On the one hand I feel alone. I would like to make more friends and to have a larger social network.
On the other hand, I WANT to be alone and feel uncomfortable in society.
As a result I am permanently unhappy and I do not know how I can change it.
I feel the same, op. One the one hand I'm lonely and want some companionship, on the other, when I finally get around to interacting with people, they're fucking boring and I wish I was alone.
Then when I get to be alone, I get lonely. The worst is when you get around some cool people but still feel alone. Idk man, I have my close circle of friends and we sometimes hang out, work is cool, but Idk, I'm missing some piece of the puzzle.
I'm in your shoes family I'm a die hard introvert and I'm quite happy to be the only one silent in a crowded room.
I often have the sensation that my lack of acquaintances is holding me back.
Really all you can do is try new things and meet new people. It's difficult but not impossible. Especially with the Internet.