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I have no self-confidence, no self-esteem, no motivation to do anything.
I'm 19, almost 20, and I pretty much hate myself. I never finished school because my parents didn't let me try. I ended up becoming cut off from the real world and becoming a shut-in. I never leave the house. I'm depressed because I'm lonely, but I don't even try. I don't even see the point. I hate myself for not trying, but I can't get myself to do it.
Every time I try to find a reason to go out and meet people, I just think of reasons they won't like me. Maybe I want to meet someone I like, but they won't like me because of the reasons I think up. For example, I have psoriasis, so I often wear a hat(like a beanie, I have a bunch). I tell myself they'd find that disgusting. I think of little reasons like that to keep myself from trying, all the time, and it adds to my depression. I'm just a kissless virgin who's been a shut-in for years and is depressed every day.
>pic related, normally me when I wake up