Im killing myself in about 4 hours
If it's by gunshot why not least attempt a bank robbery if you plan on death being the end game anyhow. Do it, once you feel those high velocity rounds go through you and you tumble over, end the game to a quick one to your temple.
Don't give up, OP.
Make your dreams come true, I believe in you.
You can do anything.
Theres no possible way for you to know that.
Such affirmation is nothing but the delusions of a pretentious mundane mind that bases the concept of afterlife on what the popular religions have to say about it.
>god throws you in the frying pan for all eternity
If you dont want your life, why dont you try giving it to someone else. Dedicating it to some purpose since you couldnt use your life to fulfill yourself.
knowing you are going to die, regardless of means, sets you completely free. the silver-lining here is godlike.
anything you have ever wanted to do is within reach. no long-term ramifications; no consequences.
delay suicide. gather as many credit cards as possible, and overdraft your bank account. now do everything you have ever wanted, and i suggest an ideal hotel/location that offers room service, drugs, and women.
you are free.
if you would rather pay my rent though... lol.