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I am 19 and in my first semester of college, studying Computer Engineering. I sit around all day in my room and surf the internet, either watching TwitchTv or YouTube videos, browse 4chan and reddit, or play video games. I am overweight and anti social, making me your average basement dweller. I have only a few friends that are close and that I talk with over a WhatsApp group. My family thinks I am a failure already and I have no motivation to do anything. I signed up for a Gym three months ago, all I did since then is paying the fee. I only go out of the house to either get some food or.. yeah, to get some food. I have been like this for the last three to five years. Throughout high school, I did not care about anything what was going on in classes and about bad grades I got. I just wanted to get home, eat something and sit down in my awful filthy room, playing video games. I am lazy. I can not even have a conversation anymore with anyone without being autistic or having to think about how to express myself and how they might react to it. As you might have guessed already I am a virgin aswell and just masturbate all day to girls I knew in high school.
Tomorrow, I'm writing the 3rd exam out of a total of 4. I have already failed the first two, and I am pretty sure I will fail this one aswell because I have studied nothing, which will make me either get thrown out of the college I am in or repeat the whole semester. If I get thrown out, and do not get accepted into another college, I will be in debt because of student loans and I will have no job. My grades in high school were under the average, so low that I can actually just forget about the idea of an apprenticeship or something like that. Which leaves me to just find another college or university I can go to and probably do the same again.
I do not know what to do.
/adv/, what reason is there to not kill myself?