he responded to by saying I'm disgusting and a loser. I was kinda abrupt but I still go back to him. He gives me hugs, buys me food and other stuff and he's kinda like the dad I never had. I'm not sure how to feel about him calling me that though . Has anyone ever had their therapist call them that ?
Whoa, OP! There are numerous problems with what you describe.
1) no, your therapist should not call you disgusting or a loser
2) your therapist is not a replacement relationship (dad, mom, sibling, etc)
3) your therapist should not be buying you food, etc.
Please report your therapist and get a new one!
Today I talked about my failing relationship and my sex life to my therapist. I got a weird vibe from her that she kind of wanted the D. I'd be totally in for that, actually. She's obviously a bit older than me but still looks fine. Of course, it will not happen, but it's a nice thought to distract me from the despair that has gripped me like a vise.
OP, your relationship with your therapist sounds weird and it's probably not good that it's like that.
This seems like a made up story for attention. If it isn't you need to nope the fuck away from that situation unless you enjoy paying people big money to completely fail at doing their job on top of disrespecting you.
Apparently, almost 18-year-olds can be groomed because he's making you his bitch. Get a new therapist and tell the new guy about the old one.
Who cares what type of porn you watch. If it doesn't hurt anyone then it doesn't matter.
OP get a new therapist, you might feel comfortable with them right now because these good qualities, but would you stay with a friend even though they use you for money? Are they really a friend? What happens when what the therapist looks for is gone? They'll throw you away and not give a shit about you and then it will be the worst feeling ever. No one owes you anything in this world, but that's okay, there will still good people out there trying to help.