>be me >recently broke up with love of my life who i pushed

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>be me
>recently broke up with love of my life who i pushed away via depression
>been long distance for awhile now but i'm finally done with uni and am planning to move back to the same city she just moved to
>we were planning to get a place this summer
>feeling stuck down here but depression is getting a lot better
>miss her a lot, but every time i contact her it just makes things worse
>torn about my plans to move because all of my friends in the city i'm intending to move to have become her own
>i feel like she's getting closer with them as i've been kind of distancing myself as result of my depression getting bad
>upon evaluation they're not that good of friends anyway

what the fuck do I do? push forward and start anew in a familiar place, or just go somewhere else entirely?