Femanon here. So I really regret something I did today and I feel horrible.
>be me, 18, waiting for class to start
>class is at 3:30 and it's 1
>as I'm waiting (reading) this guy comes up and introduces himself
>asks if I smoke weed
>say sometimes (not really )
>asks if I wanna smoke and I say I guess
>His other friend is there
>get in car
>after a while one tries to feel me up
>have do a hand job on him
>extremely awkward , I never even kissed a guy before
>guy tried getting me to do a bj but I am adamant on not doing that
>later have me show them my boobs, they feel it.
>start smoking a joint
>guy and friend switch places
>now I'm give a hang job to this guy
>really just wanna go back
>they start driving to the college
>as I get out they may next week
>say idk and leave
>go to bathroom and wash my hands for 10 minutes
>wash out my eyes
>go back to wait for class to start
It's 2:30 now. I feel so bad. I'm so stupid, I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't realize it til they started feeling me up and by then panicked. They were driving during most of this and I had no idea where we were. I wanna forget but my I can't even use my hands I feel so disgusted. I know it's my faultv and I shouldn't have gotten in, in the first place. I think they took pictures too they had they're phone out a lot. How can I forget about this. I feel so ashamed.
lame. it wasnt exactly rape in the strictest sense, but it probably would have been if you put up a fight. you got away without sucking a cock at least.
id go to a couple free counseling sessions if your school offers anything of that sort (pro-tip: it does) and if not ask your parents to see a therapist for just a little bit. say its nothing super serious but you need some tiny bit of counseling.
you'[ll talk about it, realize the mistakes you made, and think twice about getting into a strangers car to get a drug you dont even take.
I'll look up for the counsel sessions. I know it wasn't rape but I'm glad I got a way with with what I did without being absolutely forced to do it. I can't get over how dumb I am for being this naive.
You were stupid to jump into a car with strangers, but you shouldn't feel weird about the sexual things because after all it's just sex.
Based on your statements, you probably should have more of it, with some person that matters to you of course.
I didn't think sex was involved at all(never once crossed my mind til he started touching me) and figured they were just trying to meet someone new. I guess I've been pretty sheltered of all that stuff
What the fuck where do I find an 18yo who's never even kissed a guy
jk OP that sucks. Do you know their names, can you remember the car to descrie to the police? if they were taking pictures that's evidence. You can press charges. Also even if you don't know anything about them, the cops could check security cameras.
It's not the end of the world. People make mistakes and get exploited, it happens.
Try to disconnect and be objective. This is no worse than falling down the stairs and breaking an arm or missing a big bill. Learn, grow, move on.
The sexual part of it is what really has you down when it shouldn't. You weren't hurt at all. You lost nothing. Remember that.
OP I'm sure your college has some kind of one-on-one counseling for this kind of thing, I think you should probably talk to someone with experience.
Look at it this way. In the future, if a stranger with worse intentions asks you to go somewhere with them, now you'll know better because of this incident.
Mistakes were made.
Lapse of judgement.
I've fucked up and survived. Most people have.
This could have been worse. It could also have been avoided, but if you learn from this then cool. You won't make a similar mistake later on then.
If you need to talk to people, you definitely should. Don't shy away from that. But regarding being an idiot? Don't beat yourself up. You made a mistake, oh well.
As for pictures? Let's hope nothing comes from that. Just don't be a dick to the guys (I feel like they were unaware of you not being happu with it all), and hopefully nothing comes out of it.
My advice on the pictures thing probably isn't the best.
As for making the mistake? I imagine most would say that it's no biggie in terms of making the mistake. Just learn from it, that's what you take from this.
You got in some complete stranger's car to get high and went along with giving them hand jobs and showing them your tits... what do you want to be told here? You fucked up, don't do shit like that. Fuck, didn't your father teach you better than that holy shit.
This tells the story.
Femanon, start thinking with your head instead of your wet pussy and fuck off, you dont need advice you just need to grow the fuck up.
I'm now thinking this is just bait, surely no one is this fucking dumb.
Its just a handjob so dont feel bad. I will call a woman a whore at a moments notice but since you didnt do oral ill be a little more forgiving. This is more hs shit. Hell when I look for my virgin gfs I even expect them to have touched a dick before. Id still want a handjob even without sex.
My issue with your story is that it is basically you being passed around. It makes you a whore. But Im conflicted since I dont count hand jobs as sex. If it were 1 guy itd be no big deal. Pics arent that big of an issue. Just dont do it again because you look like a whore doing it even if its not sex.
Okay so you ignored all the lessons 5 year olds know about trusting strangers, jumped in a car, did drugs, and was surprised when the druggies that invited you into a stranger's car hanging out in front of a school turned out to be sexual deviants. That's pretty funny, I won't lie. You can't take back what you did, you never will, you need to accept that at least for that instance that I know of, you were literally retarded.
Here's some cute for your trouble.