>crazy about this girl
>get guts ripped out
>couldn't handle the 'emotional cold turkey'
>go off the rails
>almost ruin my life
>4 years later
>things are getting better
>still want something from her
Can anyone else relate to the feeling of chasing after a girl that ripped your guts out? I'd call it more like chasing after a ghost. Wishing that she could see you while you're doing this or 'if she just saw me now'
What is the next stage in this process? How can I completely heal my wounds?
the downward spiral happened AFTER she ripped your guts out.
you are now 'better' but as far she knew you (prior to gut ripping) you are at best, the same guy you were before, and sitll obsessed with her.
interesting that you've twice now avoided the gut ripping question
sounds like you asked her out, she said no, and you were too emo to see it as anything other than a gut ripping.
>nice logic there
just stating literally what happened according to your story.
Get away from her as much as you can. Move somewhere else if you have to, if it's that bad.
Also do something new, preferably where you will be interacting with women e.g.take up salsa dancing.
You'll soon forget her fast
why do somefags lose their shit for one girl?
girls are not pokemon, you don't have to catch them all, and some you will never get your hands on unless you have a lot of money, and then you realize you didn't want it anyway
>what else would it be
>come on it was painful and raw rejection
so she just turned you down and thats gut ripping? i mean seriously theres either a story here or theres not. but if you asked her out and she said not interested, thats not her ripping your guts out.
thats you holding a knife to your guts and threatening to rip them out if she doesnt love you
>promised me her virginity when we were 7 and our parents arranged for us to be wed when we were 18
>i couldn't wait 11 years, banged other chicks in school
>bitch cheated on me
>wedding called off, family shamed, disgraced
>father killed himself
>sister sold into slavery to keep father's house
>mother forced to prostitution
>all because dirty whore