i don't enjoy living
my parents are still alive but I'm afraid that when they're dead I'll really have nothing left to prevent me from killing myself. I have small micro-fantasies about suicide basically every day, and I'm always worried that it's slowly desensitizing me to eventually be able to do the real thing at a moment's notice.
If you can't think of a reason to live then just end it, we have a population problem anyway. But don't fuck up other peoples day or traumatize someone by doing it. You want to be remembered in a positive light rather than some asshole who damaged a bus and made a mess on the street and freaked out a bunch of witnesses.
What a stupid reason to die. First you have to admit that you're too stupid and weak to find any enjoyment in this life so you can say you gave it a fair shake. I've been there but one day I completely snapped and turned things around for myself. Have you really tried to find something worth living for?