Peace within the mind, body, and soul

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Guys...I don't know how much more I can take of it anymore....It's....Every day is just a god damn battle...Every day my will to comprehend and live shrinks...That feeling of almost breaking, but you don't make a fool of yourself to the world.

Well....here I am. High school. Grades are starting to drop. Along with my self-esteem. Every day is a god damn war between work and peers. Psychopathic girls and guys, racists, SJW's, Tumblr-Fags, pot heads and rednecks. All rolled up into one tight package.

Every day I wake up, and life just takes a metal bat straight to my face. The combination stress and anxiety. (Yes. A doctor diagnosed me with anxiety. I take meds for it, but the effects are beginning to wear off. I'm not one of those scenic bitches who self-diagnoses.)


I am addicted to video games. I am not kidding. I cannot go one day without playing video games. My phone is like a lifeline for me. I always have to have it on me. It's like a goddamn security blanket for christ sake. I am spending freaking 12 hours a day on my phone, DS, Computer and PS4. I can't break it. I love video games more than I love myself. My family has even called me out on it. Saying it's like a drug to me. Shit...They are kinda right. But video games are an escape from this hell . I've only had 2 relationships in my life. Both were scenic, Tumblr tards that self-harm, and have daddy issues. Seems like I am a guy who attracts crazy girls.

When I was 3 years old, I had to go into heart surgery, due to being born with the cord around my neck. 3 years old, life already in jeopardy...god is trying to take me out of this world. Guess the cord around the neck didn't work.

2 months later, my father is confirmed K.I.A in Iraq...


/adv/ I am on my last stretch. I've been through a lot, and I am not asking for no more hardships....I am just asking for a break....is that to much to ask?