I have no actual implicit reason for existing, and only continue to exist so my family doesn't have to deal with debt. Once that debt is paid I won't exist anymore. I am nothing more than a means to an end drawing breath.
>>16833549 How charming are you? That decides the answer. The more charming you are, the more honest you should be. Why? Because that question is usually in the last 4th of the interview. By that point a charmer has made the interviewer comfortable and interested. Revealing a genuine non-prepared/expected answer you actually build trust. It's a huge part of how I break down walls with people. So my answer is usually that when I'm put under intense pressure I get a little sloppy. A note I would find in 3 seconds may take me 60. I might have a stack of papers on my desk whereas usually it's meticulous.
Otherwise give those silly prepped responses. I work too hard. I don't know how to leave work at the office. I'm a people pleaser. But know that every dingus answers that way.
I pretend like everything is going just great even if it's not, so then when everyone finds out what a real shitshow is going on, they panic, I panic, and everything goes to absolute hell. This cycle seems to repeat every 3 years or so.
tl;dr I'm a really convincing liar and it fucks me over.
I have too many to count but i'll try to narrow it down to the worst of the bunch.
>too prideful and can't stand being wrong, which has lead to several fights and friendships being lost >incapable of taking things seriously >crave attention to the point where i can get severally depressed when someone isn't engaging with me >have severe anger issues >never talk with anyone about what's troubling me and always keep things bottled up >always too quick to prove myself as the "smart one" or the "mature one" among peers even though i'm incredibly average all of these and more have contributed to the horrible human being i am today.
I have a porn addiction, and I wanna quit. But, I keep going back to it and fall into a pit of self-pity and disgust. I'm also very critical of myself, so I end up being tense and awkward in alot of my social interactions, which ends up fueling the cycle all over again. So fuck it
>>16833549 Social interaction has to be my number one weakness. Every single conversation is like a convo from a RPG where someone asks you something and you have to choose the right answer, but instead of a few choices you have a million choices to choose from. No matter with whom or what it is about, the smallest of small talks doesn't matter, my brain is working like 110% just to keep it all together. I am struggling to hold the most basic conversation with the cash register guy, let alone any kind of advanced interaction of showing your interest in girls or something like that
>>16835301 >Never able to not get hard. >get hard when dancing with a woman and her tits brush against me. >unable to get girlfriend. >perfectionist and lazy. >depression. >dont get people. >Make jokes people would laugh at if it were in a movie or tv show, but is terrible in person. >Obsessed with women, probably more and more because of every year that passes without "normal" relationships with them. >Want to be with people, but then when I start talking to them, I really have zero interest in what they have to say.
>>16833549 conspiracy theorist I don't want to be rude because you are dating a family member, I also don't want to be rude to my friends i have known since high school but damn it the earth isn't flat nor was 9/11 an inside job fuck off
I have an incredibly guilt focused conscience. I feel bad about bad things not in my control, blame myself for those things occurring and then call myself a terrible person. I then set unrealistically high standards for myself and get even more disappointed when I can't meet them.
Visiting this place over and over again knowing I will never get one piece of good advice since it's populated by misogynists, latent homosexuals and misogynistic latent homosexuals. All the "good" advice boils down to vague fortune cookie bullshit.
I mean, right now about half the threads are some variation on 'I hate women'.
>>16836993 P-P-P-P-PROTIP: Quit being a misanthropic piece of shit. Not everyone on /adv/ is a troll, and just because we don't hold your hand and coddle you doesn't mean we don't give a fuck about your well-being. If we didn't care about you, we wouldn't have the suicide hotline posted.
I am very easily discouraged, I am full of self-doubt and self-loathing. I am also incredibly stubborn, to a fault. I will and have failed just to prove that I can't be told what to do. It am overcomopensation for a fragile ego. I'm also explosively angry.
I don't plan. I don't express my feelings to those close to me. I can't express sympathy without it sounding fake. I give solutions not comfort. I hold onto grudges. I can't keep a conversation for long. I am basically a beta struggling to be an alpha.
>>16834599 Same here, i have too much shit that i want to do, but i keep wasting my time on vidya because it feels comfy and i keep getting fatter.
I also set some relatively high standards, and as such, i've yet to get a relationship because i didn't liked the girls who showed interest in me. I just want someone who's cute, not fat/chubby and not a shit person in one way or another. If she has the crazy like a lot of those do, at least we'll last a month.
>>16835341 >>unable to get girlfriend. >>dont get people. >>Make jokes people would laugh at if it were in a movie or tv show, but is terrible in person. >>Obsessed with women, probably more and more because of every year that passes without "normal" relationships with them. >>Want to be with people, but then when I start talking to them, I really have zero interest in what they have to say.
i share these, except i do show interest when people tell me about meaningful stuff from their lives, since i have a sort of hero complex and want to help them in any way i can.
Too many to count. But most of the big ones like depression, social anxiety, health and other things are dwarfed by me not being able to commit. I can't even commit to sending in a job application without being practically forced to. I do the see how I will get out of that. And it will fight me at every turn.
It's something that all employers completely reject, because I'm late to everything. I'm eerily good at math which makes no sense because I can never show my work, and mathematical proofs are completely beyond my abilities. However I can arrive at the right answer to complex problems 95% of the time. Physics is a breeze too, especially fields and thermodynamics, but when there are multiple steps like flux or multiple boundaries, I lose track of everything. I've been tested for ADD and ADHD multiple times. It's always negative because I have no problem with concentration and patience. I'm literally crying right now.
>>16839318 >I'm eerily good at math which makes no sense because I can never show my work, and mathematical proofs are completely beyond my abilities. However I can arrive at the right answer to complex problems 95% of the time
Well im a littly lazy, but my biggest problem is dedication i guess. Ive always wanted to pick up a specific hobby, study intensively or just do something, but I lose interest or motivation real fast. I just cant seem to find something and stick to it. Could anyone possibly give me a few tips to be more dedicated or keep my motivation up?
>>16838938 same, but how are you with people when you've known them for longer? I barely talk to new people, but to my best friend I talk about anything, and others i've known a while, it's just easy to interact.
>>16833549 Can I list multiple ones? >tend to be lazy and procrastinate a lot >Judgmental asshole >Tend to be really elitist about my views >Get obnoxious and loud when excited, angry , etc. >get annoyed easily
There are things I want to do in my life but I'm scared to fail. I sacrifice my ambitions to live a comfortable life, hoarding my money and taking classes. Then I wonder why I don't ever feel fulfilled.
Everything I want to do will take so much hard work and practice, I'm worried I'll disrupt my routine and go in too deep. If I sacrifice comfort and fail to get anything for it, my anxiety would surely consume me.
>>16833549 >I'm overly dependent on my mom, trying to work on it. >I blow stuff out of proportion, also trying to work on that. >I am a hot head, I get it from my dad, I don't think I'll ever be able to change that. >I have to find out what I want to do in life, cause I'm fucking done with this science major. >I need a woman to connect with, and to break a dry spell with, for fucks sake this is my top priority right now.
self loathing self destructive tendencies depression anxiety poor performance in social situations procrastination, poor work ethic unmotivated unable to let things go i sleep too much i eat too much i smoke too much weed unable to put things into perspective. my most insignificant failure overshadows my greatest accomplishments and finally, i dont even know where to begin fixing any of it
Self Doubt. I have confidence and everything but at the same time I have some little douchebag in the back of my head saying "I don't suggest doing this". So I'm constantly caught hesitating, which I dislike.
I have a trip to another state coming up for college and I was going to ask out a female friend to accompany me but I ended up pausing and not doing it. I'm going to try again next week, I would much rather do it in person than over text.
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