So I have a problem with sleeping.
I hate sleep and i believe its a waste of time but it goes a step further. Going to sleep alone feels like I am tip toeing in and out of death, every fucking day its feels like i die and get brought back the next morning.
So I am either so exhausted that i have no choice or I sleep with my girlfriend when its possible. The rest of the time I have a huge problem. while I was in high school i was usually in my phone until i fell asleep , music also used to help but not anymore. Now i got into university and I really have to sleep, help /adv/
Sounds like this might be an emotional/mental thing. Seek therapy. If you can't afford it now, seek counseling when you get to university (though you should get help sooner rather than later--this will only get worse with age/cost you more down the line).
Sincerely wishing you the best OP. I totally relate.
Ever talk to a doctor about it?
Things that I have used in the past: valerian root, chamomile tea, passionflower tea, melatonin, tylenol PM, benedryl
F.lux for your computer also helps a lot if you have a computer addiction like me.
You can also combine these, just be careful not to do too much otherwise you'll have trouble breathing at night.
I hate sleep. I love sleep.
I don't want to sleep because I could be using that time to do things I need to.
The thought of losing time just to sleep makes me angry.
I can't deny its role in our well being but I don't have enough time in a day to do everything I need to.
If I didn't have to sleep, I wouldn't.