I have no self-confidence, no self-esteem, no motivation to do anything.
I'm 19, almost 20, and I pretty much hate myself. I never finished school because my parents didn't let me try. I ended up becoming cut off from the real world and becoming a shut-in. I never leave the house. I'm depressed because I'm lonely, but I don't even try. I don't even see the point. I hate myself for not trying, but I can't get myself to do it.
Every time I try to find a reason to go out and meet people, I just think of reasons they won't like me. Maybe I want to meet someone I like, but they won't like me because of the reasons I think up. For example, I have psoriasis, so I often wear a hat(like a beanie, I have a bunch). I tell myself they'd find that disgusting. I think of little reasons like that to keep myself from trying, all the time, and it adds to my depression. I'm just a kissless virgin who's been a shut-in for years and is depressed every day.
>pic related, normally me when I wake up
>>1685337>>16853373
Man i tell you 1 big truth. Even if you haven't psoriasis, even if you are a tough guy with large biceps and abs, even if you have a great work and make lot of money...people will always criticize you. And you know why people do this? Coz it'a fucking jungle. Be a man...stay focused on improving yourself. Make a list of things you don't like and start improve dem one day at time. Get a job, with the money you earn go to a doc and get your shit cured, read books, quit porn, start lifting...if you don't move you will always stay where you are. Come on man, gain your manliness back.
>>16853373
Read in deep voice. Girl or boy, honestly helps a lot.
See a fucking therapist, jeez. They're the ones who'll be able to help you, not 4chan.
How to find a mental health provider: http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/mental-illness/in-depth/mental-health-providers/art-20045530
How to find a therapist: http://www.webmd.com/anxiety-panic/guide/how-to-find-therapist
You need a therapist my guy