To make a long story short I've successfully gotten rid of my panic attacks, social anxiety and depression that I suffered from the last 3 years.
Needless to say, these things kept me quite out of the loop while they lasted.
Now I'm free but I'm confused as to where to go from here.
I feel flooded with options.
I just want to know what to do with all these feels. I have so many options in my life now. I can talk to people without much anxiety, I can focus for long periods of time so my grades are going up, I'm helping my family out around the house and I feel like a much better person.
I guess I always just lived in the future, always hustling to do therapy and to get rid of my anxiety that now that I'm out of it, I dunno what to do... I'm actually afraid of the present moment right now.
Can someone give me some advice or just tell me that everything's going to be good?
I dunno if I'm doing well or not. Comparing myself to others was how I gauged myself before but it was a big factor in my always being anxious.
Now how do I rectify my need to have a great life?
I see people with certain talents that I want for multiple reasons: happiness, makes my life easier, more fun and meaningful, but how do I rectify that with accepting myself?
Pic semi-related and cool.
Maybe I'm just looking at this wrong.
I've been given a wonderful opportunity many would literally kill for.
Instead of looking at this as a tragedy, something to fix, to make myself comfortable again and be who I was before I got General Anxiety,
I should look at this like an adventure.
I get to try new things again.
I get to meet new people and try new things again.
I get to feel like an empowered human being again and not like a piece of shit.
My fear of pain and doing things "wrong" is another reason why I was so anxious before.
I mean I'll fuck up and lots of people have fucked up before, sometimes devoting decades of their life to something they end up hating.
So I'm cool.
Day by day, hour by hour, I'll find my niche in this life.
I gotta leave 4Chan and Reddit because these places are toxic to my development.
Also, check out psychiatry and Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.
Bye senpai.